Finances. Its either you possess them, or they possess you.
Pastor taught in the past the our finances can limit us. It can stop us from doing things for the kingdom of God. For example, you want to study in SOT, but you do not have the finances to study in SOT. You can be fervent, excited and ready for SOT, but your finances limits you.
Sigh.
Such is my plight now. Spoke to my mom just now regarding signing up for SOT. She disapproves of me signing up for SOT now and she would rather me start working first before enrolling for SOT.
Of cos i explained to her that by the time i start working, it would be quite impossible to enroll in SOT. Then came the finances limiter. Though she said that she'll leave it for me to decide, but she's definitely against the idea.
I'm hoping to meet Lars and Karen in church soon. Maybe i can ask them if i can work in their company again. I wouldn't mind earning half of what i earned, since I'll only start work after SOT hours. As long as i know that I'll have a stable income to pay off the school fees and everyday expenses, i wouldn't mind.
Faith is the confidence in God's words and being. His word says that He'll provide for me and whatever I've sowed, I'll reap. I'll reap a blessing so much that even my storehouse is unable to contain it. I may not see it happening now, but i know that someday, this promise will come to past for me and I'll be able to have financial freedom!
I've to see it, before i can have it. I'm seeing myself living with financial freedom, with the ability to bless the needy, the ability to give to the kingdom of God. But, I'll first have to start small. I've to be faithful in the little things, in my tithes and offerings. Faithful in being a good steward of my finances. Then God would be able to give me even more.
What do i want to do after the army? Definitely SOT first. If not, when?
What do i want to be in the future? I want to be a church staff, a zone supervisor, a pastoral staff. I feel that other than theses, I've no interests in the other jobs. I do not want to be some office guy, sitting in front of a computer, sending out emails trying to do my job.
I want a fulfilling life. I want to make a difference in the lives of the people around me. I want to help people realize their potential, i want go overseas for mission trips, to preach the gospel to the lost and see the sick being healed, lost being saved.
I know I'll be very happy doing all these things for the kingdom of God, because i believe that i was chosen. I may have done a lot of wrong things, but God's grace is still upon my life and I've seen so many wonderful things happening to me. God is so good and He still continues to bless in all areas of my life.
But right now, I'm struggling. I know i should take that step of faith and sign up for SOT. But I'm afraid of failing. I'm afraid that I'm unable to get the finances required, afraid that at the end of SOT, I'll be penniless without anywhere to go.
Faith - Forsaking All I Trust Him.
Faith - Having the CONFIDENCE in His promises.
Faith - Believing that God will do the unbelievable.
Faith - Taking that first step, into the realm of the unknown.
Father! Help me step out of my comfort zone, into the realm of the unknown!!
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Faith.
common subject, commonly taught. but uncommon experience felt today.
sermon was really another home run. Pastor Kong spoke about having faith, confidence in God, knowing who we are in Christ and also knowing that God's promise will not go away.
Having the confidence that when i lay hands on people, when i speak and when i pray, people will be touched by the power of God and the sick shall be healed, the needy needs shall be met and miracles will begin to happen.
confidence, not arrogance or self pride.
during ministry time, the presence of God was so tangible. i felt that the presence was full of His power and authority. every single word Pastor Kong spoke was like a prophesy. it has been a very long time since Pastor laid hands and i wasn't surprised that he called out the CGLs to the front so that he can lay hands and pray for them.
i felt faith rising up in my spirit. i felt as though anything can happen in that place. whatever pastor spoke just now, i'm very sure he has spoke it into existance. we'll see our church grow, 30,000 and it will keep on growing so much, so much that there'll be multiple services going on each week.
so much that everywhere we go, we see CHCsters. everywhere we go, we see CHCsters making a difference in the marketplace, yet still spiritually connected to God. the trendiest people you see on the streets will be CHCsters, yet still spiritual and holy.
people may say things about us, but we do not have to prove them that we're spiritual and holy. just as Jesus didn't have to prove that He's the Son of God, we should not fall into the trap of proving who we are in Christ. as long as we know who we are in Christ, we'll do great things for His glory.
who cares about what others think? i only care about what God thinks of me.
common subject, commonly taught. but uncommon experience felt today.
sermon was really another home run. Pastor Kong spoke about having faith, confidence in God, knowing who we are in Christ and also knowing that God's promise will not go away.
Having the confidence that when i lay hands on people, when i speak and when i pray, people will be touched by the power of God and the sick shall be healed, the needy needs shall be met and miracles will begin to happen.
confidence, not arrogance or self pride.
during ministry time, the presence of God was so tangible. i felt that the presence was full of His power and authority. every single word Pastor Kong spoke was like a prophesy. it has been a very long time since Pastor laid hands and i wasn't surprised that he called out the CGLs to the front so that he can lay hands and pray for them.
i felt faith rising up in my spirit. i felt as though anything can happen in that place. whatever pastor spoke just now, i'm very sure he has spoke it into existance. we'll see our church grow, 30,000 and it will keep on growing so much, so much that there'll be multiple services going on each week.
so much that everywhere we go, we see CHCsters. everywhere we go, we see CHCsters making a difference in the marketplace, yet still spiritually connected to God. the trendiest people you see on the streets will be CHCsters, yet still spiritual and holy.
people may say things about us, but we do not have to prove them that we're spiritual and holy. just as Jesus didn't have to prove that He's the Son of God, we should not fall into the trap of proving who we are in Christ. as long as we know who we are in Christ, we'll do great things for His glory.
who cares about what others think? i only care about what God thinks of me.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Forgiveness. Pastor Tan shared with us this week as Pastor Kong is away in Taiwan.
I think Pastor Tan scored a homerun, teaching us about forgiveness. Many people have a misconception about forgiveness and based on the five questions Pastor Tan asked us, i think majority of us got it wrong.
Personally, i was blessed by the message. As Pastor preached, i could identify myself in several of the situations Pastor narrated. examples like holding onto the past, bitterness and "trying" to forget the hurt.
Not that i've been thru tremendious tribulations in the year 2007, but several incidents happened and things started to change. Perhaps i built a wall, instead of a gate. i became so closed up that i was unwilling to let anyone come into my life.
Many people had come and tried to break down the wall, but i would manage to 'fend' them off by saying something else. Most of the time, assuring that things are okie and i'm fine. Thus giving people the impression that i'm really okie.
Well, sometimes i AM okie, but sometimes i'm not.
And its not that the issues are giving me a problem. Its probably because i've to make the decision to commit or not. Probably i'm still not ready/unwilling to commit into something that i'm not sure of. Thus the attitude towards certain issue.
I think i really can't blame anyone else, except myself. If i wasn't so wishy washy or if i didn't had closed up from the beginning, things wouldn't end up this way. Now things have gone so bad, and i really don't know what can i do now to restore things.
Anyway, for this year, i really want to keep my focus right and not get distracted by other things..
I think Pastor Tan scored a homerun, teaching us about forgiveness. Many people have a misconception about forgiveness and based on the five questions Pastor Tan asked us, i think majority of us got it wrong.
Personally, i was blessed by the message. As Pastor preached, i could identify myself in several of the situations Pastor narrated. examples like holding onto the past, bitterness and "trying" to forget the hurt.
Not that i've been thru tremendious tribulations in the year 2007, but several incidents happened and things started to change. Perhaps i built a wall, instead of a gate. i became so closed up that i was unwilling to let anyone come into my life.
Many people had come and tried to break down the wall, but i would manage to 'fend' them off by saying something else. Most of the time, assuring that things are okie and i'm fine. Thus giving people the impression that i'm really okie.
Well, sometimes i AM okie, but sometimes i'm not.
And its not that the issues are giving me a problem. Its probably because i've to make the decision to commit or not. Probably i'm still not ready/unwilling to commit into something that i'm not sure of. Thus the attitude towards certain issue.
I think i really can't blame anyone else, except myself. If i wasn't so wishy washy or if i didn't had closed up from the beginning, things wouldn't end up this way. Now things have gone so bad, and i really don't know what can i do now to restore things.
Anyway, for this year, i really want to keep my focus right and not get distracted by other things..
Sunday, January 06, 2008
FOCUS!
first service of 2008 and pastor kong kicked off with a series. first lesson we learnt is about being focused!
whats focus?
a quick search in the internet shows several meanings of focus -
first service of 2008 and pastor kong kicked off with a series. first lesson we learnt is about being focused!
whats focus?
a quick search in the internet shows several meanings of focus -
- Close or narrow attention; concentration:
- To direct toward a particular point or purpose
- To concentrate attention or energy
focus - to pay close attention, using all energy and effort, towards a particular purpose.
if you would want to be successful in the year 2008, you got to be focused! plan your goals and stay focused!
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
01/01/08!
new year! i'm so looking foward to great things in this coming year. why? i've no idea. but its just in me.
for the past year, loads of things had happened. good, bad and things that i've no idea about. but last year, God's grace was upon me big time.
in the area of my national service, i was commissioned on June 9 2007, got posted to a really good unit with a really good boss and really good commanders and troopers to take care of. compared to my friends at other places, i'm really extremely blessed to be there.
in the area of my minstry, i was starting to take up more responsibilities and i just got promoted to be a group IC in the elites team. there are definitely a lot more for me to learn, especially after serving on sunday, when ricky shared with me several stuffs.
i've already got some espects of my life that i gotta change. like what pastor tan said, lead the change!! i shall now start to change my attitudes, before it gets me into trouble.
i shall not take my friends for granted. i'll definitely try to keep in contact with as much friends as possible, and form meaningful friendships. i do not want to scratch the surface of friendship, but i want to go deep into the friendship.
i shall not have the 'hollier than thou' attitude. i shall remain humble and be teachable. if God uses a donkey to communicate His ways, He can use a new friend or a little boy to teach me something invaluable.
i shall not close up on my emotions. its definitely not healthy and it has caused me to feel faint several times last year. haha=X i'll definitely try to talk to people more and not hide my emotions. but that doesn't mean that i'll be so emotionally unstable that i'll switch emotions within seconds. probably its learning to control my emotions and learning to express them right.
and i believe there're a lot more things for me to change in the coming year!
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i also wanna thank several people for their constant love and support, simply being there for me.
charmaine wan xuemin - she has been really challenging. her rough patches and relationships were a constant headache, but thank God cos she brokethru! kinda proud of her and she has also been really encouraging to me. always a SMS away and a street away, rides to church or having a meal together was never a problem.
sandy wong - heh. surprise candidate? her blurness is definitely amazing, but she really makes problems seem smaller, easier. always cheerful and no matter what happens, her positive attitude keeps her going.
keren hoi - ha! simply amazing friendship i've with keren. though we seldom talk, but its amazing how things work between the both of us. hopefully this anointing continues in the years to come!
allan phua - simply amazing scholar. not an army scholar, but a PSC scholar. super genius, but super humble. not a surprise when he was awarded the sword of honor for being the best cadet for our cadet course. always there for me whenever i was discouraged during the course. cheered and celebrated with me whenever i had victories. simply amazing moments.
andrew chong - alpha wingmate, most importantly, prayer mate! first 3 months in alpha wing was endurable because of him. he would gather most of the christians together and we'll pray for one another. he'll also share and edify us during the darkest moments of training.
michael ong - my leader in security ministry. amazing leader. very edifying, patient and caring. always see him smiling and cheerful. but when he plays soccer, he's ruthless! haha. without him, i wouldn't be where i am in the security ministry.
lixin - ahhhaz.. friends for how many years already? 4-5 years? since you were in secondary 3? had our fair share of problems and she's usually one the of first few people that i would think of to share my problems with. we gotta meet up soon!
natalie - buddy! haha.. gives the bestest advice, but it can get quite mean at times. haha. but natalie's really a great friend and i'll also go the extra mile for her.
wong zhiwei - this guy here has helped me so many times, i do not dare to call him for help again. all my last minute vehicle indentions were approved by him and without his help, i would've no vehicles to transport my people or equipments for training!
jodie - victim of char&sharon wan's match making agency. thanks for being so fun loving =)
my CG - little boys and girls that are finally growing up. these people are a joy to go out with, though they might get out of hand sometimes. but they're just so interesting people.
i think i'll eventually end up thanking every single person that i know cos everyone made a difference in my life!
new year! i'm so looking foward to great things in this coming year. why? i've no idea. but its just in me.
for the past year, loads of things had happened. good, bad and things that i've no idea about. but last year, God's grace was upon me big time.
in the area of my national service, i was commissioned on June 9 2007, got posted to a really good unit with a really good boss and really good commanders and troopers to take care of. compared to my friends at other places, i'm really extremely blessed to be there.
in the area of my minstry, i was starting to take up more responsibilities and i just got promoted to be a group IC in the elites team. there are definitely a lot more for me to learn, especially after serving on sunday, when ricky shared with me several stuffs.
i've already got some espects of my life that i gotta change. like what pastor tan said, lead the change!! i shall now start to change my attitudes, before it gets me into trouble.
i shall not take my friends for granted. i'll definitely try to keep in contact with as much friends as possible, and form meaningful friendships. i do not want to scratch the surface of friendship, but i want to go deep into the friendship.
i shall not have the 'hollier than thou' attitude. i shall remain humble and be teachable. if God uses a donkey to communicate His ways, He can use a new friend or a little boy to teach me something invaluable.
i shall not close up on my emotions. its definitely not healthy and it has caused me to feel faint several times last year. haha=X i'll definitely try to talk to people more and not hide my emotions. but that doesn't mean that i'll be so emotionally unstable that i'll switch emotions within seconds. probably its learning to control my emotions and learning to express them right.
and i believe there're a lot more things for me to change in the coming year!
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i also wanna thank several people for their constant love and support, simply being there for me.
charmaine wan xuemin - she has been really challenging. her rough patches and relationships were a constant headache, but thank God cos she brokethru! kinda proud of her and she has also been really encouraging to me. always a SMS away and a street away, rides to church or having a meal together was never a problem.
sandy wong - heh. surprise candidate? her blurness is definitely amazing, but she really makes problems seem smaller, easier. always cheerful and no matter what happens, her positive attitude keeps her going.
keren hoi - ha! simply amazing friendship i've with keren. though we seldom talk, but its amazing how things work between the both of us. hopefully this anointing continues in the years to come!
allan phua - simply amazing scholar. not an army scholar, but a PSC scholar. super genius, but super humble. not a surprise when he was awarded the sword of honor for being the best cadet for our cadet course. always there for me whenever i was discouraged during the course. cheered and celebrated with me whenever i had victories. simply amazing moments.
andrew chong - alpha wingmate, most importantly, prayer mate! first 3 months in alpha wing was endurable because of him. he would gather most of the christians together and we'll pray for one another. he'll also share and edify us during the darkest moments of training.
michael ong - my leader in security ministry. amazing leader. very edifying, patient and caring. always see him smiling and cheerful. but when he plays soccer, he's ruthless! haha. without him, i wouldn't be where i am in the security ministry.
lixin - ahhhaz.. friends for how many years already? 4-5 years? since you were in secondary 3? had our fair share of problems and she's usually one the of first few people that i would think of to share my problems with. we gotta meet up soon!
natalie - buddy! haha.. gives the bestest advice, but it can get quite mean at times. haha. but natalie's really a great friend and i'll also go the extra mile for her.
wong zhiwei - this guy here has helped me so many times, i do not dare to call him for help again. all my last minute vehicle indentions were approved by him and without his help, i would've no vehicles to transport my people or equipments for training!
jodie - victim of char&sharon wan's match making agency. thanks for being so fun loving =)
my CG - little boys and girls that are finally growing up. these people are a joy to go out with, though they might get out of hand sometimes. but they're just so interesting people.
i think i'll eventually end up thanking every single person that i know cos everyone made a difference in my life!
Monday, December 31, 2007
happy birthday to me!
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CHANGE! Pastor Tan shared about change and how we should embrace change. I'm watching Channel News Asia and some CEO of some mega company is saying that to way to success is to anticipate change, and change immediately when chances occur.
how should we embrace change then?
i guess its really being selfless. not thinking about yourself, thinking that its always someone's else fault or that somebody else should change. why not, you do the changing and maybe the world would be a better place?
and it increases your value too!
i was thinking of several points after service yesterday and decided to CHANGE on these points
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CHANGE! Pastor Tan shared about change and how we should embrace change. I'm watching Channel News Asia and some CEO of some mega company is saying that to way to success is to anticipate change, and change immediately when chances occur.
how should we embrace change then?
i guess its really being selfless. not thinking about yourself, thinking that its always someone's else fault or that somebody else should change. why not, you do the changing and maybe the world would be a better place?
and it increases your value too!
i was thinking of several points after service yesterday and decided to CHANGE on these points
- to control my emotions, not to be emotionally dead. (Pastor Yong actually asked me this question and told me not to be emotionally closed up. How did he know? i've no idea.)
- To be a good steward of God's money
- To stop procastinating and start going for my driver's licence
- To finish reading the bible!!!
change change change change change!
my progress with speaking proper english has been quite successful. though my smses are getting slightly longer than usual, or just extremely short, i'm glad that i'm not exactly speaking much singlish. thats a good change! ;)
SOT registration is open, but i've no idea if i'm able to enroll this year because my National Service ends only on May 5, and SOT starts on Apr. BUT, for the bulk of Apr, i'll be overseas, either Taiwan or Brunei for my training. so i've no idea if i'm still able to enroll as i'll miss one whole month of lessons.
somebody enlighten me!?
Thursday, December 27, 2007
we had our company cohesion earlier today. we played this game similar to the amazing race, minus the road blocks and fast forwards.
basically, we're given 4 sheets of paper, different points on each set of paper and the difficulty of the questions are based on the points awarded. hints were given to us and we've to guess the location, take a picture of the location with all the team members in it.
found myself finding out more about singapore, its landmarks and history. i thought that it was really interesting and meaningful.
i've been trying to speak and reply my smses in proper english. trying to cut down on the singlish too. i think my standard of english has dropped, thus i shall now attempt to restore it. help me out! if you hear me speaking in singlish, or using broken english, correct me so that i can change and learn from it!
;)
basically, we're given 4 sheets of paper, different points on each set of paper and the difficulty of the questions are based on the points awarded. hints were given to us and we've to guess the location, take a picture of the location with all the team members in it.
found myself finding out more about singapore, its landmarks and history. i thought that it was really interesting and meaningful.
i've been trying to speak and reply my smses in proper english. trying to cut down on the singlish too. i think my standard of english has dropped, thus i shall now attempt to restore it. help me out! if you hear me speaking in singlish, or using broken english, correct me so that i can change and learn from it!
;)
Monday, December 17, 2007
God is so very good to me.
so many small little things that happened, but it made a huge difference in that moment.
i had a friend driving me to camp, and back home for 2 days (save transport fares)
i had a trooper driving me back to KHC because i had work to do (save transport fares)
i had free supper that cost 100+ total at geylang
i had a ride down to church, JW premises, on sunday morning by sharon wan
i had a ride to jurong point by kaikeong
i had my "boss" treating me a meal today
i had my hair cut and its good
and loads more. God is good eh? but of cos, i sowed before reaping all these blessings! if i can total up the blessings, it has already out weighed the amount i've sowed into the house of God.
indeed! when i build God's house, He'll build mine too!
so many small little things that happened, but it made a huge difference in that moment.
i had a friend driving me to camp, and back home for 2 days (save transport fares)
i had a trooper driving me back to KHC because i had work to do (save transport fares)
i had free supper that cost 100+ total at geylang
i had a ride down to church, JW premises, on sunday morning by sharon wan
i had a ride to jurong point by kaikeong
i had my "boss" treating me a meal today
i had my hair cut and its good
and loads more. God is good eh? but of cos, i sowed before reaping all these blessings! if i can total up the blessings, it has already out weighed the amount i've sowed into the house of God.
indeed! when i build God's house, He'll build mine too!
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Sunday, December 02, 2007
feel so caged up. like a bird thats stuck in a cage, thinking that its free, but in reality, its stuck in its cage.
need a breakthru in the spiritual realm. there's definitely more than what there is now. i'm very sure and i'm really yearning for a breakthrough.
not sure if these are the solutions to the breakthrough, but i'm sure that they'll definitely contribute to the breakthrough.
i must really learn to love people whole heartedly, especially lost souls. thats like the heartbeat of God and thats what Jesus did most of the time. loving people whole heartedly, getting to know them personally, then changing their lives completely.
i must also stop thinking of the great things. maybe i should just look at short term goals and work towards them first. no point planning for great and wonderful stuffs when i can't even plan for small and insignificant stuffs.
i must not adopt that i-know-it attitude. must be open and receive from others, even though they maybe younger than i am or inexperienced.
i must not be quick to judge/conclude.
i must not be like a christian that has been around for 10-20 years, but a christian that seems that everything is still new and fresh.
haiz.
i wanna be alone, by myself, and see the face of God.
need a breakthru in the spiritual realm. there's definitely more than what there is now. i'm very sure and i'm really yearning for a breakthrough.
not sure if these are the solutions to the breakthrough, but i'm sure that they'll definitely contribute to the breakthrough.
i must really learn to love people whole heartedly, especially lost souls. thats like the heartbeat of God and thats what Jesus did most of the time. loving people whole heartedly, getting to know them personally, then changing their lives completely.
i must also stop thinking of the great things. maybe i should just look at short term goals and work towards them first. no point planning for great and wonderful stuffs when i can't even plan for small and insignificant stuffs.
i must not adopt that i-know-it attitude. must be open and receive from others, even though they maybe younger than i am or inexperienced.
i must not be quick to judge/conclude.
i must not be like a christian that has been around for 10-20 years, but a christian that seems that everything is still new and fresh.
haiz.
i wanna be alone, by myself, and see the face of God.
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
something interesting happened just now.
i was at the bus stop waiting for my bus when it started raining cats and dogs. then 2 wild dogs ran to the bus stop to seek shelter. uber cute black dogs
then after a while, the dogs started barking like crazy. i turned around and saw a wild boar approaching the bus stop too. i thought the wild boar wanted to seek shelter in the bus stop too, but it turned out that the wild boar was targetting the dog's food! heh.
so the poor dogs were barking endlessly at the wild boar, but the boar simply ignored them, and continued eating their food.
i tried to scare the boar by stomping my feet, but it ignored me also. heh. maybe i should have thrown the abandoned umbrella at the boar.
but thats not the interesting part. the interesting part came when the boar finally finished the food. it started to trot away when 1 brave doggie decided to chase after it. it started running towards the boar, barking endlessly. but when the boar turned around and gave the doggie some attention, the doggie would turn around and run away from the boar.
so much for being so "garang".
even the aunties at the bus stop were laughing at the doggie that attempted to scare off the boar, saying that the boar's so huge, it can probably kill it if it wanted to.
but then, the doggies are so poor thing. cold and hungry, they still have to endure such abuse from the boar. sigh~
hope the doggies are doing fine and hope that they're not freezing now in the cold.
i was at the bus stop waiting for my bus when it started raining cats and dogs. then 2 wild dogs ran to the bus stop to seek shelter. uber cute black dogs
then after a while, the dogs started barking like crazy. i turned around and saw a wild boar approaching the bus stop too. i thought the wild boar wanted to seek shelter in the bus stop too, but it turned out that the wild boar was targetting the dog's food! heh.
so the poor dogs were barking endlessly at the wild boar, but the boar simply ignored them, and continued eating their food.
i tried to scare the boar by stomping my feet, but it ignored me also. heh. maybe i should have thrown the abandoned umbrella at the boar.
but thats not the interesting part. the interesting part came when the boar finally finished the food. it started to trot away when 1 brave doggie decided to chase after it. it started running towards the boar, barking endlessly. but when the boar turned around and gave the doggie some attention, the doggie would turn around and run away from the boar.
so much for being so "garang".
even the aunties at the bus stop were laughing at the doggie that attempted to scare off the boar, saying that the boar's so huge, it can probably kill it if it wanted to.
but then, the doggies are so poor thing. cold and hungry, they still have to endure such abuse from the boar. sigh~
hope the doggies are doing fine and hope that they're not freezing now in the cold.
Sunday, November 18, 2007
been quite sometime since i last blogged. not a lot of happenings, but loads of dramatic incidents.
shall not disclose the incidents as they're secret happenings.
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weekend services with pastor phil! he painted the last supper, while preaching about the 12 disciples. i was really blessed by the "sermon"; if you count describing the 12 disciples a sermon. ;)
anyway, pastor phil shared about the 12 disciples, their characteristics and history. there were disciples that i never heard of and the bible didnt accounts for. they were normal people, but yet they were in close fellowship with God.
why?
because they had a heart after Christ. they all had different backgrounds, non of them were perfect disciples. each had their weaknesses, flaws and struggles. yet Christ accepted them and made them His disciples.
amazing eh?
of cos Christ didn't just stop there. He discipled them, taught them and most importantly enpowered them to do even greater things for the kingdom of God.
there's a disciple for everyone.
shall not disclose the incidents as they're secret happenings.
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weekend services with pastor phil! he painted the last supper, while preaching about the 12 disciples. i was really blessed by the "sermon"; if you count describing the 12 disciples a sermon. ;)
anyway, pastor phil shared about the 12 disciples, their characteristics and history. there were disciples that i never heard of and the bible didnt accounts for. they were normal people, but yet they were in close fellowship with God.
why?
because they had a heart after Christ. they all had different backgrounds, non of them were perfect disciples. each had their weaknesses, flaws and struggles. yet Christ accepted them and made them His disciples.
amazing eh?
of cos Christ didn't just stop there. He discipled them, taught them and most importantly enpowered them to do even greater things for the kingdom of God.
there's a disciple for everyone.
Monday, November 05, 2007
interesting day today~
served, as usual, and today was quite busy. first pastor yong came, before i left the room, pastor kong came. walked out to the carpark, then pastor tan came. after escorting him to the guest room, pastor derek came.
i think i walked up and down the way 3 times in a row. haha
but its really my honor to serve such great man of God and i really feel blessed. thank God for His grace upon my life.
before i was about to leave for cellgroup, bro kokyew and i had a chat. he's one of my favourite security leaders because he's super friendly and approachable. always armed with a smile in his face and always looking very fatherly.
he asked about my future plans and he started to ramble out some stuffs. to my surprise, it was exactly the plans that i had in mind. haha! SOT, CGL, ZS and eventually Pastoral.
then he said he just prophesied over my life and it was a confirmation of God's vision in my life. really felt extremely encouraged when he said that.
but of cos, things wont happen overnight.
cellgroup meeting was fantastic! presence of God just filled the entire place and everyone was weeping in His presence. Jason prayed for everyone and boy it was powerful.
on such occasions, you just want to keep worshipping Him, sing love songs to Him continually.
i think everyday, i've to remind myself of this - WWJD. What Would Jesus Do? in everday's situation and difficulties, what would Jesus do if He faces such challenges.
its impossible to overcome such problems and difficulties myself, but becomes easily when i rely on God. i learnt today during service that spiritual warfare is literaly war. i don't juz "recite" the promises of God to myself.
but i claim His promises and pray through it until victory. war also means aggresiveness, decisive decisions and swift actions.
got to make the right decisions in the shortest possible time and keep fighting until breakthrough comes!
served, as usual, and today was quite busy. first pastor yong came, before i left the room, pastor kong came. walked out to the carpark, then pastor tan came. after escorting him to the guest room, pastor derek came.
i think i walked up and down the way 3 times in a row. haha
but its really my honor to serve such great man of God and i really feel blessed. thank God for His grace upon my life.
before i was about to leave for cellgroup, bro kokyew and i had a chat. he's one of my favourite security leaders because he's super friendly and approachable. always armed with a smile in his face and always looking very fatherly.
he asked about my future plans and he started to ramble out some stuffs. to my surprise, it was exactly the plans that i had in mind. haha! SOT, CGL, ZS and eventually Pastoral.
then he said he just prophesied over my life and it was a confirmation of God's vision in my life. really felt extremely encouraged when he said that.
but of cos, things wont happen overnight.
cellgroup meeting was fantastic! presence of God just filled the entire place and everyone was weeping in His presence. Jason prayed for everyone and boy it was powerful.
on such occasions, you just want to keep worshipping Him, sing love songs to Him continually.
i think everyday, i've to remind myself of this - WWJD. What Would Jesus Do? in everday's situation and difficulties, what would Jesus do if He faces such challenges.
its impossible to overcome such problems and difficulties myself, but becomes easily when i rely on God. i learnt today during service that spiritual warfare is literaly war. i don't juz "recite" the promises of God to myself.
but i claim His promises and pray through it until victory. war also means aggresiveness, decisive decisions and swift actions.
got to make the right decisions in the shortest possible time and keep fighting until breakthrough comes!
Sunday, November 04, 2007
Arise & Build!!
Pastor shared about having a vision and remembering it, not letting the terror of the night drain away my faith.
what really amazed me was that pastor mentioned that financial blessings are the easiest blessings to receive! simply because of the promise of reaping what we sowed.
think of it this way - every dollar is a seed. the moment you plant a seed, it grows. same goes to our finances! we sow our finances into the kingdom of God, expect it to multiply.
woah!!
another thing that pastor shared that blew away my mind.
our visions can be sidelined we lose sight of it. i've to continually remind myself of the vision God has placed in my heart and keep envisioning it happening; definitely work towards it also. if not, i'll get sidelined and miss out on the vision that God has placed in me! - this statement confirmed what i've been hearing from the Holy Spirit. that if i do not pick up my cross, the vision will go to someone else who's willing to carry the cross.
REMEMBER JOEL! PICK UP YOUR CROSS!!
most importantly, i learnt that in order to receive something, i've to give that thing that i need. eg: i need a healing, so i pray for people who are in need for healing.
another principal of sowing and reaping!
these are like, basics, which i know by knowledge. but after today's sermon, it became more of a revelation!
and because of this sowing and reaping principal, whatever that God did once, He can do it repeatingly!
so. who needs financial help? haha=X
Pastor shared about having a vision and remembering it, not letting the terror of the night drain away my faith.
what really amazed me was that pastor mentioned that financial blessings are the easiest blessings to receive! simply because of the promise of reaping what we sowed.
think of it this way - every dollar is a seed. the moment you plant a seed, it grows. same goes to our finances! we sow our finances into the kingdom of God, expect it to multiply.
woah!!
another thing that pastor shared that blew away my mind.
our visions can be sidelined we lose sight of it. i've to continually remind myself of the vision God has placed in my heart and keep envisioning it happening; definitely work towards it also. if not, i'll get sidelined and miss out on the vision that God has placed in me! - this statement confirmed what i've been hearing from the Holy Spirit. that if i do not pick up my cross, the vision will go to someone else who's willing to carry the cross.
REMEMBER JOEL! PICK UP YOUR CROSS!!
most importantly, i learnt that in order to receive something, i've to give that thing that i need. eg: i need a healing, so i pray for people who are in need for healing.
another principal of sowing and reaping!
these are like, basics, which i know by knowledge. but after today's sermon, it became more of a revelation!
and because of this sowing and reaping principal, whatever that God did once, He can do it repeatingly!
so. who needs financial help? haha=X
Friday, November 02, 2007
Thursday, November 01, 2007
near future seems bleak; not sure if i can pursue my desires of studying in SOT this year because i'll only ORD on May 5. SOT starts classes on April.
did consider the plan to take half day leave during the start of my course, but i found out that i'll be given only 7 days worth of leave. best of all, due to the block leave, my leave will be deducted. thus leaving probably less than 3 days?
struggles.
other concerns affecting my decision too. finances, how am i going to pay for the school fees? work, definitely have to work, but a job thats ultra flexible?
really want to enroll into SOT this year, but why does it seem like a dream so far away?
something in me feels fearful to lose out in the coming year's SOT. the coming year's SOT feels special; somehow, i feel like a part of the coming year's SOT intake.
Lord, grant me the desires of my heart.
recently a friend of mine shared about his plan for studies after the army. he extended his contract for about a year so that he's able to save money to study overseas.
tempations.
is it wise for me to extend till next 2009's april, so that i can save money for 2009's SOT?
thing about saving money is that i really have to be extremely disciplined.
headache.
Lord You called me, i'll take the step of faith, and walk on water.
only You know the desires of my heart.
did consider the plan to take half day leave during the start of my course, but i found out that i'll be given only 7 days worth of leave. best of all, due to the block leave, my leave will be deducted. thus leaving probably less than 3 days?
struggles.
other concerns affecting my decision too. finances, how am i going to pay for the school fees? work, definitely have to work, but a job thats ultra flexible?
really want to enroll into SOT this year, but why does it seem like a dream so far away?
something in me feels fearful to lose out in the coming year's SOT. the coming year's SOT feels special; somehow, i feel like a part of the coming year's SOT intake.
Lord, grant me the desires of my heart.
recently a friend of mine shared about his plan for studies after the army. he extended his contract for about a year so that he's able to save money to study overseas.
tempations.
is it wise for me to extend till next 2009's april, so that i can save money for 2009's SOT?
thing about saving money is that i really have to be extremely disciplined.
headache.
Lord You called me, i'll take the step of faith, and walk on water.
only You know the desires of my heart.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Friday, October 12, 2007
Recently completed a course in the army and was doing self reflection during my "survival" training.
Maybe i've protrayed myself as someone too soft and easily stepped over. I looked at my guys and watched how they talked and reacted towards me.
Seems that they were talking to their friend more than their commander.
Yes, i know that its important to build friendship and not draw the line between officers and specialists, but its also very important for them to respect the command given to me. So i can't have them walking up to me, trying to bend the rules here and there just to fit into their comfort zone.
I've got to be more strict with them, especially with my commanders. Army's not about staying in your comfort zone, but stretching your limits, learning more about yourself.
Maybe i should set higher standards and demand more from them, and learn not to be so easily taken in by others.
Maybe i've protrayed myself as someone too soft and easily stepped over. I looked at my guys and watched how they talked and reacted towards me.
Seems that they were talking to their friend more than their commander.
Yes, i know that its important to build friendship and not draw the line between officers and specialists, but its also very important for them to respect the command given to me. So i can't have them walking up to me, trying to bend the rules here and there just to fit into their comfort zone.
I've got to be more strict with them, especially with my commanders. Army's not about staying in your comfort zone, but stretching your limits, learning more about yourself.
Maybe i should set higher standards and demand more from them, and learn not to be so easily taken in by others.
Sunday, September 23, 2007
back home!
service was fantastic.
pastor kong's back and he shared about tithing. something very basic, but extremely important in our walk with God.
now i feel empowered, recharged. but not yet ready to take on the world. =X
down with a minor injury. in-grown toe nail.
seems minor, but it causes serious pain if not treated. i decided not to go ahead with the surgery in camp as it would result me to get out-of-course in my recce commander course. so i told the MO that i'll probably just grit through the pain and only after my course, i'll seek surgery.
after serving today in leather shoes, i removed my socks earlier and found half my toe covered in blood and pus. not mentioning the constant pain with every step that i took.
but i guess i just got to grit through the pain and pray that my toe recovers soon.
service was fantastic.
pastor kong's back and he shared about tithing. something very basic, but extremely important in our walk with God.
now i feel empowered, recharged. but not yet ready to take on the world. =X
down with a minor injury. in-grown toe nail.
seems minor, but it causes serious pain if not treated. i decided not to go ahead with the surgery in camp as it would result me to get out-of-course in my recce commander course. so i told the MO that i'll probably just grit through the pain and only after my course, i'll seek surgery.
after serving today in leather shoes, i removed my socks earlier and found half my toe covered in blood and pus. not mentioning the constant pain with every step that i took.
but i guess i just got to grit through the pain and pray that my toe recovers soon.
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