using back my 8310 now! woopiEe! hahAzz~ no more lags while messaging and i can message super fast again!! yAy!!

stayed at home the entire day, from the hour i woke up, till i went to meet natalie, i was playing gunbound with pie and wanling. lolx~ i guess it was around 4-5 hours of pure gunbounding. it wasn't that boring as we were on winning streaks and our opponents stayed on, so there wasn't much time being wasted and more time was spent playing=)

going to gym alone tomorrow though, unless i can find someone to accompany me... hAaz=P

i MUST pump my body...

relaxed day... gym and swimming at CCK... lolx=P

nothing much happened though, but i had fun working out, trying to stretch myself to the limits...

played basketball again earlier~

well, basically... i felt extremely stiff. my actions and movements were stiff and i had a very weird jump. the feeling was quite different. i felt that my air-time got lesser and i seem to land pretty fast. maybe cause i didn't jump high, or i can't jump high. loLx=P

my body's aching worst now, i over strained when i was playing basketball... lolx=P

gym tomorrow!! wOopiEe!

aching all over today... argh...

is it protein or carbohydrates that help reduce the pain?

sometimes i really wonder why people change so fast...

do you believe in love at first sight? or just because he's good-looking, hits your expections, then by chance, he/she likes you too... you get together with him? you feel that knowing him for 1-2 months is enough... to start a "higher" relationship with him, which is BGR.

a product may look beautiful from the outside, but the substance maybe rotten...

and, i really wonder why i'm getting worried for her... it's her life... not mine... it was just a dream last night, that made me wake up at 5.30am and i could not fall asleep afterwards... but there seems to be a link, connection... it seemed too real, as if i was there...

i think i should really move on... and when that particular couple breaks up, i should really consider my actions...

i don't want to fall again...

i hate you for treating me so nice... i am really disappointed in you...

i agree now that guys and girls cannot be buddies...

played basketball just now~ i seriously lack the touch and and ball sense. lolx=P made a fool of myself, since i could not play at my best. but, i felt rather irratated as my friend kept "challenging" me. herman, i think you should know who...

i guess i'll continue to pump my thighs with the weight machine. it sorts of helps my explosive jump and the strength of my leg. heh heh... wait till i'm ready, i'll DUNK IN HIS FACE!

i'm thinking of ways to increase my speed too~ lolx=P maybe the lapruns would help... sprints for 400 metres, then rest for 2 minutes, then sprints again.

then, i'll pump my body too, not in terms of size, but HARDNESS! wOopiEe! i'll be like superman! but, i guess i'll try my best to put on weight, and at the same time, continue pumping. trying to reach a target of 75kg? with lean muscles=D

wOopiEe~ i'm looking forward to gym on mondays, wednesdays, fridays, sundays... =D=D=D that's if i can drag someone along with me~ hahAzz!!

woah~ gym training~

for some reasons, i woke up at 5.30am earlier, and i could not fall asleep. i was practically lying on my bed until 8.15 when parry gave me a morning call to wake up.

the gym at CCK wasn't like what i expected. though it's well equiped, it's quite small. lolx=P worked out for around 1 h 30 minutes before heading to run 2 rounds at the track.

bad day to run. we tried to do lap running, which means sprinting for 1 lap, then resting for 2 minutes. i started pretty fine, but at the 300 metres mark, i felt like vomitting suddenly. stopped running and walked the rest of the 100 metres. the second lap was like that too~ lolx... i guess i haven been running for too long=/

headed for KFC ( LOLX! ) for our lunch. over there, we talked about scouts stuffs, and what should we plan in the future. FIY, i "rejoined" greenridge scouts, to help them out~ =) wOopiEe~ i can disturb charmaine in school more often` =D

looking forward to gym this wednesday!

BBQ~!!

i had a great time BBQ'ing with fellow rovers and ventures. lolx=P there were plenty of food, sponsered by our rover leader, Patrick Tan. haHaz~ once a devil in our eyes, but now a money tree~ =X

had a great time starting gossips and trying to "suan" others. lolx=P but, i guess my fellow rovers would be starting a "relationship" between me and another female venture. lolx~ almost all the rovers have a "relationship" cept me~ lolx=P

going gym tomorrow! woopiee!! time to work those fats off=D

woke up extremely early... not by chance, but by noises.

sigh... i seriously wonder why my mom is making a huge fuss of everything... from the furniture, to the wires and even to the floor, she wants it to be properly planned and arranged for the aircon man.

seems like we have to do a major overhaul at home again, packing and throwing all our stuffs because she said so, and she would be standing by the door, scolding us, asking why do we always have so much junks in our rooms. even my sister's clothes were targetted...

but, in the storeroom, a specially fixed pole was fixed specially for my mom's old clothes... there must be about close to 100 hangers there? why ain't she making a fuss out of that?

i wasn't spared either. my room is always declared messy and dusty.

then, the huge arguement between my parents. the topic ranges from the current issue to even mahjong sessions... what's wrong with them!?

i guess they are trying to be the next gambling king and queens, winning all the rounds in mahjong with their superb tactics. but, don't they realise that mahjong is NOT about skill!? the first time i played mahjong with my friends, i won! no matter how skilled you are in something, there's always something higher and greater then you are.

even i was dragged into that argument. as i was taking my lunch, my mom told me about commitment to my church, and said that i should be there just to take a look. of cause, i didn't reply as i'm tired of answering her. then, she changed the topic to Priest Kang...

seriously, there wasn't any link, and i started to argue back. i asked her about her views on the issue without waiting for her answer, i said - this outside world is corrupted. whatever people do is their problem, what can we do? i think that you should straighten out your life first.

sounds a little harsh, but that's the truth.

Priest Kang took 5.1 million from the church funds, and he bought properties in malaysia and singapore, maybe he felt that it would bring profit to the church. maybe, in his mind, he wanted to invest in the properties he bought. buying at a low price, then selling off at a higher price.

perhaps he made a mistake by allowing his "daughters" stay in the flats, but does that mean that he bought the house for his own personal use? why would 1 person buy so many houses?! does he need so many~?

the canon law says that the Priest is allowed to take the funds, as long as it brings profits to the church. Priest Kang must have thought that the properties would bring profits to the church, and he invested in them. it's like stocks!

anyway, regarding this Priest Kang issue, i haven been reading up, but that's my penny's worth of though.

why is everyone making a huge fuss out of everything single thing!? when it can be done the easiler, less complicated way! why is everyone thinking of complex stuffs when 1 + 1 = 2!?

arguements are common, it's everywhere! but what's the MAIN point of arguing!? to CORRECT someone or to CHANGE someone?

to correct someone because you love him, to change someone because you love him? both sounds logical. but, if you love someone, you ACCEPT the way he is, and you don't CHANGE him, because you love the way he is. how can we change a adult in 5 minutes!? his attitude, character has been with him for years! can we expect him to be changed within a night? NO! he can't be born again physically!

is there such a family where everyone lives happily under one roof, no arguments, but pure love to one another?

today is the day i experience starvation. lolx=P

woke up quite early today, but i took my own sweet time to meet yanren in school.

studied, or rather, stared at the PSP paper at canteen 1, trying to ignore the super noisy crowd and the fragrance of the air. hahaZz=P howie, hamzah and haidar come over afterwards and we proceeded to LT22.

while waiting for the doors to open, yanren and i decided to play a small prank. we talked in loud voices, asking each other if we studied the codes. but, the codes were self-given and not in the module. lolx=P we wanted everyone to hear us and panic as we went like - " eh! you got study 3d array anot!? that one SURE come out 1 arh!! hahaz!! btw, there isn't anything called 3d arrray=X

the tutor from some other course STINKS!! not physical smell, his ATTITUDE STINKS!!

we left our bags by the side of the LT, and that STINK'er took our bags and left it at the front. suspecting that we would copy or cheat!? he even shouted acrossed the LT, to warn us not to communicate. shEesh. the worst thing was that, no one was cheating!

well... headed home after paper, and i pratically rotted at home=/ almost starved to death too. lolx!

-exhausted-

woke up late for classes, but it didn't matter much as debarment period is over =D hahaZz=P

during programming class, we were fooling around in front of the tutor, and i caught the tutor laughing at us~ lolx=P we seldom get to see the tutor loosen up on us and not scold us =P

had the MOST stressful lunch ever taken in my entire life... and i shall not go into details. hahaZz=P it's nothing interesting anyway=X

we attended BIS class, cause we wanted to know our results. well, i got only D+ for my project~! but, the air of bias was felt strongly in the air as only one group (i believe) got A+ for their project. the others, either Ds or Cs.

headed to the library with yanren, howie and pingwei. over there, i became their tutor, somehow, for programming. lolx=P they were asking me to explain the question and solution. afterwards, we all gathered together, and i explained to them the answers. i guess it made me understand the questions better as i have to give them reasons why must we use that particular command. =D praise the Lord!

rushed down to church for bible studies and service. felt really tired, drained and extremely hungry (my last meal was 12pm) but i managed to overcome those physical barriers and i had a great time serving God! the first step is always hard, but have faith in God! don't let doubts stop me!!!

well... PSP recoursework tomorrow. i guess i'll have to wake up earlier tomorrow to revise.

wOopiEe~ i watched 50 first dates just now~

quite a funny, yet sweet show. it's about this guy, henry, who's completely in love with a girl, lucy, who suffers from short-term memory. lucy would forget everything the next day, and lives her life only on 1 day - sunday, october 13.

the show is about how henry tries his best to make lucy remember, and how he "woos" lucy back on every "first" date.

it's really a sweet show, and i really wont mind watching it again. -hintinG niXp-

alritez, got school tomorrow~

well well, looks like every wedneday is a day that it's relaxing in school =)

lab was seriously relaxed. i didnt do anything! basically, i just twiddled with the machine, got down the points that we have to note, then the rest of the stuffs were done by my group members. hee~ no guns pointed or sharp knifes at their throats, but he volunteered to do it.

hehe. before your thinking that im super lazy, think again! during the class, i was drawing the graphs for our work too, so it's not entirely slacking the entire day =)

well. classes ended rather early, and i met up with Mr. Desmond to hand up my IAC report. i wonder how would he grade us=/

went home, bathed and headed for church - bible seminar. Isaiah's a great prophet. not only he could see thousands of years ahead of him, he was able too see the past too! wow! i wish / pray / ask that i'm a prophet too! =X well, i guess i gotta share here, as i was sharing it with peiling earlier.

am i getting a hint that i'm a prophet? or am i just guessing things? well, there are incidents recently that spooked me out. i've been able to tell what others are going to tell me, and i would say it before they do. most of the time, they would react by asking me how did i know, but i wasn't able to tell them the answer. it just came into me? or it may have been a guess. i really don't know.

i realised that the more you try to "display" something, the more it eludes you. in a sense, the more i try to "prophesy" about something, the more i don't suceed. does it come naturally when it's time? or it's just a "guessing" thingy in my mind? someone help!!

anyway, it would be seriously be a blessing if i'm a prophet! praise the Lord!

well, back to bible seminar. cool stuffs, there were so many evidence about the second coming of Christ, and what would happen. if i'm able to remember them all, and when all these happens, i guess i'll not panic=) hahaZz~

anyway, during bible seminar just now, my left leg felt uncomfortable. there's a weird feeling and it feels like it's very "suan" or rather, tired? i don't know why. i didn't like the feeling at all, and it made me quite uncomfortable. sigh=/

hmm. it's time for me to sleep, even though there isn't school tomorrow=D

hmm. weird events.

last night, i met up with herman, yonglin and weilun to have supper at the nearby 24 hours coffee shop. nothing weird happened there, then we headed to a void deck to sit and talk rubbish.

then, i fell asleep on the table. when i woke up, i felt a slight swell on my left ankle. i noticed that there were 1 or 2 mosquitoe bites, so i thought that it's because of the mosquitoe bite that caused the slight swell.

well, woke up earlier today and i noticed that the swell got larger, and i had a little difficulty walking. it would hurt if i apply full pressure on my left ankle and there would be times when there's totally no pain...

i never knew that mosquitoe bites on your ankles would cause sprains? lolx=P

whats happening?! diabeties?

well well, i think my MPP test is a goner~ lolx=P

basically, i was writing rubbish for the exam paper. questions like explain what is distillation used for? hahaz! somehow, i managed to remember my chemistry in secondary school, and i wrote them all down=X

well, a testimony to share with you guys~

God's favor!

my IAC project is LONG overdue, and my gracious tutor, Mr. Desmond Wee, gave my group LOADS of chances to complete our project. but, we faced loads of problems - last minute cancels and no replies from the other party (sis, take note!! !@#$% your friend!! !@#$%) anyway, we had no choice but to look for other alternatives to complete our project.

i remember before i slept on 1 of the many nights, i prayed to God about my project problems and asked that he give me a solution, a "light" out of the darkness. heh~ the next day, darren and i met up and we discuessed about our project. suddenly, i remembered the SPCA accepts volunteers, even students at anytime of the month~! darren checked out their site, and he comfirmed that we can sign up as volunteers=D praise the Lord~! - light in the darkness...

then, earlier just now, when i was doing my project report, Mr. Desmond Wee called me up and asked me about my project. well, he explained to me that the report cannot be done in a "future" tense as the report should be based on our experience, and not what would be happening.

at first, i thought that he would fail us, BUT thank God for favour~ Mr. Desmond Wee gave my group ANOTHER chance, and he said that he would ONLY allow MY group to do the report in future tense, and we do not have to do a presentation. though we would be getting - just passes grades, it's better then a fail~!!

not only that, Mr. Desmond Wee said that because i participated in the rock and roll event organised by him, he might consider giving us better grades! =D=D=D=D

wHeee!!!! PrAisE thE LoRd!!!!

sunday bluEes~

woke up, started on my IAC project stuffs. darren and i volunteered as helpers at the SPCA for our project. well, it deemed that it's too late, and we would be facing the wraith of our tutor, but i have a gut feeling that we would be able to scrap through.

anyway, as i was typing the report for our project, i realised that i lack many informations. lolx=P the contents of the report requires information like what did we do and what happened, but we have not even stepped into SPCA a single step. i wonder what should i write for that part.

anyway, i guess darren and i would be helping SPCA for quite sometime=) DOGGIES!!

headed to natalie's place at around dinner time. she cooked dinner for me as my parents went out. hmm, udon, chicken and some soup. it was quite tasty, but she didn't believe that it's nice. lolx

dyed my hair again and this time, the colour is extremely obvious. reason? i left the dye for 2 hours? we were too engrossed about the NKF show that we forgot about it. lolx=P

NKF!! it's such a touching and nice show!! manz! i could not resist and i called the hotline. well, i called 1900-112-6855, which means 5 calls at 1 time. 25 bucks? well, i guess i'll get a scolding from my mom first, and i'll have to pay my bills. lolx=P but, it's for a good cause!! and i called when zoe tay was performing her stunt!!

i felt so stressed watching zoe tay perform as she injured herself during the rehearsals. kept praying that she would be alrite, and would not get hurt. hehe~ i don't know why the sudden "affection" but i guess it's just because she's the ah jie of TCS=)

anyway, i'm really sticky now. gotta bath=)

sheepish day~~

dragged myself out of bed at 9am as i had remedial lessons at 9.30 in school. along the way, i started to mass message morning messages to my friends. well, not everyone replied. i guess most of them were sleeping. lolx=P

samantha replied and told me that she have not completed her IAC project. lolx=P offered a helping hand, but she rejected it~ hahaz~ as i had remedial lessons, and it's quite important=P

PSP remedials~! well, i was able to understand most of the questions given as the tutor went through each of them slowly. she even gave us time to think of the answers before revealing the actual answer, which i think is a great way to learn - learning from mistakes?

well, met up with samantha after my lessons as she was still struggling with her IAC project. but, i ended up sitting behind her for 30 minutes, and she had to leave for her exams. lolx~ i guess her friends must have felt that i'm super weird=/

cellgroup at charmaine's place!! wOoHOo!! i felt so extremely comfortable there! hahazz!! it's like as if i'm at my house~! lolx=P char has a new phone! but she didn't allow me to take pictures of her=/ lolx=P i don't quite remember her as camera shy, but we took a picture together on her phone!! sadly, she does not know how to send to my email=/ but, i think that the picture isn't that nice as my forehead was quite "shiny" =/ stupid oil glands=/

then, i met up with weilun and my basketball gang of friends~ we headed to a LAN shop near paradiz centre, where herman is working. lolx~ quite a cool place, but the games available were quite limited and the computers were a little problematic. the aircon isn't powerful either. there were many people in that section, and it resulted in high temperatures=/

what's wrong with singapore's weather!?

hullo peeps.

haven been updating this space for 2 days? hehz. nothing special happened recently, just bumming around school and church=P

had my operating systems test earlier, quite a fine paper? was able to understand as i was teaching my friends too. but i think i got careless mistakes=/

kinda tired=/

this is 1 of the most relaxed day i ever had? lolx=P

reached school at about 12.15? the walk from the busstop to the classroom was torture! i was sweating like MAD~!! and i looked like i jumped into a swimming pool with my clothes on!! ... okie, not that bad=X but, i was sweating like a pig=P

the aircon in my class was so powerful that i almost froze to death in MY SWEAT=X sounds gross=/ anyway, i started to fan myself in class, and everyone was like staring at me. lolx=P alien in class...

during the programming class, i was busy doing my report for my MPP. hehe~ i had to draw graphs! >.< don't really like them as you have to be fairly accurately. well, the lazybones hit me, and i rounded up the numbers to 1 decimal place. hehe~ =P

lab~!! i LOVE lab lessons!! i don't know why, but it maybe just because of the oversized coat i get to wear. i look like some mad professor minus the geeky look and specs? hahaz! anyway, lab lessons would be cool'er if we had to mix chemicals~! lolx=P

bumped into samantha along the way to the busstop. it's been quite sometime we have been bumping into each other. lolx=P

decided to go home and "lighten" my bag~ lolx=P then, i messaged my cellgroup members to ask if they are attending bible studies later. alas! charmaine has a funeral to attend, melanie has a last minute meeting and the rest of the members attended yesterday=/ wanted to attend bible studies alone, but suddenly samantha came into my mind. lolx~ messaged and asked if i could join her and thank God! she didn't mind=P

caught in the rain while walking to church=/

waited for samantha and her cellgroup at the lobby. woah~ quite shocked as her members are pretty young, mostly secondary school students. friendly bunch of people~ was introduced to them, but sadly, i can't remember their names~ hehee~ please don't kill me okie samantha? =P

bible studies!! shan't go into detail. lolx=) but, i "received" a message about my situation=)

btw, the auditorum's aircon went off suddenly, and the ENTIRE place was SO quiet! i could sense the emptiness and quietness. it made me pretty uncomfortable cause it's too quiet~! the constant sound of the aircon wasn't there. Pastor Kong felt that too, and he joked that the warrenties are all expired after 2 years. lolx~

joined samantha and her cellgroup for supper at the coffeeshop nearby and i had hokkien mee. had a "choking" time with them. lolx=P telling lame jokes and riddles while eating is dangerous. i choked quite a few times and almost "laughed" all my food out. hahaZz~ i think i ain't creative enough to answer their questions~ i got them mostly wrong=P

took a cab back with... uh, samantha's cellgroup member? he stays at bukit panjang too=P hehe~ but, we had insufficient funds, we had to stop at a busstop, and walk home from there. wasn't quite a distance, but i was wondering what if there's another blackout. lolx=P

even when i was taking the lifts, i was pondering the what if question. lolx=P anyway, i trust in my Lord that he would protect me~ even IF there's a electrical breakdown~ =X

i will give my heart to you...
in everything i do...
you are the one im living for
i will lift my hands in praise
serve you in all my days
you are the one im loving for...

well, i'm beginning to treasure electricity more now, after what had happened about an hour ago. =)

flashback -

i was happily chatting with samantha and herman in msn then power failure. at first, i thought that it's only my unit, but i started to hear shouts and it was TOO dark. i could not even see, NOT even my out stretched hands! then, i realised that the ENTIRE bukit panjang has power failure.

irony - herman and i were joking about the fickling of our lights suddenly in msn. lolx=P little did we know that it would bring such event=X

thoughts raced through my mind like some bullet train. started to message my friends and ask if they are hit by the failure. even the network was down!! suddenly, my house phone rang. it was quite creepy as there wasn't any power, and i was quite puzzled that the phones would work. picked up the call, and it was my relative, asking if we were hit by the failture. lolx=)

anyway, i was a little freaked out as everything was pitch dark and i could feel evil in the air? hahaz=P maybe i watched horror shows earlier, and it freaked me out too=P anyway, my family started to light candels and while i was lighting them, i noticed that there were plenty of stars in the skies! it was a beautiful sight!! i started to go wow! and told all my friends about it. lolx=)

well, the network resumed and i started to mass message my friends, asking and telling them how cool it is, and how it might be an terrorist attack. had a discussion with my sister about terrorist attacks and how fragile our life would be. all the terrorists need to do is just drop a bomb, and we're all dead=/

electricity wasn't back until an hour later, and within that an hour, i received news that not only bukit panjang was hit. places like choa chu kang were hit. well, Channel News Asia just reported that there were several other places that were hit. lolx=P hmm, it really shows that singapore is quite fragile? all the terrorists have to do is to control the powerplants, shut it down, and we're doomed or during the chaotic failure, bomb important places like the MINDEF or even Tenah Airbase?

heh, now that electricity's back, i'm sort of anticipating a repeat of the failure. i don't know why, but it's just a gut feeling=/

oh! my sister was telling me that the moment she flipped my bible open, the lights fickled. cool timing huh? i own a POWERFUL bible!

got back my programming results. argh~! i did quite well for my walkthrough, 60+ marks? if i didn't see wrongly. BUT, because of my past results, which was rather bad, i failed the overall results and i had to take the re-coursework=/ but, passing the re-coursework and final exams would be easy, as the tutor would give us LOADs of hints. lolx=) all i have to do is to open my ears=P

other then that, school's a total boredom. lolx=P

got to rush my report later=/ sigh...

freaking bored now. slept like a piggy for 3 hours? BUT i still feel sleepy=/

back from school~!! 2 hours ago. lolx=P

was playing gunbound with potatopie and wanling~ well, we LOST all our matches!! we had totally no idea what hit us, but it was that bad.

school went by like a flash. before we knew it, school ended~ lolx=P

kinda boring day lies ahead of me=/

tiring day.

charmaine gave me a morning call, and told me that i got 20 minutes to bath and meet her. i don't know how i managed to bath for 5 minutes, and within 10 minutes, i was out of my house~ lolx=P

we took a cab down to the indoor stadium together and queued at the north entrance.

the stadium wasn't really packed when we entered. woah! we saw loads of signatures from superstars engraved on the walls and their posters were hung high at the entrance. char and i spotted Sun's signature and poster~

manz! indoor stadium food is expensive! 4 SMALL slices of sandwiches cost 2 bucks! and it's actually 2 slices cut into 4!!

easter service!! well, the drama team put up a great performance. it was almost the same as the movie - passion, but maybe an extended version?

then, we headed for marina square for lunch. can't remember the place, but the food was rather nice. at this period of time, i really felt tired and i could just sleep anytime. lolx~

decided not to donate my blood as i felt too drained, and natalie's not going=/

took a bus home, and i slept in the bus till i reached home. when i opened my eyes, the bus was quite packed, but there wasn't anyone sitting beside me~ lolx=P i wonder if i did something weird when i was sleeping=P

reached home and slept till 5+ and i'm still sleepy=/

hahaz!! FINALLY!! the campfire has ended~!! lemmi give you guys a not-so-detailed of what was going through=)

reached ZHSS at 7.30am, and my newly assigned job kicked off. almost immediately, i got people coming up to me, asking for SK Warriors, which means Sai Kang Warriors. hahaz! they are the people who do the "odd" jobs, and its a term to call those people who are idling around.

then, we had our reheasal. like last night, i was acting as Mr Gan, the GOH for our event. it's quite cool to act as him, cause i didn't get arrowed to do anything. heehe~ had a great time laughing too~ when i approach a particular station, the overall in-charge would have to salute and greet me. then, explain to me what their station is about. well, ruifen had a hard time trying not to laugh when explaining to me, and kokyeow forgot his "speech" and stood there stunned~ hahaxz!

it was rehearsals after rehearsals afterwards=/

then, mad rush, i had to finish my dinner in 5 minutes, then rush back to the classrooms to make 100 balloons=/ only peiyun, weihong and i was doing it. we used 1 helium tank to do the ballons and we would throw the balloon up to the ceiling.

then, we had to brainstorm on how to contain the balloons backstage, without letting any of them escape. started folding here and there, and we finally managed to get the "fold" the we desired! ahhaz=P had a great time stuffing the balloons and jumping for them=P finally, we had 2 huge packs of balloons at the backstage, waiting for me and peiyun to open them at the ending part.

afterwards, we tied 2 or more balloons together with strings. then, at the bottom of the string, we attached sparkers. it's main aim is to float into the skies, with the sparkers sparking=P

well, it was a BEAUTIFUL sight watching the balloons set off with sparkers sparking=) from far, it looks like shooting stars! =D really very very beautiful. i was so excited that i could not stop jumping around and shouting!! hahaz!!

then, the final moment came. we released loads of balloons into the skies when the ending came! it was another beauitful sight!! hahaz!!

the campfire seemed more like an event then a campfire? i really felt extremely proud donning the committee's shirts with my name inprinted on the right sleeve. though there are many people who has the shirt, it's the personalisation that makes it special. then, the campfire made Foxscout really majestic and great=)

like what a leader said, we are small pebbles, sand or stone that make up a huge mountain. without each one of us, we would not be a mountain=) the effort of everyone is important, and everyone gave in their best during the campfire~ hehez~ that resulted in the success of the campfire!! the errors were almost 0%!! hahaZz!! it was that smooth~~ yeaHhHhHhh!!!!

back from zhss!

woah!! it's a really tiring day! i did pioneering from morning till 4pm! though i slacked a little here and there, but my hands are still burnt caused from the lashings=/

i got a pretty roasted tan too~ whole day under the sun, and now my arms look chaota~ hahaz!!

anyway, the campfire is really grand and exciting. it's a campfire thats very different from the usual campfire=) i DID really feel proud of Foxscouts, even though there are bad bloods. reason why i felt proud, is really the brotherhood spirit and how our batch of scouts were united=)

felt really touched during the video presentation, and i sort of "regreted" that i could not be part of the action with the scouts=/

hehe~ i got to return back to ZHSS at 7.30am tomorrow. i'm assigned with loads of stuffs to do.

sleepy~~

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just came back from zhss, and CCK Kbox. lolx=)

zhss - did some pioneering over there, but basically i was overlooking the boys, making sure that their stuffs are properly done. hehz~ then the hunks helped to raise a super high structure. i think it's about 2-3 stories high? quite impressive=)

then, my leader, Patrick Tan, saw me. bad news=/ he immediately assigned me work to do tomorrow morning! i'm MUST be present BY 7.30am!! ah!! it's so freaking early! he said that he has loads of stuffs for me to do=/

kbox - went to kbox with jiedi has his friend was feeling depressed. my job there was just to sing songs and accompany jiedi~ lolx=) tried singing new songs, but it's rather difficult. or maybe i was too stressed cause jiedi's friend sings very well. well, i felt that i could do better=/

got to sleep earlier tonite=/

went to school earlier, and the class ended in 1 hour? hahaz. i was 15 minutes late too=P but, my tutor marked me present i think. =P

sigh. i would be going to scouts later, doing pioneering!! >.< been quite sometime since i last done pioneering, and i dread it! don't really like it, unless it's something really nice. lolx=P

anyway, just say that i'm lazy alritez? =P

i think my "processing" rate at night is really getting slower and slower. just came back from church as we had bible studies - book of isaiah. well, it talked about the second coming of Christ, and what happened before, and after Christ came.

well, i was sort of "blank" during the sermon, but i didn't stone. i merely copied down whatever Pastor Kong said, and tried to relate it to myself. well, i felt that i was becoming like Israel, compromising, thus falling short of God's glory. thinking back, i used to be really on the fire? no matter how late or tired, i would pray for at least 20 minutes? and there would be standard stuffs that i pray about.

but now, its just thanking God for the blessings and the day, and committing the next day into his hands. sigh~ i see myself really sinking=/ and i'm not saving myself~!? whats wrong with me!?

was chatting with alvina, and i told her that i once told my CGL that the challenge starts when school reopens. well, its so true!! my CGL even reminded me to take notice and be careful, but i didn't listen, thus ending up in this state. urgh!!!

i need to force myself?

boring day in school today.

i heard my friend playing Tao Ze's Ai Hen Jian Dan, and i fell in love with the song immediately!! hahaz!! i kept reminding myself to download Tao Ze's song when i reached home, but it was my sister who reminded me, when she asked me to download Mayday songs=P

anyway, it's been quite sometime since i last cooked rice, and i didn't do a good job. lolx=P i added too much water into the rice, and now it's a little soggy=/

which Mayday song is nice!? hahaz~ i have no idea which to download=/

haven been updating my blog for quite sometime, was quite busy rushing from place to place, meeting my friends for movies and performance at the esplanade.

lemme update you guys a little here and there...

Saturday -

woke up quite early that day, and i met up with my secondary school friends for the movie screening - passion of the Christ, at marina square. i was quite surprised by their reaction after the show as they were asking me questions about the show. that "hinted" to me that they were interested about knowing more about the Gospel. 1 of my friend, yongjie, even said that the movie is too short.

most of my friends had a "blur" look after the show too, questions were burning in their mind, and once i started answering 1 of my friends, the rest shot me with many others. lolx=)

then, i had to rush down to cineleisure to meet my basketball friends. had my dinner at long john's and met up with natalie afterwards too. it's my third time watching the show, but i didn't feel tired of it. each time i watched it, i did different things. this time, i counted the number of times he was whipped, caned. during the torture part, i counted a total of 105 times he was whipped.

my basketball friends were amazed by the story, and they were asking questions too.


Sunday!! -

woke up early for service. i didn't meet any of my cell group members as they are attending the one at 1pm. so, i sat alone with 2 other strangers beside me. well, i didn't feel odd or out of place, but i worshipped like normal. sermon's really great, and it made me so freaking excited. i don't think i can go into details, but charmaine and i went crazy after our service. hahaz=)

then, i saw angeline. usually, my mind would be filled with hatred, but this time, forgiveness was in my mind. i took out my handphone and messaged my friend for her number. then, i started to message her and we chatted a little.

rushed home, changed and left for esplanade. met up with charlotte, eugene, benjamine, melody, joyce and wanling. it's been quite sometime we last met up with charlotte and wanling. both of them didn't change much, and they were still the same, crazy. lolx=)

i "made" wanling become my girlfriend as she was too quiet. so i started to introduce her as my girlfriend and she started to chat a little more. lolx=P i guess she's really shy? or she's really quiet. but, she's not like that when she's chatting online with me=/

well, i'm in class right now, Business Information Systems lecture=/ b o r i n g . . .

just came back from the movie screening - the passion of the Christ.

it's amazing and it touched my heart. the way Jesus was tortured was gross and its simply inhuman. i felt a burning rage in me wanting those stupid officers to wake up, open their eyes and see what they did to their Lord. the way they smiled and laughed when they saw Jesus half dead simply put me off. they even spited at Him!

well, but the entire show was really great. it showed how Jesus gritted through pain and sufferings without God by his side. it was a test ( life's a test ) on his faith for God, and the devil tried to distract Him. sadly, the devil failed! haha!

many people were sniffing in the cinema, and it was quite quiet when the show ended. everyone seems to have a "blank" look on their face=) even sijie was amazed, and he shared something with me that encouraged me=D he said that this is the first time he watched a movie that makes him feels the presence. his GF agreed too =)

well, i felt really bad during the movie. the feeling i had was quite xinku. i felt like crying, but i could not. somehow, it came into my mind that i should not cry as Jesus didn't cry when he went through the sufferings. he cried ONCE, and thats it. i just felt that i should be like him, going strong against tribulations and temptations. even though he was SO BADLY beaten up, he still carried his cross ( of cause with the help of simon? ) till the very end. he didn't whine or complain, but it did it as he wanted to fulfill the purpose God has gave him. that's what life's about, and that made me remember that Jesus came down to earth AS a HUMAN being, like anyone of us. execpt, he was sinless, and he's the only one who can save us.

well, i would be watching the show 2 times more=)

i'm very tired...