hahaz~ woke up in the morning and started need for speed : underground. lolx=P though i cheated, but it's still fun! hahaz~ getting cool upgrades and loads of cash~

school started at 3pm today, WAA. sometimes, i really do not know what's the main purpose of that module.

headed down to railmall to get a haircut, the same saloon. my hair now is super short~ hahaz~ almost fell asleep when the sylist was washing my hair. it was extremely comfortable!! felt like your head is really light, and it makes your eyelids heavy~ lolx=P

just came back from kbox~ went with herman, jiawei and binghan. had a great time with them, even though i didn't sing well=P i was either too soft, or monotone~ lolx=P

finished singing at 2am, and we walked home. ate chao guo tiao at a nearby coffeeshop. had to walk home alone later afterwards and we stay in different directions. started to sing songs to myself to overcome the silence~

should i send a message to jiayi, and ask her for her msn address? i don't want to sound desperate=/

had headache stuck with me through the day, it was those of off headaches. may be i was too tired, the moment i walked into class in the morning, i fell asleep. woke up a while later, eyes extremely heavy, head too.

during my 2 hour break, slept at the canteen and i woke up feeling better. classes were rather draggy, 4 hours of MPP ( which is almost similar to D&T ) could have killed me in terms of boredom and cold. was shivering throughout the 4 hours and the tutor spoke in a monotone=/

raining again, it's raining cats and dogs everyday!! hugging my blankie everywhere i go at home. lolx~ extremely comfortable=P

You are one of the few out there whose wings are
truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
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Light your wings are massive and a soft white
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spread my love of the last samurai in school just now. lolx=P told my friends that the show is a much watch and why i liked the show. heheez~ "wah~ the effects hor~ POWER AH!! the blood doesn't just flow out, it spurts out or it's like a fountain. super broken english when i speak to my friends=P hahaz~

i got so many tutorials i have to do!! but they are not due tomorrow~ hahaz~

natalie's sick. wanted to buy dinner for her, but she declined my offer as she was going to see the doctor. hope she recovers soon=/

it's been raining for the past few days. on off rain, been quite sometime since i last saw dry pathways~ lolx=P

just came back from choa chu kang~! had dinner with natalie, cailing and lixia - sakae sushi.

watched last samurai with natalie afterwards. the show is simply awesome. i could feel every single pain, defeat, victory and even the slash of the blades. the show is extremely meaningful too, gave me loads of thoughts to dwell on afterwards.

the will and courage of the samurais is something that we should learn from. even when they were outnumbered, fighting against canons and guns, they fought with all their heart. for them, to die on the battlefield is a honourable thing. even though one of the leading actors were shot by the guns, he carried until fighting until he couldn't anymore. almost every single samurai were like that, fighting till the very end, never giving up.

maybe some of you may disagree with me as it is just a show, but the storyline is flawless and the way they talked about the samurais - perfect~ it seemed that it was based on a true story, but it's not. the values of the samurai are real, should get it printed out=P

after watching the show, i feel like becoming a samurai. anyone who is willing to sponser me to japan to train as a samurai? hahaz=P check out their offical site The Last Samurai

it's really a fast day today in school. it's not even 2pm, and i'm already at home. lolx=P

meeting natalie later, and i lost her friend's number. natalie didn't bring her phone today and she messaged me using her friend's phone. but, i deleted the number=/

when i was in the bus earlier in the morning, suddenly i thought of something - life is precious, treasure it as you never know when we would leave the world. why torment yourself with depression and suicide, when you should be enjoying the sun. what's life, if you don't even fight for your own life? would you rather sit back and wait for death or enjoy life to the fullest. moments before your last breath, you would think about your journey. do you want it to be filled with blessings or sorrow? to all my friends out there, people i don't know, anybody, life's that short. treasure it!

sounds a little crappy, and a little like those forwarded emails you get everyday in your inbox. hehz=P

went for youth service today, there wasn't much difference between adult and youth service though. i felt that the sermon today, was a direct message for me, again. it spoke about failures and success, somehow, i was able to relate myself into situations that Pastor Wu defined. it was as if he was speaking about my problems. loLz=P

rushed home afterwards as we're going to relative's place and dinner afterwards. i was rather sad to hear that my uncle "banned" his son from playing today because he showed a "black" face when they were shopping. heard that my cousin cried too=/ so sad~ wanted to console him, by playing games with him, but he was asleep.

went for dinner at east coast - jumbo, seafood. 5 person cramped into a small table and my shirt was stained by the stupid prawns. i don't understand why the place is always packed with people. the food wasn't that fantastic. okie, maybe it's just me=P

went home, came online and played gunbound with wanling. had great games winning most of the games, and making super shots. loLz=P

meeting natalie tomorrow after her school at 6pm. owe her a dinner treat and most probably we would be watching "the last samurai"

i think i need to clear some air here - me and natalie are just buddies~ we are not couples!! stop thinking that we are together~ hahaz~ i'm still single and available=P

ArGh! i'm feeling so, blue-ish about school tomorrow. i guess i'm still in the holiday mood >.< i dread school tomorrow=/

what a "fruitful" day. first of all, i didn't leave my house a single step. though there were people asking me out, i didn't go, cause i wasn't really in the mood. practially did nothing at home, besides sleeping, lying on my bed, covering myself with my blanklet and playing games. was that bored until a edited my game, and my players now have full 20 stats.

i feel that i should keep my cool in the future.

hEyhEy! did anyone miss me? didn't blog for a day! hAaz~

1st day of chinese new year -

first time our family set off late, which was good too, cause our first destination is kinda near and every year, whenever we arrive at their place, they would have just woke up.

nothing really special on this first day, the usual meeting of once-a-year relatives and collecting of angbaos! the usual comments were made on me - wah boy! so tall, big already ah!! hahaz~ chinese new year is really the time to catch up cause everyone would be joyous and celebrating.

2nd day of chinese new year -

woke up, mom was in a bad mood? started nagging at everyone. i got pretty cheesed off. showered, prepared and went to natalie's house. though i felt rather uncomfortable, her mom kept smiling at me, which made me felt more comfortable. waited for her elder sister to bring us to her granny's place.

when in her granny's place, i was entertained by this little girl named, celest. very pretty little girl, who looks a little like fann wong, kept running all over the house, "chatting" with herself on the phone, drew and came up with a game she created herself. lolx=P she even peeled oranges for me! hahaz~ kept herself busy throughout the day, taking care of the baby too~

natalie's relatives are pretty friendly. had big fat angbaos from them, and they didn't bombard me with questions. lolx=P

spent most of the time there watching them gamble, tv and playing games. i gambled a little too=X helped them to play as they were taking their dinner. lolx~ =P

going to my leader's house tomorrow, or rather, deciding if i should go. hahaz~

went to roxy park hotel for dinner buffet just now, didn't eat that much as i was pretty filled. the food there wasn't really my favourite too~

joanne peh's on TV~!! she's so pretty~!! just found out that she's only 19 years old, studying in NTU~ arGh!! seriously eye candy for her fellow students >.< with actresses like her and jamie teo, it makes me feel like joining TCS too~ hAHaz~ i may have the talent to act, star search~ here i come!! =X that's if i can read chinese~ lolx=P

yeah, it's lunar new year~ collection of angbaos and eating of super heaty tidbits! not only that, would be meeting-once-a-year relatives that always say the same phrase - aiyo! ah boy!! so tall already ah!! last time you short short one~ now so tall!! -.-'' how much will i get this year~ heh heh~

just came back from queensway~!! fully packed with students and last minute shoppers like me~ lolx=P

bought myself 4 shirts, 2 jeans~ haHaz~ so happy!! most of the shirts are plain designs, but extremely nice~

should be going out later, can wear them liao!! =D

played basketball just now, flew into a rage as my opponent kept elbowing, playing rough with me. roughed back, and i was double teamed on many occasions. they were pretty sore losers, whenever they started losing badly, they played rough. anyway, they aren't match for us. lolx=P

after the match, tried pulling the rim with both my hands. managed to pull, but unable to grab it. tried again, pulled, unable to grab again and i fell wrist first. now my right wrist is a little painful.

ultimate boredom! no one in class today felt like studying, everyone has the chinese new year mood.

i saw jiayi today~ as usual, i didn't dare to approach her. but she seemed to be different today - prettier.

met fencui in the canteen too, and we chatted while waiting for fruit juice. she too, changed. lolx. i can't remember if we chat in chinese or english, but i felt a lil odd cause i was jumping from english to chinese. hahaxz~ i should try strawberries + corn + milk=P

went to class, realised that class is canceled, the whole class got extremely restless and everyone wanted to go home. after considering for, 1 second? everyone decided to go home. lolx=P

reached home at 1 plus, and i fell asleep until 4. i feel like playing basketball, but i don't think that there are anybody playing today. besides, my feet hurts. i got cut when i was in sentosa.

just came back from turf city, had my dinner there with my parents.

went shopping with them at giant too. bought loads of stuffs, that totalled to S$100+ bought gasby hairdye too - rusty brown. i wonder if the effects would be nice. lolx=P

just finished my cup of red wine. i don't really like the "burning" sensation, but it has a nice taste. sweety taste.

woke up late for school today! hahaxz~ thank God my dad woke up when i was taking my shower, and i asked him if he could send me to school.

reached school 15 minutes late, but half of the class wasn't present, yet. school today was rather boring. copied tutorials that i forgot to do=X learnt an important lesson today - not to overdose with energy giving pills. my friend popped 6 before his match, and he is now facing side effects. lolx=P

i'm also considering joining canoeing as my CCA in school. trainings are on tuesday and wednesday i think. fits rather nicely into my timetable.

played basketball with my classmates after school, had a great time laughing around. but, it started raining heavily and we had to stop the game. got a ride home from my classmate.

i want to shop for more clothes!!!

dragged myself out of bed today as i had to meet herman and gang at bukit panjang LRT. took 963 all the way to habourfront. long and slow bus ride. had breakfast at the hawker centre before heading to sentosa.

sunset bay wasn't as crowded as we expected. settled down, bought the bands and started playing volleyball. xuanfeng met us afterwards, but it started raining heavily.

there was this girl playing volleyball with her friends - i think they are secondary school students only. she wore surf shorts that were super low, almost exposing her butt and she didn't seem to wear anything else inside. it was extremely obvious cause she went swimming. i wonder what's wrong with girls nowsadays.

continued playing volleyball once the rain stopped, and we got challenged by other teams. we played rather badly, but no shame. we are a team of newbies who do not know how to play. lolx=P

jumped into the sea afterwards and swam around. realised that to swim fast, it is not fast strokes, but complete and powerful strokes.

had the chance to canoe too, canoed out to the deeper part of the lagoon and watched the sun set from there. it was a extremely beautiful sight. it's been quite a long time since i last sat down and watched the sun set.

played around by the beach, threw herman into the sea and started trying stunts on him. lolx=P had a great time throwing him around though=D

feeling rather tired. school's starting at 8am. sighx.

woke up early today to meet charmaine. went to school together as i had rovers' meeting. didn't get to see much former schoolmates and teachers=/

had to leave halfway through the rovers meeting - met charmaine to go to cell group meeting. while walking towards the bus stop, charmaine wanted to take a shower first before going for cell group. i went home, took a shower, changed and waited for her at the bus stop.

we took a cab down to vene's house. almost fell asleep when the driver asked me where are we going=/

cell group was great~ even though we were a little late. message today is quite strong and straight forward.

went to liberty with charmaine afterwards - she need to buy something. found out that she's planning to study in australia after her "O" levels. when i heard that, i was rather shocked, cause that happen in less then a year! she'll be there for 7 years, and she'll be Dr. Wan. not bad huh? i would be rather sad seeing her leave for australia. but, i could tell that she's extremely determined to make her dream come true.

parents just came back from batam, but they are not home yet.

when i was on the way back, i thought of some stuffs that i want to do before chinese new year? - dressing, haircut, haircolour and may be do something about my eyebrows. lolx=P sounding a little gayish arh?

i feel fully recovered~! minus the sore throat=P

my tutor got into a minor accident today and he was late for class. we were about to leave, then he suddenly appeared=/ at least our tutor wasn't injured=P

im beginning to dislike Business Information Systems. the tutor did nothing today, just told us to continue working on our tutorial. even though i was doing the tutorial, i felt that the class was meaningless. some students were chatting, playing games and sleeping~!

school ended an hour early, got home, showered and went to buy milk, gel and papers for myself.

went to church afterwards. but ate KFC before meeting them. didn't feel well during service, somehow, i felt like vomiting, and bloated. thank God i didn't vomit during the service. lolx=P

had supper with charmaine and her kakis at toa payoh. ate porridge and resisted from all the fried food=/

going for scouts meeting tomorrow, but i'm still waiting for the washing machine to stop washing.

i think i almost died in class just now, asked for panadol from the tutor, but she didn't bring them along. goosebumbs were all over me, and i shivered. i could not pay attention in class as my aches grew intense. i just felt like lying on my bed, covering myself from head to toe.

met natalie afterwards at plaza. she bought me a billabong wallet~ the one that i liked a lot. told her that i'm not feeling well, and we ordered take away food. the slow and painful walk home was worth it. it did make me feel better as i felt warm inside.

didn't finish my food, it was too salty, and i had no appetite. almost got dragged to see the doctors by natalie, but i insisted that by 8.30pm, my fever will subside. my highest reading was 38.8 degrees? true enough, at 8.30pm, my fever subsided and i feel a lot better now, except for the sore throat, which seemed to got worst.

still deciding if i should attend classes tomorrow. i have to get a MC, if i am absent. i'll decide when i wake up tomorrow morning.

finally woke up, but i still feel extremely uncomfortable. body aches, sore throat and fatigue? i feel that my body's immune system is extremely fragile. everytime when there's flu viruses in the air, i would catch it too=/ i think i seriously lack vegetables and vitamin C?

i don't feel like going to school later, but today's lesson is worth 10% sheer torture.

read my sister's blog too. hehxz, what more can i ask for, when i have such a caring and understanding sister. she would defend me, whenever i'm in trouble and offer advices if im stuck. though we might argue from time to time due to fatigue and stress, we do not chop each other's head off. i learnt how to give in, and control my temper, but i'm not-that-successful, yet.

heh. my sister read my blog when i was hanging up the clothes to dry=/

had a pleasant surprise. i thought that my dad would be returning home rather late, but little did i know that he reached home at 10 plus! opened the door for them, and i was shocked to see my dad~ hahaz~ okie, if you think that i would hug him, and shower him with sweet-nothings, your wrong! hahaxz~! my dad's tummy is gone! he looks so skinny now~ and tanned. beach hunk~

he bought back loads of wine and snacks! even my favourate snack~ Golden Boronia. i think it's the largest packet ever sold, and it cost A$34.50~

parents leaving for batam, sister flying to chicago. i'm left alone at home!! i wonder if that's good or bad news=/

i'm sick~!!

school started at 8 am today, was early for class. our tutor let us off 1 hour early again. my friend happened to drive to school today, and we cramped into his car and went to eat outside. played pool afterwards before heading back to school for 5 hours straight lessons.

suddenly, at around 4 pm, i could not stop sneezing~ arghz, and i'm still sneezing now!

i saw man yee AGAIN~! at the bus stop. the "special" event is just the school's event. i wonder why she asked, cause she didn't attend the event=/ she was with my oral communication classmate~!! -jeaLous-

she didn't reply me in friendster. sigh.

i almost woke up late yesterday, but today i woke up at 6 plus=/

left home at 9am, 184 came pretty quick, the bus was rather empty too. sat all the way to the back and enjoyed the aircon. when the bus reached ngee ann, it was only 9.20~! decided not to alight so that i can alight beside the school without crossing the overhead bridge.

classes were rather boring today, did tutorials and listened to boring lectures.

the highlight of school would be, finding out from my friend that he knows the tennis girl, jiayi. well, didn't force him to give me her number, felt that it's too cheepo. found her in friendster too, sent her a message, i wonder if she would accept=X

was walking to the busstop, and i saw man yee again! 4 days in a row. she cut her hair, and she does look better now. i wonder what "special" event she meant, church or what~? O_o

hmm, going to play gunbound.

managed to wake up on time today, even though i slept rather late last night. my mom forced me to watch Homerun, cause it's meaningful. watched halfway, and i fell asleep =P

got woken up by the Lord - i jumped out of bed suddenly, looking at the skies, it's dawn! what time is it!? thank God it was only 7am. showered and went off to school. along the way, i noticed that my "<- stupid" shirt got stained~! i wanted to change, but time was running out, gritted my teeth and continued walking to the busstop.

saw pengwei at the busstop, and we boarded the same bus - 184. it's been quite sometime since we last met, and we chatted about girls=P

the traffic was heavy, bus was overflowing.

finally reached school, bought mineral water before walking to my class at the end. shirley knocked me on my back, and said that we would be late if i continue to take my time. began to walk faster to class.

reached class, the tutor didn't seem to notice me, then, he asked my name and marked me late for 15 minutes=/ i settled down, and tried to listen in class, but i had totally no idea what he was teaching. so were my friends. bored, i started to play games in class. suddenly, the tutor gave us work to do. as i was reading the questions, he gave another. i felt extremely furious, not only he didn't explain the questions, he thought that we were superman, who could complete the questions in seconds. he gave a total of 3-4 only questions, but out of my rage, i did all 6 that were available. when we asked questions about the question, the tutor didn't seem bothered, or he gave us lame answers, and all he does is to push us like some bullet train, wanting us to complete all his long questions in 5 minutes.

classes afterwards were simply pleasant. i'm beginning to respect my MPP tutor more. when he gave us a 10 minutes break, he walked over to my direction and told us nicely to pay attention in class, and why should we pay attention. i felt extremely sorry, and i told him that i will pay attention in class in future. not that i was playing games, but i was helping my friend to complete the work that the previous tutor gave us. after the break ended, my friend and i closed our notebooks and listened in class. felt that he was looking at me at the beginning, and as time went by, he concentrated on other students.

saw man yee again outside class. lolx. 3 days in a row i saw her. somehow, there's something special with her eyes. i can't describe it.

school ended at around 1, and i went home directly.

logged onto friendster, and checked on my friend's profile. i was extremely shocked to see melody in his list of friends! melody is a friend who i lost contact after we "argued?" we used to work together at a direct sales company, and we were pretty on good terms. but, the friendster server wasn't on my side. i had to try many times before i could see her page, and many more times before i could type a message for her. after that, i thought all would be done, the message wasn't sent. tried for an hour plus, and i finally got the message sent through. hope that she would reply and forgive me=P

just finished my WAA project, but i am unable to get my teammates emails. maybe they are in classes now=P the project is completely coplied from Youth Flying Club's webpage. lolx=P i wonder if my teacher will scold me for copying everything, not using any effort at all.

wanted to type out all the previous sermons i wrote down on my notebook, but i felt that is was time consuming. but, i am able to stick them on my walls, and be constantly reminded about the word of God. maybe i'll start typing them again=/

i'm so tired.

another long day...

managed to wake up on time, all thanks to charmaine giving me morning call. met her at 9.15 - her sister drove us to indoor stadium.

the queue into the indoor stadium was overflowing! we managed to get a space in the north section. the atmosphere was great~ i was pretty excited and i kept looking for my friends=P Pastor Kong preached a great message~! setting goals~ he gave us guild lines on how should we set our goals.

after service, me and my CG went to suntec to have lunch. after eating, we lingered around suntec. then, we noticed a queue was forming outside Rock auditorium. new creation church service! hahaZz~ i suggested that we join them for service too, but most of them were pretty uninterested. afterwards, sharmaine asked me to join her for the service and we joined the queue.

their auditorium is pretty grand, though the seats are at the same level. i felt a little odd in their service, perhaps it was too quiet. i just didn't feel at "home"

slept during the service too, somehow, fatigue took control of me, and i fell asleep. woke up suddenly unaware of what's going on around me. for a moment, i was even wondering why i attended their service. lolx=P Pastor Prince cracked jokes to capture the attention of the crowd.

i think i should set my goals pretty soon >.<

what a long and tiring day! but, all was worth it=D

went for ground lessons at west camp this afternoon. i didn't realise that i have to report at 8.30 am until i checked my timetable=/ reached west camp at around 1 pm, went to the canteen to get a drink and my whole class was there too. class was pretty boring, mostly were facts and informations about the plane. the earlier lessons that i missed were pretty important=/

classes ended early and i was given a lift to yio chu kang MRT by a fellow classmate. went to yishun to get a new pair of glasses. decided to add 25 degrees to my right eye, so that i can get a sharper image=P hope that it would enable me to recover faster.

went home, took a quick shower and left for kallang. the journey to kallang was slow, heavy traffic and overflowing buses. met up with CG at burger king afterwards, and i gobbled down my food. saw mun yee, she's attending Sun's concert too~ was rather excited about the concert and everyone seemed to hold the tickets to Sun's concert.

Sun's concert was great~! though there were slight hipups, we simply cheered on=P when i was listening to her songs, a sudden thought struck me. her songs may sound sad, but her lyrics are uplifting and encouraging. from the start of the concert till the end, there was never silence from the crowd. i felt that it would be too odd, if we were to keep quiet, instead of cheering.

i gave up waiting for the bus, and i called for a cab. i had a great time chatting with the uncle about confidence and overcoming fears=P the uncle challenged me to make the first step in knowing the girl from my tennis class. hahaz~ and if i were to succed, i would have to call him again, and tell him the good news~ lolx=P the uncle didn't charge me for the booking fares and the midnight charge~! if i really get to know the girl, i really have to thank him.

going back to indoor stadium later for a combined service~ it would be a great message! till then, take care!

just finished playing basketball, and i'm aching all over.

felt rather bad in school just now, the last lecture of the day, operating systems. my lecturer is a kind and always smiling guy. i was feeling extremely drained and i fell asleep during his class, he noticed me falling asleep, but he didn't wake me up. i realised that, and i kept drinking water to keep myself awake, but no avail. but, being a kind soul he is, he didn't scold me, instead he gave me a wide smile=P later, he gave the class 10 minutes break, and i took a quick nap, and forced myself to stay awake throughout the class afterwards.

went home, changed and played basketball. i feel so different now, my shots were going all over the place, and i could not get the "feel" of every shot. went to 478 to play with the adults. ran up and down the court like some mad guy, scored a number of baskets, but i missed as much=P

reached home, no one's home. no dinner. bathed, noticed that the clothes aren't washed yet, threw everything into the washing machine and washed them=/

i'm so tired, aching all over=/

i saw the tennis girl again! hahaz~ she's so pretty~!! i could not contain my excitment when i saw her just now. lolx=P

school today was great~! just that the 3 hour break stinks~

IAC wasn't as bad as i expected. my teacher is young and cool! hates the school rules like his students, forces us to express ourselves freely. i'm going to enjoy classes every odd week=P

WAA wasn't that bad too. my teacher is old and motherly. she speaks with an accent which was rather funny at the beginning, but she spoke with such sense and love, it made me motivated to stay awake.

3 hours break between the class simply stinks. my friend, darren, and i went to king albert park for lunch. shortly later, we finished our meals, and we had another 2 hours to go. my other classmates were at king albert park too, walked back to school with them, and we stoned at the library.

IAC, my group and i are supposed to find a group that allow us to do community service. i'm thinking of SPCA or any companies that interact with animals. heard that city harvest church is in the list too, might consider that too=P

WAA, another project =.-'' we're going a recultment drive for youth flying club. most of the resources would be coming from me as i would be heading down the club this saturday. i would be taking YFC's application form and recultment sheet.

played basketball just now. felt that there wasn't any strength from my legs, simply no feelings. my reaction was extremely slow too, so were my movements. i guess i lack match practice, and energy=P

school would be a drag tomorrow, 8 am till 4 pm =/

went to the kitchen to take something just now, and i saw the moon - full moon.

the skies is generally clear, with white clouds floating past the moon. the stars seem be to twinkling and bright. the view is simply awesome, i felt like i wasn't in singapore~ hahaxz~

i've seen skies filled with stars in australia, malaysia and even pulau ubin! hahaz~ if my family gets to migrate to australia, i will spend every night stargazing, counting the stars until i fall asleep.

if i'm feeling stressed, i would head down to the beach, stroll along and lie down on the soft sands to watch shooting stars.

the sound of nature - waves, birds, wind makes one drowsy and watching your love ones falling in your arms is simply indescribable.

if there is a girl, who i can just look deeply into her eyes, and she knows what i am thinking about, won't that be great? a simple smile and a cuddle from her would make my day, even though i had a bad day earlier.

whenever i am unable to express myself, i would end with incomplete sentences and you have to complete the sentence by sensing my feelings and expression.

do you believe in eyes that communicate?

int [] num = new [5]

something i learnt today during Problem Solving and Programming. somehow, i'm beginning to ask questions during the class, sometimes stupid questions just to make sure. hahaz~

school today was a total drag~ one of our teachers released us 1 hour earlier, and we had 3 hours of break. my classmates and i went to bukit timah, mechmaster to play counterstrike and pool.

went back to school slighty late for problem solving and programming afterwards. after that module, it's our MPP practical. we were given orientation and sadly, most of us fell asleep. hahaz~

reached home, read the newspapers and i fell asleep. i'm so tired~!

hmm. took a cab back after taking dinner with ryan and his friend. the bus took ages to arrive, and i was extremely tired.

i feel like shouting at the top of my voice, speak to someone who truely understands me, or someone who is able to read my mind. PLEASE TELL ME WHAT'S GOING THROUGH MY MIND NOW!

indeed, life is not a bed of roses, even if it is, there are thorns.

going through one of those days again, thinking of what am i thinking. i really can't express them out in words here, but the feeling really stinks. it seems that you got many thoughts / problems in your mind, but you are unable to extract them.

feeling a little better now, chatting with wanqiu. she shared with me how to overcome problems like this. i got to be strong.

seems that some of my friends are unable to load into this page=/

sigh, so tired today! i fell asleep during class just now - problem solving & programming 2. had the same boring teacher as last sem.

hahaz~! i saw the girl who's in my tennis class last year~!! but, i still don't dare to approach her. lolx~ manxz! she's so pretty~! with her hair neatly tied up, the way she walks seems so gentle and elegant. the way she smiles, and the way her eyes sparkle. she seems to be perfect, tall and slim too. >.< but, i just don't dare to approach her. i think that she must have noticed me, staring at her whenever she's around. few times in the canteen, i ate my food staring at her, and there were moments that i felt that she looked at me too. besides that, there are other incidents that she caught me looking at her=/ she must be thinking that i'm a despo. hahaZz~

alritez, going for prayer meeting later. i'm so tired=/

just came back from school! hahaxz~ i woke up late this morning, at around 8 am. school starts at 8 am too. lolx=P reached my class at around 8.45, but the teacher didn't seem to mind a single bit=P my attendance was marked afterwards! woohoo! lolx=P

went for a haircut after school, at my usual saloon. my usual hairdresser wasn't there too, was attended by a younger lady, from malaysia i think. she's extremely careful when she was cutting my hair. checked and made sure that my hair is nicely done. lolx=P

my textbook is so expensive! $25.40~!! there's a lot more to buy. sigh~

hahaxz! it's so late, and i'm still awake. i can't fall asleep! took a 2 hour nap this afternoon, and i'm not sleepy, yet.

as i was praying just now, i prayed for someone special. hahaxz~ missed her badly=/ if only i studied in her secondary school, i would know her better=P but, it might be better this way huh? got to know her online, and chatted with her, but we never chatted on the phone before! hahaxz~

hope that school will be fun tomorrow.

getting into flying school is already first prize. now that you are here, i hope that u will put in 100% focus in this CCA. as for now, you are offically called pilots.

wow~! these words were spoken by the GM of Youth Flying Club, LTC (RET) Timothy De Souza. it's so impacting~! made me feel so special. hahaZz=P

the orientation was rather boring. i didn't even bother chatting with the other students. anti-social day. sat there, was given loads of stuffs. notes, tshirt, our card. everything was in a terrible mess as they went through. 3 more weeks to start flying!

but, on the other hand, i can't attend CGM~! >.< my ground lessons starts next saturday from 1.30 to 4.30 and it ends on march? or around there. sigh...

overslept on the bus just now. hahaxz~ thank God i wasn't too far off my house=P

i'm so tired now=/

i had a nightmare last night!

i dreamt that i was in a war? and i was protecting my family. at first, i was rather brave, defended all way, fought all the way. then, suddenly the scene changed to my house. one of the "enemies" was in my house, and she's a wolf in a sheep's skin. she treated my niece ( somehow, she's in my dream too ) very nicely, so i thought that she's good. then, suddenly, when i was not noticing, she started killing my family members. i plead with her not to kill my family, and i had to give in and submit to them. woke up suddenly.

then i fell asleep again, this time, i dreamt that i was being brought to a place. somehow, my friend was there too, and he shook all our hands. then, a guy with a huge sword came over, and sliced off the head of another person. the swish sound of the blade made me jump, and i woke up again.

the dream seems so real~! i felt like i was being tortured and feeble.

i went to queensway too~! bought myself 2 shirts and a pair of jeans=P tailored all my jeans too. hehee~ finally=P

i can't stop sneezing!!

hehe~ finally it's 2004! a great year to look forward to. new challenges to mould a better joel=)

didn't do much on my birthday, went to east coast park at night with my family and Dr Lee, my sister's boyfriend. ( i think ) his car is cool~! BMW 7 series, my dream car. hahax~!

reached east coast, settled down by the beach. it was overflowing! kids were running all over the beach with sparkles, dogs too!

we had sushi, salad, cake and champagne.

finally, when 2004 came, the ships shot flares up into the dark skies. it was a beautiful sight! the skies lit up, so did the beach.

went to my relative's house today, played with my cousins. had a great time playing soccer, rugby, whatever contact sport. hahax~!

school's starting on monday. got to start getting myself prepared for school.