woah. 1 day of pure excitment.
travelled to church at 11am and met with the NP-POS people for breakfast. there wasn't much people and MOST of them were late~
training today was rather sloppish. sean didn't look sharp, karen was panicky and janice was too quiet. but it was still very productive as we worked on our foundations and realized that we DO actually need loads of practise, if we want to excel.
some other groups have started practising extended and liberty. hope that my team isn't affected and we'll continue to train hard!! no matter what happens in the end, we would reach the finishing line!!
managed to get samantha to do the shoulder seat and stand even though i have NO experience in it. it was a greatgreat experience and its super addictive. this coming tuesday, i hope that i'll be able to work on the transition with chewlin and it would be a smooth flow from a shoulder seat to stand!! wOopiEe!!
was very late for cellgroup but it was a great cellgroup meeting. though there wasn't much people, the presence of God was tangible and was greatly encouraged when chinpoh shared his testimony.
rushed down to prayer meeting, but was still late. shared the cab with the church's photographer~ lolz=P but thank God when xiaojia and i stepped into the auditorium, it was just the first worship song~ managed to plug into the presence of God=)
anyway, prayer meeting was great!! i didn't feel as tired as i expected, but my voice started to give way a little~ i guess i need to control a little and not shout throughout the prayer meeting~ hEh=P but thank God my voice is still intact, just that its a little sore.
its my first time going for overnight prayer meeting and i survived the whole night!! its not quite difficult actually~ you would be involved in such strong prayers that you wouldn't even feel tired! the more i prayed, the more awake i became~ hEh=P
i really thank God for the supernatural strength He gave to me. i didn't have a proper meal for the entire day but i wasn't hungry. the reason why i didn't eat is because i didn't have time~ thank God my church provided light meals for us during the first break and i had a small bowl of porridge, which tasted really good~
thank God for the anointing, breakthroughs and revivals to come=D
Saturday, April 30, 2005
Thursday, April 28, 2005
i think i think too much. its time to move on and i shouldn't bother about such stuffs. people come and go, but true friends stay.
no matter what happens, i know that if i need someone, He's there for me and i should be contended. for He's the only one who i can depend on and He's able.
as much as i expect, i fall. why should i cause myself to fall and feel hurt?
at the same time, i want to be there for you. when you're down and out, i want to be the person listening, or just being with you. i don't mind the distance, time or location. just as long as you're fine, i'm fine.
but i guess that wouldn't happen much...
should i fade away or should i hang on?
wouldn't it be too stupid?
-
food for though. i guess this is something everyone goes through and most of the time, the situation seems negative. but i guess both parties have to do their part and make things happen.
well, this thingy just struck my mind...
to everyone : the same old saying that i always say - i'm always just a phonecall away. 24 hours standby, pleasePLEASE call me.
-
sometimes i wonder who's the real me.
is the joel you know a quiet person or a crappy person?
personally, i'm the quiet guy. but i would joke around just to break the ice. but slowly, my jokes would cease and the amount of words i speak would decrease.
its not because you're a boring person, but because thats just me.
even ben asked if i'm usually a quiet person and i realized that i've been really quiet recently. i guess its more of not knowing what to say than keep quiet because of misunderstandings.
when you see me talk a lot to someone, it shows that i want to know that person more. but if you realize, at the end of the session, i would know something more about you, but you don't.
it kind of freaks me out now, even as i think.
not a lot of people really know me. charmaine thinks that i'm the crazy and whacky person, natalie thinks that i'm the quiet but full of shit person, yuxuan thinks that i'm caring towards everyone.
huge differences from 3 friends.
i guess i'm more of the listener most of the times and the "leader" only when the spotlights on me.
i'm never the smartest or the coolest dude around, and i do not act like them. i'm never the babe magnet with loads of girl-friends and i'm not always surrounded by girls.
i would rather spend time with a loved one and feel extremely contented. even if its just 5 minutes, i would be glad. its the quality that counts, not the quantity.
i dream of the sweetest possible moments and wish that its happening to me. if my eyes can speak, i hope it speaks sincerity.
i do really care... i may not show it, but did you feel it?
no matter what happens, i know that if i need someone, He's there for me and i should be contended. for He's the only one who i can depend on and He's able.
as much as i expect, i fall. why should i cause myself to fall and feel hurt?
at the same time, i want to be there for you. when you're down and out, i want to be the person listening, or just being with you. i don't mind the distance, time or location. just as long as you're fine, i'm fine.
but i guess that wouldn't happen much...
should i fade away or should i hang on?
wouldn't it be too stupid?
-
food for though. i guess this is something everyone goes through and most of the time, the situation seems negative. but i guess both parties have to do their part and make things happen.
well, this thingy just struck my mind...
to everyone : the same old saying that i always say - i'm always just a phonecall away. 24 hours standby, pleasePLEASE call me.
-
sometimes i wonder who's the real me.
is the joel you know a quiet person or a crappy person?
personally, i'm the quiet guy. but i would joke around just to break the ice. but slowly, my jokes would cease and the amount of words i speak would decrease.
its not because you're a boring person, but because thats just me.
even ben asked if i'm usually a quiet person and i realized that i've been really quiet recently. i guess its more of not knowing what to say than keep quiet because of misunderstandings.
when you see me talk a lot to someone, it shows that i want to know that person more. but if you realize, at the end of the session, i would know something more about you, but you don't.
it kind of freaks me out now, even as i think.
not a lot of people really know me. charmaine thinks that i'm the crazy and whacky person, natalie thinks that i'm the quiet but full of shit person, yuxuan thinks that i'm caring towards everyone.
huge differences from 3 friends.
i guess i'm more of the listener most of the times and the "leader" only when the spotlights on me.
i'm never the smartest or the coolest dude around, and i do not act like them. i'm never the babe magnet with loads of girl-friends and i'm not always surrounded by girls.
i would rather spend time with a loved one and feel extremely contented. even if its just 5 minutes, i would be glad. its the quality that counts, not the quantity.
i dream of the sweetest possible moments and wish that its happening to me. if my eyes can speak, i hope it speaks sincerity.
i do really care... i may not show it, but did you feel it?
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
first training over!!
it was great! though i was really tired and my sense of humor was at the lowest point of my life, i enjoyed myself, challenging and going a level higher then before.
the dream team - Sean as first base. Dorcas as Backspot. Samantha and Karen as flyers.
its karen's first time doing stunts and she's like an experienced flyer! she didn't fall as much as other flyers and she can really hold her position really well even when the bases had slight difficulty.
samantha, as usual, is a good flyer and she NEARLY had a bad accident. thank God for dorcas who managed to grab her in time! and as usual, she stepped and fell all over me again. heHz~ at least she fell only once... and that shall be the final one.
its sean's first time doing stunts and he's a real fast learner. very sharp and observant. very willing to work hard so that the sisters can get a feel of the stunts and even though he was very tired, he kept trying until his last bit of strength.
we almost suceeded in the extended elevator, but i guess we were too tired and our timing wasn't accurate. in the end, joy managed to get the extended elevator with brother alvin and sam as her base. kim makes a great backspot; making sure that everything is in place and alrite before giving the commands~
this year's POS feels different from other years...
anyway, i'm aching all over but i thank God that there wasn't any accidents and everyone was in high spirits!!
can't wait for friday=)
it was great! though i was really tired and my sense of humor was at the lowest point of my life, i enjoyed myself, challenging and going a level higher then before.
the dream team - Sean as first base. Dorcas as Backspot. Samantha and Karen as flyers.
its karen's first time doing stunts and she's like an experienced flyer! she didn't fall as much as other flyers and she can really hold her position really well even when the bases had slight difficulty.
samantha, as usual, is a good flyer and she NEARLY had a bad accident. thank God for dorcas who managed to grab her in time! and as usual, she stepped and fell all over me again. heHz~ at least she fell only once... and that shall be the final one.
its sean's first time doing stunts and he's a real fast learner. very sharp and observant. very willing to work hard so that the sisters can get a feel of the stunts and even though he was very tired, he kept trying until his last bit of strength.
we almost suceeded in the extended elevator, but i guess we were too tired and our timing wasn't accurate. in the end, joy managed to get the extended elevator with brother alvin and sam as her base. kim makes a great backspot; making sure that everything is in place and alrite before giving the commands~
this year's POS feels different from other years...
anyway, i'm aching all over but i thank God that there wasn't any accidents and everyone was in high spirits!!
can't wait for friday=)
Sunday, April 24, 2005
back after so many days.
its has been a powerpacked week for me~ filled with loads of activities and programs.
friday - woke up super early and met kim to do some shopping. we planned to make jelly and shopped around for the ingredients. i never knew that its so troublesome~ hEh=P
i had loads of fun making the jelly and torturing kim with the jelly~ =X btw, the jelly that kim makes is nice! but mine was a tad too messy and soggy, not forgetting extremely sweet. hEh=P must be because i'm such a sweet person, thats why its so sweet~
finally completed making the jelly at 8 and headed down to apollo centre to meet my cellgroup for a KTV outing. quite a number of people were there and i got rather bored waiting for my songs to arrive. so i suggested playing pool, which effectively killed the boredom.
took a cab down to cine and met kim and her family for midnight movie. her mom was playing time crisis 2 and she was so happy playing that game!! haHaz!! she couldn't stop playing and kim spent a total of 8bucks on that machine!! woAhh!!
played the "space hockey" gamey with kim and sam. we played a total of nearly 5 rounds, and before each round could complete, the machine would break down. thus, we had free games and this kept going on. the game was so unfair!! but i won~ loLz=P
we watched "the interpreter" and it a super messy show. the storyline is quite complicating and its like 2 stories mixed into 1, the ending is quite surprising though it ended suddenly.
reached home at 4am.
woke up at 8.45 and met kim shortly afterwards to get more stuffs for ben's 21th birthday celebrations. after getting all the stuffs, she headed to teach tutition while i got a volleyball from herman. packed all the stuffs we're bringing to sentosa and waited for kim to reach my place after her tutition.
we took a cab straight to sentosa and met lydia, ben's GF.
S E N T O S A ! !
been eons since i last stepped that place and after preparing most stuffs, i got into the suntanning mood. hEHhzzz=P sam and i did something crazy too~ we walked from siloso beach to palawan beach just to get 2 packets of ice. worst of all, i didn't wear my slippers and the floor was like burning coals.
we had our mini stroll by the beach too~ lolz=P didn't know where did kim disappear to and she didn't bring her HP along, so kim missed out something great~ =P
played captain's ball and it was fun~ HahAz=P quite intensed and rough, but it was still fun~ played volleyball and it was fun too~ we were almost like aimlessly hitting the ball over and picking it up again~
one of the sweetest moments was when everyone was to share what we think about ben. almost everyone says that he's a great guy, who's very caring, helpful and protective person~ hHahAz~ his barker friends are funny too~
then came the sabo. ben was blindfolded and everyone carried the stuffs and hid in the hotel room. ben didn't know that we had a hotel room, so lydia left clues for him to locate us in sentosa~ ben took 40 minutes!! he got us all so worried and kim, another guy and me went out to search for him~ loL=P
that half naked man walked all over rasa sentosa just to look for us and even took the final clue off because he thought that there would be more clues~ lolz=P everyone was preparing to give him a surprise the moment he opens the door, but he walked off in the end.
when the party ended, the rest of us went to the arcade and played super old games~ played pool with sam and kim and they almost won me=/
time seriously flew and before we knew it, its 3am. kim was struggling to stay awake and played bridge half asleep~ she gave in finally and ben took over~
we played bridge until 5.30am and decided to take a 30 minute nap.
reached home at 7.30am and met kim again at 8am. we headed to church together, both super sleepy and tired. took my breakfast in church, stuggled to read the bible because i was dozing off and i was all alone when kim went to report for usher duty!!! bleh. now i know how she feels when she goes to church earlier with me~ =X
service was great! pastor tan preached today and he shared about seedtime and harvest. char kept me awake throughout the service by entertaining me, writing notes on my notebook and making me laugh like mad. i believe pastor tan noticed us, loads of times =P
had POS meeting and i was dozing off while bro alvin talked. kim came and joined me in the dozing off club. i would definitely say that this year's POS stunts are challenging and extremely tough.
i MUST overcome the goliath!! can't allow it to stop me from achieving something great for Jesus!!
the thoughts of it may give me the creeps, but i believe that the Lord's protection WILL be on us and every single one of us will be safe and sound at the end of the day=D
for the past few days, its been really exciting for me and it has left deep memories in my life. the view at night in sentosa is breathtaking and there was a full moon, clear skies and stars~ it was almost like a picture perfect scene~
the fellowship i had is great.
though its just 1 week, i feel as though this 1 week is the longest, yet its the best week of my holidays~ i know that there will be more to come in the coming weeks!!
if only i could go msia~ hEh=P
its has been a powerpacked week for me~ filled with loads of activities and programs.
friday - woke up super early and met kim to do some shopping. we planned to make jelly and shopped around for the ingredients. i never knew that its so troublesome~ hEh=P
i had loads of fun making the jelly and torturing kim with the jelly~ =X btw, the jelly that kim makes is nice! but mine was a tad too messy and soggy, not forgetting extremely sweet. hEh=P must be because i'm such a sweet person, thats why its so sweet~
finally completed making the jelly at 8 and headed down to apollo centre to meet my cellgroup for a KTV outing. quite a number of people were there and i got rather bored waiting for my songs to arrive. so i suggested playing pool, which effectively killed the boredom.
took a cab down to cine and met kim and her family for midnight movie. her mom was playing time crisis 2 and she was so happy playing that game!! haHaz!! she couldn't stop playing and kim spent a total of 8bucks on that machine!! woAhh!!
played the "space hockey" gamey with kim and sam. we played a total of nearly 5 rounds, and before each round could complete, the machine would break down. thus, we had free games and this kept going on. the game was so unfair!! but i won~ loLz=P
we watched "the interpreter" and it a super messy show. the storyline is quite complicating and its like 2 stories mixed into 1, the ending is quite surprising though it ended suddenly.
reached home at 4am.
woke up at 8.45 and met kim shortly afterwards to get more stuffs for ben's 21th birthday celebrations. after getting all the stuffs, she headed to teach tutition while i got a volleyball from herman. packed all the stuffs we're bringing to sentosa and waited for kim to reach my place after her tutition.
we took a cab straight to sentosa and met lydia, ben's GF.
S E N T O S A ! !
been eons since i last stepped that place and after preparing most stuffs, i got into the suntanning mood. hEHhzzz=P sam and i did something crazy too~ we walked from siloso beach to palawan beach just to get 2 packets of ice. worst of all, i didn't wear my slippers and the floor was like burning coals.
we had our mini stroll by the beach too~ lolz=P didn't know where did kim disappear to and she didn't bring her HP along, so kim missed out something great~ =P
played captain's ball and it was fun~ HahAz=P quite intensed and rough, but it was still fun~ played volleyball and it was fun too~ we were almost like aimlessly hitting the ball over and picking it up again~
one of the sweetest moments was when everyone was to share what we think about ben. almost everyone says that he's a great guy, who's very caring, helpful and protective person~ hHahAz~ his barker friends are funny too~
then came the sabo. ben was blindfolded and everyone carried the stuffs and hid in the hotel room. ben didn't know that we had a hotel room, so lydia left clues for him to locate us in sentosa~ ben took 40 minutes!! he got us all so worried and kim, another guy and me went out to search for him~ loL=P
that half naked man walked all over rasa sentosa just to look for us and even took the final clue off because he thought that there would be more clues~ lolz=P everyone was preparing to give him a surprise the moment he opens the door, but he walked off in the end.
when the party ended, the rest of us went to the arcade and played super old games~ played pool with sam and kim and they almost won me=/
time seriously flew and before we knew it, its 3am. kim was struggling to stay awake and played bridge half asleep~ she gave in finally and ben took over~
we played bridge until 5.30am and decided to take a 30 minute nap.
reached home at 7.30am and met kim again at 8am. we headed to church together, both super sleepy and tired. took my breakfast in church, stuggled to read the bible because i was dozing off and i was all alone when kim went to report for usher duty!!! bleh. now i know how she feels when she goes to church earlier with me~ =X
service was great! pastor tan preached today and he shared about seedtime and harvest. char kept me awake throughout the service by entertaining me, writing notes on my notebook and making me laugh like mad. i believe pastor tan noticed us, loads of times =P
had POS meeting and i was dozing off while bro alvin talked. kim came and joined me in the dozing off club. i would definitely say that this year's POS stunts are challenging and extremely tough.
i MUST overcome the goliath!! can't allow it to stop me from achieving something great for Jesus!!
the thoughts of it may give me the creeps, but i believe that the Lord's protection WILL be on us and every single one of us will be safe and sound at the end of the day=D
for the past few days, its been really exciting for me and it has left deep memories in my life. the view at night in sentosa is breathtaking and there was a full moon, clear skies and stars~ it was almost like a picture perfect scene~
the fellowship i had is great.
though its just 1 week, i feel as though this 1 week is the longest, yet its the best week of my holidays~ i know that there will be more to come in the coming weeks!!
if only i could go msia~ hEh=P
Thursday, April 21, 2005
crap results.
i've just received my final results and it's totally crap!!!!
only got 1 A, 1 B, 2 D+ and 3 D!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!
the WORST of all, my EVP got a D!!!!!!! WHY!?
stupid SA and PM got D+! was aiming for at least a C. but i'm still very shocked that my EVP got a D =/
but... thank God i passed my LAN and PCS paper, which i was really praying really hard for it. so i guess its somekind of rainbow after the rain~ heh.
thank God that my PCS lecturer managed to review my grades and passed me. thank God my LAN paper, which was very tough, got at least the passing grade in the end.
i've just received my final results and it's totally crap!!!!
only got 1 A, 1 B, 2 D+ and 3 D!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!
the WORST of all, my EVP got a D!!!!!!! WHY!?
stupid SA and PM got D+! was aiming for at least a C. but i'm still very shocked that my EVP got a D =/
but... thank God i passed my LAN and PCS paper, which i was really praying really hard for it. so i guess its somekind of rainbow after the rain~ heh.
thank God that my PCS lecturer managed to review my grades and passed me. thank God my LAN paper, which was very tough, got at least the passing grade in the end.
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
first time in the holidays, i'm up so early.
i guess i prayed last night that i would be able to wake up early so that i can suntan. cool. God answered my prayers and woke me up at 6.30am. was even able to give yuxuan a call just to check if she's awake and i could tell that she's extremely amused.
called her and realized she has already reached NUH=/ lolz~ and she woke up at 5am! so even my "morning call" wouldn't be helpful.
gave kim a call too as she would be teaching in ZHSS, but she didn't answer!! i wonder if she can't wake up or she's already in school. well, she woke up late. just received her sms~ lolz=P
i forgot what i wanna blog about=/
anyway, praise God!! its a beautiful MORNING!! it certainly feels good waking up early, though a little sleepy, but its refreshing!! i can't wait to suntan~ or should i hit the gym again, then suntan?
i'm confused.
i guess i prayed last night that i would be able to wake up early so that i can suntan. cool. God answered my prayers and woke me up at 6.30am. was even able to give yuxuan a call just to check if she's awake and i could tell that she's extremely amused.
called her and realized she has already reached NUH=/ lolz~ and she woke up at 5am! so even my "morning call" wouldn't be helpful.
gave kim a call too as she would be teaching in ZHSS, but she didn't answer!! i wonder if she can't wake up or she's already in school. well, she woke up late. just received her sms~ lolz=P
i forgot what i wanna blog about=/
anyway, praise God!! its a beautiful MORNING!! it certainly feels good waking up early, though a little sleepy, but its refreshing!! i can't wait to suntan~ or should i hit the gym again, then suntan?
i'm confused.
Monday, April 18, 2005
just came back from a great gym session with herman at CCK.
it was great because we worked out pretty hard, not much pauses for breaks and kept adding weights till we couldn't take it.
the bonus would be this particular girl working out with her friend too. she looks like our friend, just that she has nicer eyes!! and i really mean nice eyes.
herm and i were debating if she applied eye shadow, but her eyes appear to be quite deep in and its very sharp. VERY beautiful!! woahh!
its almost impossible to wear eye shadow to gym right? when you gonna sweat, than the eye shadow would smudge! so in conclusion, she DOES have deep and sharp eyes~ which is extremely attractive~
oh man. i wonder if they would be there next week~~ loLz=P
it was great because we worked out pretty hard, not much pauses for breaks and kept adding weights till we couldn't take it.
the bonus would be this particular girl working out with her friend too. she looks like our friend, just that she has nicer eyes!! and i really mean nice eyes.
herm and i were debating if she applied eye shadow, but her eyes appear to be quite deep in and its very sharp. VERY beautiful!! woahh!
its almost impossible to wear eye shadow to gym right? when you gonna sweat, than the eye shadow would smudge! so in conclusion, she DOES have deep and sharp eyes~ which is extremely attractive~
oh man. i wonder if they would be there next week~~ loLz=P
provoking thoughts.
Christians are not superman.
we're merely human beings, limited in our thoughts and powers. we're no where near perfection and we need guidance of a higher being. in our context, that higher being is called God.
the bible is written by human beings, inspired by the Holy Spirit.
the Holy Spirit, the Father and Jesus, the Son of God is called the Holy Trinity. they work together as one, in agreement with each other.
we maybe Christians, and our sins are forgiven. but that doesn't mean that our flaws are taken away. that doesn't mean that bad habits and memories are erased. we're still inperfect and we desire to be more like Christ.
seemingly impossible, but nothing is impossible with God.
the day of perfection? it would take eternity to reach there=)
i'm so glad that i'm created unique and special. i accept that this world i'm living in is imperfect because its a fallen world. i accept that there will be more earthquakes and tsunamis to come because its written in the word of God.
i believe the second coming of Christ will come when everyone has heard of the true gospel.
i believe that making Christ your Lord is a choice, introducing you the BEST friend i have is a must.
i believe that trials and tribulations will lead me to glory to glory. i believe i have victory in every situation and what the devil meant for bad, God is able to use it for His glory.
i believe i serve a great, almighty, limitless, powerful, loving, providing, just and faithful God.
hallelujah!
Christians are not superman.
we're merely human beings, limited in our thoughts and powers. we're no where near perfection and we need guidance of a higher being. in our context, that higher being is called God.
the bible is written by human beings, inspired by the Holy Spirit.
the Holy Spirit, the Father and Jesus, the Son of God is called the Holy Trinity. they work together as one, in agreement with each other.
we maybe Christians, and our sins are forgiven. but that doesn't mean that our flaws are taken away. that doesn't mean that bad habits and memories are erased. we're still inperfect and we desire to be more like Christ.
seemingly impossible, but nothing is impossible with God.
the day of perfection? it would take eternity to reach there=)
i'm so glad that i'm created unique and special. i accept that this world i'm living in is imperfect because its a fallen world. i accept that there will be more earthquakes and tsunamis to come because its written in the word of God.
i believe the second coming of Christ will come when everyone has heard of the true gospel.
i believe that making Christ your Lord is a choice, introducing you the BEST friend i have is a must.
i believe that trials and tribulations will lead me to glory to glory. i believe i have victory in every situation and what the devil meant for bad, God is able to use it for His glory.
i believe i serve a great, almighty, limitless, powerful, loving, providing, just and faithful God.
hallelujah!
Sunday, April 17, 2005
with regards to last night's post, i guess i've only 1 person to run to and thats Jesus. not forgetting buds like kim and veron, who messaged me at 5am, waking me up after i finally fell asleep at 3 plus.
today's message was totally for me and its called the sacrifice of praise. its not something new for me and i even shared this with a friend of mine, who was going through a tough time. little did i know that i could have praised God from the beginning of the attacks, instead of allowing it to manifest in my mind.
i guess God wants me to learn something out of the sermon, so i was allocated in the same position for 3 services.
Psalms 73 : 25 - 26
Whom have I in heaven but You? And there is none upon earth that I desire besides You. My flesh and my heart fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
i wanna be like David, who praised God no matter what the situation was, trusting Him and depending on Him for deliverance. knowing that God is able to take the situation and change it for His advantage.
in the worst of situations, David wouldn't dwell on the negatives but he focuses on the positives. he focuses on God, the goodness of God and his hunger for Him. thats seriously something i should learn if i want to defeat the goliath in my life.
i also realized that i'm prone to such "attacks" when i'm tired. i guess i've been sleeping way too late and waking up at weird times during the day. not forgetting taking loads of naps because i have nothing better to do.
discipline! mustmust have the discipline!!
its time i review my goals card and start working hard towards it. can't slack anymore, its April and there's not much time left this year.
the greater the degree of anointing, the greater the degree of trials. i wouldn't say that i'm going through all these and i would become super anointed. look at what Jesus, and the disciplines went through! the disciplines got stoned, mocked, challenged and threatened. Jesus went through 40 days in the wilderness, got mocked, challenged and threatened too.
woah.. i shouldn't complain in the future. =P
today's message was totally for me and its called the sacrifice of praise. its not something new for me and i even shared this with a friend of mine, who was going through a tough time. little did i know that i could have praised God from the beginning of the attacks, instead of allowing it to manifest in my mind.
i guess God wants me to learn something out of the sermon, so i was allocated in the same position for 3 services.
Psalms 73 : 25 - 26
Whom have I in heaven but You? And there is none upon earth that I desire besides You. My flesh and my heart fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
i wanna be like David, who praised God no matter what the situation was, trusting Him and depending on Him for deliverance. knowing that God is able to take the situation and change it for His advantage.
in the worst of situations, David wouldn't dwell on the negatives but he focuses on the positives. he focuses on God, the goodness of God and his hunger for Him. thats seriously something i should learn if i want to defeat the goliath in my life.
i also realized that i'm prone to such "attacks" when i'm tired. i guess i've been sleeping way too late and waking up at weird times during the day. not forgetting taking loads of naps because i have nothing better to do.
discipline! mustmust have the discipline!!
its time i review my goals card and start working hard towards it. can't slack anymore, its April and there's not much time left this year.
the greater the degree of anointing, the greater the degree of trials. i wouldn't say that i'm going through all these and i would become super anointed. look at what Jesus, and the disciplines went through! the disciplines got stoned, mocked, challenged and threatened. Jesus went through 40 days in the wilderness, got mocked, challenged and threatened too.
woah.. i shouldn't complain in the future. =P
my greatest desire NOW is to sleep! YET i can't sleep!! ARGH!! how annoying can that be!?
am i going through some test again? some test from God, testing if i would trust Him? why is it that i always fall repeatingly and seemingly cry out to Him, and i fall again!? its tough! its hard! i really need a breakthrough else i'm stuck!!
i don't feel the presence of God and i'm annoyed!!
how i wish that tomorrow isn't Sunday and i don't have to wake up early, so that i can share my thoughts with someone... but.. there isn't that someone!!
someone who gives me encouragement and advices. someone who points me to the right direction and leads me.
i believe all the Spiritual people are saying that Jesus is the person i'm looking for. i know that He's the one i run to, but i also NEED a friend who i can talk to face to face!! a person who makes me feel comfortable sharing with him/her, a person who's able to take away the blues and add colours into my life!
i just wish that everything wouldn't be like that now. no doubt its good going through tests, but where are the angels that He promised when we cry out to Him!? the angels that would care for us?
argh!! i just hate these doubts.
sometimes i just feel so darn tired of everything i'm doing and i need God's refreshing touch. i wouldn't want to repeat the silly mistakes i make for the rest of my life!!
i feel SO stuck.
i feel like checking my heart and SEE whats INSIDE my heart. i wanna know if God is IN my heart or in my mind.
heart. mind.
they seem to work the same way, but out of the heart flows love, out of the mind, flows methods.
i feel like as though i'm leading a lifeless life everyday! a shell that knows Jesus is my saviour, knows the lyrics to the best worship songs and knows what God promises us.
i don't want to be that shell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want a life!! a life in CHRIST!!
God is definitely moulding me hard and i'm feeling it.
please keep me by Your side and never let me go!! please allow me to dwell in Your presence and never lose it!! please forgive me of all my wrong-doings and cleanse me!! please SOFTEN my heart and open it up so that Your love can fill it!!
heart of worship.
its all about You Jesus...
i'll bring You more than a song..... You're looking into my heart..... into my heart....
i guess i need to spend more time... with God... to find His peace...
thank You Father for Your peace in me...
am i going through some test again? some test from God, testing if i would trust Him? why is it that i always fall repeatingly and seemingly cry out to Him, and i fall again!? its tough! its hard! i really need a breakthrough else i'm stuck!!
i don't feel the presence of God and i'm annoyed!!
how i wish that tomorrow isn't Sunday and i don't have to wake up early, so that i can share my thoughts with someone... but.. there isn't that someone!!
someone who gives me encouragement and advices. someone who points me to the right direction and leads me.
i believe all the Spiritual people are saying that Jesus is the person i'm looking for. i know that He's the one i run to, but i also NEED a friend who i can talk to face to face!! a person who makes me feel comfortable sharing with him/her, a person who's able to take away the blues and add colours into my life!
i just wish that everything wouldn't be like that now. no doubt its good going through tests, but where are the angels that He promised when we cry out to Him!? the angels that would care for us?
argh!! i just hate these doubts.
sometimes i just feel so darn tired of everything i'm doing and i need God's refreshing touch. i wouldn't want to repeat the silly mistakes i make for the rest of my life!!
i feel SO stuck.
i feel like checking my heart and SEE whats INSIDE my heart. i wanna know if God is IN my heart or in my mind.
heart. mind.
they seem to work the same way, but out of the heart flows love, out of the mind, flows methods.
i feel like as though i'm leading a lifeless life everyday! a shell that knows Jesus is my saviour, knows the lyrics to the best worship songs and knows what God promises us.
i don't want to be that shell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want a life!! a life in CHRIST!!
God is definitely moulding me hard and i'm feeling it.
please keep me by Your side and never let me go!! please allow me to dwell in Your presence and never lose it!! please forgive me of all my wrong-doings and cleanse me!! please SOFTEN my heart and open it up so that Your love can fill it!!
heart of worship.
its all about You Jesus...
i'll bring You more than a song..... You're looking into my heart..... into my heart....
i guess i need to spend more time... with God... to find His peace...
thank You Father for Your peace in me...
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
talents.
i was playing basketball at BPCC earlier with some teens and came an ah beng that joined us. my first impression of him was rather poor because of his attitude.
we were playing 3 on 3 and play got disrupted because of some problem another player faced. so someone shot the ball and the rebound was heading towards me. out of no where, that ah beng jumped in front of me and grabbed the ball away.
first - never do that because it shows that you're desperate to show off your skills.
second - i hate people doing that, especially when its just a shoot about.
that ah beng is quite a good player actually. but because of his pride, i nearly lost my cool and wanted to rough back. thank God i kept my cool and played in a way that annoyed him, instead of myself.
i kept a tight guard over him and even though he managed to score against me, i made sure that i answered back the next ball. even if i fall to do so, i would pass the ball around and control the play so that their team wouldn't gain possession that easily.
they lost both matches against us.
i didnt do much stuffs, but my teammates were remarkable. there's this CCKSS kiddo who's a great player. super young, yet talented. but the difference is that he's not puffed up with pride! i still remember seeing that kiddo everywhere i went recently and he never fails to give me a smile and a wave.
he calls me arcade mode because of the way i shoot and score baskets easily for 3 pointers. back then.. but i was totally off form earlier and couldnt score much baskets. yet he encouraged me and asked me to take more shots.
after a few matches, i finally got my touch back and scored baskets that annoyed that ah beng.
anyway, back to the kiddo. he's a better shooter than i am and he's younger than me!! i'm so impressed by his coolness and meekness!! not to mention his blur looking face. lolz=P
if that ah beng changes his attitude, i'm sure that he would become a good basketball player. but with an attitude like that, who would be willing to play with him?
sigh.
i was playing basketball at BPCC earlier with some teens and came an ah beng that joined us. my first impression of him was rather poor because of his attitude.
we were playing 3 on 3 and play got disrupted because of some problem another player faced. so someone shot the ball and the rebound was heading towards me. out of no where, that ah beng jumped in front of me and grabbed the ball away.
first - never do that because it shows that you're desperate to show off your skills.
second - i hate people doing that, especially when its just a shoot about.
that ah beng is quite a good player actually. but because of his pride, i nearly lost my cool and wanted to rough back. thank God i kept my cool and played in a way that annoyed him, instead of myself.
i kept a tight guard over him and even though he managed to score against me, i made sure that i answered back the next ball. even if i fall to do so, i would pass the ball around and control the play so that their team wouldn't gain possession that easily.
they lost both matches against us.
i didnt do much stuffs, but my teammates were remarkable. there's this CCKSS kiddo who's a great player. super young, yet talented. but the difference is that he's not puffed up with pride! i still remember seeing that kiddo everywhere i went recently and he never fails to give me a smile and a wave.
he calls me arcade mode because of the way i shoot and score baskets easily for 3 pointers. back then.. but i was totally off form earlier and couldnt score much baskets. yet he encouraged me and asked me to take more shots.
after a few matches, i finally got my touch back and scored baskets that annoyed that ah beng.
anyway, back to the kiddo. he's a better shooter than i am and he's younger than me!! i'm so impressed by his coolness and meekness!! not to mention his blur looking face. lolz=P
if that ah beng changes his attitude, i'm sure that he would become a good basketball player. but with an attitude like that, who would be willing to play with him?
sigh.
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
okie. something happened.
i'm convicted.
i need to spend more time with God. He's prompting me. He's waiting for me.
i need to spend more time seeking His face, reading His word. but, if i were to follow the bible reading plan, wouldn't i exceed?
MAN!! i just got the answer.
WHY BOTHER!?!? WHATS WRONG WITH READING GOD'S WORD OVER AND OVER AGAIN!?!?
alrite. the Holy Spirit just scolded me, in a loving way=)
i can't believe i'm getting all these while listening to Hallelujah in hebrew!! the song my church used for the Israel trip trailer.
renew my love for You Lord!! i wanna be a like a child whose innocence You love!! i wanna be that tool You use in Your Kingdom!! to SHINE in the dark to guide the paths of the lost!!
love.
purity.
hunger.
burden.
compassion.
fire.
deep calling onto deep.
seek.
things will never be the same again.
God just breathed into me, a renewed mind, strength.
i NEED to rearrange my time!!! late nights WILL be a NO-NO!! how can i let God wait till 2am and talk to Him for 10-30 minutes!?!? (yes, notice the HUGE time range.)
HOW CAN!?
He practically waited for me the WHOLE day just to spend TIME with me, like how a Father waits for His sons to come home and share with Him about their day!!
i'm starting to imagine how God is heart-broken everynight when i say amen and sleep.
OH MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He desires and yearns to fellowship with us!!! AHH!!! WHY DIDN'T THAT VERSE HIT ME!?!?!
thank You Holy Spirit!!! AHH!!!
i wanna go church and sleep there.
i'm exploding INSIDE again!!!
i just had another vision. God with outstretched arms, huge smile, dressed in white robes, welcoming me into His warmth... He's big, huge, almighty... He's warm, compassionate, loving... He's so fatherly...
He's my God! my Father in Heaven!!
i'm convicted.
i need to spend more time with God. He's prompting me. He's waiting for me.
i need to spend more time seeking His face, reading His word. but, if i were to follow the bible reading plan, wouldn't i exceed?
MAN!! i just got the answer.
WHY BOTHER!?!? WHATS WRONG WITH READING GOD'S WORD OVER AND OVER AGAIN!?!?
alrite. the Holy Spirit just scolded me, in a loving way=)
i can't believe i'm getting all these while listening to Hallelujah in hebrew!! the song my church used for the Israel trip trailer.
renew my love for You Lord!! i wanna be a like a child whose innocence You love!! i wanna be that tool You use in Your Kingdom!! to SHINE in the dark to guide the paths of the lost!!
love.
purity.
hunger.
burden.
compassion.
fire.
deep calling onto deep.
seek.
things will never be the same again.
God just breathed into me, a renewed mind, strength.
i NEED to rearrange my time!!! late nights WILL be a NO-NO!! how can i let God wait till 2am and talk to Him for 10-30 minutes!?!? (yes, notice the HUGE time range.)
HOW CAN!?
He practically waited for me the WHOLE day just to spend TIME with me, like how a Father waits for His sons to come home and share with Him about their day!!
i'm starting to imagine how God is heart-broken everynight when i say amen and sleep.
OH MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
He desires and yearns to fellowship with us!!! AHH!!! WHY DIDN'T THAT VERSE HIT ME!?!?!
thank You Holy Spirit!!! AHH!!!
i wanna go church and sleep there.
i'm exploding INSIDE again!!!
i just had another vision. God with outstretched arms, huge smile, dressed in white robes, welcoming me into His warmth... He's big, huge, almighty... He's warm, compassionate, loving... He's so fatherly...
He's my God! my Father in Heaven!!
Monday, April 11, 2005
the point of no return, returns!
finally after a long break, i went to the gym!! together with weilun and herman~
met lun at 5 and we headed down to CCK gym without hermzie because he had to buy stuffs for his final year project. i guess we didn't manage our "strength" properly and by one hour, both of us were kinda tired already.
slacked and waited for hermzie till 7.15pm.
went for second round and it was really challenging~ loLz=P i kept reducing the weights and even repetitions! heHz=P we went to the free weights corner and played around too~ tried the bar thingy, which weighs 20kg by itself, and lifted it. it was quite an experience~
all the gym training went to waste after we had dinner at KFC!! hahaZz~
sharon asked me something really interesting yesterday, i wonder how did she know too. she asked why i'm not focusing in CellGroup ministry, but focusing in Security ministry.
was quite shocked when she asked me that, and that issue has been on my mind for quite sometime.
no doubt, its my dream to rise up and be a cellgroup leader, leading a group of on fire Christians for the Lord. but, i remember a close friend of mine telling me that lives would be in my hands and if i'm not prepared, i might just screw up their lives.
its a HUGE responsibility.
so i guess i just want to be trained more.
i plan to stay in security until i complete SOT training, year 1 perhaps? that would take me 4 years from now on.
call it faithless or whatever, but i do not want to make mistakes like that. unless of course, if God's plan is for me to be a cellgroup leader now, i would have no choice but to obey Him.
now there's another question being thrown at me.
why am i single? loLz=P
not asked by sharon, but several of my friends. they all say that i'm bf material and they DON'T believe that i wouldn't have a gf. loLz=P
for this question, i've totally no idea why i'm still single.
maybe i'm just too goodlooking that female species feel that they are not good enough for me.
crap.
i guess its just the fear of rejection and i would rather the female species take the first step~ or HINT GREATLY so that even a klutz would know that the female species likes him. lolz=P
anyway.. i'll leave this to God. let Him decide~ i feel that i've been called to singlehood=/ maybe i'm the next pope. LOL!!
finally after a long break, i went to the gym!! together with weilun and herman~
met lun at 5 and we headed down to CCK gym without hermzie because he had to buy stuffs for his final year project. i guess we didn't manage our "strength" properly and by one hour, both of us were kinda tired already.
slacked and waited for hermzie till 7.15pm.
went for second round and it was really challenging~ loLz=P i kept reducing the weights and even repetitions! heHz=P we went to the free weights corner and played around too~ tried the bar thingy, which weighs 20kg by itself, and lifted it. it was quite an experience~
all the gym training went to waste after we had dinner at KFC!! hahaZz~
sharon asked me something really interesting yesterday, i wonder how did she know too. she asked why i'm not focusing in CellGroup ministry, but focusing in Security ministry.
was quite shocked when she asked me that, and that issue has been on my mind for quite sometime.
no doubt, its my dream to rise up and be a cellgroup leader, leading a group of on fire Christians for the Lord. but, i remember a close friend of mine telling me that lives would be in my hands and if i'm not prepared, i might just screw up their lives.
its a HUGE responsibility.
so i guess i just want to be trained more.
i plan to stay in security until i complete SOT training, year 1 perhaps? that would take me 4 years from now on.
call it faithless or whatever, but i do not want to make mistakes like that. unless of course, if God's plan is for me to be a cellgroup leader now, i would have no choice but to obey Him.
now there's another question being thrown at me.
why am i single? loLz=P
not asked by sharon, but several of my friends. they all say that i'm bf material and they DON'T believe that i wouldn't have a gf. loLz=P
for this question, i've totally no idea why i'm still single.
maybe i'm just too goodlooking that female species feel that they are not good enough for me.
crap.
i guess its just the fear of rejection and i would rather the female species take the first step~ or HINT GREATLY so that even a klutz would know that the female species likes him. lolz=P
anyway.. i'll leave this to God. let Him decide~ i feel that i've been called to singlehood=/ maybe i'm the next pope. LOL!!
Sunday, April 10, 2005
sunday never ceases to bring me up a whole new level.
extremely blessed to be able to listen to Rev Rick's message 2 times, and its 2 different messages!! was caught off guard but thank God i was able to absorb as much as i can=)
Rev Rick really preached 2 messages that challenged me. he preached about being ourselves, and not who we want to be and being a disciple for Christ.
in church, there are two main types of ministries. there's the multitude ministry and the discipleship ministry.
disciples are those whose lives are changed by God and multitues ministry are just people who feed on the word and do nothing about it.
to be a disciple of Christ, we got to make the word our life. its about experiencing the purpose of God, in our life, and spending quality time with disciples.
Jesus said, He will build the church and we are to make disciples of ALL nations. that simply means that we're to train quality disciples! disciples who are willing to carry the burden of God on their shoulders!!
but durin that process, there's many things that we have to do and thats to SUBMIT to God, bringing Him all our talents and when He returns us our talents, we lay down everything and take Jesus as Lord.
bringing our talents to Jesus. our gifts and talents come from the Almighty God and only He knows the fullest potential our talents can achieve. we can use our talents to bring glory to God or in a perverted way.
Rev Rick said something so true, "some of the most talented and richest people are the most depressed people on this earth"
they work so hard, yet they are unable to fill the void in their hearts. the void that yearns for God's love, the void that requires the blood of Jesus Christ and the void that hungers for the Holy Spirit.
when we lay down our talents at His feet, He breaks the demonic control of the talent and returns the talents back to us.
in layman's term, Jesus takes away every impurites and sets our hearts right before Him.
there are many things in life we try to control. but when Jesus is our LORD, we're unable to control our own life! our life is in His hands because He's our LORD. so, we've to TRUST Jesus and do whatever He says!
we may feel that we don't like it, BUT God knows whats best for you because He sees things differently!! IF God were to make everyone on this earth happy, it would be chaotic!! imagine God granting every single wish that i make - endless of money, hot body, most goodlookin face, tall, tanned, etc
the list goes on! if God were to grant everything, then WHY we call Jesus our LORD? our SHEPHERD!?
we MUST allow God to come in and change our life! definitely, we must bow down in agreement to God, allowing Him to work in our lives, changing areas that isn't worthy and obeying His voice.
when these are in place, our walk with God will definitely be an exciting one because God is able to use us for His glory!
thats what he preached for service 4=)
service 5, he shared about exposing my pseudo self.
he shared that many people feel that the REAL them is unacceptable. so they would hide in shells or take on an identity of another person just to cover up! some people think that things would be better if they perform better.
if the performance is birth out of wrong desires, it would only lead to destruction!! imagine a DUCK acting like a watch dog.
a guy who's easily intimated wants to be like the coolest hunk in the movies. his desires is to be a cool dude like him. but when the situation arises, and without the right motives, he's still gonna be intimated!!
we got to excel in who we are and not what we think we are!
i may not be the smartest guy around or the most good looking hunk, but the fact that GOD made me unique and special and he made me, ME! not YOU!! God made me who i am! there's no way i'm gonna change that!
the word of God says that He didn't give me the spirit of fear, but of a love and of a sound mind! the Lord is MY victory, MY healer, MY sheperd and many other more!
when Jesus Christ is in our lives, the strongholds WILL be destroyed and it wouldn't give the devil any single chance to live in us. why?
because there is POWER in the word of God, His word is LIFE and its LIGHT to my path and His word can RENEW my mind!! hallelujah!
thats just a brief recap of what Rev Rick taught us about=)
-
after serving, before briefing started, i was asked to write by charmaine, to prove that my handwriting is nice. so i wrote 1 line and Ashley, an usher, was so shocked and said that my handwriting is neater then hers.
bah.
met charmaine and waited for sharon at the riveria. tested charmaine with the verses and she managed to remember 5 verses in just 5 minutes!! i'm still so amazed by her amazing memory power and she even remembers the commas and stuffs~ woah.
finally sharon finished and we headed to town! i was only told that we would be catching a show. so i tagged along, since i had nothing to do.
along the way, sharon told us that she would be getting shoes for mabel, her bud. so she wanted to draw money from the ATM. but she was unable to draw the cash out. not knowing why she checked her tithe recept and to her shock, she realized she made a mistake at her tithe! a HUGE mistake!
but that didnt stop her from being a giver! she bought the shoes for mabel using her visa. not only that! we ate dinner and billy bombers and she paid for the entire dinner using her visa too!! talk about being a generous giver!!
not only that. she often drops me off UNDER my block even when she's rushing for time. she sped and cut lanes like ABC down the PIE and BKE, yet she bothers to turn into my block and drop me off~
she does so many good things to be and i seriously do feel bad at times~ did suggest if i could work with her, but they're not looking for partimers~ lolz=P i guess 1 of the best things i can do is that when i've my car, i'll ferry them, sharon and char, around and when my finances is really strong, i wouldn't even mind treating them for nice dinners~
we watched the pacifier and it was FUNNY!! hahAzz=P army style of keepin the kids together and training them like as though they are in the army.
anyway, i kinda pooped.
extremely blessed to be able to listen to Rev Rick's message 2 times, and its 2 different messages!! was caught off guard but thank God i was able to absorb as much as i can=)
Rev Rick really preached 2 messages that challenged me. he preached about being ourselves, and not who we want to be and being a disciple for Christ.
in church, there are two main types of ministries. there's the multitude ministry and the discipleship ministry.
disciples are those whose lives are changed by God and multitues ministry are just people who feed on the word and do nothing about it.
to be a disciple of Christ, we got to make the word our life. its about experiencing the purpose of God, in our life, and spending quality time with disciples.
Jesus said, He will build the church and we are to make disciples of ALL nations. that simply means that we're to train quality disciples! disciples who are willing to carry the burden of God on their shoulders!!
but durin that process, there's many things that we have to do and thats to SUBMIT to God, bringing Him all our talents and when He returns us our talents, we lay down everything and take Jesus as Lord.
bringing our talents to Jesus. our gifts and talents come from the Almighty God and only He knows the fullest potential our talents can achieve. we can use our talents to bring glory to God or in a perverted way.
Rev Rick said something so true, "some of the most talented and richest people are the most depressed people on this earth"
they work so hard, yet they are unable to fill the void in their hearts. the void that yearns for God's love, the void that requires the blood of Jesus Christ and the void that hungers for the Holy Spirit.
when we lay down our talents at His feet, He breaks the demonic control of the talent and returns the talents back to us.
in layman's term, Jesus takes away every impurites and sets our hearts right before Him.
there are many things in life we try to control. but when Jesus is our LORD, we're unable to control our own life! our life is in His hands because He's our LORD. so, we've to TRUST Jesus and do whatever He says!
we may feel that we don't like it, BUT God knows whats best for you because He sees things differently!! IF God were to make everyone on this earth happy, it would be chaotic!! imagine God granting every single wish that i make - endless of money, hot body, most goodlookin face, tall, tanned, etc
the list goes on! if God were to grant everything, then WHY we call Jesus our LORD? our SHEPHERD!?
we MUST allow God to come in and change our life! definitely, we must bow down in agreement to God, allowing Him to work in our lives, changing areas that isn't worthy and obeying His voice.
when these are in place, our walk with God will definitely be an exciting one because God is able to use us for His glory!
thats what he preached for service 4=)
service 5, he shared about exposing my pseudo self.
he shared that many people feel that the REAL them is unacceptable. so they would hide in shells or take on an identity of another person just to cover up! some people think that things would be better if they perform better.
if the performance is birth out of wrong desires, it would only lead to destruction!! imagine a DUCK acting like a watch dog.
a guy who's easily intimated wants to be like the coolest hunk in the movies. his desires is to be a cool dude like him. but when the situation arises, and without the right motives, he's still gonna be intimated!!
we got to excel in who we are and not what we think we are!
i may not be the smartest guy around or the most good looking hunk, but the fact that GOD made me unique and special and he made me, ME! not YOU!! God made me who i am! there's no way i'm gonna change that!
the word of God says that He didn't give me the spirit of fear, but of a love and of a sound mind! the Lord is MY victory, MY healer, MY sheperd and many other more!
when Jesus Christ is in our lives, the strongholds WILL be destroyed and it wouldn't give the devil any single chance to live in us. why?
because there is POWER in the word of God, His word is LIFE and its LIGHT to my path and His word can RENEW my mind!! hallelujah!
thats just a brief recap of what Rev Rick taught us about=)
-
after serving, before briefing started, i was asked to write by charmaine, to prove that my handwriting is nice. so i wrote 1 line and Ashley, an usher, was so shocked and said that my handwriting is neater then hers.
bah.
met charmaine and waited for sharon at the riveria. tested charmaine with the verses and she managed to remember 5 verses in just 5 minutes!! i'm still so amazed by her amazing memory power and she even remembers the commas and stuffs~ woah.
finally sharon finished and we headed to town! i was only told that we would be catching a show. so i tagged along, since i had nothing to do.
along the way, sharon told us that she would be getting shoes for mabel, her bud. so she wanted to draw money from the ATM. but she was unable to draw the cash out. not knowing why she checked her tithe recept and to her shock, she realized she made a mistake at her tithe! a HUGE mistake!
but that didnt stop her from being a giver! she bought the shoes for mabel using her visa. not only that! we ate dinner and billy bombers and she paid for the entire dinner using her visa too!! talk about being a generous giver!!
not only that. she often drops me off UNDER my block even when she's rushing for time. she sped and cut lanes like ABC down the PIE and BKE, yet she bothers to turn into my block and drop me off~
she does so many good things to be and i seriously do feel bad at times~ did suggest if i could work with her, but they're not looking for partimers~ lolz=P i guess 1 of the best things i can do is that when i've my car, i'll ferry them, sharon and char, around and when my finances is really strong, i wouldn't even mind treating them for nice dinners~
we watched the pacifier and it was FUNNY!! hahAzz=P army style of keepin the kids together and training them like as though they are in the army.
anyway, i kinda pooped.
Saturday, April 09, 2005
hahaz~ once again, God decided to change my day and end it on high.
this is what happens when you put your trust in God and submit to Him, even when you don't feel like it.
Emerge Conference 2005!! this time, there would be a preaching challenge and most probably i'll be signing up for that~ hEh. was told by xj that we would have to write our own sermons. so probably i'll use my unity sermon and maybe write a new one, which is about letting go of our hurts.
eugene had a taste of my sermon~ loLz=P
there is also extreme sports and biathlon events. not sure if i'm gonna join this year as i maybe involved in Parade of Schools and it would be quite time consuming. not forgetting that Emerge Conference this year is held during our school term!!
for the first time, i enjoyed my journey home. my mind wandered and i started to imagine myself preaching to the entire congregation, giving altarcall, ministering to them and even laying hands~ loLz=) its really fun when your mind wanders to the extremes~ hAHaz=P
but, GLORY to God! for all these are not possible without Him!
this is what happens when you put your trust in God and submit to Him, even when you don't feel like it.
Emerge Conference 2005!! this time, there would be a preaching challenge and most probably i'll be signing up for that~ hEh. was told by xj that we would have to write our own sermons. so probably i'll use my unity sermon and maybe write a new one, which is about letting go of our hurts.
eugene had a taste of my sermon~ loLz=P
there is also extreme sports and biathlon events. not sure if i'm gonna join this year as i maybe involved in Parade of Schools and it would be quite time consuming. not forgetting that Emerge Conference this year is held during our school term!!
for the first time, i enjoyed my journey home. my mind wandered and i started to imagine myself preaching to the entire congregation, giving altarcall, ministering to them and even laying hands~ loLz=) its really fun when your mind wanders to the extremes~ hAHaz=P
but, GLORY to God! for all these are not possible without Him!
Friday, April 08, 2005
so after 3 straight hours, i completed 6 chapters of PCS tutorials.
heh. it was really an tiring day as i had to spend LOADS of time travelling.
11am - headed to school for a tennis training briefing. our coach, dedy, sounds kinda arrogant and he gave me the Ken Lim impression. maybe he's really confident about his coaching skills~ can't say much until we see him in action.
5pm - headed to suntec and the bus didnt take me straight to suntec. instead, it made a turn to clifford pier and i had to take a 10 minute walk to suntec. i enjoyed the walk under the sun and bought ice cream along the way!! loLz=P i felt like a tourist and i really enjoyed the breeze at the bridge... maybe i should hang out there often~
6pm - headed to jurong west to meet my friend, to collect the PCS tutorials.
8.30pm - finally met my friend near her place and finally collected the tutorials.
9.30pm - went to kim's place to collect my pen and she offered to send me down~ headed to 7-11, grabbed a drink and stoned at the interchange while waiting for my bus, which takes a super long time to arrive.
while waiting, there was this gentleman who approached us. he asked if we could spare him 2 bucks and we managed only $1.50 worth of coins. he saw that i still had 10 cents after we said thats all and after 10 seconds, he turned around and asked if he could have that 10 cents.
if he didnt ask for that 10 cents, i wouldn't feel that he's a little off. but the moment he asked for that 10 cents, i felt immediately that he's not in the right state of mind and he may disturb kim for more money as my bus arrived.
boarded the bus and couldn't see where kim disappeared too. messaged her, but no replies.
11.00pm - reached home, bathed, ate and started doing tutorials. messaged kim again, no replies
11.30pm - gave her a call and thank God she answered and said that she didn't notice the messages. would feel EXTREMELY guilty if something happened to her. man=/
well, God's our protector and He would protect us=)
i spent like 4-5 hours travelling today? i'm really tired of travelling and i hate travelling on buses alone. a 15 minutes journey can seem extremely long when i'm alone and whenever i travel, my mind tends of wander and often gets attacked spiritually.
and that reminds me. i've spent like 30 bucks on transport!! its so freaking expensive to travel in sinagapore!! and i'm broke, again.
sigh.
FINANCIAL BLESSING, IN JESUS' NAME, I COMMAND YOU TO FILL MY LIFE!!
heh. it was really an tiring day as i had to spend LOADS of time travelling.
11am - headed to school for a tennis training briefing. our coach, dedy, sounds kinda arrogant and he gave me the Ken Lim impression. maybe he's really confident about his coaching skills~ can't say much until we see him in action.
5pm - headed to suntec and the bus didnt take me straight to suntec. instead, it made a turn to clifford pier and i had to take a 10 minute walk to suntec. i enjoyed the walk under the sun and bought ice cream along the way!! loLz=P i felt like a tourist and i really enjoyed the breeze at the bridge... maybe i should hang out there often~
6pm - headed to jurong west to meet my friend, to collect the PCS tutorials.
8.30pm - finally met my friend near her place and finally collected the tutorials.
9.30pm - went to kim's place to collect my pen and she offered to send me down~ headed to 7-11, grabbed a drink and stoned at the interchange while waiting for my bus, which takes a super long time to arrive.
while waiting, there was this gentleman who approached us. he asked if we could spare him 2 bucks and we managed only $1.50 worth of coins. he saw that i still had 10 cents after we said thats all and after 10 seconds, he turned around and asked if he could have that 10 cents.
if he didnt ask for that 10 cents, i wouldn't feel that he's a little off. but the moment he asked for that 10 cents, i felt immediately that he's not in the right state of mind and he may disturb kim for more money as my bus arrived.
boarded the bus and couldn't see where kim disappeared too. messaged her, but no replies.
11.00pm - reached home, bathed, ate and started doing tutorials. messaged kim again, no replies
11.30pm - gave her a call and thank God she answered and said that she didn't notice the messages. would feel EXTREMELY guilty if something happened to her. man=/
well, God's our protector and He would protect us=)
i spent like 4-5 hours travelling today? i'm really tired of travelling and i hate travelling on buses alone. a 15 minutes journey can seem extremely long when i'm alone and whenever i travel, my mind tends of wander and often gets attacked spiritually.
and that reminds me. i've spent like 30 bucks on transport!! its so freaking expensive to travel in sinagapore!! and i'm broke, again.
sigh.
FINANCIAL BLESSING, IN JESUS' NAME, I COMMAND YOU TO FILL MY LIFE!!
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
how amazing.
my PCS lecturer decided to call me at 11.30am, woke me up, and asked for my tutorial sheets. best of all, he's giving me 2 days to complete 6 tutorials.
why now!?
he said that there are some tutorial sheets at his table, but he doubts that they belong to me. but i remember handling them up!! not all, but at least some of them!! though i can't remember if i wrote my name on it~ loLz=P
i'm not ranting about it, but i want to thank God for this situation as the tutorial is at least 10% weightage of the overall result and if i were to submit all the tutorials, it means that i would have 10 marks confirmed.
10 marks is A LOT and based on my performance during the finals, i REALLY need that 10 marks!! thank GOD!!!
the importance of tutorials~ ah...
my PCS lecturer decided to call me at 11.30am, woke me up, and asked for my tutorial sheets. best of all, he's giving me 2 days to complete 6 tutorials.
why now!?
he said that there are some tutorial sheets at his table, but he doubts that they belong to me. but i remember handling them up!! not all, but at least some of them!! though i can't remember if i wrote my name on it~ loLz=P
i'm not ranting about it, but i want to thank God for this situation as the tutorial is at least 10% weightage of the overall result and if i were to submit all the tutorials, it means that i would have 10 marks confirmed.
10 marks is A LOT and based on my performance during the finals, i REALLY need that 10 marks!! thank GOD!!!
the importance of tutorials~ ah...
Monday, April 04, 2005
sunday!!
with great excitement, i woke up fairly late and took a cab down to church. thank God i was still early and managed to grab a bite before serving.
that reminds me, i've yet to drink my cup of iced milo. i wonder where is it~ loLz=P
i was placed in the same position throughout the day and i really thank God for that. NOT for personal motives (what's there to gain serving there!?) but because i get to listen to the word 3 times, partake of the communion 3 times and receive 3 TIMES the anointing!!
watch out world! loLz=P
today's message is about the Ark of God, which is the Presence of God.
its a great message preached by Pastor Kong, AS USUAL, and he preached about carrying the presence of God into our workplace, schools and even at home. wherever the presence of God dwells, comes ABUNDANCE!!
the presence of God is something thats really precious and we should all hunger for it. more than that, we would be carriers of His presence, that He will be enthroned in our lives!! when you're anointed with the presence of God, science and wonders follow after you and miracles happen before your eyes.
yes, we shouldn't seek such miracles, but we seek God almighty only.
i truly want to be a carrier of God's presence, everywhere i go.
after service, i headed down to meet my cousin after a short walkaround with kim and sam at jurong point. i had a wedding dinner to attend and, NO, its not my wedding, but its my cousin's wedding.
heh. not exactly close to her, but just felt like going~
the dinner was rather boring and thank God for my nephews and nieces who kept me company throughout~ joy, jamie, janeen were taking turns to sit on my lap and as i became their massaging chair=/ lolz=P
joy's super cute man. just walk up to me, then stare at me. when i asked her if she wants to sit on my lap, she smiled and nodded her head~ lolz=P
anyway, the wedding ceremony wasn't really very romantic or whatsoever maybe because food was placed in front of us. hEh.. if i was getting married, i would do something REALLY special.. maybe like sing a song or something~ lolz=P
then, i would ban all alcoholic drinks because after seeing the groom toasting everyone and getting really drunk, i was so turned off by the stuffs that he said and did.
his english is directly translated from hokkien. you dry i dry. which actually means ni ta wa ta in hokkien. which means that both parties simply just finish the entire mug of beer. thats not all, he started to talk really loudly and kept on drinking and drinking.
what a way to spoil your wedding video and memories of it.
i really can't imagine myself drunk on my wedding night. heh=P on a wedding day, its both the bride and groom's day, lookin at their best and lovely~ if at the end of the day, my wife has to drag me to the toilet or kick me off the bed, it wouldn't be a pretty memory~ lolz=P
anyway, wedding bells ain't ringing yet. i'm still single!
with great excitement, i woke up fairly late and took a cab down to church. thank God i was still early and managed to grab a bite before serving.
that reminds me, i've yet to drink my cup of iced milo. i wonder where is it~ loLz=P
i was placed in the same position throughout the day and i really thank God for that. NOT for personal motives (what's there to gain serving there!?) but because i get to listen to the word 3 times, partake of the communion 3 times and receive 3 TIMES the anointing!!
watch out world! loLz=P
today's message is about the Ark of God, which is the Presence of God.
its a great message preached by Pastor Kong, AS USUAL, and he preached about carrying the presence of God into our workplace, schools and even at home. wherever the presence of God dwells, comes ABUNDANCE!!
the presence of God is something thats really precious and we should all hunger for it. more than that, we would be carriers of His presence, that He will be enthroned in our lives!! when you're anointed with the presence of God, science and wonders follow after you and miracles happen before your eyes.
yes, we shouldn't seek such miracles, but we seek God almighty only.
i truly want to be a carrier of God's presence, everywhere i go.
after service, i headed down to meet my cousin after a short walkaround with kim and sam at jurong point. i had a wedding dinner to attend and, NO, its not my wedding, but its my cousin's wedding.
heh. not exactly close to her, but just felt like going~
the dinner was rather boring and thank God for my nephews and nieces who kept me company throughout~ joy, jamie, janeen were taking turns to sit on my lap and as i became their massaging chair=/ lolz=P
joy's super cute man. just walk up to me, then stare at me. when i asked her if she wants to sit on my lap, she smiled and nodded her head~ lolz=P
anyway, the wedding ceremony wasn't really very romantic or whatsoever maybe because food was placed in front of us. hEh.. if i was getting married, i would do something REALLY special.. maybe like sing a song or something~ lolz=P
then, i would ban all alcoholic drinks because after seeing the groom toasting everyone and getting really drunk, i was so turned off by the stuffs that he said and did.
his english is directly translated from hokkien. you dry i dry. which actually means ni ta wa ta in hokkien. which means that both parties simply just finish the entire mug of beer. thats not all, he started to talk really loudly and kept on drinking and drinking.
what a way to spoil your wedding video and memories of it.
i really can't imagine myself drunk on my wedding night. heh=P on a wedding day, its both the bride and groom's day, lookin at their best and lovely~ if at the end of the day, my wife has to drag me to the toilet or kick me off the bed, it wouldn't be a pretty memory~ lolz=P
anyway, wedding bells ain't ringing yet. i'm still single!
Saturday, April 02, 2005
finally the exams are over and i don't feel the excitment of it.
feels like any other normal day.
maybe i should just stop dreading about the stupid paper and move on with my life. the papers are now being marked and there's nothing i can do to change my marks. by the grace of God, i would be able to pass my exams and move on to the next semester.
i think i should start planning about things to do during the holidays.
feels like any other normal day.
maybe i should just stop dreading about the stupid paper and move on with my life. the papers are now being marked and there's nothing i can do to change my marks. by the grace of God, i would be able to pass my exams and move on to the next semester.
i think i should start planning about things to do during the holidays.
Friday, April 01, 2005
finally i can blog.
while reading this entry, please allow the beautiful song to load and hopefully, you would understand what i feel whenever i listen to this song.
when i heard this song, i felt so attached to this song. i feel as though this song belongs to me and holds a specific meaning for me. when i started to repeat it, repeatingly, my visions came back to me again.
i saw myself preaching in a stadium, images of myself healing the sick and mega crusades ( something like benny hinn's crusades ) with this music as its background.
then i remembered that benny hinn used this music for his crusade too, that introduced us to the millions of indians in his india crusade.
and there i was, seated in the library, too engrossed in my vision that i started to worship God in my heart. i allowed my vision to build on and i saw myself becoming more and more like benny hinn, a healing evangelist.
i saw myself, my flaws. the areas of my life that was not submitted to God.
it was as though God was speaking to me directly in the comfort of my school library. God showed areas of my life that needs to go through Him, so that my fullest potential can be reached.
He showed areas like doing things for His glory or personal glory, if my intentions of doing things is really for the love of God or just for praises.
He showed me how benny hinn submitted his life to Him and how He is able to use him for such great miracle crusades.
He showed me how easy it is to heal because He's the one that does the healing and we're that ones that are sent by Him; all we need is faith and total submission to Him.
He showed that i maybe still young, but NOW'S the time to submit totally to God.
while reading this entry, please allow the beautiful song to load and hopefully, you would understand what i feel whenever i listen to this song.
when i heard this song, i felt so attached to this song. i feel as though this song belongs to me and holds a specific meaning for me. when i started to repeat it, repeatingly, my visions came back to me again.
i saw myself preaching in a stadium, images of myself healing the sick and mega crusades ( something like benny hinn's crusades ) with this music as its background.
then i remembered that benny hinn used this music for his crusade too, that introduced us to the millions of indians in his india crusade.
and there i was, seated in the library, too engrossed in my vision that i started to worship God in my heart. i allowed my vision to build on and i saw myself becoming more and more like benny hinn, a healing evangelist.
i saw myself, my flaws. the areas of my life that was not submitted to God.
it was as though God was speaking to me directly in the comfort of my school library. God showed areas of my life that needs to go through Him, so that my fullest potential can be reached.
He showed areas like doing things for His glory or personal glory, if my intentions of doing things is really for the love of God or just for praises.
He showed me how benny hinn submitted his life to Him and how He is able to use him for such great miracle crusades.
He showed me how easy it is to heal because He's the one that does the healing and we're that ones that are sent by Him; all we need is faith and total submission to Him.
He showed that i maybe still young, but NOW'S the time to submit totally to God.
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