randomness.

Do feel a little caged up at times. limitations, expections.

can't i just live life the way i want?

bah.

Recently completed a course in the army and was doing self reflection during my "survival" training.

Maybe i've protrayed myself as someone too soft and easily stepped over. I looked at my guys and watched how they talked and reacted towards me.

Seems that they were talking to their friend more than their commander.

Yes, i know that its important to build friendship and not draw the line between officers and specialists, but its also very important for them to respect the command given to me. So i can't have them walking up to me, trying to bend the rules here and there just to fit into their comfort zone.

I've got to be more strict with them, especially with my commanders. Army's not about staying in your comfort zone, but stretching your limits, learning more about yourself.

Maybe i should set higher standards and demand more from them, and learn not to be so easily taken in by others.