teachers' day celebrations.
super lame celebrations at my secondary school today, but i had a great time chatting with mr. rao, my former maths teacher~ though it was a little weird chatting with him, as i couldn't really understand his accent anymore, it was an enjoyable chat~ he asked me if i'm interested to be a teacher in the future, and guess what!? i told him that i'm interested~ loLz~
i starting to feel tired being the nice guy. being concerned for others, when they need a listening ear, i'll definitely try my best to be by their side. but, its really frustrating when know that there's something going on and the other party ain't trying their best to share with you.
whats the point of it!? then you shouldn't have even told me in the beginning that you got troubles.
sighz, not really complaining that i dislike people coming to me, but... please don't leave me hanging on a thread. i really do want to help, no matter the circumstances.
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
Monday, August 30, 2004
first day of school after the common test, and i was 50 minutes late. i woke up at around 7.30 realising that i had classes at 8am. sighz~
quite a boring day in school today~ got back 2 papers and i had borderline fails. sheesh. my OOP lecturer said, i don't want to pass those with borderline because i want them to work harder. what a statement. i guess lecturers love to watch students suffering for another year even though they just require 1 to 5 marks to pass. they must have suffered an abused education system in the past.
quite pissed off with my DM paper too. i got most of the answers there, but i didn't express the terms and whatevers properly. so, i had like 30+ for my paper? the stupid lecturer refusing to return us our paper and played mind games with us - not telling our exact score, but the whole figure.
what's their problems!?
there were rumours that i failed my NF paper too. ARGHZ! but, thinking of it, i deserved to fail. i didn't work very hard for it and my section B was really bad. sigh.
got to work like, very hard?
the STUPID final exams are in 6 weeks time!!!!
quite a boring day in school today~ got back 2 papers and i had borderline fails. sheesh. my OOP lecturer said, i don't want to pass those with borderline because i want them to work harder. what a statement. i guess lecturers love to watch students suffering for another year even though they just require 1 to 5 marks to pass. they must have suffered an abused education system in the past.
quite pissed off with my DM paper too. i got most of the answers there, but i didn't express the terms and whatevers properly. so, i had like 30+ for my paper? the stupid lecturer refusing to return us our paper and played mind games with us - not telling our exact score, but the whole figure.
what's their problems!?
there were rumours that i failed my NF paper too. ARGHZ! but, thinking of it, i deserved to fail. i didn't work very hard for it and my section B was really bad. sigh.
got to work like, very hard?
the STUPID final exams are in 6 weeks time!!!!
Sunday, August 29, 2004
i survived at my grandmother's place!
i think my parents and i reached my grandmother's place at 1? and from then onwards, i lost track of time. but, i realised that long hours in my grandmother's place, during a special occasion, can be quite interesting.
firstly, taekwondo. i never realised that it can be SO boring in the olympics. watching 2 participants battle in out in a circle, hopping all over the map and not attacking each other till the last few moments. it was SO boring that i almost fell asleep watching it. thank God i bought the Faith book along.
secondly, kids! there's this pretty little girl named joy, who took 2 hours? to finish eating a fishball. i was reading my book, and there she was, running all over the place, then taking a small little bite out of the fishball and running all over the place again~ hAHaz!
another cute incident was that she and her brother, justin, squeezed into those miniature cars that uses your leg to move and got their maid to push them to and fro the living room~ HahAz!!
thirdly, sleeping! i found a comfortable spot and leaned against the wall to sleep~ but, as i was in a super noisy environment, i guess i didn't sleep long. or was it due to because i lost track of time? hmm....
fourthly, kids again! well, never never tell something stupid to a kid. why? cause they will keep repeating it over and over again. annoying you like never before. JIE! DID YOU TELL QUINCY ABOUT MY "O" LEVEL MATHS THINGY!?
lastly, TV! it seems that both mediacorp and mediaworks are going bonkers. is it flash back sunday today? both channel i and channel 5 were showing SUPER old shows - Back To The Future 3 and Honey I Blew Up The Kids. sitting on the sofa, watching these repeats a million times before and getting excited about it is such a miracle.
thank God that i'm still sane! HAhaz=)
well, the sad news is that my grandmother doesn't look quite sharp. but i heard quite a lot of laughter coming from her room, so i guess everything's still fine. except the fact that she vomited, again. sighz
i think my parents and i reached my grandmother's place at 1? and from then onwards, i lost track of time. but, i realised that long hours in my grandmother's place, during a special occasion, can be quite interesting.
firstly, taekwondo. i never realised that it can be SO boring in the olympics. watching 2 participants battle in out in a circle, hopping all over the map and not attacking each other till the last few moments. it was SO boring that i almost fell asleep watching it. thank God i bought the Faith book along.
secondly, kids! there's this pretty little girl named joy, who took 2 hours? to finish eating a fishball. i was reading my book, and there she was, running all over the place, then taking a small little bite out of the fishball and running all over the place again~ hAHaz!
another cute incident was that she and her brother, justin, squeezed into those miniature cars that uses your leg to move and got their maid to push them to and fro the living room~ HahAz!!
thirdly, sleeping! i found a comfortable spot and leaned against the wall to sleep~ but, as i was in a super noisy environment, i guess i didn't sleep long. or was it due to because i lost track of time? hmm....
fourthly, kids again! well, never never tell something stupid to a kid. why? cause they will keep repeating it over and over again. annoying you like never before. JIE! DID YOU TELL QUINCY ABOUT MY "O" LEVEL MATHS THINGY!?
lastly, TV! it seems that both mediacorp and mediaworks are going bonkers. is it flash back sunday today? both channel i and channel 5 were showing SUPER old shows - Back To The Future 3 and Honey I Blew Up The Kids. sitting on the sofa, watching these repeats a million times before and getting excited about it is such a miracle.
thank God that i'm still sane! HAhaz=)
well, the sad news is that my grandmother doesn't look quite sharp. but i heard quite a lot of laughter coming from her room, so i guess everything's still fine. except the fact that she vomited, again. sighz
Saturday, August 28, 2004
boring saturday.
been quite sometime since i last wore the rovers' uniform, and i was informed that we're all expected to wear full uniform as we're collecting food for the needy people in bukit panjang.
met the rest of them at bukit panjang. to my surprise, ernest and hongming joined us too! loLx=) 2 persons whom we thought were missing in action, turned out of no where to support us in this event!
ernest definately lost weight and he looks better now~ hongming's still that giant who towers over us, with a commanding presence~
no time to slack, we were told to knock doors and ask people to donate their canned foods. so ernest, hongming and i were in a group and we tackled 2 blocks. well, 2 blocks was all we did, but our box was totally filled with cans and other stuffs that the needy people may need~
ernest used to be the slackiest, but today, he offered to carry the trolley up and down even though he was complaining that its extremely heavy~ loLx=) the past ernest wouldn't even do such a thing~!!
slacked till the others came back.
back at home, i decided to listen to Pastor Ulf's sermon given by the church since i had nothing to do. so, innocently, i played the CD and MANZ! i didn't expect that its so POWERFUL and filled with the wisdom of the Holy Spirit! i could almost feel myself among the crowd in church and Pastor Ulf just standing infront of me, preaching the word of God.
the presence of God definately filled my room, because as long as i can hear Pastor Ulf, there the presence would be. its stated in the Bible! its God's promise! =D praise the Lord!!
been quite sometime since i last wore the rovers' uniform, and i was informed that we're all expected to wear full uniform as we're collecting food for the needy people in bukit panjang.
met the rest of them at bukit panjang. to my surprise, ernest and hongming joined us too! loLx=) 2 persons whom we thought were missing in action, turned out of no where to support us in this event!
ernest definately lost weight and he looks better now~ hongming's still that giant who towers over us, with a commanding presence~
no time to slack, we were told to knock doors and ask people to donate their canned foods. so ernest, hongming and i were in a group and we tackled 2 blocks. well, 2 blocks was all we did, but our box was totally filled with cans and other stuffs that the needy people may need~
ernest used to be the slackiest, but today, he offered to carry the trolley up and down even though he was complaining that its extremely heavy~ loLx=) the past ernest wouldn't even do such a thing~!!
slacked till the others came back.
back at home, i decided to listen to Pastor Ulf's sermon given by the church since i had nothing to do. so, innocently, i played the CD and MANZ! i didn't expect that its so POWERFUL and filled with the wisdom of the Holy Spirit! i could almost feel myself among the crowd in church and Pastor Ulf just standing infront of me, preaching the word of God.
the presence of God definately filled my room, because as long as i can hear Pastor Ulf, there the presence would be. its stated in the Bible! its God's promise! =D praise the Lord!!
Since blogger's down, i decided to write my thoughts in Microsoft words first, then transferring it back to blogger when it's back in action.
The final paper was given out earlier at 11am. Now we all know why our lecturer was so panicky when he gave out revision papers and insisted that he keeps it at the end of the class. Most of the questions from his revision paper were almost the same as the questions today!! Well, thank God someone in my class managed to photocopy for everyone in the class=D
Went for service today!! It's been such a long time since i last went to service on Friday nights and it was electrifying! Even the uncle beside me is so on fire for God that he couldn't stop jumping for joy!!
There is something special about the uncle - whenever we turn to our neighbors and repeat whatever Pastor Derek wants us to say, he would look at me in the eye and repeat extremely slowly. Somehow, i was very attracted to his words.
i felt so EXTREMELY blessed by the sermon - things not to do when we're broken hearted. Once again, God spoke into my heart again and i'm sure that He has definitely spoke into the hearts of many other people, for many people responded to the altar call and gave their hatred, resentments, sorrows and brokenness to God.
i went down too~ =)
Pastor Aries prayed for me and he said this - don't be afraid of the evil spirits.
i find it so extremely true. Last night, as i prayed, i could feel this weird presence in the air. It's definitely not the presence of God, but of something evil. That presence made me feel extremely uneasy and there were moments when i felt that there's something beside me. i felt as if someone was staring at me, trying to distract me. its really quite spooky, but God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind!!
After service, i waited for vene~ she has bought me a book! A brand new book from Rev Dr. Phil Pringle! One of my favorite Pastors~!! And he's the one that caused me to give my heart to Christ in October last year=) the book's about FAITH~!! faith's like the confidence in God, knowing that God would come through for us and His promises reign forever.
Something to share with you guys about my conversion with God, few days back.
God spoke to me few days ago, when i was really very sad - heartbroken, in fact. i was in my room, crying out to him. Then, His voice came, clear. He said, "If you're feeling so sad for a girl, what about Me? There are millions of people who rejected me, yet I still love them with all My heart."
Then, i realized God's heart for the lost. It seems so stupid for me to realize it now, but it just came like a rhema word into my heart. I realized that i've been bringing my friends just for the sake of bringing them.
i didn't explain to my friends the REAL reason why i've been inviting them to church. Repented and i started to message my friends the reason why i've been inviting them to church.
Even though some of my friends didn't reply, but i know that God has planted a seed in their hearts, and the seed would grow to become a strong and sturdy tree in the Lord. The word of God would just keep flashing past their minds and that's where they find their encouragement. The Holy Spirit begins to feel up their hearts and there's no longer the emptiness, but a Spirit-filled life!
Call me a fool, a fool in CHRIST!
The final paper was given out earlier at 11am. Now we all know why our lecturer was so panicky when he gave out revision papers and insisted that he keeps it at the end of the class. Most of the questions from his revision paper were almost the same as the questions today!! Well, thank God someone in my class managed to photocopy for everyone in the class=D
Went for service today!! It's been such a long time since i last went to service on Friday nights and it was electrifying! Even the uncle beside me is so on fire for God that he couldn't stop jumping for joy!!
There is something special about the uncle - whenever we turn to our neighbors and repeat whatever Pastor Derek wants us to say, he would look at me in the eye and repeat extremely slowly. Somehow, i was very attracted to his words.
i felt so EXTREMELY blessed by the sermon - things not to do when we're broken hearted. Once again, God spoke into my heart again and i'm sure that He has definitely spoke into the hearts of many other people, for many people responded to the altar call and gave their hatred, resentments, sorrows and brokenness to God.
i went down too~ =)
Pastor Aries prayed for me and he said this - don't be afraid of the evil spirits.
i find it so extremely true. Last night, as i prayed, i could feel this weird presence in the air. It's definitely not the presence of God, but of something evil. That presence made me feel extremely uneasy and there were moments when i felt that there's something beside me. i felt as if someone was staring at me, trying to distract me. its really quite spooky, but God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind!!
After service, i waited for vene~ she has bought me a book! A brand new book from Rev Dr. Phil Pringle! One of my favorite Pastors~!! And he's the one that caused me to give my heart to Christ in October last year=) the book's about FAITH~!! faith's like the confidence in God, knowing that God would come through for us and His promises reign forever.
Something to share with you guys about my conversion with God, few days back.
God spoke to me few days ago, when i was really very sad - heartbroken, in fact. i was in my room, crying out to him. Then, His voice came, clear. He said, "If you're feeling so sad for a girl, what about Me? There are millions of people who rejected me, yet I still love them with all My heart."
Then, i realized God's heart for the lost. It seems so stupid for me to realize it now, but it just came like a rhema word into my heart. I realized that i've been bringing my friends just for the sake of bringing them.
i didn't explain to my friends the REAL reason why i've been inviting them to church. Repented and i started to message my friends the reason why i've been inviting them to church.
Even though some of my friends didn't reply, but i know that God has planted a seed in their hearts, and the seed would grow to become a strong and sturdy tree in the Lord. The word of God would just keep flashing past their minds and that's where they find their encouragement. The Holy Spirit begins to feel up their hearts and there's no longer the emptiness, but a Spirit-filled life!
Call me a fool, a fool in CHRIST!
Thursday, August 26, 2004
Common Test, Day 4
a day of happenings - thin line between death and life.
NF test today was rather easy, if i studied a little harder, i would be extremely confident now. but, i fear for my section B of the paper; there were several straight forward questions that i forgotten.
cellgroup was next~! thank God that sijie actually bothered to help me check the buses that reach bukit merah view, else i would be stuck at redhill. loLx=P
stepped into the lift and someone familar came into the lift too. she's an usher from CHC and somehow, we gave each other a smile. then, i realised that she's from CHC (a little wols) and i asked her if she's going for cellgroup meeting~ loLx=P
stepped into the house, and i was pretty amazed. i'm one of the smallest, again~! hAaz! most of them seems to be working adults and some of them are even married. so, i was like a little boy there, but thank God i wasn't showered with pampers~ LOLx!!
quite a number of them came up to me and introduced themselves, including the girl at the lift. hAHaz~ its hard trying to remember their names, but i guess i'm able to remember their faces~ =P
cellgroup started after playing games and the presence of God was so tangible. a lot of time was spent worshipping the Lord and singing in tongues. this phrase then came into my mind - worship God with all your heart, worshipping in spirit and in truth.
so, when we worship in the spirit, its the Holy Spirit thats guiding us as He gives us utterance. when this really happens you won't want to stop worshipping Jesus.
i guess thats the reason why worship was extremely long~ loLx=)
sermon was even better. spoke directly to me, again. hAaz=) discipline in prayers!! need that really badly as i'm taking prayers for granted and i realised few nights ago that its been a long time since i sat down and prayed.
after cell, we had refreshments. well, i wanted to help out as there isn't much guys in the cell, so i went to the kitchen, hoping for something to do. but, sadly, i was chased out of the kitchen because i'm their "guest". kept insisting that i wanted to help, but i was forced back to the living room~ loLx=P
was informed that they were having desserts for refreshments and it was really a spread. green bean, cheng ting, bananas and fried carrot cake?
didn't take much of the food as i did a survey~ hAaz~ attributes bookshop survey~
stayed back and waited for vene as she gave me a lift home~ hEhee~
reached home and shortly afterwards, something happened!!! there was a HUGE commotion 2 blocks away from my block and there were 2 fire engines, several police cars and MANY KPO singaporeans! HAhaz! called peiwen, who happens to stay opposite my block, to check things out~
soon, my mom and i made our way down and i managed to get peiwen to join us too~ loLx=)
it was a case of attempt suicide.
the airbags were in place and the civil defense personnel managed to catch her, before the lady tried to do anything to herself. thank God~!
it was pretty interesting talking to peiwen about what could have happened. its been such a LONG time since we last met, and we're still the same. suanning each other at any possible moment and joking around~ hAHaz~
no falling bodies in the end, just a lady strapped to the stretcher. well, thank God~!
but, i guess her penalty would be heavy. she would be charged with attempting suicide and charges of the equipments, fire engines, policemen and many many other stuffs~ so, a lesson to learn here.
if you wanna suicide, think again!
firstly, the bible says that suicide is a SIN!!
secondly, if you fail to die, you would SUFFER, get CHARGED and make everyone else in your family SUFFER TOGETHER.
lastly, i'm sure there's GREATER stuffs awaiting you when your alive=)
a day of happenings - thin line between death and life.
NF test today was rather easy, if i studied a little harder, i would be extremely confident now. but, i fear for my section B of the paper; there were several straight forward questions that i forgotten.
cellgroup was next~! thank God that sijie actually bothered to help me check the buses that reach bukit merah view, else i would be stuck at redhill. loLx=P
stepped into the lift and someone familar came into the lift too. she's an usher from CHC and somehow, we gave each other a smile. then, i realised that she's from CHC (a little wols) and i asked her if she's going for cellgroup meeting~ loLx=P
stepped into the house, and i was pretty amazed. i'm one of the smallest, again~! hAaz! most of them seems to be working adults and some of them are even married. so, i was like a little boy there, but thank God i wasn't showered with pampers~ LOLx!!
quite a number of them came up to me and introduced themselves, including the girl at the lift. hAHaz~ its hard trying to remember their names, but i guess i'm able to remember their faces~ =P
cellgroup started after playing games and the presence of God was so tangible. a lot of time was spent worshipping the Lord and singing in tongues. this phrase then came into my mind - worship God with all your heart, worshipping in spirit and in truth.
so, when we worship in the spirit, its the Holy Spirit thats guiding us as He gives us utterance. when this really happens you won't want to stop worshipping Jesus.
i guess thats the reason why worship was extremely long~ loLx=)
sermon was even better. spoke directly to me, again. hAaz=) discipline in prayers!! need that really badly as i'm taking prayers for granted and i realised few nights ago that its been a long time since i sat down and prayed.
after cell, we had refreshments. well, i wanted to help out as there isn't much guys in the cell, so i went to the kitchen, hoping for something to do. but, sadly, i was chased out of the kitchen because i'm their "guest". kept insisting that i wanted to help, but i was forced back to the living room~ loLx=P
was informed that they were having desserts for refreshments and it was really a spread. green bean, cheng ting, bananas and fried carrot cake?
didn't take much of the food as i did a survey~ hAaz~ attributes bookshop survey~
stayed back and waited for vene as she gave me a lift home~ hEhee~
reached home and shortly afterwards, something happened!!! there was a HUGE commotion 2 blocks away from my block and there were 2 fire engines, several police cars and MANY KPO singaporeans! HAhaz! called peiwen, who happens to stay opposite my block, to check things out~
soon, my mom and i made our way down and i managed to get peiwen to join us too~ loLx=)
it was a case of attempt suicide.
the airbags were in place and the civil defense personnel managed to catch her, before the lady tried to do anything to herself. thank God~!
it was pretty interesting talking to peiwen about what could have happened. its been such a LONG time since we last met, and we're still the same. suanning each other at any possible moment and joking around~ hAHaz~
no falling bodies in the end, just a lady strapped to the stretcher. well, thank God~!
but, i guess her penalty would be heavy. she would be charged with attempting suicide and charges of the equipments, fire engines, policemen and many many other stuffs~ so, a lesson to learn here.
if you wanna suicide, think again!
firstly, the bible says that suicide is a SIN!!
secondly, if you fail to die, you would SUFFER, get CHARGED and make everyone else in your family SUFFER TOGETHER.
lastly, i'm sure there's GREATER stuffs awaiting you when your alive=)
Hillsong Youth - All Day
I don't care what they say about me
It's alright, alright
I don't care they think about me
It's alright, they'll get it one day
I love you, I'll follow you
You are my, my life
I will read my bible and pray
I will follow you all day
I don't care what it costs anymore
Cos' you gave it all and I'm following you
I don't care what it takes anymore
No matter what happens I'm going your way
I love you, I'll follow you
You are my, my life
I will read my bible and pray
I will follow you all day
All Day
All Day now
All Day
All Day
All Day now
All Day
I don't care what they say about me
It's alright, alright
I don't care they think about me
It's alright, they'll get it one day
I love you, I'll follow you
You are my, my life
I will read my bible and pray
I will follow you all day
All Day
All Day now
All Day
All Day
All Day now
All Day
Anyone around can see
Just how good you've been to me
For all my friends that don't know you
I pray that you would save them too
All Day
All Day now
All Day
Anyone around can see
Just how good you've been to me
For all my friends that don't know you
I pray that you would save them too
I don't care what they say about me
It's alright, alright
I don't care they think about me
It's alright, they'll get it one day
I love you, I'll follow you
You are my, my life
I will read my bible and pray
I will follow you all day
I don't care what it costs anymore
Cos' you gave it all and I'm following you
I don't care what it takes anymore
No matter what happens I'm going your way
I love you, I'll follow you
You are my, my life
I will read my bible and pray
I will follow you all day
All Day
All Day now
All Day
All Day
All Day now
All Day
I don't care what they say about me
It's alright, alright
I don't care they think about me
It's alright, they'll get it one day
I love you, I'll follow you
You are my, my life
I will read my bible and pray
I will follow you all day
All Day
All Day now
All Day
All Day
All Day now
All Day
Anyone around can see
Just how good you've been to me
For all my friends that don't know you
I pray that you would save them too
All Day
All Day now
All Day
Anyone around can see
Just how good you've been to me
For all my friends that don't know you
I pray that you would save them too
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
Common Test, Day Three.
i'm doomed.
after studying hours of DM, referring to worksheets and asking friends questions, it all came down to one final moment. the moment we stepped into the exam hall, flipped our papers to the first page, the silence was so eerie that it could have damaged my ear drums.
the format's SO different from the revision and past year papers!!
all the hardwork almost went ALL down into the drain.
well, 4 questions, out of which 3 of them were 3 questions. i'm fairly confident of the first question and i made sure that i had the right answers before attempting the other questions.
question 2 was almost similar to question 1, and i spent more then 15 minutes thinking before a revelation came into my mind. well, not a bibical phrase, but i noticed that its almost similar to question 1.
flurrious writing.
sigh~ then the trouble came. faced 2 other questions that i had no idea what to do with it. so, with the best knowledge i could gather, i started to solve it. before i knew it, the lecturers announced that there's only 10 minutes left, and i've got question 4 unattended.
started scribbling down solutions for question 4, but i guess its just all wrong.
well, test aside. its over~
i'm doomed.
after studying hours of DM, referring to worksheets and asking friends questions, it all came down to one final moment. the moment we stepped into the exam hall, flipped our papers to the first page, the silence was so eerie that it could have damaged my ear drums.
the format's SO different from the revision and past year papers!!
all the hardwork almost went ALL down into the drain.
well, 4 questions, out of which 3 of them were 3 questions. i'm fairly confident of the first question and i made sure that i had the right answers before attempting the other questions.
question 2 was almost similar to question 1, and i spent more then 15 minutes thinking before a revelation came into my mind. well, not a bibical phrase, but i noticed that its almost similar to question 1.
flurrious writing.
sigh~ then the trouble came. faced 2 other questions that i had no idea what to do with it. so, with the best knowledge i could gather, i started to solve it. before i knew it, the lecturers announced that there's only 10 minutes left, and i've got question 4 unattended.
started scribbling down solutions for question 4, but i guess its just all wrong.
well, test aside. its over~
thoughts.
my mom told me that my grandmother looked bad in the afternoon and it seems that she has a little difficulty breathing. so, they started calling all their brothers, sisters, grandchildren? and people whom my grandmother wanted to see, badly.
in the meantime, the others were preparing to bring my grandmother back to SGH as she wanted to clear her system.
when everyone gathered in the room, she was so happy that she managed to sit up, saying that she's ready to go to the hospital. she caused quite a commotion when she sat up, but thank God she was in such high spirits that she forgot about her pain.
at first, i thought it was all good news. then my mom said something that struck me thinking. she said that my grandmother's going to clear her system as she wants to be "clean" and when she leaves, she's "clean".
that sort of reminded me of my other grandmother, who requested to bath first before falling into a coma for a week. on the date of departure, she held onto her life tightly, waiting for my dad and her sons to come home. but, her old friend, seeing that she's suffering, decided to play the roles of all the sons and offered my grandmother water. as she offered, she claimed that she's the son and after she "acted" as my dad (the smallest son), she breathed her last.
my dad and the other sons arrived 30 minutes later. so near, yet so extremely far.
i'm really starting to wonder what would happen to my grandmother in the days to come. her birthday celebration would be celebrated this coming weekend, and it seems that there are so many events going on that i LOVE to join, but i can't. i just can't imagine how disappointed she would be if i'm not there.
i used to think that my presence doesn't make much a difference. but, i'm so wrong. not only me. everyone's presence makes differences to an old lady, even though she may appear grouchy and naggy always.
relationships are like circles around you.
family being the closest circle around you, followed by buddies, friends and whatsoever.
you may place someone at the furthest circle, but, for all you know, that someone may have placed you nearest to their hearts.
my mom told me that my grandmother looked bad in the afternoon and it seems that she has a little difficulty breathing. so, they started calling all their brothers, sisters, grandchildren? and people whom my grandmother wanted to see, badly.
in the meantime, the others were preparing to bring my grandmother back to SGH as she wanted to clear her system.
when everyone gathered in the room, she was so happy that she managed to sit up, saying that she's ready to go to the hospital. she caused quite a commotion when she sat up, but thank God she was in such high spirits that she forgot about her pain.
at first, i thought it was all good news. then my mom said something that struck me thinking. she said that my grandmother's going to clear her system as she wants to be "clean" and when she leaves, she's "clean".
that sort of reminded me of my other grandmother, who requested to bath first before falling into a coma for a week. on the date of departure, she held onto her life tightly, waiting for my dad and her sons to come home. but, her old friend, seeing that she's suffering, decided to play the roles of all the sons and offered my grandmother water. as she offered, she claimed that she's the son and after she "acted" as my dad (the smallest son), she breathed her last.
my dad and the other sons arrived 30 minutes later. so near, yet so extremely far.
i'm really starting to wonder what would happen to my grandmother in the days to come. her birthday celebration would be celebrated this coming weekend, and it seems that there are so many events going on that i LOVE to join, but i can't. i just can't imagine how disappointed she would be if i'm not there.
i used to think that my presence doesn't make much a difference. but, i'm so wrong. not only me. everyone's presence makes differences to an old lady, even though she may appear grouchy and naggy always.
relationships are like circles around you.
family being the closest circle around you, followed by buddies, friends and whatsoever.
you may place someone at the furthest circle, but, for all you know, that someone may have placed you nearest to their hearts.
Tuesday, August 24, 2004
Common Test Day 2
day of blessings~
went to school early to study AT with yanren. i didn't do much studying again as i went through the paper quite a number of times. but, a Counter Relay caught my attention and i asked my friend to double check, if its correct. well, according to my friend, its correct~ heHz.
got into our class and flipped the paper over. i was a little shocked by the "chimness" of the paper, but when i read the question, i realised that its actually quite straight forward. though i made careless mistakes, i guess i'm secured for a pass~ haHaz~ and if our marker is kind, i would get pretty cool results~ =D
well, remember that the Counter Relay caught my attention? if not for the CTR, i wouldn't have done completed 1 question. but, i hope that i used it correctly~ hEe~ thank God=D
after the paper, yanren, howie, alvin and i went to the library to study for our paper, DM, which falls TOMORROW! well, thank God i went even though 99% of my mind screamed at me, that 1% managed to come up with a great reason to study together with them~
started studying when both yanren and yanyi asked me to go through the paper with them, then i got stuck at the last 2 questions and howie came to the rescue!! howie understood the question and taught us all how to solve the question~ really cool stuff~ i never realised that its so easy, but our lecturer makes it super difficult to understand.
headed home and stopped at BPCC. watched them play basketball and it became a sparring session. heh. louis started whacking another guy because they were playing rough, then it was a free sparring session. groups of people went up and tried to separate both guys and some other minor fights broke out.
it all finally stopped when they managed to seperate both guys, but a kpo ZHSS student started to claim that he's from PHT, trying to scare louis~ hAhaz~ even though i was seated far away, i could hear him proclaim and when i heard him say that, i was laughing at his stupidity.
so, the both of them almost fought again and finally the man in blue came! hahaZz~
stuffs got settled soon~
headed home and a bunch of us, andy, junjiang and weiming settled down at the void deck and started chatting about basketball and many other stuffs. really funny conversion with weird logics~ loLz=P then, it started raining and everyone headed home.
thank God, that when i started to step out of the shelter, it stopped raining and the MOMENT i stepped under my block, it rained heavily AGAIN. hahaZz=P not the first experience if you guys remember~ but it has already happened quite a number of times~
got to sleep early tonight, fatigue level is reaching high and its a super tough paper tomorrow=/
day of blessings~
went to school early to study AT with yanren. i didn't do much studying again as i went through the paper quite a number of times. but, a Counter Relay caught my attention and i asked my friend to double check, if its correct. well, according to my friend, its correct~ heHz.
got into our class and flipped the paper over. i was a little shocked by the "chimness" of the paper, but when i read the question, i realised that its actually quite straight forward. though i made careless mistakes, i guess i'm secured for a pass~ haHaz~ and if our marker is kind, i would get pretty cool results~ =D
well, remember that the Counter Relay caught my attention? if not for the CTR, i wouldn't have done completed 1 question. but, i hope that i used it correctly~ hEe~ thank God=D
after the paper, yanren, howie, alvin and i went to the library to study for our paper, DM, which falls TOMORROW! well, thank God i went even though 99% of my mind screamed at me, that 1% managed to come up with a great reason to study together with them~
started studying when both yanren and yanyi asked me to go through the paper with them, then i got stuck at the last 2 questions and howie came to the rescue!! howie understood the question and taught us all how to solve the question~ really cool stuff~ i never realised that its so easy, but our lecturer makes it super difficult to understand.
headed home and stopped at BPCC. watched them play basketball and it became a sparring session. heh. louis started whacking another guy because they were playing rough, then it was a free sparring session. groups of people went up and tried to separate both guys and some other minor fights broke out.
it all finally stopped when they managed to seperate both guys, but a kpo ZHSS student started to claim that he's from PHT, trying to scare louis~ hAhaz~ even though i was seated far away, i could hear him proclaim and when i heard him say that, i was laughing at his stupidity.
so, the both of them almost fought again and finally the man in blue came! hahaZz~
stuffs got settled soon~
headed home and a bunch of us, andy, junjiang and weiming settled down at the void deck and started chatting about basketball and many other stuffs. really funny conversion with weird logics~ loLz=P then, it started raining and everyone headed home.
thank God, that when i started to step out of the shelter, it stopped raining and the MOMENT i stepped under my block, it rained heavily AGAIN. hahaZz=P not the first experience if you guys remember~ but it has already happened quite a number of times~
got to sleep early tonight, fatigue level is reaching high and its a super tough paper tomorrow=/
Monday, August 23, 2004
Common Test, Day 1.
headed to school at 11am to study with yanren and several other people for our paper, OOP.
after taking an early lunch, yanren and i went to the library to look for the other people~ well, as we expected, they were playing counter-strike and they plan to study "later".
took out the worksheets and started staring at them~ loLx=P
time flew and our paper started. well, there was a huge confusion over where our seats were, but i guess we were seated at the right seats~ loLx=P
the paper is quite tricky and i guess i should be able to just pass the grade, thats if the marker is not strict~ loLx=P if he's strict, i'm going to fail badly=/
after the paper ended, yanren, howie, alvin, john and me went to the library and studied for tomorrow's paper, AT. well, it was more of a time to clear our doubts and understand the module better~ =P
we got caught for eating in the library!! haHaz!! actually, not really. the auntie caught howie for eating and she recorded howie's student number only~ lolx=P well, i didn't buy any food for myself, neither did i eat the food too~ lolx=P
but, it was brave of howie to admit that he ate food in the library~ =)
heh. during the paper, i was stuck at the last question and i resorted to a quick prayer, asking the Holy Spirit to help me. well, thank God that He answered my prayers! loLx=P i do not know if its the correct answer, but it looks correct. but thank God that at least i wrote something there and maybe i would be given marks for that~
wHeeeeeeeee!!
headed to school at 11am to study with yanren and several other people for our paper, OOP.
after taking an early lunch, yanren and i went to the library to look for the other people~ well, as we expected, they were playing counter-strike and they plan to study "later".
took out the worksheets and started staring at them~ loLx=P
time flew and our paper started. well, there was a huge confusion over where our seats were, but i guess we were seated at the right seats~ loLx=P
the paper is quite tricky and i guess i should be able to just pass the grade, thats if the marker is not strict~ loLx=P if he's strict, i'm going to fail badly=/
after the paper ended, yanren, howie, alvin, john and me went to the library and studied for tomorrow's paper, AT. well, it was more of a time to clear our doubts and understand the module better~ =P
we got caught for eating in the library!! haHaz!! actually, not really. the auntie caught howie for eating and she recorded howie's student number only~ lolx=P well, i didn't buy any food for myself, neither did i eat the food too~ lolx=P
but, it was brave of howie to admit that he ate food in the library~ =)
heh. during the paper, i was stuck at the last question and i resorted to a quick prayer, asking the Holy Spirit to help me. well, thank God that He answered my prayers! loLx=P i do not know if its the correct answer, but it looks correct. but thank God that at least i wrote something there and maybe i would be given marks for that~
wHeeeeeeeee!!
Sunday, August 22, 2004
Our God is an awesome God,
He reigns from heaven above,
With wisdom power and love,
Our God is an awesome God!
Hillsongs Youth band played in our weekend services this week!! -screams-
i'm still extremely excited about it~ thought it wasn't the full band, the music they played was great enough to hype up the auditorium. well, i noticed that the lead singer's tshirt is extremely nice!! its their own tshirt and i LOVE the back of the shirt~!! too bad, attributes didn't sell that shirt, but sold another 2 versions, which is extremely nice too!!
i was tempted to buy both tshirts, but i settled on 1 shirt that costs 25 bucks~ a black tshirt with a PINK cross! COOL~!! =D
well, back to the sermon. Pastor Ulf's in town~!! he talked about the great spiritual gifts of the Holy Spirit and he specified on HealingS. he shared his testimonys of how he healed people and how the lives of others were completely changed when God heals them.
we can pray for the sick, but to heal them is another thing altogether and healing isn't instant. there are cases of instant healings and cases of healing after a period of time, especially when its a terminal disease.
how do we get healed then? its by receiving and having faith~!!
receive what? receive the word of God in our lives!!
God loves us so much that to receive his anointing is actually easy. but temptions of the world and the devil makes it difficult~ so how should we overcome it?
i guess its just taking note of our weakness and when we're weak, its easy to get tempted by the devil. so, when we realise our weakness, we do not try and cover it. why? because the more we try to cover it, the more it shows up in your life, till it becomes a stronghold for the devil.
so if we don't cover it, what should we do?
once again, God loves us so much that He wants to listen to every single detail of our hearts. He wants us to pour out our hearts to Him. when you actually do that, you begin to feel better, your heart feels lighter and day after day, the weakness becomes a stronghold, not for the devil, but for God~!!
He's able to USE YOU ( ME, WE, ANYONE ) for His kingdom!!
i'll worship You my God
i'll worship You my God
i love You
i love You
forever i will sing
forever i will be with You
be with You
after the wonderful service, we had fellowship at the coffeeshop. charmaine took binghui's donation draw tickets and went about the coffeeshop asking her friends to buy the tickets~ loLx=P she managed to sell off 7 tickets within 10 minutes? and that's quite impressive. loLz=P
the 4 of us, binghui, patricia, charmaine and myself headed home together as we all stay in the same area~ hAhaz=P had a great time singing songs in the bus and chatting about, messing up char's hair at the same time=X
really thank God for angels like charmaine, binghui and even patricia~ hAaz~ they certainly made my day brighter. listening to binghui's crap, charmaine's singing and patricia's problems has cheered me up and made me relaxed even though my common test starts tomorrow~
BUT, that doesn't mean that i should stop working. hAHaz=) work releases the potential God has placed in me and i'm pregnant with potentials! so, i'm very sure that God has deposited wisdom and clear understanding in me! =D
woAHhhHhh! revelations or discerments? hAHaz~
fill me to the MAX of the Holy Spirit~!!
He reigns from heaven above,
With wisdom power and love,
Our God is an awesome God!
Hillsongs Youth band played in our weekend services this week!! -screams-
i'm still extremely excited about it~ thought it wasn't the full band, the music they played was great enough to hype up the auditorium. well, i noticed that the lead singer's tshirt is extremely nice!! its their own tshirt and i LOVE the back of the shirt~!! too bad, attributes didn't sell that shirt, but sold another 2 versions, which is extremely nice too!!
i was tempted to buy both tshirts, but i settled on 1 shirt that costs 25 bucks~ a black tshirt with a PINK cross! COOL~!! =D
well, back to the sermon. Pastor Ulf's in town~!! he talked about the great spiritual gifts of the Holy Spirit and he specified on HealingS. he shared his testimonys of how he healed people and how the lives of others were completely changed when God heals them.
we can pray for the sick, but to heal them is another thing altogether and healing isn't instant. there are cases of instant healings and cases of healing after a period of time, especially when its a terminal disease.
how do we get healed then? its by receiving and having faith~!!
receive what? receive the word of God in our lives!!
God loves us so much that to receive his anointing is actually easy. but temptions of the world and the devil makes it difficult~ so how should we overcome it?
i guess its just taking note of our weakness and when we're weak, its easy to get tempted by the devil. so, when we realise our weakness, we do not try and cover it. why? because the more we try to cover it, the more it shows up in your life, till it becomes a stronghold for the devil.
so if we don't cover it, what should we do?
once again, God loves us so much that He wants to listen to every single detail of our hearts. He wants us to pour out our hearts to Him. when you actually do that, you begin to feel better, your heart feels lighter and day after day, the weakness becomes a stronghold, not for the devil, but for God~!!
He's able to USE YOU ( ME, WE, ANYONE ) for His kingdom!!
i'll worship You my God
i'll worship You my God
i love You
i love You
forever i will sing
forever i will be with You
be with You
after the wonderful service, we had fellowship at the coffeeshop. charmaine took binghui's donation draw tickets and went about the coffeeshop asking her friends to buy the tickets~ loLx=P she managed to sell off 7 tickets within 10 minutes? and that's quite impressive. loLz=P
the 4 of us, binghui, patricia, charmaine and myself headed home together as we all stay in the same area~ hAhaz=P had a great time singing songs in the bus and chatting about, messing up char's hair at the same time=X
really thank God for angels like charmaine, binghui and even patricia~ hAaz~ they certainly made my day brighter. listening to binghui's crap, charmaine's singing and patricia's problems has cheered me up and made me relaxed even though my common test starts tomorrow~
BUT, that doesn't mean that i should stop working. hAHaz=) work releases the potential God has placed in me and i'm pregnant with potentials! so, i'm very sure that God has deposited wisdom and clear understanding in me! =D
woAHhhHhh! revelations or discerments? hAHaz~
fill me to the MAX of the Holy Spirit~!!
Singapore's Li Jia Wei crashed out of the semi finals after 7 sets.
as i watched the game at leo's house, after cellgroup, i was expecting her to put up a huge fight against the north korean opponent. well, i wasnt disappointed. the game went to the final and deciding 7th set and it was neck to neck.
both players played their hearts out but it was the north korean lady who won in the end.
but still, she played her best and i'm sure she's gunning for the bronze medal~!!
took the train back to town and gave my mom a call - its time to visit my grandmother.
almost missed the busstop when i was messaging patricia on the phone, but thank God i found the place a little familar and there were quite a number of people alighting too=) it maybe a long walk from the busstop, but i know that that long walk would make a difference afterwards.
reached her place and walked straight into the room. there she was, lying on the bed chatting with my mom. placed my bags on the chair and sat on another chair near her bed.
it was a conversion that required loads of guessing.
my grandmother then gave me 5 bucks and instructed me to buy minibaos from the coffeeshop nearby. she insists that i eat more as i'm a guy and i can eat more. loLz=P
came back and i was told that they were discussing about the funeral plans. i was very shocked, but it slowly made sense to me. at least things would be organised and that my grandmother would have a "home" at least to rest in.
sigh. what a topic to talk about=/
on the way home, i gave death another thought. well, not about me dying this time, but about the general feelings of death.
these are my thoughts - when you know that you would be dying, you would love to see all your relatives, friends, everyone by your side. you would want to know that you made a difference in their lives and you want to see who really cares for you. you would want to experience the love that you scattered into the hearts of many and before you leave, you know that they all love you and they are in good shape.
dying is lonely and scary.
as i watched the game at leo's house, after cellgroup, i was expecting her to put up a huge fight against the north korean opponent. well, i wasnt disappointed. the game went to the final and deciding 7th set and it was neck to neck.
both players played their hearts out but it was the north korean lady who won in the end.
but still, she played her best and i'm sure she's gunning for the bronze medal~!!
took the train back to town and gave my mom a call - its time to visit my grandmother.
almost missed the busstop when i was messaging patricia on the phone, but thank God i found the place a little familar and there were quite a number of people alighting too=) it maybe a long walk from the busstop, but i know that that long walk would make a difference afterwards.
reached her place and walked straight into the room. there she was, lying on the bed chatting with my mom. placed my bags on the chair and sat on another chair near her bed.
it was a conversion that required loads of guessing.
my grandmother then gave me 5 bucks and instructed me to buy minibaos from the coffeeshop nearby. she insists that i eat more as i'm a guy and i can eat more. loLz=P
came back and i was told that they were discussing about the funeral plans. i was very shocked, but it slowly made sense to me. at least things would be organised and that my grandmother would have a "home" at least to rest in.
sigh. what a topic to talk about=/
on the way home, i gave death another thought. well, not about me dying this time, but about the general feelings of death.
these are my thoughts - when you know that you would be dying, you would love to see all your relatives, friends, everyone by your side. you would want to know that you made a difference in their lives and you want to see who really cares for you. you would want to experience the love that you scattered into the hearts of many and before you leave, you know that they all love you and they are in good shape.
dying is lonely and scary.
Saturday, August 21, 2004
as i was listening to Randy Vanwarmer - Just When I Needed You Most, endless of thoughts came into my mind. just thinking of sharing a few thoughts here, since i'm pretty bored now.
in fact, i've no idea how should i start.
how does it feel when a girl that you like, likes another guy and tells you about it? she's all excited about it and she fails to realise the sudden change of mood in you. but on the outside, you stay strong and wear a smile on your face. you listen, but with your ears closed.
deep in your heart, theres sadness. yet you refuse to show it. then, the girl goes on to say how she realised that the guy likes her and how did she responded back, saying that she likes him too. in your mind, you imagine two lovebirds - lovey and sweet with exchanges of words.
your heart breaks further.
you get extremely discouraged whenever you think about it. its like a bottomless pit, you just keep falling deeper and deeper into the pit. there's this urge in you to tell the girl that you like her, but this phrase comes into your mind - "you're different mah... we're good friends."
even in your dreams, you see the girl and the other guy together. you wake up, feeling that the dream was too real. emptiness fills the heart and you force yourself back to sleep with the images fresh in your mind, reoccuring.
each night you pray, you talk to God about your feelings to the girl. you pray that the feelings would fade away between the girl and the other guy, but you just can't forget whatever the girl told you about the guy. it seems to have a lasting effect on you and its really affecting you badly.
you may have been taking care and protecting the girl, treating her really sweet and nice, but you wondered why is this happening. she says that they have a lot on common, the guy is sweet, funny and treats her nice. in your heart, you tell yourself that you've been sweet, funny and nice to her too, but why doesn't she realise it. you start to be discouraged again and emptiness sets in, again.
whenever you guys are together, there's lots of laughter and joy, but you know that there's someone else in her heart, and that person is not you. when the phone rings, and you see a smile on her face when she reads a message, your heart sinks.
theres a deep desire to know whats in the message that made her smile so sweetly, but you've no rights to ask. disappointed, you look elsewhere to avoid her sweet smile, to her handphone.
you acted as though nothing happened and kept quiet.
how long more would you go through all these suffering?
would you let her go and give your blessings to them or would you just hold on tightly, hurting yourself more?
to her, your just her good friend, a person whom she trusts and shares her joy with. but to you, she's more then just a good friend. she has been your encourager, motivator and a special friend. would it be difficult to let go of such a wonderful person that made a difference in your life?
memories come back repeatingly, and there's a certain incident that you fondly remember in your heart. how you wished that you could turn back time and things would not be the way it is now. it seems that she has forgotten some of the sweet moments you guys had together, but you still hold onto them, because they mean something to you.
and, the sweet moment you hold on tightly is when she admitted her feelings for you.
is it all too late...?
in fact, i've no idea how should i start.
how does it feel when a girl that you like, likes another guy and tells you about it? she's all excited about it and she fails to realise the sudden change of mood in you. but on the outside, you stay strong and wear a smile on your face. you listen, but with your ears closed.
deep in your heart, theres sadness. yet you refuse to show it. then, the girl goes on to say how she realised that the guy likes her and how did she responded back, saying that she likes him too. in your mind, you imagine two lovebirds - lovey and sweet with exchanges of words.
your heart breaks further.
you get extremely discouraged whenever you think about it. its like a bottomless pit, you just keep falling deeper and deeper into the pit. there's this urge in you to tell the girl that you like her, but this phrase comes into your mind - "you're different mah... we're good friends."
even in your dreams, you see the girl and the other guy together. you wake up, feeling that the dream was too real. emptiness fills the heart and you force yourself back to sleep with the images fresh in your mind, reoccuring.
each night you pray, you talk to God about your feelings to the girl. you pray that the feelings would fade away between the girl and the other guy, but you just can't forget whatever the girl told you about the guy. it seems to have a lasting effect on you and its really affecting you badly.
you may have been taking care and protecting the girl, treating her really sweet and nice, but you wondered why is this happening. she says that they have a lot on common, the guy is sweet, funny and treats her nice. in your heart, you tell yourself that you've been sweet, funny and nice to her too, but why doesn't she realise it. you start to be discouraged again and emptiness sets in, again.
whenever you guys are together, there's lots of laughter and joy, but you know that there's someone else in her heart, and that person is not you. when the phone rings, and you see a smile on her face when she reads a message, your heart sinks.
theres a deep desire to know whats in the message that made her smile so sweetly, but you've no rights to ask. disappointed, you look elsewhere to avoid her sweet smile, to her handphone.
you acted as though nothing happened and kept quiet.
how long more would you go through all these suffering?
would you let her go and give your blessings to them or would you just hold on tightly, hurting yourself more?
to her, your just her good friend, a person whom she trusts and shares her joy with. but to you, she's more then just a good friend. she has been your encourager, motivator and a special friend. would it be difficult to let go of such a wonderful person that made a difference in your life?
memories come back repeatingly, and there's a certain incident that you fondly remember in your heart. how you wished that you could turn back time and things would not be the way it is now. it seems that she has forgotten some of the sweet moments you guys had together, but you still hold onto them, because they mean something to you.
and, the sweet moment you hold on tightly is when she admitted her feelings for you.
is it all too late...?
Friday, August 20, 2004
studied at macdonalds again, but it was just a mere 3 hours. during the 3 hours, i redid the 2 papers i attempted yesterday, making sure that i fully understand the question, instead of memorizing the answers. well, if the papers during the common test is about the same format, i would be fairly confident~
i wonder how do i study for programming and database. endless of codes and variables, not knowing which should i use and when should i apply it into the program. argh! i'm able to understand the codes, but i don't know when do i use the codes=/ sheesh.
i just realised something really nice. studying at mcdonalds has its great strengths, especially at bukit panjang plaza. they would usually play class 95 or gold 90.5 and we all know that its a oldie radio channel. but, i've been really enjoying myself listening to oldies as there are songs that i really like, but have no idea what the titles are. so, after studying at mcdonalds for 1 week, i found 2 songs that i really liked in the past, hummed along to, but never knew the title.
so, i'm very proud to announce the titles of the 2 oldies!!
Randy Vanwarmer - Just When I Needed You Most
Rod Steward - Sailing
both these songs are must downloads songs!!
i wonder how do i study for programming and database. endless of codes and variables, not knowing which should i use and when should i apply it into the program. argh! i'm able to understand the codes, but i don't know when do i use the codes=/ sheesh.
i just realised something really nice. studying at mcdonalds has its great strengths, especially at bukit panjang plaza. they would usually play class 95 or gold 90.5 and we all know that its a oldie radio channel. but, i've been really enjoying myself listening to oldies as there are songs that i really like, but have no idea what the titles are. so, after studying at mcdonalds for 1 week, i found 2 songs that i really liked in the past, hummed along to, but never knew the title.
so, i'm very proud to announce the titles of the 2 oldies!!
Randy Vanwarmer - Just When I Needed You Most
Rod Steward - Sailing
both these songs are must downloads songs!!
Thursday, August 19, 2004
nothing much today, studied the entire afternoon and boy i'm glad that i really studied today. attempted DM paper today and i realised that it wasn't that hard. perhaps i had all the answers wrong though~ loLx=P
i guess nothing's really impossible when you put some effort in it. like what my former counsellor told me - input = output. what you put in is what you get.
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to that guy who apparently either hacked into my computer, or steals IP addresses to post tags, are you really bored?
i guess nothing's really impossible when you put some effort in it. like what my former counsellor told me - input = output. what you put in is what you get.
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to that guy who apparently either hacked into my computer, or steals IP addresses to post tags, are you really bored?
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
boring day~
studied at macdonalds with patricia, xuanfeng, rebecca, herman and zongxian and i did past year papers of AT and NF. well, i didn't expect AT's paper to be that hard and confusing. i guess i'm more prepared now for the paper~ did 70 MCQ questions for NF, didn't count the number of mistakes i made, but tried understanding my mistakes though.
herman, xuanfeng, zongxian and me applied for the EZ-Link card payment at mcdonalds! by just signing up, we were awarded with 500 points, which allows us to redeem selected food like nuggets and burgers, BUT NO FRIES!! i went to sign up just for the fries, but i was told that we can't redeem fries. WHY!?
went off to BPCC with patricia while herman and gang bought frozen throne at plaza.
quite a number of people playing basketbal at BPCC today, but the standards were constrasting. on 1 side of the court were the adults - high flying and super accuracy. but on the other side were the kids. i managed to play a few games with the adults but lost pretty badly.
came more adults and it resulted in me and weilun sitting out, watching the adults play. finally, we decided to play at the kids side and we still lost~ we didn't even defend and allowed them to shoot open shots~ loLz=P finally when we played with a little defense, we started winning games=/
played basketball till 10pm and left for home.
i realised that i'm one of the slowest people to find out that ronald susilo lost to that thailand guy in badminton! >.< heard that he was pretty off form~ i guess perhaps to the stress and faitgue that has been building up on him. 3 days straight of intense badminton and training~ every human has their limits.
now with the sports school in place, would we see singapore as a real threat in the next olympics?
studied at macdonalds with patricia, xuanfeng, rebecca, herman and zongxian and i did past year papers of AT and NF. well, i didn't expect AT's paper to be that hard and confusing. i guess i'm more prepared now for the paper~ did 70 MCQ questions for NF, didn't count the number of mistakes i made, but tried understanding my mistakes though.
herman, xuanfeng, zongxian and me applied for the EZ-Link card payment at mcdonalds! by just signing up, we were awarded with 500 points, which allows us to redeem selected food like nuggets and burgers, BUT NO FRIES!! i went to sign up just for the fries, but i was told that we can't redeem fries. WHY!?
went off to BPCC with patricia while herman and gang bought frozen throne at plaza.
quite a number of people playing basketbal at BPCC today, but the standards were constrasting. on 1 side of the court were the adults - high flying and super accuracy. but on the other side were the kids. i managed to play a few games with the adults but lost pretty badly.
came more adults and it resulted in me and weilun sitting out, watching the adults play. finally, we decided to play at the kids side and we still lost~ we didn't even defend and allowed them to shoot open shots~ loLz=P finally when we played with a little defense, we started winning games=/
played basketball till 10pm and left for home.
i realised that i'm one of the slowest people to find out that ronald susilo lost to that thailand guy in badminton! >.< heard that he was pretty off form~ i guess perhaps to the stress and faitgue that has been building up on him. 3 days straight of intense badminton and training~ every human has their limits.
now with the sports school in place, would we see singapore as a real threat in the next olympics?
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
what a day! wHeeeeee!!
thank God yanren called me at 9.30am, else i would have continued sleeping and missed classes. reached class at 1030 and blend into the background immediately~ loLz~ acting as though i've been in class for 30 minutes=X
headed home after class ended at 12 as i would be meeting charmaine and longfei to have lunch at sakae sushi~~
greenridge secondary hasn't changed a single bit! i was there during their lunch break and everyone still "looks" the same. loLx=P not much changes with the common attitude of the students~
finally, charmaine's class ended and we travelled to CCK to meet longfei, but met him on the LRT instead. lolz=P
we went to check out the buffet timings and realised that it only starts at 3pm!! so, we had almost an hour to spend in CCK. loitered around and we bought alvin his birthday present! its a shirt from manmaster wor~ white and PINK in colour! wOohOo!!
finally, 3pm came and we made our grand entrance in sakae sushi.
we sat down and started mixing wasabi~ HahAz~ charmaine gave me LOADS of wasabi and i had to mix it slowly with the soya sauce. so, after mixing, i decided to taste it. it was a pretty bad move and i started to tear and feel the "rush" of "intensity" up my nose~ lolx=P
charmaine started laughing like crazy and when i challenged her to try the wasabi, she teared too~ loLx=P
i guess we're all a little sadistic~ =X
longfei started to become crazy, ordering plates after plates of salmon sushi! i guess we ate a whopping total of close to 25 plates of salmon sushi. but, the salmon was super fresh, cold and soft~ really loved it so much that i won't mind having more plates of salmon sushi~ loLx=P
headed home and we went to charmaine's house to "play?" rather, watch television and catch a little sleep=X i fell asleep on her bed while watching china beat new zealand in basketball=/ sigh~ i was expecting new zealand to win as they played the nicer basketball.
then, charmaine started to become crazy and played DVDs and VCDs of her favourite singers, INCLUDING PAN WEI BO! shEesh=/ but, at least she played ai shang wei lai de ni, which happens to be the only song i like from pan wei bo. loLx=P
longfei finally popped the sacred question - wanna go home? hahaZz=P finally left charmaine's house, i guess much to her delight and both of us forgot something that charmaine gave us - foaming shampoo and conditioner from loreal.
ayEe~ my stomach's still feels of salmon~ loLx!
thank God yanren called me at 9.30am, else i would have continued sleeping and missed classes. reached class at 1030 and blend into the background immediately~ loLz~ acting as though i've been in class for 30 minutes=X
headed home after class ended at 12 as i would be meeting charmaine and longfei to have lunch at sakae sushi~~
greenridge secondary hasn't changed a single bit! i was there during their lunch break and everyone still "looks" the same. loLx=P not much changes with the common attitude of the students~
finally, charmaine's class ended and we travelled to CCK to meet longfei, but met him on the LRT instead. lolz=P
we went to check out the buffet timings and realised that it only starts at 3pm!! so, we had almost an hour to spend in CCK. loitered around and we bought alvin his birthday present! its a shirt from manmaster wor~ white and PINK in colour! wOohOo!!
finally, 3pm came and we made our grand entrance in sakae sushi.
we sat down and started mixing wasabi~ HahAz~ charmaine gave me LOADS of wasabi and i had to mix it slowly with the soya sauce. so, after mixing, i decided to taste it. it was a pretty bad move and i started to tear and feel the "rush" of "intensity" up my nose~ lolx=P
charmaine started laughing like crazy and when i challenged her to try the wasabi, she teared too~ loLx=P
i guess we're all a little sadistic~ =X
longfei started to become crazy, ordering plates after plates of salmon sushi! i guess we ate a whopping total of close to 25 plates of salmon sushi. but, the salmon was super fresh, cold and soft~ really loved it so much that i won't mind having more plates of salmon sushi~ loLx=P
headed home and we went to charmaine's house to "play?" rather, watch television and catch a little sleep=X i fell asleep on her bed while watching china beat new zealand in basketball=/ sigh~ i was expecting new zealand to win as they played the nicer basketball.
then, charmaine started to become crazy and played DVDs and VCDs of her favourite singers, INCLUDING PAN WEI BO! shEesh=/ but, at least she played ai shang wei lai de ni, which happens to be the only song i like from pan wei bo. loLx=P
longfei finally popped the sacred question - wanna go home? hahaZz=P finally left charmaine's house, i guess much to her delight and both of us forgot something that charmaine gave us - foaming shampoo and conditioner from loreal.
ayEe~ my stomach's still feels of salmon~ loLx!
Monday, August 16, 2004
before i forget, the american softball team's pitcher, Catherine OSTERMAN, is extremely pretty!! she's only 21 years old but she's 1.87 metres tall~!! woAh!! check out her tan too! it's EXTREMELY BEAUTIFUL!! not forgetting their opponents, Japan~ woah~ pretty girls too~
can i represent Singapore for the next olympics? please?
pretty cool day~ i was supposed to meet herman at 10am to study in school, but i had to help jessica print some stuffs. so, after completing everything, it was 3pm~
at around 12pm, charmaine finally replied my message and she bought lunch for me!! cause i was lazy to buy myself. as it was raining a little, i hunted for an umbrella at home and took it down with me. but, when i met charmaine under my block, the sun started shining brightly.
so, as usual, i sent her home.
charmaine suggested that i have lunch at her place as she would be walking back to school afterwards~ so, i had my lunch in her room while she watched tv. as she had english orals, she started reading the english subtitles~ she sounded really funny~
we fought over the remote control as i wanted to watch the olympics and she wanted to watch senseless hongkong shows. hAaz~ in the end, i gave in and watched senseless hongkong shows=/
made sure that she bought her entry proof to school and we went off together.
didn't send her to school, but i headed home straight. received the files that i was supposed to print and starting printing it.
soon, it was 3pm and i rushed down to school. received a message from herman that they are about to leave. so i tried to convince them to study for 1 more hour, but i failed. when i reached the library, they said that they are coming out and asked me to wait outside. we met and bought sandwiches to eat, afterwhich, we headed BACK to bukit panjang. loLz=P
i was in school for a mere 15 minutes! at least it wasn't wasted. i passed the printed assignment to jessica.
charmaine replied my message again, and started complaining about her orals. apparently, she's quite scared of doing badly for her orals as the teachers asked her 4 questions and some of which, were repeated.
as i wasn't wearing basketball shoes, we met up at BPCC and i sent her home again. loLx~ endless of complains when we were walking back.
headed home, changed and proceeded back to BPCC.
there were pretty much people today and we kept playing games.
there were a few games when our tempers soared. started to play really rough and i twisted my back again. loLz~ but thank God, the pain's gone when i continued playing~ =X
today isn't quite a good day to play basketball. i was so weak that my hands were trembling after 1 game of basketball, so i decided to spend money and get myself a chicken bao to fill my stomach. thank God that the bao really helped me and i felt a little more energized.
even when i was trying to run, i felt that my speed was depleted. its only towards the last few games when i regained my speed=/
so kids, its very important to have regular meals if you want to have strength!
can i represent Singapore for the next olympics? please?
pretty cool day~ i was supposed to meet herman at 10am to study in school, but i had to help jessica print some stuffs. so, after completing everything, it was 3pm~
at around 12pm, charmaine finally replied my message and she bought lunch for me!! cause i was lazy to buy myself. as it was raining a little, i hunted for an umbrella at home and took it down with me. but, when i met charmaine under my block, the sun started shining brightly.
so, as usual, i sent her home.
charmaine suggested that i have lunch at her place as she would be walking back to school afterwards~ so, i had my lunch in her room while she watched tv. as she had english orals, she started reading the english subtitles~ she sounded really funny~
we fought over the remote control as i wanted to watch the olympics and she wanted to watch senseless hongkong shows. hAaz~ in the end, i gave in and watched senseless hongkong shows=/
made sure that she bought her entry proof to school and we went off together.
didn't send her to school, but i headed home straight. received the files that i was supposed to print and starting printing it.
soon, it was 3pm and i rushed down to school. received a message from herman that they are about to leave. so i tried to convince them to study for 1 more hour, but i failed. when i reached the library, they said that they are coming out and asked me to wait outside. we met and bought sandwiches to eat, afterwhich, we headed BACK to bukit panjang. loLz=P
i was in school for a mere 15 minutes! at least it wasn't wasted. i passed the printed assignment to jessica.
charmaine replied my message again, and started complaining about her orals. apparently, she's quite scared of doing badly for her orals as the teachers asked her 4 questions and some of which, were repeated.
as i wasn't wearing basketball shoes, we met up at BPCC and i sent her home again. loLx~ endless of complains when we were walking back.
headed home, changed and proceeded back to BPCC.
there were pretty much people today and we kept playing games.
there were a few games when our tempers soared. started to play really rough and i twisted my back again. loLz~ but thank God, the pain's gone when i continued playing~ =X
today isn't quite a good day to play basketball. i was so weak that my hands were trembling after 1 game of basketball, so i decided to spend money and get myself a chicken bao to fill my stomach. thank God that the bao really helped me and i felt a little more energized.
even when i was trying to run, i felt that my speed was depleted. its only towards the last few games when i regained my speed=/
so kids, its very important to have regular meals if you want to have strength!
okay. be prepared for a great ride ahead.
i was reading Benedict's blog and he shared his experience for his Mission Trip to KL. he even shared a sermon that Pastor Joshua taught them, and i thought it would be nice to share it here too=)
Receiving The Anointing To Move In Signs and Wonders!
1. Praying Strongly in Tongues!
this, basically, is the ultimate most important gift to practise. Pastor Joshua gave them a illustration - An Electric Kettle.
when we pray in tongues, it isn't us who prays, but its the Holy Spirit who gives us utterance! and because its the Holy Spirit giving us utterance, we should feel stronger and stronger as we continue praying for long hours.
back to the electric kettle, when the kettle is turned on, current flows from the main socket and right into the coil, thus heating the water up in the kettle.
similarly, when we pray in tongues, we receive the Holy Spirit into our bodies. the longer we "boil", the hotter it gets. so, when we spend time praying strongly in tongues, it is the amount of hours which your Spiritman is built up and that is the anointing you receive.
you may say that speaking in tongues is something of the devil, or its weird. the devil have definately done a great job in some churches because they do not believe in tongues and they would never speak in tongues either.
but, would God give us a gift that would harm us? the reason why there are so many misconceptions is because the devil himself is AFRAID of us speaking in tongues. when we speak in tongues, it is the Holy Spirit that is praying in us and it takes us into the Spiritual Realm. when we start speaking in tongues, the devils and even satan himself would PEE in their pants and flee! Hallelujah!
back to God, would he give us a gift that would harm us? NO!
the bible NEVER states that praying in tongues is evil, nor does it say that praying in tongues is weird. even the great Apostle Paul said, "I thank God that i pray in tongues more than you all."
another simple reason, would God give us a gift that would harm us? NO! God is not a God that He should lie! and the bible says that God, is a GOOD God! He gives GOOD gifts to his children and one of the gifts is speaking in tongues!
why did God give us the gift of speaking in tongues? so that we can all pray to Him in the Spirit!
you may speak many different languages, but there would be someone else who knows what you are talking about. but, speaking in tongues is different! only God knows what we're speaking about because its the Holy Spirit that's praying for us in us!
speaking in tongues, can never be and would never be bad!
back to the first point, Pastor Joshua shared that he would pray for 6 hours everyday for 2 years! Pastor Joshua was so into the spiritual realm that when he closed his eyes, he could see demonic forces floating all around him as clearly as he see things with his eyes open! that shows how powerful speaking in tongues is! taking us into the spiritual realm!
2. Worshipping in Tongues!
this is important as well. to move in signs and wonders, we got to lift people up into the spiritual level. Pastor Joshua shared that in Genesis 1:2-3 "And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters. then God said, "let there be light"; and there was light."
few things happened here. firstly, the bible says that the Spirit of God hovered. what does that mean? it means that everyone feels the powerful presence of God when we worship God during service. that, my friends, is the Spirit of God HOVERING in the place!
the people can feel the presence of God in the place and that is what is meant by lifting them up into the Spiritual Realm.
secondly, the bible said that God said. GOD SPOKE! God said let there be light, and there was light! God did a miracle!
similarly, when people are lifted into this state, when you heal, they shall be healed and when you say "FALL!", they all would fall under the powerful presence of God!!
so, in order to lift people up to this Spiritual Realm, we always worship in the Spirit. worship is extremely important as it brings the presence of God into the place!
so, if you want to receive the anointing to move in signs and wonders, worship God in the Spirit and in Truth! worship God in tongues!!
3. Communing with the Holy Spirit!
simply, it means to talk to God! it's basically conversing with the Holy Spirit! every single day, every single moment when we're alone, communicate with the Holy Spirit!! tell Him all your worries, cares and all your heart desires! every single detail in your heart!
God knows our heart, but He wants us to speak it out!
communing with the Holy Spirit will make us grow in sensitivity to His voice! ain't that GREAT!?
4. Do NOTHING that Displeases The Holy Spirit!
Pastor Benny Hinn, the great faith preacher once had a experience. he was about to meet his relative for lunch when the Holy Spirit spoke to him, "come and commune with Me."
but, Pastor Benny Hinn told the Holy Spirit that he really wanted to meet up with his relative and he went on to meet him. so, that night during Pastor Benny Hinn's rally, he was UNABLE to perform any miracle! everyone was puzzled as they expected to see something, but the presence of God was not present.
thus, Pastor Benny Hinn stopped the rally and went back to his hotel room, broke down and repented of his disobedience.
the next day, Pastor Benny Hinn did MANY powerful miracles!!
so, when the Holy Spirit calls us to do something, once, twice or three times, JUST DO IT! never ever displease the Holy Spirit!
5. Mixing with Anointed People!
it simply means to mix around with people who have the strong anointing to move in signs and wonders! we got to learn from them, talk to them, keep in touch with them if we know them!! Pastor Joshua learnt via videos about powerful faith preaches like Pastor Benny Hinn, Pastor Kong etc etc.
as we mix around with such people, their anointing rubs off onto us and we get "infected!"
praise the Lord!
6. The Word of God.
this simply means reading the bible everyday and immensing ourselves in the written word of God, or "logos" in greek terms. speaking in tongues, communing with the Holy Spirit, worshipping in tongues, mixing with anointed people would enable the Holy Spirit to speak through the "Rhema" or "Spoken Word" of God!
besides receiving the Rhema from God, we got to submit ourselves to the authority of the bible! thats just to submit ourselves to the Logos of God and to read our bibles!!
as simple as ABC!!
so, in conclusion, if we want to receive the anointing to move in signs and wonders, we got to speak in tongues powerfully! we got to communicate with the Holy Spirit and mix around with people who have this anointing!! most of all, we can't do things that would displease the Holy Spirit. we got to stay strong in times of temptations and especially when the devil launches Spiritual Warfare on us.
lastly, we need to submit ourselves to the authority of the Logos!!
remember, we do not go after signs and wonders. but, signs and wonders will FOLLOW us when we do these things faithfully. there is a great sacrifice to be made, but God's a GREAT God! Hallelujah!!
i was reading Benedict's blog and he shared his experience for his Mission Trip to KL. he even shared a sermon that Pastor Joshua taught them, and i thought it would be nice to share it here too=)
Receiving The Anointing To Move In Signs and Wonders!
1. Praying Strongly in Tongues!
this, basically, is the ultimate most important gift to practise. Pastor Joshua gave them a illustration - An Electric Kettle.
when we pray in tongues, it isn't us who prays, but its the Holy Spirit who gives us utterance! and because its the Holy Spirit giving us utterance, we should feel stronger and stronger as we continue praying for long hours.
back to the electric kettle, when the kettle is turned on, current flows from the main socket and right into the coil, thus heating the water up in the kettle.
similarly, when we pray in tongues, we receive the Holy Spirit into our bodies. the longer we "boil", the hotter it gets. so, when we spend time praying strongly in tongues, it is the amount of hours which your Spiritman is built up and that is the anointing you receive.
you may say that speaking in tongues is something of the devil, or its weird. the devil have definately done a great job in some churches because they do not believe in tongues and they would never speak in tongues either.
but, would God give us a gift that would harm us? the reason why there are so many misconceptions is because the devil himself is AFRAID of us speaking in tongues. when we speak in tongues, it is the Holy Spirit that is praying in us and it takes us into the Spiritual Realm. when we start speaking in tongues, the devils and even satan himself would PEE in their pants and flee! Hallelujah!
back to God, would he give us a gift that would harm us? NO!
the bible NEVER states that praying in tongues is evil, nor does it say that praying in tongues is weird. even the great Apostle Paul said, "I thank God that i pray in tongues more than you all."
another simple reason, would God give us a gift that would harm us? NO! God is not a God that He should lie! and the bible says that God, is a GOOD God! He gives GOOD gifts to his children and one of the gifts is speaking in tongues!
why did God give us the gift of speaking in tongues? so that we can all pray to Him in the Spirit!
you may speak many different languages, but there would be someone else who knows what you are talking about. but, speaking in tongues is different! only God knows what we're speaking about because its the Holy Spirit that's praying for us in us!
speaking in tongues, can never be and would never be bad!
back to the first point, Pastor Joshua shared that he would pray for 6 hours everyday for 2 years! Pastor Joshua was so into the spiritual realm that when he closed his eyes, he could see demonic forces floating all around him as clearly as he see things with his eyes open! that shows how powerful speaking in tongues is! taking us into the spiritual realm!
2. Worshipping in Tongues!
this is important as well. to move in signs and wonders, we got to lift people up into the spiritual level. Pastor Joshua shared that in Genesis 1:2-3 "And the Spirit of God was hovering over the face of the waters. then God said, "let there be light"; and there was light."
few things happened here. firstly, the bible says that the Spirit of God hovered. what does that mean? it means that everyone feels the powerful presence of God when we worship God during service. that, my friends, is the Spirit of God HOVERING in the place!
the people can feel the presence of God in the place and that is what is meant by lifting them up into the Spiritual Realm.
secondly, the bible said that God said. GOD SPOKE! God said let there be light, and there was light! God did a miracle!
similarly, when people are lifted into this state, when you heal, they shall be healed and when you say "FALL!", they all would fall under the powerful presence of God!!
so, in order to lift people up to this Spiritual Realm, we always worship in the Spirit. worship is extremely important as it brings the presence of God into the place!
so, if you want to receive the anointing to move in signs and wonders, worship God in the Spirit and in Truth! worship God in tongues!!
3. Communing with the Holy Spirit!
simply, it means to talk to God! it's basically conversing with the Holy Spirit! every single day, every single moment when we're alone, communicate with the Holy Spirit!! tell Him all your worries, cares and all your heart desires! every single detail in your heart!
God knows our heart, but He wants us to speak it out!
communing with the Holy Spirit will make us grow in sensitivity to His voice! ain't that GREAT!?
4. Do NOTHING that Displeases The Holy Spirit!
Pastor Benny Hinn, the great faith preacher once had a experience. he was about to meet his relative for lunch when the Holy Spirit spoke to him, "come and commune with Me."
but, Pastor Benny Hinn told the Holy Spirit that he really wanted to meet up with his relative and he went on to meet him. so, that night during Pastor Benny Hinn's rally, he was UNABLE to perform any miracle! everyone was puzzled as they expected to see something, but the presence of God was not present.
thus, Pastor Benny Hinn stopped the rally and went back to his hotel room, broke down and repented of his disobedience.
the next day, Pastor Benny Hinn did MANY powerful miracles!!
so, when the Holy Spirit calls us to do something, once, twice or three times, JUST DO IT! never ever displease the Holy Spirit!
5. Mixing with Anointed People!
it simply means to mix around with people who have the strong anointing to move in signs and wonders! we got to learn from them, talk to them, keep in touch with them if we know them!! Pastor Joshua learnt via videos about powerful faith preaches like Pastor Benny Hinn, Pastor Kong etc etc.
as we mix around with such people, their anointing rubs off onto us and we get "infected!"
praise the Lord!
6. The Word of God.
this simply means reading the bible everyday and immensing ourselves in the written word of God, or "logos" in greek terms. speaking in tongues, communing with the Holy Spirit, worshipping in tongues, mixing with anointed people would enable the Holy Spirit to speak through the "Rhema" or "Spoken Word" of God!
besides receiving the Rhema from God, we got to submit ourselves to the authority of the bible! thats just to submit ourselves to the Logos of God and to read our bibles!!
as simple as ABC!!
so, in conclusion, if we want to receive the anointing to move in signs and wonders, we got to speak in tongues powerfully! we got to communicate with the Holy Spirit and mix around with people who have this anointing!! most of all, we can't do things that would displease the Holy Spirit. we got to stay strong in times of temptations and especially when the devil launches Spiritual Warfare on us.
lastly, we need to submit ourselves to the authority of the Logos!!
remember, we do not go after signs and wonders. but, signs and wonders will FOLLOW us when we do these things faithfully. there is a great sacrifice to be made, but God's a GREAT God! Hallelujah!!
Sunday, August 15, 2004
didn't blog last night as i was pretty tired~ couldn't gather my thoughts.
saturday -
met up with patricia and we headed to city hall to meet her cellgroup leader, mirabell. she gave patricia bible studies and mirabell even printed a copy for me to go through too~ =D
the bible studies was about deliverance, and i was immediately hooked onto it~ i guess patricia have never seen me so serious before, she couldn't stop laughing in the beginning. loLz=P
after finishing bible studies, we met up with the other kids who would be watching the performance - The Spook Show by Faith Community Baptise Church.
its a really great show put up by Pastor Khong and his daughter, Priscilla. they were performing "spiritual" stuffs that meddled with the spirits and the devil. but, its all an illusion.
at the beginning, i was really shocked. i asked patricia if that's really his pastor as the magic tricks he was performing involved something like blackmagic and if my memory serves me right, i remember that God condemns blackmagic! haHaz~
but, after the performance, Pastor Khong started to explain his reasons why he did such a performance and even assured everyone that whatever he did were all illusions. then, when he gave the altar call, thousands of people responded and went forward to receive Christ in their lives.
sunday -
City Harvest Church 15th anniversary! woke up pretty early and recomfirmed the number of friends that would be joining me~ thank God for herman, weiming, patricia, michelle, shawna, joyce, angeline and binghui, who was extremely late.
met up with charmaine and her sister, Sister Sharon drove us to CCK to wait for the shuttlebus to church.
finally, we reached church and it was really packed. bought my friends down with ease before rushing up the stairs to get joyce and angeline down again. but, they took a pretty long time and by the time they reached, we almost lost our seats at the auditorium. thank God, the seats were not given away to other people~
parade of ministry!! some of the performances were really nice~ JAMs Ministiry, Children Church, Infants Ministry, Vocals Ministry and SECURITY!! =D
Pastor Kong gave a short little sermon - 4 keys to survive stress.
great message at this time!! the poly common tests are coming next week and i guess most people are feeling a little stressed right now. Pastor Kong's really right when he said, saying is easy but doing it is difficult.
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its never easy not to worry about things that may happen and getting a little frustrated over the way things were done.
i think the spirit of excellence is taking over the spirit of sloppyness and im starting to think differently - like how should things be done.
i started to realise it when today's incidents didn't flow the way i expected. there were many hiccups and it caused slight disruptions. though you may think that its fine, but i guess that to a certain extend, its not the way we should do things.
things are meant to be done in a organised way. yes, its true that Christians have to be flexible, but not in a sloppy manner! if thats the case, how can we give glory to God?
or is it that im getting more and more dominant?
anyway, praise the Lord~ the harvest is PLENTIFUL! hAhaz! 2 days of witnessing large numbers of people responding and accepting Christ in their lives really encouraged me a lot.
saturday -
met up with patricia and we headed to city hall to meet her cellgroup leader, mirabell. she gave patricia bible studies and mirabell even printed a copy for me to go through too~ =D
the bible studies was about deliverance, and i was immediately hooked onto it~ i guess patricia have never seen me so serious before, she couldn't stop laughing in the beginning. loLz=P
after finishing bible studies, we met up with the other kids who would be watching the performance - The Spook Show by Faith Community Baptise Church.
its a really great show put up by Pastor Khong and his daughter, Priscilla. they were performing "spiritual" stuffs that meddled with the spirits and the devil. but, its all an illusion.
at the beginning, i was really shocked. i asked patricia if that's really his pastor as the magic tricks he was performing involved something like blackmagic and if my memory serves me right, i remember that God condemns blackmagic! haHaz~
but, after the performance, Pastor Khong started to explain his reasons why he did such a performance and even assured everyone that whatever he did were all illusions. then, when he gave the altar call, thousands of people responded and went forward to receive Christ in their lives.
sunday -
City Harvest Church 15th anniversary! woke up pretty early and recomfirmed the number of friends that would be joining me~ thank God for herman, weiming, patricia, michelle, shawna, joyce, angeline and binghui, who was extremely late.
met up with charmaine and her sister, Sister Sharon drove us to CCK to wait for the shuttlebus to church.
finally, we reached church and it was really packed. bought my friends down with ease before rushing up the stairs to get joyce and angeline down again. but, they took a pretty long time and by the time they reached, we almost lost our seats at the auditorium. thank God, the seats were not given away to other people~
parade of ministry!! some of the performances were really nice~ JAMs Ministiry, Children Church, Infants Ministry, Vocals Ministry and SECURITY!! =D
Pastor Kong gave a short little sermon - 4 keys to survive stress.
great message at this time!! the poly common tests are coming next week and i guess most people are feeling a little stressed right now. Pastor Kong's really right when he said, saying is easy but doing it is difficult.
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its never easy not to worry about things that may happen and getting a little frustrated over the way things were done.
i think the spirit of excellence is taking over the spirit of sloppyness and im starting to think differently - like how should things be done.
i started to realise it when today's incidents didn't flow the way i expected. there were many hiccups and it caused slight disruptions. though you may think that its fine, but i guess that to a certain extend, its not the way we should do things.
things are meant to be done in a organised way. yes, its true that Christians have to be flexible, but not in a sloppy manner! if thats the case, how can we give glory to God?
or is it that im getting more and more dominant?
anyway, praise the Lord~ the harvest is PLENTIFUL! hAhaz! 2 days of witnessing large numbers of people responding and accepting Christ in their lives really encouraged me a lot.
Saturday, August 14, 2004
it definitely feels different waking up with a smile, knowing that its a day FULL of love, peace and joy!
its also a day full of God's miracles and powers being released into hearts of many - harden hearts made soft~ empty hearts being filled~ broken hearts being mend~
God's with us, who can be against us? =)
its also a day full of God's miracles and powers being released into hearts of many - harden hearts made soft~ empty hearts being filled~ broken hearts being mend~
God's with us, who can be against us? =)
Friday, August 13, 2004
another day of learning and experiences.
my day was pretty chaotic as brother caleb decided to have this cellgroup meeting postphoned and i had to look for another cellgroup within 2 hours. thank God i didn't panic and give up totally, but sorting it out with God, i messaged Charmaine and asked for help. thank God she told me that i'm able to search for cellgroups that are on fridays.
thank God, i found Brother Faji on the list and Charmaine helped me to get the number from her sister, Sister Sharon. immediately, i messaged Brother Faji and waited for his reply.
shortly, Brother Faji called me and gladly accepted my sudden request to join his cellgroup for make up. thank God~!! i'm not cellgroup-less anymore! =X
decided not to go home after school as it would be a little rushed. so i headed to jurong entertainment center and had my dinner there. while waiting for time to pass, i read the book - the power of postive thoughts. i was so inspired by the book to start praying for everyone, anyone, anywhere and everywhere that i really started to pray, not aloud, but in my heart for the people i see around me.
its not by chance that we meet, but its all pre-arranged by God.
sat under the block, waiting for Brother Faji to bring me up. as i sat there and continued reading the book, at the same time, praying for the elderys around me. then, i changed books and read the word of God=)
felt someone walk pass me and i looked up. it's augustine! hahaZz=P he's from Brother Faji's cellgroup and he's going for the cellgroup meeting too~ so, he brought me up to the house and introduced me to the other members~
they were all pretty young youths, all on fire and excited for God. the youngest is secondary 1 i think, and i seem to be one of the oldest there~ lolx=P
i was a little uncomfortable in the beginning, but there were a few of them who came up to me and introduced themselves to me~ soon, Brother Faji reached and cellgroup started~!
there's was so much openess in the atmosphere! everyone praised and worshipped God with all their hearts and the decibel level was pretty high~
then, Brother Faji started to share the word of God - Faith and the Word of God.
its a great message and it has certainly equipped me, to be ready in all circumstances.
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had i decided not to go for cellgroup meeting, i would have missed out on a great experience and move of the Holy Spirit.
remembering what shuling encouraged me last night, i kept my faith and expectations in God running high. it was truely an eye opener for me and i felt the Holy Spirit stirring up in me, indicating his presence within me.
Genesis 28:15 - Behold, I am with you and will keep you wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land; for I will not leave you until I have done what I have spoken to you.
God has spoken a dream into our hearts, and He would NOT leave us until the dream has come to past.
friends, if you got a dream, and its not coming to past. do not be disheartened. hang onto the dream, get a promise from God from His word.
a Rhema.
what's a rhema? its a personal word from God to YOU!
and how do u get that?
read the word of God, pray - visalize - actionlize.
pray - ask God to strengthen you and give you wisdom to overcome difficulties in the journey.
visalize - picture yourselve achieving your goal, and remember that picture! keep it visualized in your mind, never let it go. when negative thoughts seeps in, start bombarding your mind with postive thoughts!
actionlize - you can't shake your leg and expect everything to be done on its own. get out there and do what your supposed to do to achieve your goals~!
follow these simple steps and you would feel a change in your life.
i'm serious.
my day was pretty chaotic as brother caleb decided to have this cellgroup meeting postphoned and i had to look for another cellgroup within 2 hours. thank God i didn't panic and give up totally, but sorting it out with God, i messaged Charmaine and asked for help. thank God she told me that i'm able to search for cellgroups that are on fridays.
thank God, i found Brother Faji on the list and Charmaine helped me to get the number from her sister, Sister Sharon. immediately, i messaged Brother Faji and waited for his reply.
shortly, Brother Faji called me and gladly accepted my sudden request to join his cellgroup for make up. thank God~!! i'm not cellgroup-less anymore! =X
decided not to go home after school as it would be a little rushed. so i headed to jurong entertainment center and had my dinner there. while waiting for time to pass, i read the book - the power of postive thoughts. i was so inspired by the book to start praying for everyone, anyone, anywhere and everywhere that i really started to pray, not aloud, but in my heart for the people i see around me.
its not by chance that we meet, but its all pre-arranged by God.
sat under the block, waiting for Brother Faji to bring me up. as i sat there and continued reading the book, at the same time, praying for the elderys around me. then, i changed books and read the word of God=)
felt someone walk pass me and i looked up. it's augustine! hahaZz=P he's from Brother Faji's cellgroup and he's going for the cellgroup meeting too~ so, he brought me up to the house and introduced me to the other members~
they were all pretty young youths, all on fire and excited for God. the youngest is secondary 1 i think, and i seem to be one of the oldest there~ lolx=P
i was a little uncomfortable in the beginning, but there were a few of them who came up to me and introduced themselves to me~ soon, Brother Faji reached and cellgroup started~!
there's was so much openess in the atmosphere! everyone praised and worshipped God with all their hearts and the decibel level was pretty high~
then, Brother Faji started to share the word of God - Faith and the Word of God.
its a great message and it has certainly equipped me, to be ready in all circumstances.
-
had i decided not to go for cellgroup meeting, i would have missed out on a great experience and move of the Holy Spirit.
remembering what shuling encouraged me last night, i kept my faith and expectations in God running high. it was truely an eye opener for me and i felt the Holy Spirit stirring up in me, indicating his presence within me.
Genesis 28:15 - Behold, I am with you and will keep you wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land; for I will not leave you until I have done what I have spoken to you.
God has spoken a dream into our hearts, and He would NOT leave us until the dream has come to past.
friends, if you got a dream, and its not coming to past. do not be disheartened. hang onto the dream, get a promise from God from His word.
a Rhema.
what's a rhema? its a personal word from God to YOU!
and how do u get that?
read the word of God, pray - visalize - actionlize.
pray - ask God to strengthen you and give you wisdom to overcome difficulties in the journey.
visalize - picture yourselve achieving your goal, and remember that picture! keep it visualized in your mind, never let it go. when negative thoughts seeps in, start bombarding your mind with postive thoughts!
actionlize - you can't shake your leg and expect everything to be done on its own. get out there and do what your supposed to do to achieve your goals~!
follow these simple steps and you would feel a change in your life.
i'm serious.
i feel burdened.
but, i know that the burden in me is good, positive and encouraging.
this burden in me wants me to grow, to be more and more Christ-like in my daily life.
this burden in me wants me to read the bible from cover to cover, to be hungry for God's word - His word is food for our spirit.
this burden in me wants me to reach out, grab the vision God gave me and fulfill it - rising up, man of God, revival, fire, passion, holiness, Glory of God; the list goes on.
this burden in me burns, pushing me to use every minute of the day to serve God - 24 hours a day, lets not waste it.
this burden in me wants me to obey, ever ready and listening to God's instructions. being a servant and serving others, instead of serving myself.
this burden in me would leave, if my relationship with God is stained.
but, i don't want this burden to leave.
because this burden is me is unique and i know that many other people are feeling this way now.
this burden is called the Holy Spirit.
but, i know that the burden in me is good, positive and encouraging.
this burden in me wants me to grow, to be more and more Christ-like in my daily life.
this burden in me wants me to read the bible from cover to cover, to be hungry for God's word - His word is food for our spirit.
this burden in me wants me to reach out, grab the vision God gave me and fulfill it - rising up, man of God, revival, fire, passion, holiness, Glory of God; the list goes on.
this burden in me burns, pushing me to use every minute of the day to serve God - 24 hours a day, lets not waste it.
this burden in me wants me to obey, ever ready and listening to God's instructions. being a servant and serving others, instead of serving myself.
this burden in me would leave, if my relationship with God is stained.
but, i don't want this burden to leave.
because this burden is me is unique and i know that many other people are feeling this way now.
this burden is called the Holy Spirit.
it maybe a long day for me, but nothing's gonna stop me from going full speed ahead~!
school today, in fact, was very interesting. for once, our DM lecturer got out of her laziness and prepared revision notes for us! it contained questions that would be covered in the common test and she even wrote the solutions down~ thank God~!!
it's serene's birthday and she went around class, gave everyone a packet containing 3 sweets! i felt quite bad abit it cause we were totally caught off guard and no one prepared anything for her.
my last 2 hours of school was a little frantic. we started late as we were late for class, as a result, we had to rush a little and even after school ended, we were still in the practical lab, fixing up the circults or helping other groups who needed help.
thank God shuling ended early and she helped me print stuffs that we needed for prayer meeting in church. thanksz a MILLION!!
i felt pretty excited about the prayer meeting and i had visions of prayer meetings filled with people from ngee ann poly, praying about the same vision - revival. even though there wasn't much people today, the presence of God filled the atmosphere and i felt like i was in another "timezone" - peaceful and comforting.
after prayer meeting, i had my dinner, finally. ate xiao wan mian!! hAhaz! i guess i'm a little addicated to it, after charmaine introduced me that dish~ it's really really really nice!! i can't wait to eat somemore~ =D
anyway, enough of crap about my day.
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i learnt so much things today. being a Christian is never easy.
like what everyone would say, the Christian walk is never easy, but its extremely fulfilling - not our will, but God's will. what's better then seeing people being added into the kingdom of God?
we carry the presence of God in us and we got to show it to everyone! would you be interested in a person who looks extremely down in whatever stuffs he/she does?
or when his mouth contradicts his beliefs?
being a Christian is not a "okay, i believe in Jesus Christ, my Lord and Saviour" if my lifestyle doesn't refect the way it should be, then i'm not even fit to be called a Christian.
there have been many misconceptions about Christians. it seems that many people thinks that we simply ask for forgiveness of our sins and still go around sinning. that is not the lifestyle of a Christian!
a lifestyle of a Christian is like being a light in the dark. when people are lost, they look for the light at the end of the tunnel, but they travel in the darkness for a period of darkness. but when Christians, on the other hand, when we are lost, we're not in the dark. we know that behind every problem or challenge lies a lesson for us to learn from God and we also know that Jesus would always be with us, leading and guiding us thru each "mountain" of problems.
a lesson that would stay with us for our lives, so that we would be that guiding light to those that are stuck in the tunnel.
a lifestyle is like how would Christians handle our everyday life?
thats the real beauty about everything, and the best part is that, THATS NOT ALL! there's so much more for me to learn and find out.
having faith and expectancy in every church related events, and that includes cellgroups, bible studies~ a simple equation - faith + expectancy = miracles of God. having the faith to believe in God's promises and expect something great from God to happen =)
God's on our side, who can be against us? =)
school today, in fact, was very interesting. for once, our DM lecturer got out of her laziness and prepared revision notes for us! it contained questions that would be covered in the common test and she even wrote the solutions down~ thank God~!!
it's serene's birthday and she went around class, gave everyone a packet containing 3 sweets! i felt quite bad abit it cause we were totally caught off guard and no one prepared anything for her.
my last 2 hours of school was a little frantic. we started late as we were late for class, as a result, we had to rush a little and even after school ended, we were still in the practical lab, fixing up the circults or helping other groups who needed help.
thank God shuling ended early and she helped me print stuffs that we needed for prayer meeting in church. thanksz a MILLION!!
i felt pretty excited about the prayer meeting and i had visions of prayer meetings filled with people from ngee ann poly, praying about the same vision - revival. even though there wasn't much people today, the presence of God filled the atmosphere and i felt like i was in another "timezone" - peaceful and comforting.
after prayer meeting, i had my dinner, finally. ate xiao wan mian!! hAhaz! i guess i'm a little addicated to it, after charmaine introduced me that dish~ it's really really really nice!! i can't wait to eat somemore~ =D
anyway, enough of crap about my day.
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i learnt so much things today. being a Christian is never easy.
like what everyone would say, the Christian walk is never easy, but its extremely fulfilling - not our will, but God's will. what's better then seeing people being added into the kingdom of God?
we carry the presence of God in us and we got to show it to everyone! would you be interested in a person who looks extremely down in whatever stuffs he/she does?
or when his mouth contradicts his beliefs?
being a Christian is not a "okay, i believe in Jesus Christ, my Lord and Saviour" if my lifestyle doesn't refect the way it should be, then i'm not even fit to be called a Christian.
there have been many misconceptions about Christians. it seems that many people thinks that we simply ask for forgiveness of our sins and still go around sinning. that is not the lifestyle of a Christian!
a lifestyle of a Christian is like being a light in the dark. when people are lost, they look for the light at the end of the tunnel, but they travel in the darkness for a period of darkness. but when Christians, on the other hand, when we are lost, we're not in the dark. we know that behind every problem or challenge lies a lesson for us to learn from God and we also know that Jesus would always be with us, leading and guiding us thru each "mountain" of problems.
a lesson that would stay with us for our lives, so that we would be that guiding light to those that are stuck in the tunnel.
a lifestyle is like how would Christians handle our everyday life?
thats the real beauty about everything, and the best part is that, THATS NOT ALL! there's so much more for me to learn and find out.
having faith and expectancy in every church related events, and that includes cellgroups, bible studies~ a simple equation - faith + expectancy = miracles of God. having the faith to believe in God's promises and expect something great from God to happen =)
God's on our side, who can be against us? =)
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
Jet - Look What You've Done
Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to prove
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Give me back my point of view
'Cause I just can't think for you
I can hardly hear you say
What should I do, well you choose
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
Take my photo off the wall
If it just won't sing for you
'Cause all that's left has gone away
And there's nothing there for you to do
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems likes such fun
Until you lose what you had won
Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
A fool of everyone
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
boring tuesday - spell that in caps.
i guess complaining about PQS won't bring me anywhere nearer to loving the next lesson. so, no point complaining about how the lecturer talks with a monotone voice or how freaking cold the classroom was.
the next 5 hours was spent at home, chatting online in MSN, trying to cheer jasmine up because of a problem. well, thank God because i received a message from her and she said that she managed to talk to the person and the problem's cleared =) praise the Lord!
went back to school for TVE lessons. well, its our last lecture class and that means that i can't see the pretty girl anymore!! haHaz! anyways, i found out that her name is serene~ heH hEh. but, i'm not interested in her=P just feel that she's pretty, thats all~
we watched a clip - the gods must be hungry, and it shows about the different cultures and religons in singapore. the episode featured the taoism and the hindus's faith. it was really interesting watching how the taoist priest got possessed by 1 of their gods and starts smoking, drinking and speaking.
then, they showed another footage of the priest, in her normal daily life. i noticed that she was smoking. then, when the TV crew interviewed her, she spoke in authority of another deity and the deity said that she chose the women as she's honest, nice and a good girl. but, it didn't quite match the qualities when the TV crew filmed the priest in her normal daily life.
contradicting?
i know that i am not in any position to judge, but this is just my point of view. so, i guess its just for reading pleasure.
went back home for dinner before heading out to BP macdonalds to study with herman and gang. quite a big number today - eddie, herman, zongxian, yonglin, xuanfeng and on the other table were the girls - patricia, michelle and other girls whose names i don't know.
we ended up laughing at lame jokes herman and xuanfeng cracked~ we were unable to concentrate afterwards, and after forcing ourselves to concentrate, the jokes came back again~ loLz=P in the end, i gave up and decided to continue reading on the book - The Power of Positive Thoughts.
its a really cool book and the title says it all =)
was walking home and we heard a loud slap, followed by glass shattering. we turned around and i saw my friend standing there. apparently, she was being hit by her ex-boyfriend? i know i shouldn't be saying this, but i wonder why must her ex-bf resort to violence.
i felt quite bad afterwards as i didn't go back and help her. instead, i told my friends that i didn't know her ex-bf and walked off. sigh. i don't think thats the way i want to be=/ and if i were to go back and confront that guy, our chances of "winning" maybe higher as our number outnumbers that 1 person.
unless, of cause he calls for his "brudders"
anyway, no point creating trouble. it's a harmful cycle.
i guess complaining about PQS won't bring me anywhere nearer to loving the next lesson. so, no point complaining about how the lecturer talks with a monotone voice or how freaking cold the classroom was.
the next 5 hours was spent at home, chatting online in MSN, trying to cheer jasmine up because of a problem. well, thank God because i received a message from her and she said that she managed to talk to the person and the problem's cleared =) praise the Lord!
went back to school for TVE lessons. well, its our last lecture class and that means that i can't see the pretty girl anymore!! haHaz! anyways, i found out that her name is serene~ heH hEh. but, i'm not interested in her=P just feel that she's pretty, thats all~
we watched a clip - the gods must be hungry, and it shows about the different cultures and religons in singapore. the episode featured the taoism and the hindus's faith. it was really interesting watching how the taoist priest got possessed by 1 of their gods and starts smoking, drinking and speaking.
then, they showed another footage of the priest, in her normal daily life. i noticed that she was smoking. then, when the TV crew interviewed her, she spoke in authority of another deity and the deity said that she chose the women as she's honest, nice and a good girl. but, it didn't quite match the qualities when the TV crew filmed the priest in her normal daily life.
contradicting?
i know that i am not in any position to judge, but this is just my point of view. so, i guess its just for reading pleasure.
went back home for dinner before heading out to BP macdonalds to study with herman and gang. quite a big number today - eddie, herman, zongxian, yonglin, xuanfeng and on the other table were the girls - patricia, michelle and other girls whose names i don't know.
we ended up laughing at lame jokes herman and xuanfeng cracked~ we were unable to concentrate afterwards, and after forcing ourselves to concentrate, the jokes came back again~ loLz=P in the end, i gave up and decided to continue reading on the book - The Power of Positive Thoughts.
its a really cool book and the title says it all =)
was walking home and we heard a loud slap, followed by glass shattering. we turned around and i saw my friend standing there. apparently, she was being hit by her ex-boyfriend? i know i shouldn't be saying this, but i wonder why must her ex-bf resort to violence.
i felt quite bad afterwards as i didn't go back and help her. instead, i told my friends that i didn't know her ex-bf and walked off. sigh. i don't think thats the way i want to be=/ and if i were to go back and confront that guy, our chances of "winning" maybe higher as our number outnumbers that 1 person.
unless, of cause he calls for his "brudders"
anyway, no point creating trouble. it's a harmful cycle.
Monday, August 09, 2004
woah. great. after typing for so long, my entire post went missing.
woke up pretty early and messaged vene~ its her birthday!!
stoned in front of the computer and left only when i had to vaccum and mop the floor.
i was supposed to meet herman and gang to play basketball at 3p, but i dragged till 5pm. well, that was kinda a bad decision as there were a lot of people playing at BPCC today! before i could warm up properly, i was called to play a match against this group of china people. love china? =.-
well, they were pretty rough and i finally "woke" up when i was given a body check by them. so, i started to be a little violent. whenever i ran in, i used my body to knock into them and my elbow would start "flying"
well, i guess they deserved it.
their girlfriends were irratating too. cheering loudly whenever they scored~ its quite understandable, but it really gets irratating when its done repeatingly. the worst thing was that their girlfriends were seated on the steps, blocking those that wants to walk down the stairs. i was one of the MANY people who have to jump over the fence.
then, we played fullcourt among ourselves and it was really tiring. ran up and down the court like a mad person.
went home and watched singapore idol~!!
the lemon tree guy left the DEEPEST impression on me. hahaZz~ his cool dance moves shows that he's out there to prove a point. hahaz~ some other auditions were seriously stupid too. but, i admire their courage to go for the auditions. if i was given the chance, i doubt i would even consider going for it~ hahaZz=P
well, i'm looking forward to this wednesday's episode of spore idol~~ =P
woke up pretty early and messaged vene~ its her birthday!!
stoned in front of the computer and left only when i had to vaccum and mop the floor.
i was supposed to meet herman and gang to play basketball at 3p, but i dragged till 5pm. well, that was kinda a bad decision as there were a lot of people playing at BPCC today! before i could warm up properly, i was called to play a match against this group of china people. love china? =.-
well, they were pretty rough and i finally "woke" up when i was given a body check by them. so, i started to be a little violent. whenever i ran in, i used my body to knock into them and my elbow would start "flying"
well, i guess they deserved it.
their girlfriends were irratating too. cheering loudly whenever they scored~ its quite understandable, but it really gets irratating when its done repeatingly. the worst thing was that their girlfriends were seated on the steps, blocking those that wants to walk down the stairs. i was one of the MANY people who have to jump over the fence.
then, we played fullcourt among ourselves and it was really tiring. ran up and down the court like a mad person.
went home and watched singapore idol~!!
the lemon tree guy left the DEEPEST impression on me. hahaZz~ his cool dance moves shows that he's out there to prove a point. hahaz~ some other auditions were seriously stupid too. but, i admire their courage to go for the auditions. if i was given the chance, i doubt i would even consider going for it~ hahaZz=P
well, i'm looking forward to this wednesday's episode of spore idol~~ =P
Sunday, August 08, 2004
played basketball~!! my back felt a million times better and when i went for the layup, i didn't feel much pain~ thank God! by His strides, we're healed!
played with the adults today and even though we lost 3 matches in a row, i had a great time. i was guarding this guy who everyone says is Michael Wong's former coach. well, when i was guarding him, i realised that i made MANY stupid mistakes that gave him the chance for a open shot or layup.
then, when i started to be careful about my guarding, he caught me off guard by passing the ball, or sudden shots. he may not be lightning fast, but he's extremely smart when playing basketball.
well, when we finally won a match, they were playing extremely relaxed and there were plenty of chances for us to score. managed to score a few baskets myself when he didn't guard me tightly~
it was really a great experience playing with them, and i learnt pretty cool tricks from the coach~ keke~
played with the adults today and even though we lost 3 matches in a row, i had a great time. i was guarding this guy who everyone says is Michael Wong's former coach. well, when i was guarding him, i realised that i made MANY stupid mistakes that gave him the chance for a open shot or layup.
then, when i started to be careful about my guarding, he caught me off guard by passing the ball, or sudden shots. he may not be lightning fast, but he's extremely smart when playing basketball.
well, when we finally won a match, they were playing extremely relaxed and there were plenty of chances for us to score. managed to score a few baskets myself when he didn't guard me tightly~
it was really a great experience playing with them, and i learnt pretty cool tricks from the coach~ keke~
SUNDAY!!
woke up a little late and i rushed all over my place to look for my stuffs and dashed out within 20 minutes. did some reading on the bus - purpose driven life, and kept looking at my HP as i was worried that i would be late for the first wave of bus.
thank God that i didn't miss the bus and i even had the time to sit down and relax~ loLs=P
finally reached church after 30 minutes of freezing in the bus. met up with charmaine and aaron to collect their bags as they were singing in choir. i was carrying their bags everywhere i went and i wondered how many people i knocked to with their bags~ hAaz=X
got into the queue at B3 and shortly afterwards, melissa and her cellgroup member joined me. there were loads of people cutting queue!! as usual larhz=/
finally got seats in the auditorium and service started pretty quick.
the presence of God is really powerful during praise and worship. i felt like i was still in emerge =D
since tomorrow's national day, the church gave out miniature Singapore flags and we sang Stand Up For Singapore!! the entire congregation waved their flags in unison! hAhaz! it looks so COOL~!!
sermon was even better! Pastor Kong preached about 7 great works of the Bible. the Bible is more then just a book, or a story that we read everyday. everyday of our lives, and everything is written and recorded in the Bible for us. isn't that cool?
then, my cellgroup had lunch at a nearby coffeeshop~ quiet fellowship. LOLx
got a lift back home thanks to Sister Sharon! -YAY!!-
its really a great day today, felt so much better after a tough week~ felt extremely blessed by the message by Pastor Kong. i felt as if God's speaking to me through Pastor Kong and it bought forth revelations into my mind~
by His strides, we're HEALED!
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United Live - Sing (Your Love)
it used to be darkness
without You
I lived my life in blindness
but now i'm found
and i'll sing
sing i love You so
and i'll sing
because the world can't take away
Your love
found me in weakness
broken
You came to me in kindness
and now i live
i give my life for You Lord
for all You've done
woke up a little late and i rushed all over my place to look for my stuffs and dashed out within 20 minutes. did some reading on the bus - purpose driven life, and kept looking at my HP as i was worried that i would be late for the first wave of bus.
thank God that i didn't miss the bus and i even had the time to sit down and relax~ loLs=P
finally reached church after 30 minutes of freezing in the bus. met up with charmaine and aaron to collect their bags as they were singing in choir. i was carrying their bags everywhere i went and i wondered how many people i knocked to with their bags~ hAaz=X
got into the queue at B3 and shortly afterwards, melissa and her cellgroup member joined me. there were loads of people cutting queue!! as usual larhz=/
finally got seats in the auditorium and service started pretty quick.
the presence of God is really powerful during praise and worship. i felt like i was still in emerge =D
since tomorrow's national day, the church gave out miniature Singapore flags and we sang Stand Up For Singapore!! the entire congregation waved their flags in unison! hAhaz! it looks so COOL~!!
sermon was even better! Pastor Kong preached about 7 great works of the Bible. the Bible is more then just a book, or a story that we read everyday. everyday of our lives, and everything is written and recorded in the Bible for us. isn't that cool?
then, my cellgroup had lunch at a nearby coffeeshop~ quiet fellowship. LOLx
got a lift back home thanks to Sister Sharon! -YAY!!-
its really a great day today, felt so much better after a tough week~ felt extremely blessed by the message by Pastor Kong. i felt as if God's speaking to me through Pastor Kong and it bought forth revelations into my mind~
by His strides, we're HEALED!
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United Live - Sing (Your Love)
it used to be darkness
without You
I lived my life in blindness
but now i'm found
and i'll sing
sing i love You so
and i'll sing
because the world can't take away
Your love
found me in weakness
broken
You came to me in kindness
and now i live
i give my life for You Lord
for all You've done
Saturday, August 07, 2004
boring saturday.
woke up pretty early and bought breakfast for my parents.
when i came back, my dad just woke up and he told me to follow my mother to my grandmother's place to visit her as i haven visited her for a long time. then, i was told that dr. lee would be going as well, and i had to prepare in 15 minutes.
reached my grandmother's place and my sister met a old friend in the lift. of all places, our grandmother's place's lift. lolx~
my grandmother looks fine today~ she's able to walk and i didn't hear much complains about pain, except stomach pains due to constipation. thank God~
it was quite funny trying to understand what they were talking about and i managed to understand bits here and there~ something about bringing my grandmother to the jackpot after feeling better~ loLs=P
sat in dr lee's car and we travelled all over singapore, to collect some stuffs~ finally, i reached home and i took a quick shower before packing for cellgroup meeting at AMK.
i took coins with me as my EZ-Link card was out of cash and concession. upon boarding the bus, i dropped 80 cents into the coin machine, thinking that its enough for a student. then, the uncle looked at me and when i gave him a blur look, he told me that its 1.20. i was quite bewildered and i told him that i'm a student (ain't it like obvious?) then, he scolded me because i gave 80 cents instead of 55 cents. i was pretty furious and before i could get to my seat, he started accerlerating and i almost tripped.
reached just in time for cellgroup. nothing much to say, except that my mind wasn't "present" was thinking of some other stuffs=/
headed home, wanting to go to the gym at CCK. but after thinking it through, i realised that its saturday and there would be a lot of people working out in the gym too. so i headed down to BPCC after depositing my allowance to take a look. played a few games and i felt minimal pain on my back~ thank God.
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i just came back from a long chat with my mom and i thank God for that time. we had a really nice chat and i learnt and discovered so much more stuffs about her and my grandmother. it seems like things that i would never know came into light.
we talked about my grandmother and i learnt so much more things about her. about how they grew up and survived selling eggs to how tough my grandmother is and how much she's suffering right now. the pain, endless vomits and medication.
please, help me pray for my grandmother. just 5 minutes or even just a simple word, i believe it would make a lot of difference. please pray for less pain, suffering and healing. thanks a billion...
how much more can i ask for?
...
woke up pretty early and bought breakfast for my parents.
when i came back, my dad just woke up and he told me to follow my mother to my grandmother's place to visit her as i haven visited her for a long time. then, i was told that dr. lee would be going as well, and i had to prepare in 15 minutes.
reached my grandmother's place and my sister met a old friend in the lift. of all places, our grandmother's place's lift. lolx~
my grandmother looks fine today~ she's able to walk and i didn't hear much complains about pain, except stomach pains due to constipation. thank God~
it was quite funny trying to understand what they were talking about and i managed to understand bits here and there~ something about bringing my grandmother to the jackpot after feeling better~ loLs=P
sat in dr lee's car and we travelled all over singapore, to collect some stuffs~ finally, i reached home and i took a quick shower before packing for cellgroup meeting at AMK.
i took coins with me as my EZ-Link card was out of cash and concession. upon boarding the bus, i dropped 80 cents into the coin machine, thinking that its enough for a student. then, the uncle looked at me and when i gave him a blur look, he told me that its 1.20. i was quite bewildered and i told him that i'm a student (ain't it like obvious?) then, he scolded me because i gave 80 cents instead of 55 cents. i was pretty furious and before i could get to my seat, he started accerlerating and i almost tripped.
reached just in time for cellgroup. nothing much to say, except that my mind wasn't "present" was thinking of some other stuffs=/
headed home, wanting to go to the gym at CCK. but after thinking it through, i realised that its saturday and there would be a lot of people working out in the gym too. so i headed down to BPCC after depositing my allowance to take a look. played a few games and i felt minimal pain on my back~ thank God.
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i just came back from a long chat with my mom and i thank God for that time. we had a really nice chat and i learnt and discovered so much more stuffs about her and my grandmother. it seems like things that i would never know came into light.
we talked about my grandmother and i learnt so much more things about her. about how they grew up and survived selling eggs to how tough my grandmother is and how much she's suffering right now. the pain, endless vomits and medication.
please, help me pray for my grandmother. just 5 minutes or even just a simple word, i believe it would make a lot of difference. please pray for less pain, suffering and healing. thanks a billion...
how much more can i ask for?
...
Friday, August 06, 2004
friday~
i practically dragged myself to school today. as i sat on my bed, i was deciding if i should go to school or just skip classes. decided finally not to skip school, but i didn't bring my laptop as i didn't feel like bringing it along today. hahaz=P
messaged my friend and told him to mark attendance for me as i would be slightly late for classes. when i reached the classroom, i realised that more than half of the class was absent~ only 12 of us were present=/ started to regret my decision i made earlier and i started wondering what could i have done at home... sleep perhaps=X
OOP class was quite okie. did a practical question before collapsing due to excess dead brain cells.
stoned in the library for 30 minutes, waiting for shuling to appear. i was watching baseball on ESPN and i wondered why the americans are so crazy over it. it seems that the batters have got a problem batting and the pitchers are always trying to trick the batters.
when shuling finally appeared, she slacked and refused to move on the sofa. so, we stoned for another 30 minutes before walking out of the library, aimlessly. we were thinking of places to go for dinner and we simply lingered around in school.
from takopochi to mos burger, bukit timah to bugis and fast food to slow food, we suggested it all, but shuling couldn't make up her mind. loLz=P i didn't decide because i wasn't the one eating! she's the one who wants to eat, and i'm just accompaning her. hAaz=P
so, somehow a mysterious force drew us and we crossed the overhead bridge. when we were at the middle part, shuling suddenly asked why are we here if we're going to town=/ felt extremely stupid and we turned around and walked back to the bus stop.
i guess hunger and tirness drove shuling to quietness~
we were like 2 lost souls in town. with no destination in mind, we simply walked and i kept a lookout for takopochi as she was craving for it. loLx=P finally, she said that taka has takopochi and we went over, looking for it.
she faced loads of temptions! - brownies to ice creams~ hahaz=P i wasn't helping much as i kept asking her if she wanted ice cream, since she can't have 1 cause she's coughing=X i feel so mean=X
then, we walked around and found outselves outside MOS burger. it was totally packed, but it didn't stop shuling from getting a packet of fries to eat~ hahaz~ we sat on the benches, looking extremely pathetic, watching the crowd walk pass~
sister grace came out of no where and chatted with us for a minute~ =P
we had no where to go afterwards and naturally, we headed home. long journey home but few words spoken. hahazz~
ayEes. long break...=D
i practically dragged myself to school today. as i sat on my bed, i was deciding if i should go to school or just skip classes. decided finally not to skip school, but i didn't bring my laptop as i didn't feel like bringing it along today. hahaz=P
messaged my friend and told him to mark attendance for me as i would be slightly late for classes. when i reached the classroom, i realised that more than half of the class was absent~ only 12 of us were present=/ started to regret my decision i made earlier and i started wondering what could i have done at home... sleep perhaps=X
OOP class was quite okie. did a practical question before collapsing due to excess dead brain cells.
stoned in the library for 30 minutes, waiting for shuling to appear. i was watching baseball on ESPN and i wondered why the americans are so crazy over it. it seems that the batters have got a problem batting and the pitchers are always trying to trick the batters.
when shuling finally appeared, she slacked and refused to move on the sofa. so, we stoned for another 30 minutes before walking out of the library, aimlessly. we were thinking of places to go for dinner and we simply lingered around in school.
from takopochi to mos burger, bukit timah to bugis and fast food to slow food, we suggested it all, but shuling couldn't make up her mind. loLz=P i didn't decide because i wasn't the one eating! she's the one who wants to eat, and i'm just accompaning her. hAaz=P
so, somehow a mysterious force drew us and we crossed the overhead bridge. when we were at the middle part, shuling suddenly asked why are we here if we're going to town=/ felt extremely stupid and we turned around and walked back to the bus stop.
i guess hunger and tirness drove shuling to quietness~
we were like 2 lost souls in town. with no destination in mind, we simply walked and i kept a lookout for takopochi as she was craving for it. loLx=P finally, she said that taka has takopochi and we went over, looking for it.
she faced loads of temptions! - brownies to ice creams~ hahaz=P i wasn't helping much as i kept asking her if she wanted ice cream, since she can't have 1 cause she's coughing=X i feel so mean=X
then, we walked around and found outselves outside MOS burger. it was totally packed, but it didn't stop shuling from getting a packet of fries to eat~ hahaz~ we sat on the benches, looking extremely pathetic, watching the crowd walk pass~
sister grace came out of no where and chatted with us for a minute~ =P
we had no where to go afterwards and naturally, we headed home. long journey home but few words spoken. hahazz~
ayEes. long break...=D
Thursday, August 05, 2004
school stretching from 8am to 5pm today~ its such a bore=/
was supposed to meet brother alvin for prayer meeting in school at 7am, but i woke up at 6.45am. sigh. by the time i reached ngee ann, it was 7.45 and it deemed useless to look for him at the field.
saw shuling at the bus stop and i called her several times, but she didn't respond. so i walked behind her and turned around to stare at her. finally, she saw me and screamed my name out. i guess everyone at the bus stop knows that i'm joel now. loLx!! later, i realised that she was wearing headphones and she couldn't hear me~ hAaz=P next time i got to make sure that she's not wearing headphones, else my attempts would go down the drain.
i was the first student to step into the class, and i did some reading before my classmates strolled into the class. NF practical today was a total fluke. i got my answers through the lecturer. we kept asking her for answers and she showed us how do we get the answer from the software. loLx=P
DM class. 5 guys in my class skipped the lesson, and i was extremely tempted to skip too, because i've no idea whatever the lecturer is talking about. but, for the sake of attendance, and maybe i'll understand something today, i decided to attend her lesson=/ well, didn't quite understand her lessons again. no excuses to give, except to work harder...
1 hour break, headed to the library for PQS project. well, each of us were given a tutorial to do and i guess my copy is rather easy. just a chart and im done. loLx=P
lessons after the break were boring as i was pretty tired and i felt drained. managed to stay awake most of the time, forcing myself to think and concentrate on the lesson.
headed home and sat at BPCC and watched my friends play basketball. i was extremely tempted to play, but after a stern warning from shuling, i decided its best for me to go home and rest. hahaz=P
tomorrow's friday and practically everyone would be having halfday as National Day's coming. guess what!? school's per normal tomorrow as our lectuerer refused to let us off!! ARGH!! so, we still gotta go back to school at 1pm all the way till 5pm! when most of the students have already left school i guess=/ its so irratating! having to go back school on a halfday, attending super boring lessons and results in NOTHING!
i'm sure most of my classmates would just be in class for the sake of attendance. stupid new rules the school strengthed. attendance!! argh!
was supposed to meet brother alvin for prayer meeting in school at 7am, but i woke up at 6.45am. sigh. by the time i reached ngee ann, it was 7.45 and it deemed useless to look for him at the field.
saw shuling at the bus stop and i called her several times, but she didn't respond. so i walked behind her and turned around to stare at her. finally, she saw me and screamed my name out. i guess everyone at the bus stop knows that i'm joel now. loLx!! later, i realised that she was wearing headphones and she couldn't hear me~ hAaz=P next time i got to make sure that she's not wearing headphones, else my attempts would go down the drain.
i was the first student to step into the class, and i did some reading before my classmates strolled into the class. NF practical today was a total fluke. i got my answers through the lecturer. we kept asking her for answers and she showed us how do we get the answer from the software. loLx=P
DM class. 5 guys in my class skipped the lesson, and i was extremely tempted to skip too, because i've no idea whatever the lecturer is talking about. but, for the sake of attendance, and maybe i'll understand something today, i decided to attend her lesson=/ well, didn't quite understand her lessons again. no excuses to give, except to work harder...
1 hour break, headed to the library for PQS project. well, each of us were given a tutorial to do and i guess my copy is rather easy. just a chart and im done. loLx=P
lessons after the break were boring as i was pretty tired and i felt drained. managed to stay awake most of the time, forcing myself to think and concentrate on the lesson.
headed home and sat at BPCC and watched my friends play basketball. i was extremely tempted to play, but after a stern warning from shuling, i decided its best for me to go home and rest. hahaz=P
tomorrow's friday and practically everyone would be having halfday as National Day's coming. guess what!? school's per normal tomorrow as our lectuerer refused to let us off!! ARGH!! so, we still gotta go back to school at 1pm all the way till 5pm! when most of the students have already left school i guess=/ its so irratating! having to go back school on a halfday, attending super boring lessons and results in NOTHING!
i'm sure most of my classmates would just be in class for the sake of attendance. stupid new rules the school strengthed. attendance!! argh!
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
wednesday~
pretty fast day~ nothing special cept to help alvin fix his super laggy laptop. we bought the laptop to the "clinic" and the staff installed ad-aware for him~ loLx=P after scanning and removing all the spywares (511 of them!) his computer speed improved more then 500%!? hAhaz=P
got a lift home afterwards~
sigh. what should i do later?=/
pretty fast day~ nothing special cept to help alvin fix his super laggy laptop. we bought the laptop to the "clinic" and the staff installed ad-aware for him~ loLx=P after scanning and removing all the spywares (511 of them!) his computer speed improved more then 500%!? hAhaz=P
got a lift home afterwards~
sigh. what should i do later?=/
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
tuesday.
bought the laptop to school today as sam said that we would be doing our projects during the 5 hours break. well, sam didn't turn up for PQS class because she could not wake up in the morning. well, my effort wasn't put into waste. during PQS class, i completed my assignment and did nurul and sam's assignment as well.
during the break, nurul and i met up with felix and watched him type the assignment out. it was quite a torture to nurul and she decided to give felix a help. loLx=P
headed home wanting a great rest, but when i was printing the assignment out, i realised that i'll be short of paper. searched high and low for printing paper but i could not find any. so, i had to use recycled paper to finish printing the assignments=/
when i finally finished printing, i thought i could finally get my rest. but, felix called me and told me that timothy didn't complete his assignment too, so i decided to do it for him since the template and magazine's with me. so, by the time i completed the assignment and after screaming along to the song our lives i decided that its time to meet nurul at the bus stop.
back in class, i was feeling quite sian. sam gave me chocolates to eat while i stoned in class. nurul started molesting sam and our lecturer started to warn them about disturbing each other~
after class, we walked to the atrium and there was a lifesize cardboard model of fido-dido. sam and nurul got so excited that they got me to take pictures of them with fido. sheesh=/
headed to BPCC and played basketball. was supposed to meet charmaine and walk home with her, but the basketball bug bit me. i guess i wasn't really in a good mood and i wanted to vent it on basketball=/
the moment i jumped, i could feel the pain on my back again=/ though it's not extremely painful, but there's still a feeling in my back whenever i jump. then, i went to the other court and shoot hoops, while herm gang carried on playing basketball. finally found my shooting touch and i kept shooting non-stop to practise.
finally i got the chance to play with herman and gang, but it was really boring. solo play really stinks and when it happens, i tend to feel extremely sian and wouldn't play properly. didn't have much proper games today, but i re-injured my right leg joint again. went for a fast layup and i felt my right leg over straining.
sigh. im filled with injuries.
bought the laptop to school today as sam said that we would be doing our projects during the 5 hours break. well, sam didn't turn up for PQS class because she could not wake up in the morning. well, my effort wasn't put into waste. during PQS class, i completed my assignment and did nurul and sam's assignment as well.
during the break, nurul and i met up with felix and watched him type the assignment out. it was quite a torture to nurul and she decided to give felix a help. loLx=P
headed home wanting a great rest, but when i was printing the assignment out, i realised that i'll be short of paper. searched high and low for printing paper but i could not find any. so, i had to use recycled paper to finish printing the assignments=/
when i finally finished printing, i thought i could finally get my rest. but, felix called me and told me that timothy didn't complete his assignment too, so i decided to do it for him since the template and magazine's with me. so, by the time i completed the assignment and after screaming along to the song our lives i decided that its time to meet nurul at the bus stop.
back in class, i was feeling quite sian. sam gave me chocolates to eat while i stoned in class. nurul started molesting sam and our lecturer started to warn them about disturbing each other~
after class, we walked to the atrium and there was a lifesize cardboard model of fido-dido. sam and nurul got so excited that they got me to take pictures of them with fido. sheesh=/
headed to BPCC and played basketball. was supposed to meet charmaine and walk home with her, but the basketball bug bit me. i guess i wasn't really in a good mood and i wanted to vent it on basketball=/
the moment i jumped, i could feel the pain on my back again=/ though it's not extremely painful, but there's still a feeling in my back whenever i jump. then, i went to the other court and shoot hoops, while herm gang carried on playing basketball. finally found my shooting touch and i kept shooting non-stop to practise.
finally i got the chance to play with herman and gang, but it was really boring. solo play really stinks and when it happens, i tend to feel extremely sian and wouldn't play properly. didn't have much proper games today, but i re-injured my right leg joint again. went for a fast layup and i felt my right leg over straining.
sigh. im filled with injuries.
i feel like shouting this song with all my heart...
The Calling - Our Lives
Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Of a better life
In this world
Divided by fear
We've gotta believe that
There's a reason we're here
There's a reason we're here'
Cause these are the days worth livin'
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
See the truth all around
Our faith can be broken
And our hands can be bound
But open our hearts and fill up the emptyness
With nothing to stop us
Is it not worth the risk?
Is it not worth the risk?'
Cause these are the days worth livin'
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter'
Cause these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
We can't go wrong
Thinking it's wrong
To speak our minds
I've gotta let out what's inside
Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
But can we get it right?
Yeah but can we get it right?'
Cause these are the days worth livin'
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was SHATTERED
I know it wouldn't matter
These are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
The Calling - Our Lives
Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Of a better life
In this world
Divided by fear
We've gotta believe that
There's a reason we're here
There's a reason we're here'
Cause these are the days worth livin'
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
See the truth all around
Our faith can be broken
And our hands can be bound
But open our hearts and fill up the emptyness
With nothing to stop us
Is it not worth the risk?
Is it not worth the risk?'
Cause these are the days worth livin'
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter'
Cause these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
We can't go wrong
Thinking it's wrong
To speak our minds
I've gotta let out what's inside
Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
But can we get it right?
Yeah but can we get it right?'
Cause these are the days worth livin'
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was SHATTERED
I know it wouldn't matter
These are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Sunday, August 01, 2004
to those that doubt God's listening to our prayers, read on!
staying up late has became a habit eversince i had internet connection at home. i would stay up late till the wee mornings playing games, chatting and surfing around. when i got to know God, i didn't break the habit because i thought that it would not affect my relationship with God.
i was wrong.
recently, i began to realise the difference of being happy from the inside and being happy just on the outside. when i was just happy on the outside, i got angry, irratated and discouraged easily. though i knew that God promised us promises, but it seemed to me that there were empty promises.
there were times when i didn't even had a proper quiet time with God. i laid on my bed, said my thanks and fell asleep. day after day, this went on and it became a habit. quiet time became more like a routine and i wasn't talking to God. i was more of doing quiet time for the sake of doing it.
but, i thank God that on friday morning, i had this desire to turn away from the computer and do my quiet time. this time, with repentance and asking for forgiveness. when i started, it was tough starting. but as i went on, i kept going on till i didn't know how to end. i prayed till there wasn't a burden in my heart.
at the same time, i knew that Pastor Mike Connel's coming to our church, and he does deliverance. in me, i was thinking how great it would be if Pastor Mike would lay hands on me and deliver me. but i never expected this day to come...
sunday service. like any other normal service, i queued before entering the auditorium and i brought a new friend - weihan to join me for service, because i knew that miracles of God would be happening.
service started and when Pastor Mike started praying, i felt the presence of God lingering in the air strongly. in my heart, i knew that something would be happening. then, Pastor Mike started to call out. he identifed 3 problems from each sector and he wants those that he identifed to step out and allow God to touch their lives.
he started on the sector where i was sitting. he said - "there is this person here, who uses the internet and he got caught up by some stuffs on the internet. the images on the internet keeps coming back to him and its affection his relationship with God. if you are the one, raise up your hands and come down now."
when Pastor Mike was saying that, i KNEW that he was talking about me. there was this burden, feeling, in me that was SO STRONG that i could not control it. i knew that i was the one, but i wasn't sure if he was talking about me, because i wasn't sure which sector i was in.
"come on now, don't be afraid" and Pastor Mike kept repeating the problem over and over again.
"this person is around 18 years of age." i did a quick calculation. im 19, that makes me around 18 years of age. but i still stayed on my seat, wondering if i should go down.
finally he said - "this is your last chance for God to remove the suffering. you are seated near the top rows." ok. fate accepted. i was seated near the top rows, i'm near the age of 18 and i had that problem. i stood up and made my way down. i felt extremely ashamed when i was walking down and i stared at the floor, not daring to look up. even when my friend called me, i gave him a glance and looked away.
as i stood infront of Pastor Mike he said, "finally you are here." woah. i got so ashamed that i didn't even dared to look at him. but he held me and gave me a nice BIG smile, like he's my father. then he started praying for me and laid hands on me.
as i laid on the floor, Pastor Zhuang prayed for me, casting the evil things, images and praying that i break free from the bondage. as he prayed, i could feel that my breathing was extremely tensed. "LET GO! LET GO!" Pastor Zhuang kept repeating these words, then finally i felt this rush of peace and my breathing slowed down. then, this burning sensation came upon me and i knew that its the Holy Spirit coming upon me.
i recovered and on the way back to my seat i felt so stressed that i started to run. back to my seat, i felt completely lost and empty. as i tried to concentrate on the sermon, i was unable to do so as my mind was empty. i kept thinking about what i went through and i felt so lost.
it took me around 2-3 hours to come back to my senses and i realised what God had done in my life. He has broke me free from the bondage and He said this to me, "I love you, and I want you to have a strong relationship with me. I forgave you of all your sins, but why are you still holding onto them? and making the same mistake over and over again? let go, breakthrough and come to Me." then, i pictured Pastor Mike Connel, receiving me in wide open arms and a nice BIG smile. its really comforting...
after service, friends came up to me and asked if i was alrite. i still looked lost and they encouraged me. thank God for these angels - Charmaine, Alvina, Hanning, Brother Caleb, Clarice (for that really beautiful smile), Jeslyn, my CellGroup Members like Sister XiaoJia, PeiLing, Ryan, Sharmaine (for blessing Charmaine and me), Bimei and those that prayed for me in church.
thank God, i experienced His power.
i serve a living God! and His name is Jesus!
staying up late has became a habit eversince i had internet connection at home. i would stay up late till the wee mornings playing games, chatting and surfing around. when i got to know God, i didn't break the habit because i thought that it would not affect my relationship with God.
i was wrong.
recently, i began to realise the difference of being happy from the inside and being happy just on the outside. when i was just happy on the outside, i got angry, irratated and discouraged easily. though i knew that God promised us promises, but it seemed to me that there were empty promises.
there were times when i didn't even had a proper quiet time with God. i laid on my bed, said my thanks and fell asleep. day after day, this went on and it became a habit. quiet time became more like a routine and i wasn't talking to God. i was more of doing quiet time for the sake of doing it.
but, i thank God that on friday morning, i had this desire to turn away from the computer and do my quiet time. this time, with repentance and asking for forgiveness. when i started, it was tough starting. but as i went on, i kept going on till i didn't know how to end. i prayed till there wasn't a burden in my heart.
at the same time, i knew that Pastor Mike Connel's coming to our church, and he does deliverance. in me, i was thinking how great it would be if Pastor Mike would lay hands on me and deliver me. but i never expected this day to come...
sunday service. like any other normal service, i queued before entering the auditorium and i brought a new friend - weihan to join me for service, because i knew that miracles of God would be happening.
service started and when Pastor Mike started praying, i felt the presence of God lingering in the air strongly. in my heart, i knew that something would be happening. then, Pastor Mike started to call out. he identifed 3 problems from each sector and he wants those that he identifed to step out and allow God to touch their lives.
he started on the sector where i was sitting. he said - "there is this person here, who uses the internet and he got caught up by some stuffs on the internet. the images on the internet keeps coming back to him and its affection his relationship with God. if you are the one, raise up your hands and come down now."
when Pastor Mike was saying that, i KNEW that he was talking about me. there was this burden, feeling, in me that was SO STRONG that i could not control it. i knew that i was the one, but i wasn't sure if he was talking about me, because i wasn't sure which sector i was in.
"come on now, don't be afraid" and Pastor Mike kept repeating the problem over and over again.
"this person is around 18 years of age." i did a quick calculation. im 19, that makes me around 18 years of age. but i still stayed on my seat, wondering if i should go down.
finally he said - "this is your last chance for God to remove the suffering. you are seated near the top rows." ok. fate accepted. i was seated near the top rows, i'm near the age of 18 and i had that problem. i stood up and made my way down. i felt extremely ashamed when i was walking down and i stared at the floor, not daring to look up. even when my friend called me, i gave him a glance and looked away.
as i stood infront of Pastor Mike he said, "finally you are here." woah. i got so ashamed that i didn't even dared to look at him. but he held me and gave me a nice BIG smile, like he's my father. then he started praying for me and laid hands on me.
as i laid on the floor, Pastor Zhuang prayed for me, casting the evil things, images and praying that i break free from the bondage. as he prayed, i could feel that my breathing was extremely tensed. "LET GO! LET GO!" Pastor Zhuang kept repeating these words, then finally i felt this rush of peace and my breathing slowed down. then, this burning sensation came upon me and i knew that its the Holy Spirit coming upon me.
i recovered and on the way back to my seat i felt so stressed that i started to run. back to my seat, i felt completely lost and empty. as i tried to concentrate on the sermon, i was unable to do so as my mind was empty. i kept thinking about what i went through and i felt so lost.
it took me around 2-3 hours to come back to my senses and i realised what God had done in my life. He has broke me free from the bondage and He said this to me, "I love you, and I want you to have a strong relationship with me. I forgave you of all your sins, but why are you still holding onto them? and making the same mistake over and over again? let go, breakthrough and come to Me." then, i pictured Pastor Mike Connel, receiving me in wide open arms and a nice BIG smile. its really comforting...
after service, friends came up to me and asked if i was alrite. i still looked lost and they encouraged me. thank God for these angels - Charmaine, Alvina, Hanning, Brother Caleb, Clarice (for that really beautiful smile), Jeslyn, my CellGroup Members like Sister XiaoJia, PeiLing, Ryan, Sharmaine (for blessing Charmaine and me), Bimei and those that prayed for me in church.
thank God, i experienced His power.
i serve a living God! and His name is Jesus!
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