Friday, December 31, 2010
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Christmas/Birthday Wishlist!
All I want for Christmas is my 2 front teeth... Not!
Woopieeee! Christmas! I'm probably the last person on earth to get a feel of the Christmas Spirit.
Every year, without fail, I post my wishlist online, in hope of a kind soul who's thinking of showering me with gifts.
So here goes.
1. Flashy running shoes, size 10.5
2. Hugo Boss T-Shirts, size S
3. Zara Jeans (Slim Fit), size 30
4. Emma Watson's mobile number. :D
5. The Best of Foxtrot by Bill Amend, $77 @ Kino
6. MacBook Pro 17"
7. Fully Equipped Gaming Desktop
8. Bose Speakers
9. A blank cheque to buy everything above :)
Woopieee! Let the blessings come!!
Joel
Hohoho!
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Friday, December 17, 2010
The Presence of God
Its not just how melodious, or lack of it, I sing,
Its not just how fluent or persuasive I may be,
Its not just how the technical details are fulfilled,
Its not just how fluent or persuasive I may be,
Its not just how the technical details are fulfilled,
But its the love of God, and the love for His people that brings the presence of God into the lives of people.
Joel
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Sunday, December 12, 2010
Time flies.
A year has past.
As I look back, I wonder if I have made developments, growth and progress in life.
I've slayed some lions, had victories and humbling times.
I've walked, ran, limped and dragged myself through. I didn't really have a good start in the year 2010. But God is ever so faithful.
The victories, favour, blessings and grace I received overwhelmed me. God is really a good God.
Darryl said 2010 gonna be a year of breakthroughs; it sure is.
I thank God for all that He has done.
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Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Harry Potter | Marchin On
One of the most awesome Harry Potter videos + the music.
One Republic - Marchin' On.
They are boyband? Not bad for a boyband eh?
Friday, November 12, 2010
Sunday, November 07, 2010
Sunrise @ Bintan
Sitting in a hut, by the beach in Bintan. Its only 5.47am local time, but the sky is bright and clear blue.
I wonder if the sun has risen.
Listening to the waves crash periodically has its therapeutic effects. Who else, but God, orchestrated all these to happen.
He set the skies and oceans in place. The landforms, rock formations and all, He crafted them.
The gentle breeze never ceases, seemingly rushing to another place; carrying a message.
The rustling of the leaves make the trees alive; as though they are communicating with each other.
Dark clouds threaten to overwhelm the blue skies, strong winds beating against the wind struck trees. But out of every storm comes a new story, the silver lining.
When there's movement, there's life. Dead logs, cut up into small stumps, look strong and sturdy. But they are dead. Yet the young shoot of a tree is full of life, bursting forth with leaves, reaching for the sky.
I sit here in the hut, there's so much to be amazed of. Yet why do people choose to be emo about life?
Life is an adventure with God. Yes, things happen and it shakes us. But take joy! You're alive! I'd rather be the young shoot that reaches for the skies. Even though I'll never touch the clouds, but I won't despair; I keep reaching for the skies.
While I may feel stretched, pained and agony, I keep going on. A dead tree is only good to be a stump, you'll never be able to achieve what you once thought possible; touch the skies.
Do not stop believing. God is in control. The universe, the orbits of the planets, distance between each other; all meticulously calculated by God.
He has formed you, thought great thoughts of you.
Don't give up.
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I wonder if the sun has risen.
Listening to the waves crash periodically has its therapeutic effects. Who else, but God, orchestrated all these to happen.
He set the skies and oceans in place. The landforms, rock formations and all, He crafted them.
The gentle breeze never ceases, seemingly rushing to another place; carrying a message.
The rustling of the leaves make the trees alive; as though they are communicating with each other.
Dark clouds threaten to overwhelm the blue skies, strong winds beating against the wind struck trees. But out of every storm comes a new story, the silver lining.
When there's movement, there's life. Dead logs, cut up into small stumps, look strong and sturdy. But they are dead. Yet the young shoot of a tree is full of life, bursting forth with leaves, reaching for the sky.
I sit here in the hut, there's so much to be amazed of. Yet why do people choose to be emo about life?
Life is an adventure with God. Yes, things happen and it shakes us. But take joy! You're alive! I'd rather be the young shoot that reaches for the skies. Even though I'll never touch the clouds, but I won't despair; I keep reaching for the skies.
While I may feel stretched, pained and agony, I keep going on. A dead tree is only good to be a stump, you'll never be able to achieve what you once thought possible; touch the skies.
Do not stop believing. God is in control. The universe, the orbits of the planets, distance between each other; all meticulously calculated by God.
He has formed you, thought great thoughts of you.
Don't give up.
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Tuesday, November 02, 2010
This is my 800th post =)
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Just came back from 2N1's class chalet. Somehow, 2N1 is still very dear to me. Despite not being able to teach anyone of them Geography in the first term, or torturing them during PE lessons, I do enjoy my limited time with them.
I was quite encouraged that I'm more like a friend to them, and some of them feel more comfortable with me around.
Well, I never had a chance to say, but I am really awesomely proud of 2N1 =)
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Just came back from 2N1's class chalet. Somehow, 2N1 is still very dear to me. Despite not being able to teach anyone of them Geography in the first term, or torturing them during PE lessons, I do enjoy my limited time with them.
I was quite encouraged that I'm more like a friend to them, and some of them feel more comfortable with me around.
Well, I never had a chance to say, but I am really awesomely proud of 2N1 =)
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Travelling
Travelling on the train and buses are somewhat becoming really private.
On the journey, I reflect on my thoughts, actions and future.
As much as I find myself holding on to the past, I confess and visualise a positive future.
Need to lean on God more.
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Friday, October 22, 2010
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Life's kinda too short to be stuck in the past.
I am moving forward, speaking positive confessions, believing in myself and God.
Time to be bold, consecrated and courageous.
Filled with the love of God, receiving and giving His love freely.
I will smile in the face of adversities, strengthen my strengths and manage my weaknesses.
I will be upward looking, not inward; at my own weaknesses and imperfections. God is able and He will.
I will learn from every experience, because He's gonna use them all, for someone that needs and for me to grow.
I will be who God called me to be.
Joel
I am moving forward, speaking positive confessions, believing in myself and God.
Time to be bold, consecrated and courageous.
Filled with the love of God, receiving and giving His love freely.
I will smile in the face of adversities, strengthen my strengths and manage my weaknesses.
I will be upward looking, not inward; at my own weaknesses and imperfections. God is able and He will.
I will learn from every experience, because He's gonna use them all, for someone that needs and for me to grow.
I will be who God called me to be.
Joel
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
It's been a million years since I last blogged. Feeling rusty.
Still deciding if I should write about that person. But I think it's rather redundant now. She's not gonna read it and she's happier than before.
Perhaps I just got myself to blame. My actions propelled her away and being 50,000 miles apart, it is really quite difficult to hold on to me; something that hurt you so much all the time.
Recent revelation shook me up a little. I guess I never wanted to know, even though the possibly is great. I haven't really dealt with it and I guess because I'm ready for it, God revealed it.
Was like a floodgate of emotions, but this time, I was able to control my emotions pretty well. I felt stronger and in control.
Thank God for a really understanding friend at that ungodly time.
To you, and you, I am really happy for you both.
Joel
Still deciding if I should write about that person. But I think it's rather redundant now. She's not gonna read it and she's happier than before.
Perhaps I just got myself to blame. My actions propelled her away and being 50,000 miles apart, it is really quite difficult to hold on to me; something that hurt you so much all the time.
Recent revelation shook me up a little. I guess I never wanted to know, even though the possibly is great. I haven't really dealt with it and I guess because I'm ready for it, God revealed it.
Was like a floodgate of emotions, but this time, I was able to control my emotions pretty well. I felt stronger and in control.
Thank God for a really understanding friend at that ungodly time.
To you, and you, I am really happy for you both.
Joel
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
I have a friend. He's very cool.
He's always hanging around me, encouraging me on. He's the best cheerleader you can ever find, cheering me on during the difficult times.
He's full of wisdom, analyzes every single situation with great detail and gives me excellent advise.
He's full of purpose. When I am tired of what I am doing, he comes on and remind me of the purposes.
He's full of joy. He's able to find joy in the simplest of things, teaching me valuable lessons of being contend with what I have now and at the same time, cherish and treasure valuable things before they are gone.
He's full of character. Even when tough times comes, he doesn't crack or lose his temper. He has reminded me countless of times when I have lost my temper, broke down emotionally and simply drained, that I can be a better person.
He's full of vision. Always believing in the potential of me, and everyone else, he has taught me that with the right amount of encouragement, time and belief, everyone can succeed.
He's full of love. Though I have made him angry many many times, he has not condemned or abandoned me. Though I have hung up on him many times, he keeps calling and messaging me.
He wakes up earlier than me, waits for me to wake and starts the day with excitement together with me.
This friend of mine is amazing.
His name is Jesus.
Do you know Him?
He's always hanging around me, encouraging me on. He's the best cheerleader you can ever find, cheering me on during the difficult times.
He's full of wisdom, analyzes every single situation with great detail and gives me excellent advise.
He's full of purpose. When I am tired of what I am doing, he comes on and remind me of the purposes.
He's full of joy. He's able to find joy in the simplest of things, teaching me valuable lessons of being contend with what I have now and at the same time, cherish and treasure valuable things before they are gone.
He's full of character. Even when tough times comes, he doesn't crack or lose his temper. He has reminded me countless of times when I have lost my temper, broke down emotionally and simply drained, that I can be a better person.
He's full of vision. Always believing in the potential of me, and everyone else, he has taught me that with the right amount of encouragement, time and belief, everyone can succeed.
He's full of love. Though I have made him angry many many times, he has not condemned or abandoned me. Though I have hung up on him many times, he keeps calling and messaging me.
He wakes up earlier than me, waits for me to wake and starts the day with excitement together with me.
This friend of mine is amazing.
His name is Jesus.
Do you know Him?
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Amazing Dog Tricks by Paige the Border Collie!
This video makes me HAPPYYYYYY!!!
Jie: Why isn't Scout as smart as Paige!? Almost the same family of dogs mah!
Monday, July 05, 2010
God does not need a perfect vessel to do His work. He uses a willing vessel, one that is broken.
The smell a cologne cannot be appreciated if it's not applied by the user. Only when the cologne is released, the fragrance can be appreciated by yourself, and the people around you.
Similarly, the presence and the anointing of God cannot be released if you are not broken before Him.
To be broken is to be humble, willing, and dependent on Him.
The love of God cannot be felt if you are not broken.
How would people know that God loves them if you do not humble yourself and bear with their troubles?
It is in the darkest period of times when we feel the love of God the strongest. It is in that period of time, your friends gather around you and support you. It's during that period of time, when you are all broken and humbled, crying out to God.
In the dark, all you need is a little light.
Are we being the light that shines and guides people to God during their dark periods? Or are we also blinded by the darkness?
The blind sense where they are going through their touch, or walking stick. Even they have a direction, they know where to go.
Do we know where to go when we are blinded? Do we sit down, lament and blame the circumstance, or do we sense what God is doing, where God is leading and how He is leading?
For that one sheep that strayed away, the shepherd would leave the ninety nine behind.
Isn't he afraid that the ninety nine would be scattered?
Psalms 23:1
1 The LORD is my shepherd;
I shall not want.
2 He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.
For a sheep to lie down, the sheep has to feel total security and comfort. The shepherd makes the sheep lie down. The shepherd makes them comfortable, feel secure and safe.
How do you become comfortable, secure and safe? When you become broken before God, allowing Him to do a work in your life, in your attitudes.
Brokenness maybe painful, but it releases the fragrance of God that attracts people who are blind, people who are seeking for directions.
The fragrance of God gives them hope, direction and purpose.
Are you going to be the one that makes a difference in someone's life today?
The smell a cologne cannot be appreciated if it's not applied by the user. Only when the cologne is released, the fragrance can be appreciated by yourself, and the people around you.
Similarly, the presence and the anointing of God cannot be released if you are not broken before Him.
To be broken is to be humble, willing, and dependent on Him.
The love of God cannot be felt if you are not broken.
How would people know that God loves them if you do not humble yourself and bear with their troubles?
It is in the darkest period of times when we feel the love of God the strongest. It is in that period of time, your friends gather around you and support you. It's during that period of time, when you are all broken and humbled, crying out to God.
In the dark, all you need is a little light.
Are we being the light that shines and guides people to God during their dark periods? Or are we also blinded by the darkness?
The blind sense where they are going through their touch, or walking stick. Even they have a direction, they know where to go.
Do we know where to go when we are blinded? Do we sit down, lament and blame the circumstance, or do we sense what God is doing, where God is leading and how He is leading?
For that one sheep that strayed away, the shepherd would leave the ninety nine behind.
Isn't he afraid that the ninety nine would be scattered?
Psalms 23:1
1 The LORD is my shepherd;
I shall not want.
2 He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.
For a sheep to lie down, the sheep has to feel total security and comfort. The shepherd makes the sheep lie down. The shepherd makes them comfortable, feel secure and safe.
How do you become comfortable, secure and safe? When you become broken before God, allowing Him to do a work in your life, in your attitudes.
Brokenness maybe painful, but it releases the fragrance of God that attracts people who are blind, people who are seeking for directions.
The fragrance of God gives them hope, direction and purpose.
Are you going to be the one that makes a difference in someone's life today?
Monday, June 28, 2010
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Back from the Fired Up Camp!
Its probably one of the best camps I ever participated in. It felt like Asia Conference, in a zone level.
Our sessions with Pst MJ and Jason were amazing. It was like a build up on each other and I just got so hungry and thirsty for more of His presence and His Word.
Learnt and got reminded of many thing regarding leadership.
I went to the camp, guarded, ready for any form of sudden "arrows", thinking that it would be a "step out of your comfort zone" camp. But I was totally wrong. Right from the first session, I could feel myself breaking, and desiring for more of Him.
The floodgates opened when Jason ministered to us on the second day. I really cannot express what went on during that period of time, but all I know is that I do not want to depend on my own natural strength to lead anymore.
I desire to move in signs and wonders, in sensitivity towards the Holy Spirit and in obedience to Him.
I could feel what a shepherd should be like, caring and tending for his sheep, no matter what happens.
I could feel the heartbreak and burden for a sheep that's wayward, the love and acceptance for the sheep and the sense of joy a shepherd has for the sheep.
Learnt about leadership too. Achieving the objective that was being set for us.
It's gonna be a greater time ahead!
Its probably one of the best camps I ever participated in. It felt like Asia Conference, in a zone level.
Our sessions with Pst MJ and Jason were amazing. It was like a build up on each other and I just got so hungry and thirsty for more of His presence and His Word.
Learnt and got reminded of many thing regarding leadership.
I went to the camp, guarded, ready for any form of sudden "arrows", thinking that it would be a "step out of your comfort zone" camp. But I was totally wrong. Right from the first session, I could feel myself breaking, and desiring for more of Him.
The floodgates opened when Jason ministered to us on the second day. I really cannot express what went on during that period of time, but all I know is that I do not want to depend on my own natural strength to lead anymore.
I desire to move in signs and wonders, in sensitivity towards the Holy Spirit and in obedience to Him.
I could feel what a shepherd should be like, caring and tending for his sheep, no matter what happens.
I could feel the heartbreak and burden for a sheep that's wayward, the love and acceptance for the sheep and the sense of joy a shepherd has for the sheep.
Learnt about leadership too. Achieving the objective that was being set for us.
It's gonna be a greater time ahead!
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Tuesday, June 01, 2010
Asia Conference 2010 was more than amazing.
First night session felt like the grand finale already. In fact, every single session felt like a home run, increasing the faith and expectancy of every single member.
Believing what Dr Cho prophesied; CHC will be the largest church in the world, led by Pst Kong.
Thus that also meant that the Church and Pastor will definitely go through testings.
And so swiftly, they came.
My stand?
I have my complete trust and faith in Pastor Kong, the Church and the leadership.
First night session felt like the grand finale already. In fact, every single session felt like a home run, increasing the faith and expectancy of every single member.
Believing what Dr Cho prophesied; CHC will be the largest church in the world, led by Pst Kong.
Thus that also meant that the Church and Pastor will definitely go through testings.
And so swiftly, they came.
My stand?
I have my complete trust and faith in Pastor Kong, the Church and the leadership.
Monday, May 10, 2010
Sunday, May 02, 2010
Saturday, May 01, 2010
Delirious - History Maker
Probably one of the few songs that really touches my heart whenever I listen to it, even after so many years.
Fondly recall singing to this song during Emerge 2004. Tears simply flowed, confessing and believing that God has made me to be a history maker.
Arms around the brothers beside me, we just kept praising and jumping throughout.
It was such a magical moment.
It was at Emerge Conference 2004, I believed God has a great plan for me. I believed He has a specific purpose and He will make us all History Makers.
When Delirious came and perform for FOP. I was thrilled, honored and privileged to serve Martin Smith, the lead singer of Delirious. For all three days, I ran beside him, got him strepsils, honey water and bottled water.
Delirious performed for two more years and I had the honor of being with Martin Smith.
Like what he said in the video, Delirious is who they are because of the people.
It's because of their song, that liberated so many people. People believed what they sang and shook the planet.
I started listening to this song again recently. It has been on repeat in my iPod and I really believe what the song says, "I'm gonna be a history maker in this land, I'm gonna be a speaker of truth to all mankind."
Yes I'm gonna be a history maker, a speaker of truth to all mankind.
Joel
Probably one of the few songs that really touches my heart whenever I listen to it, even after so many years.
Fondly recall singing to this song during Emerge 2004. Tears simply flowed, confessing and believing that God has made me to be a history maker.
Arms around the brothers beside me, we just kept praising and jumping throughout.
It was such a magical moment.
It was at Emerge Conference 2004, I believed God has a great plan for me. I believed He has a specific purpose and He will make us all History Makers.
When Delirious came and perform for FOP. I was thrilled, honored and privileged to serve Martin Smith, the lead singer of Delirious. For all three days, I ran beside him, got him strepsils, honey water and bottled water.
Delirious performed for two more years and I had the honor of being with Martin Smith.
Like what he said in the video, Delirious is who they are because of the people.
It's because of their song, that liberated so many people. People believed what they sang and shook the planet.
I started listening to this song again recently. It has been on repeat in my iPod and I really believe what the song says, "I'm gonna be a history maker in this land, I'm gonna be a speaker of truth to all mankind."
Yes I'm gonna be a history maker, a speaker of truth to all mankind.
Joel
Monday, April 26, 2010
Simple lyrics, yet so powerful.
Thankful that I went for CG yesterday. I guess I really missed the "shooting" from Darryl. Haha..
Really appreciative/thankful/grateful that I've the privilege to attend W372 Cellgroup Meetings, till I'm barred from attending.. =P
Blink of an eye, it's been 7 years I've been attending Church. Been through storms, valleys and paradise. So much has changed in Church, in the people around me and myself.
But for all that I went through, I can't help but be extremely thankful for going through them. Every single experience has made me a better person, stronger and wiser. I am not the finished product yet, I have my flaws, but I know the God I worship has great plans for me.
He has not condemned me for my mistakes, He has not forsaken me and He remembers me.
Condemnation comes from the devil, to stop us from doing great things for God.
God convicts us, gives us the strength to try again. Each time we fall, He doesn't laugh at our shortcomings. But He quickly comes and lifts us up, encourages us to continue walking forward.
God is not a God that would lie.
He's not a God that sits on the throne, waiting to punish you with His lightning rod. He's not a God that demands you to do miracles for Him. He's not a God that expects you to become a Saint overnight.
He simply wants to fellowship with you, He wants you to know Him.
He's your cheerleader whenever you go through tests, He's your no. 1 fan and He wants to be your best friend.
No matter what happens, He will never disappoint you.
He is in control.
It's gonna be an amazing year. 2010, a year of breakthrough for me, for many people.
I will not be hesitant, will not forget the promises, will not fear, will not look back anymore.
Jesus, be glorified in the earth
Thankful that I went for CG yesterday. I guess I really missed the "shooting" from Darryl. Haha..
Really appreciative/thankful/grateful that I've the privilege to attend W372 Cellgroup Meetings, till I'm barred from attending.. =P
Blink of an eye, it's been 7 years I've been attending Church. Been through storms, valleys and paradise. So much has changed in Church, in the people around me and myself.
But for all that I went through, I can't help but be extremely thankful for going through them. Every single experience has made me a better person, stronger and wiser. I am not the finished product yet, I have my flaws, but I know the God I worship has great plans for me.
He has not condemned me for my mistakes, He has not forsaken me and He remembers me.
Condemnation comes from the devil, to stop us from doing great things for God.
God convicts us, gives us the strength to try again. Each time we fall, He doesn't laugh at our shortcomings. But He quickly comes and lifts us up, encourages us to continue walking forward.
God is not a God that would lie.
He's not a God that sits on the throne, waiting to punish you with His lightning rod. He's not a God that demands you to do miracles for Him. He's not a God that expects you to become a Saint overnight.
He simply wants to fellowship with you, He wants you to know Him.
He's your cheerleader whenever you go through tests, He's your no. 1 fan and He wants to be your best friend.
No matter what happens, He will never disappoint you.
He is in control.
It's gonna be an amazing year. 2010, a year of breakthrough for me, for many people.
I will not be hesitant, will not forget the promises, will not fear, will not look back anymore.
Jesus, be glorified in the earth
Thursday, April 22, 2010
1 Cor 13:11
When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things. For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known. And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things. For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known. And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Saturday, April 17, 2010
What if we looked at every child, with the purest of hearts? Believing in their potential and their ability to excel in life.
Their strengths may not be in their studies, in their attitudes or in their behavior.
They may have given you so much trouble, it frustrates you all the time.
But despite all these, would you still forgive and love them?
Would you still give your 101% to nurture every single one of them?
Would you love those that you find hard to love? People that are constantly rebutting you or putting you down.
Wouldn't it be a better place if every child was treated equally, with respect and the expectancy to do great things in life?
Despite the negative outcomes, every child desires to achieve something.
May not be a teacher-student relationship.
The person maybe your close friend, a good friend.
Let's not get too comfortable, time to mold, stretch and contain.
Their strengths may not be in their studies, in their attitudes or in their behavior.
They may have given you so much trouble, it frustrates you all the time.
But despite all these, would you still forgive and love them?
Would you still give your 101% to nurture every single one of them?
Would you love those that you find hard to love? People that are constantly rebutting you or putting you down.
Wouldn't it be a better place if every child was treated equally, with respect and the expectancy to do great things in life?
Despite the negative outcomes, every child desires to achieve something.
May not be a teacher-student relationship.
The person maybe your close friend, a good friend.
Let's not get too comfortable, time to mold, stretch and contain.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Recently I went to my friend's Church dedication service.
It may be a young Church, but the leaders of the Church were way beyond their age, in terms of maturity.
Humble, serving and proactive, I was really blessed by their acts of service. They made sure everyone was comfortable, greeted and served.
Above that, they were radical for God.
Radical.
A word that we seldom use to describe Christians now. Used to be a word that I would frequently hear. Even for myself, I wouldn't say I am radical, yes I am on fire, passionate. But radical? I have my own doubts.
When my friend shared about the members/leaders of her Church. I nearly teared. The sacrifices they made to build God a house, the things they did daily just to save that extra cent and the vision that had, in sync with their leader, was just constantly in their mind everyday. The extra miles they went, just to build God a house.
And they were secondary school students. Youths.
I was really blown away.
A young youthfy Church, being able to rent a space and pay for it every month.
I am not suggesting that my CG or Church's youth is bad. But there is this Spirit that seems to be lacking.
A Spirit of determination, breakthrough. This excitement in their Spirit, to live and die for Jesus. This pioneering Spirit, wanting to try new and creative things. The Spirit to serve others, to love everyone and to make their day.
I was greatly blessed by the service and I really believe my youths CAN and WILL be RADICAL for Jesus.
As for myself, I really believe that service was a wake up call. Time to gear up, and not look back.
Our life is a message.
Whose story are you writing for?
It may be a young Church, but the leaders of the Church were way beyond their age, in terms of maturity.
Humble, serving and proactive, I was really blessed by their acts of service. They made sure everyone was comfortable, greeted and served.
Above that, they were radical for God.
Radical.
A word that we seldom use to describe Christians now. Used to be a word that I would frequently hear. Even for myself, I wouldn't say I am radical, yes I am on fire, passionate. But radical? I have my own doubts.
When my friend shared about the members/leaders of her Church. I nearly teared. The sacrifices they made to build God a house, the things they did daily just to save that extra cent and the vision that had, in sync with their leader, was just constantly in their mind everyday. The extra miles they went, just to build God a house.
And they were secondary school students. Youths.
I was really blown away.
A young youthfy Church, being able to rent a space and pay for it every month.
I am not suggesting that my CG or Church's youth is bad. But there is this Spirit that seems to be lacking.
A Spirit of determination, breakthrough. This excitement in their Spirit, to live and die for Jesus. This pioneering Spirit, wanting to try new and creative things. The Spirit to serve others, to love everyone and to make their day.
I was greatly blessed by the service and I really believe my youths CAN and WILL be RADICAL for Jesus.
As for myself, I really believe that service was a wake up call. Time to gear up, and not look back.
Our life is a message.
Whose story are you writing for?
Friday, April 09, 2010
Tuesday, April 06, 2010
Sunday, April 04, 2010
What is motivating you today?
Proverbs 4:23
What are the motives in your heart?
Are you coming to Church/bringing friends/attending cellgroup meetings/prayer meetings/zone meetings because you love God, because of the people you met, because of someone or because you have to?
Day in, day out. Week in, week out. Weeks, months and years.
Proverbs 4:23
"Keep your heart with all diligence, for out of it spring the issues of life."
God, keep my heart pure.
It is You I live for.
Fall in love with You once again, lost in Your presence.
Psalms 50:22-23 (MSG)
"Time's up for playing fast and loose with me. I'm ready to pass sentence, and there's no help in sight! It's the praising life that honors me. As soon as you set your foot on the Way, I'll show you my salvation."
"Time's up for playing fast and loose with me. I'm ready to pass sentence, and there's no help in sight! It's the praising life that honors me. As soon as you set your foot on the Way, I'll show you my salvation."
Psalms 51:16-17
"Going through the motions doesn't please you, a flawless performance is nothing to you. I learned God-worship when my price was shattered. Heart-shattered lives ready for love don't for a moment escape God's notice."
Break me.
Let your anointing flow through me.
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Back from an awesome service by Pastor Tan.
We had a guest singer, Zac Kao, from Hong Kong coming to share with us his testimony.
Basically his testimony was about how he led a carefree life, getting into relationships and all sorts. His testimony was amazing. I really feel that he touched on many sensitive areas that many young people are struggling with, or are just confused about.
As he was sharing his testimony, I really couldn't help but be amazed by his courage.
It is really not easy to stand up on stage, share with everyone your past mistakes and failures, encouraging youths to not give up hope on God and to always pursue a Godly life. Wow!
That really blew my mind away.
And it's not like he's some old grandfather. He's still young, with a huge career ahead of him!
I really believe this is what brokenness brings into our lives. When we are so broken before God, we are willing to be used by Him. Our past failures, disappointments and embarrassment can be used by God for His glory, showing everyone His grace, mercy and love.
How many times have we allowed self pride to control us? Just because we want to look good in front of everyone, we put up an false act. How long can we keep up that act?
Why think yourself to be that perfect person on Earth?
I think it's so much easier to be a person that's real, has the courage to admit his mistakes and is broken.
Someone that allows the Holy Spirit to come into his life, and starts living in a Spirit-filled life.
I really love what Pastor said regarding conflicts, strive and all. It's really easy to be condemning, judgmental and all, because it's the flesh! It's always easy to point fingers at others, blame them and become self righteous because you do not want to go through the pain of admitting mistakes and the consequence of it.
But when you have the Holy Spirit in your life, when you are broken, no matter what happens you allow the character of God to come forth during that situation.
You will be the first to forgive, to love, to reconcile.
I really believe that we would be tested in this area almost every stage of our lives. Many times I have failed in the past, but I hope not fail this test again.
Let's be the big hearted ones, the ones carrying the presence of God!
Whatever issues, past hurts and disappointments we have, it's time to give it all to God.
Starting from today, I will push my boundaries of love. Even to those who are different from me.
God, help me!
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Being serious with the Kingdom of God.
We are now living in a time where we cannot afford to play with God.
The Kingdom of God is sacred; It is Holy.
As a human being, we can achieve a certain standard, which may even surpass many. Even when it comes to the Kingdom of God.
But when you want to do extraordinary things for Him. You need Him.
To stay relevant, anointed and see growth, we really need God.
At the same time, we need to work. The harvest is ready for collection. We are mobilized to bring in the harvest, before it's too late.
Focus, focus and focus.
“ Enlarge the place of your tent, And let them stretch out the curtains of your dwellings; Do not spare; Lengthen your cords, And strengthen your stakes. "
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
The Call of God.
When the call of God is issued, how many people respond? Many are called, but few are chosen. Many people responded for the altar call, but how many burn on, for Him, for His Kingdom and for His glory?
Why do so many people fall away, get tempted by other offers or burnt out?
If You're willing, I am willing.
Last night, we had a youth meeting with Pastor Kong. Pastor has a burden; the percentage of youths in our Church has dropped drastically.
Youths; the next generation of leaders.
Are we going to sit back and watch the revival die down in this generation? Are we going to sit back and watch the Church, dying and losing its cutting edge?
Let it not happen for my generation. The world today needs Christ more than ever before. This lack of faith, hope and love, evidently missing in everyone's life. We are now living in a "I, me, myself" world.
Will someone lay down his life, out of his comfort zone and trust in Him and know He is the true God and He will come true for him.
Will we see another Pst Kong, Pst Tan, Pst Derek, Pst Aries in our generation, taking the World by storm?
The burden to shoulder is great. But God says that My yoke is easy, My burden is light. Its a huge responsibility, but if God could raise up David when he was just a young shepherd boy, God will raise up someone to fulfill the will of God for CHC.
The Call of God will not stop in this generation, neither would it stop at the next generation. The Call of God goes on, just as long someone is willing to sacrifice and pay the price for the anointing of God.
Lord, I am your vessel. You've chosen me. What I have today, is all because of You. I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of God, than dwell in the tents of wickedness.
No matter the outcome, I will serve You.
When the call of God is issued, how many people respond? Many are called, but few are chosen. Many people responded for the altar call, but how many burn on, for Him, for His Kingdom and for His glory?
Why do so many people fall away, get tempted by other offers or burnt out?
If You're willing, I am willing.
Last night, we had a youth meeting with Pastor Kong. Pastor has a burden; the percentage of youths in our Church has dropped drastically.
Youths; the next generation of leaders.
Are we going to sit back and watch the revival die down in this generation? Are we going to sit back and watch the Church, dying and losing its cutting edge?
Let it not happen for my generation. The world today needs Christ more than ever before. This lack of faith, hope and love, evidently missing in everyone's life. We are now living in a "I, me, myself" world.
Will someone lay down his life, out of his comfort zone and trust in Him and know He is the true God and He will come true for him.
Will we see another Pst Kong, Pst Tan, Pst Derek, Pst Aries in our generation, taking the World by storm?
The burden to shoulder is great. But God says that My yoke is easy, My burden is light. Its a huge responsibility, but if God could raise up David when he was just a young shepherd boy, God will raise up someone to fulfill the will of God for CHC.
The Call of God will not stop in this generation, neither would it stop at the next generation. The Call of God goes on, just as long someone is willing to sacrifice and pay the price for the anointing of God.
Lord, I am your vessel. You've chosen me. What I have today, is all because of You. I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of God, than dwell in the tents of wickedness.
No matter the outcome, I will serve You.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
The announcement has been made (:
I am really touched by the edification of Darryl as she was explaining to W372 the need for me to be transferred out. I think it caught everyone by surprise, as no one expected such a change. But I really believe with all my heart that the CG will grow even stronger with the new additions of Desmond, Valerie, Vanessa and Sue Ee.
This blog entry is dedicated to W372, the world shakers (:
Darryl:
Thank you for being the bestest leader I ever have. You are a great inspiration to me and I have really learnt a lot from you. Thank you for helping me grow as a person, to learn to open up and share my struggles and difficulties with others, especially you. Thank you for believing in me, even though I've made so many mistakes. I really believe that who I am today is what you have imparted into my life, through your prayers, preaching of the Word and discipleship sessions. I really am very grateful to have such a great leader in my life and I feel really blessed to have gone through (and hopefully go through more) of your sharing sessions. Thank you for being there for me during the darkest period of my life, your love and support really pulled me out of the valley. Thank you for being so understanding when I got confused and irrational, your grace really kept me from condemning myself. I am really blessed to be under your leadership for the past 1 year. I really hope and pray and also believe that this relationship will never stop! And I will continue to learn from you and Ming Jin! (:
Aloysius:
You've transformed so much! You came in quiet, not wanting to speak to anyone of us. But you just kept coming back week after week! I feel so encouraged to see you coming back every week, and even more encouraged when I see you engaging in conversations with the members. I really believe you're gonna continue transforming for the glory of God and you're gonna be such a great testimony for many!
Anton:
Hey dude! Future MIT Scholar! Really touched by what you shared in the past, that you love coming to Church and Cellgroup because of the songs, the preaching of the Word and the fellowship. I really hope and pray you will continue attending service and cellgroup and be a blessing to your school and family!
Bernard:
THE CHAMPION OF ASIA CONFERENCE'S BIGGEST LOSER!!!! I am confessing and believing together with you! I think you're the most positive and encouraging friend. Really enjoy the times with you, ever since SOT days; especially during our mission trip to KK! Haha! Such great memories. (: I really believe you're gonna shine in Drama Ministry and I am looking forward to your performance during Easter!!
Brian:
Thanks for being so willing to drive the ladies around after service! Your willingness to serve is really amazing and you are always willing to go the extra mile for others. I really believe God has placed you in Keat Hong Camp for a specific reason and He has a great plan for you. Stay strong in the face of adversity and no matter what happens, believe and trust in Him alright? (:
Eugene:
My brother who fought alongside with me for 9 years. (: You've seen how my life has been transformed by God, the same God that you love and worship. If God can do it for me, He can do it for you too. God doesn't require a perfect vessel, but He's looking for one that's willing. Circumstances maybe difficult, but never let go of God. I really hope to see you soon. (:
Gabriel:
Thank you for giving me a chance to be a part of your life. You're always so willing to take on projects, duties and all. What others are unwilling to you, you are always willing to stand in the gap. I really believe this willingness will bring you to great heights! I also believe that whatever you've been through, God has a reason and in due season, you will understand why you went through some of the darkest periods of your life. I also believe as you set to achieve your heart's desire, you will start to see doors opening for you (: Keep on keeping on! And you are our ASIA CONFERENCE MAN HUNT CHAMPION!!! (:
Georgina:
HEY!! Future vet ok! I will bring my doggies to your clinic and you can be their doctor! (: Thanks for being so faithful to take care of the members that attend Sunday Service! You will ensure that they have taken their lunch before CG and also ensure that they arrive safely for CG. Thanks for trusting in me, even after several incidents and thank you for being such a wonderful friend, I know that you're always watching my back (:
Ginger:
The Fashionista of the CG! Always coming to service with really cool dresses and style. You too have transformed so much! You're now always serving the CG, booking seats and preparing Darryl's place for refreshments. And serving us with food!! So that we all would be happy and well fed! Thank you for being so willing and early for CG! It's so amazing that you would cycle down to Darryl's place every Sunday and you're always one of the earliest to reach. I'm really looking forward to greater transformation from you and I believe you're gonna be such a great blessing to your family and friends in school!
Guo En:
Our CG's Cristiano Ronaldo! I really see your effort in trying to build relationship with your parent. I really believe that as you continue to be a blessing to your family, and to love them, they will start to respond back to you in love. There will always be things that you will never understand, but I guess that's the beauty of life. (: don't allow circumstances to drag you down! I really believe that you love God with all your heart and I really believe that you've made arrangements just to attend service and CG. PROUD OF YOU!!
John:
It's all written in your birthday card, which you've yet to receive. :P I'm really blessed to have you together with me for 2 years. Watching you grow is really very exciting! It's like an dormant volcano that suddenly becomes active!! Very very exciting! I really believe that you're gonna grow and stretch like never before. And I really believe you will achieve your dreams! MJ always reminds me that my destiny is in my hands, likewise, your destiny is in your hands! You can do it!
Joseph:
The ever secure brother. Very busy lately! Really hope to see you back in action! I believe the CG misses having you around during CG meetings! Once you come back from Taiwan, lets meet up and catch up alright? (:
Kiat Kiong:
Ok! I spelled your name correctly here =P I am really encouraged by your conviction to come Church and Cellgroup! It's really amazing to see you serving in POD and wherever that requires help. I really believe that as you embark on your next phrase in life in Polytechnic, you're gonna have a headstart and you will start influencing your peers! Stay excited for the things of God and never let Him go!
Kiat Seng:
Our champion volunteer, future social entrepreneur and leader in the marketplace (: When I see you, I get reminded of this - Never despise small beginnings. I really believe that you will be able to achieve the goals you desire of. Thanks for all the hugs that you give, takes my breath away (literally)
Meiyan:
SOT Student! Proud of you! I'm very sure that your life will be drastically transformed after going through SOT! You will be confident, strong and anointed! I really believe you're gonna make a difference in the lives of many people! Jiayou!!
Meihui:
Thanks for giving me the chance to leave such a deep impression in your life. I am really honored and humbled (: I think you are one of the most cheerful people in the CG and you really can build atmosphere very well! You're always thinking of others, always interested in what they are doing. I really think you would make a wonderful connect group leader! Continue to shine and do well in Oosh! Remember me when you're a famous hair dresser!! (:
Meilin:
Martial Arts Exponent! Don't mess around with this lady because she can bring you down in 1 move. Haha (: Thanks for blessing me tickets to Fishball Pingpong! I really think that you're a person with a HUGE capacity! Serving so actively in JAMs and always willing to queue and book seats at expo! Thank you for really fighting alongside with me and covering my back! Really very encouraged by your acts of service for the CG and your love for everyone, including your JAMs members. Really believe you're gonna experience greater growth this year and you're gonna be a great blessing to W372 and to the JAMs ministry!
Pearly:
Thanks for being so patient with me! Thank you for fighting alongside with me, so strongly, and always believing and encouraging me! I think you've really received a lot of SMSes from me, asking many questions regarding Service and CG, but you've rarely lost your cool at me. Thanks for believing in me and trusting in me even though I was new and all. I really believe that the things that you've been praying and believing God for will come to past (: Don't get tired, but run in a manner that you would receive the prize!
Tallie:
The future Medical Doctor! One that will not charge exorbitant rates and one that really cares for the patients! I really believe you're gonna be awesome! I pray and hope that you'll grow even stronger in your walk with God, we are gonna see you rise up with maturity and wisdom, with great understanding of the bible and His ways! (: have faith and believe! Nothing is impossible!!
Trish:
ASIA CONFERENCE'S BEAUTY QUEEN!! I really feel super encouraged after that incident we had with you at the airport. You had a tough day at work and you broke down. But at the end of it, you picked yourself up and declared that you will still put in your best effort at work, no matter what happens. Till today I still remember what you said and I really see it happening in your life. No matter what happens, you always give your best. Even in CG refreshments! I will definitely miss eating your refreshments!! Really believe that you're gonna do great things for God, shine for Him and sign up for SOT next year!! SUNTEC! Haha..!
ASIA CONFERENCE'S BEAUTY QUEEN!! I really feel super encouraged after that incident we had with you at the airport. You had a tough day at work and you broke down. But at the end of it, you picked yourself up and declared that you will still put in your best effort at work, no matter what happens. Till today I still remember what you said and I really see it happening in your life. No matter what happens, you always give your best. Even in CG refreshments! I will definitely miss eating your refreshments!! Really believe that you're gonna do great things for God, shine for Him and sign up for SOT next year!! SUNTEC! Haha..!
Valerie:
Thanks for the many months of sacrifice you made, playing the guitar for W372. We are really blessed to have you in the midsts of us! Thanks for fighting alongside with me all these while, you've really made a huge difference in my life. Thanks for ALL the encouragement that you've given me, all the advise, all the counselling during a particular rough period of time, deeply appreciated! Thank for watching out for me, reminding me to bring offering envelopes and all. I really believe W372 loves you a lot and they just can't wait to shower you with great love and blessings. And I also REALLY BELIEVE that you're gonna BREAKTHROUGH SOON! Haha! (: Thanks for running with me! I am really honored to serve alongside with you (:
Wei Lin:
You're really blessed you know? (: Do not be afraid to dream! I really believe God has great plans for you and He's gonna see you through every stage of your life. Even when you will be flying off to America soon, I really believe that you WILL make the trouble to travel 2 hours to Dr Bernard's Church every weekend. And I really believe that through you, your family and friends will be blessed by the love of God! (:
Wei Xin:
It's a pity that we won't get as much chances to interact! I really hope that your relationship will be blessed! And that you will come to Church often! Hang out with us more! Haha! Just remember that you are booked by W372 every Saturday at 5.30pm and Sunday at 2.00pm! Ok? The booking starts with immediate effect! See you this week! =P
Xin Yu:
Remember to do homework k? Don't be afraid of failing your small tests. Because if we never failed, we will never learn to succeed. I've failed so many times, I need a million pairs of hands to help me count. I really believe you can be the TOP student for your level in "O" Levels and I really believe that you will really be a blessing to your friends in school! And prepare refreshments often!! I will come back just to eat them! (I hope it's allowed!)
Xue Ni:
Haha! One of the greatest changes that I've got the privilege to witness. (: Thank you for being so willing to submit, even when you didn't feel like it. Thank you for fighting alongside with you, covering my back and always believing in me. It's really my privilege and honor and I've also learnt a lot from you. Really believe that God will continue to do amazing things in your life as you are in SOT this year. It's gonna be a wonderful journey for the next 6 months! Continue to grow, stretch your tents and be fruitful!
Yiquan:
My man! The gentle giant of W372. With you around, I have no worries. Thanks for standing in the gap for me when I was in UK and when I was going through a different period of time (: You're amazing! Your capacity to make people feel comfortable is amazing and I always love hanging out after service with you! You're gonna be a great financial adviser and I really believe you're gonna do great things for God! Let's WIN the Asia Conference Basketball Tournament TOGETHER!!
Esther, Siying, Stacy, Vanessa, Xin Yi:
I really wish I had more time to interact with you guys (: You're never forgotten by me. My prayers for each of you is that you will continue to be strong and successful in every area of your life. W372 will always be a place where you can call home. Give us a chance (:
Each and everyone of you have really made a difference in my life. I am really honored to be standing in the midsts of giants in W372 and I really believe that great things are going to happen!!
W372 - A Cellgroup that's bonded together, like a three-fold cord. Strong and unbreakable, with Christ strengthening us. A Cellgroup that's available for each other 7 days a week, going the extra mile for each other.
I love you guys (:
Thursday, March 11, 2010
I was reminded of this message by Louis Giglio on how great is our God by a friend, who shared something similar.
Loaded the videos last year April, but I still think it's worth the time to watch the videos once again.
I am left speechless, amazed and touched.
Part 1 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RKMw1ndl-EY
Part 2 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UBkY1Ff46Bg&feature=related
Part 3 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AVxdRrWjh0g&feature=related
Part 4 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N6AB5IvogHc&feature=related
Part 5 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZVBNKSjg-LQ&feature=related
Have fun watching the videos!
Loaded the videos last year April, but I still think it's worth the time to watch the videos once again.
I am left speechless, amazed and touched.
Part 1 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?
Part 2 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?
Part 3 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?
Part 4 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?
Part 5 - http://www.youtube.com/watch?
Have fun watching the videos!
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Monday, March 08, 2010
It all seemed like a dream.
It's MONDAY already! Gosh. The weekend has come and gone.
The whole world now knows that we are shifting to Expo by March 2011. Besides being super excited, I have no idea what else to describe this feeling inside of me. Greater things can only happen from now on.
God is simply good.
No matter what happens, the times that we fall flat on our faces and feel the pain, God is still good. These experiences has made me stronger, made us all tougher and made everyone have battle scars; proud to show it off.
Friends that never quit fighting, they fight along side with me.
For the past 3 months, I am truly appreciative of several friends that fought with me, leaders that shielded and defended me and a physical and spiritual family that's always there with me.
So much has changed and happened. But it's all good; for His glory.
No time to look back too. It's time to move full speed ahead; like what Romans 8 says-
"That's why I don't think there's any comparison between the present hard times and the coming good times. The created world itself can hardly wait for what's coming next. Everything in creation is being more or less held back. God reins it in until both creation and all the creatures are ready and can be released at the same moment into the glorious times ahead. Meanwhile, the joyful anticipation deepens. All around us we observe a pregnant creation. The difficult times of pain throughout the world are simply birth pangs. But it's not only around us; it's within us. The Spirit of God is arousing us within. We're also feeling the birth pangs. These sterile and barren bodies of ours are yearning for full deliverance. That is why waiting does not diminish us, any more than waiting diminishes a pregnant mother. We are enlarged in the waiting. We, of course, don't see what is enlarging us. But the longer we wait, the larger we become, and the more joyful our expectancy."
It's MONDAY already! Gosh. The weekend has come and gone.
The whole world now knows that we are shifting to Expo by March 2011. Besides being super excited, I have no idea what else to describe this feeling inside of me. Greater things can only happen from now on.
God is simply good.
No matter what happens, the times that we fall flat on our faces and feel the pain, God is still good. These experiences has made me stronger, made us all tougher and made everyone have battle scars; proud to show it off.
Friends that never quit fighting, they fight along side with me.
For the past 3 months, I am truly appreciative of several friends that fought with me, leaders that shielded and defended me and a physical and spiritual family that's always there with me.
So much has changed and happened. But it's all good; for His glory.
No time to look back too. It's time to move full speed ahead; like what Romans 8 says-
"That's why I don't think there's any comparison between the present hard times and the coming good times. The created world itself can hardly wait for what's coming next. Everything in creation is being more or less held back. God reins it in until both creation and all the creatures are ready and can be released at the same moment into the glorious times ahead. Meanwhile, the joyful anticipation deepens. All around us we observe a pregnant creation. The difficult times of pain throughout the world are simply birth pangs. But it's not only around us; it's within us. The Spirit of God is arousing us within. We're also feeling the birth pangs. These sterile and barren bodies of ours are yearning for full deliverance. That is why waiting does not diminish us, any more than waiting diminishes a pregnant mother. We are enlarged in the waiting. We, of course, don't see what is enlarging us. But the longer we wait, the larger we become, and the more joyful our expectancy."
Friday, February 26, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Will you be willing to live for the Kingdom of God? Where all your decisions is based on the Kingdom of God and for the rest of your life, you simply do the things of God.
Even when a greater and better offer comes to you, would you reject it and stay focused on the call that God has given to you?
Many are called, but few are chosen.
Is it because they are unwilling to serve? Could it be because they didn't want to pay the price?
Why is it that only a few are chosen?
Serving God demands sacrifices.
Even when a greater and better offer comes to you, would you reject it and stay focused on the call that God has given to you?
Many are called, but few are chosen.
Is it because they are unwilling to serve? Could it be because they didn't want to pay the price?
Why is it that only a few are chosen?
Serving God demands sacrifices.
Saturday, February 20, 2010
It's been a million years since I last ran. Since I had the morning free, I decided to go for a run, to burn some fats.
Made up my mind to run towards Bukit Timah Hill. The last time I did that, I was young and fit.
The run towards Bukit Timah Hill nearly killed me. But I managed to reach my goal.
Forgetting how tiring the walk up the hill would be, I gamely took it on. Barely up the steep slopes, I wanted to turn around. BUT, I didn't. Too many families around, even grandparents, seemingly finding it easy to walk up the hill.
Finally reached the peak of Bukit Timah Hill rest for 5 minutes before I started my descent. Decided to walk through the Dairy Farm Trail, since it's new and I have not walked through it before.
The peace and tranquility is ever-present. But I was too focused on my own pain, tiredness, that I didn't experience it until further.
As I was walking along the trail, suddenly I felt this prompting to not focus on my own tiredness, but focus on what's on the outside. I started to listen to the crickets, the birds and the silence.
I found myself getting stronger, feeling less ache and breathing normally.
Felt God telling me that many times we run after a vision so hard that we lose track of Him. We become so focused on ourselves, developing and giving our all that we forgot to tune back to Him.
Right from the beginning of the trail, there was a sign.
It didn't say the distance, or how long it would take.
I started off strong, covering great distances, thinking that it would be a short distance. But after walking through the terrain, I got tired and I wanted to give up. Not sure when would I reach my destination, I could have turned around; back to where I was familiar and take another route.
But as I continued walking, I learn to depend on God for strength and direction. A trail is there; someone has walked this road. I am simply walking on the route that giants before me have walked. If He wants to change my direction, a sign comes up and guides me towards the new direction. If not, I carry on walking on the trail.
Every step I took, my legs were trembling. It was tiring. There were steps, rocks and slopes ahead of me. The journey is hard, it's difficult. I went through obstacles and they were the only way to the end. I had to overcome them, else I wouldn't reach my destination.
But these obstacles make me stronger, even though I may feel tired now.
It felt as though Heaven wasn't open. I kept wondering when would I reach the end. I didn't even know where I am, which part of Bukit Timah Hill I'm in. But I keep moving forward.
But all these while, Heaven IS open. Else the journey would be dark and I'll be blinded by the darkness in the forest. Did I realize? Nope.
Met people along the way. Some maybe slower than you, some are walking towards you. Everyone of us are in our own race with God. He gives everyone a different vision, purpose and destiny. It would have been easy for me to walk with someone else; change my direction. But He has called me to this route, this destiny.
After the wilderness experience, the roads are paved. It's easier to walk. You're stronger; the sky is brighter and you know where you are. You are walking in your destiny.
But is that all? No!
I continue walking, till I reach my destination; my home.
Friday, February 19, 2010
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Monday, February 15, 2010
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
For the longest time possible, I've neglected this blog. Uploading songs that I feel for and more, I think that was the best possible way of expressing myself.
Things have finally changed for the better.
Read through several old mails and I'm glad to say that it doesn't bring as much hurt as before. But more of a lesson learned. Nobody's at fault here, we are all journeying in this part of life and it's all a learning process.
Am glad that my relationship with my family is getting better. Dad's really an inspiration and a great source of comfort. Driving me to school every morning and literally talking about general things keeps me reminded that my parents really love me.
Several doors opened onto me and I'm excited about it. Yet I approach it cautiously; what is His best plan for me?
Feels like a long time, but it's only 1 month plus. Feel maturer, a little more understanding and graceful.
Truly, all things work for His purpose and glory; every rejection comes a new appointment (:
Things have finally changed for the better.
Read through several old mails and I'm glad to say that it doesn't bring as much hurt as before. But more of a lesson learned. Nobody's at fault here, we are all journeying in this part of life and it's all a learning process.
Am glad that my relationship with my family is getting better. Dad's really an inspiration and a great source of comfort. Driving me to school every morning and literally talking about general things keeps me reminded that my parents really love me.
Several doors opened onto me and I'm excited about it. Yet I approach it cautiously; what is His best plan for me?
Feels like a long time, but it's only 1 month plus. Feel maturer, a little more understanding and graceful.
Truly, all things work for His purpose and glory; every rejection comes a new appointment (:
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Monday, January 25, 2010
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Friday, January 22, 2010
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.
It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.
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