so God decided to change my day and He ended my day so wonderfully, i can't do much except to thank Him and praise Him!!!

okiEe, first comes the boring part - went to meet mingcai and his teammates for the Nike Sink Your Fear Challenge. i was really not looking foward to that event as i haven played basketball for a long time and i wasn't in a good mood.

well, i tried my best to score in every shot, but it really wasn't my day. the ball was kinda slippery (we had the outer courts) and it was rather chilly~ out of plenty of shots i made, i scored only 1 basket, and the highest point our team chalked up was only 35 points.

not sure if that would enable us to qualify for the finals tomorrow, but chances are pretty slim.

took a cab back home as i was already late for security duty. thank God that the traffic was rather smooth compared to the traffic on the PIE heading towards town. it was completely stuck~

took a real quick shower and rushed to the LRT.

stopped at Bukit Panjang, dashed to mcdonalds, bought a meal, dashed off to draw money, dashed into a cab.

thank God the cab driver was a understanding person and he allowed me to finish my food in his cab. i didn't know how i manage to stuff the entire burger inside my mouth, without much chewing, and globbing down fries mixed with iced tea~ i felt like i was da wei wang~

got dressed in the cab and the moment i received my change, i dashed across the road and met Brother Lennard~ thank God! he gave me instructions and after i placed my bags, off i went to my position without delay~

so, when service started, i was doing patrolling with Brother Lennard~ he shared SOOOO many things with me regarding security and a little on his personal side~ it's an eye-opener and great learning experience for me~

a Pastor from India talked to me regarding the School Of Theology too~ i really admire him as he's a Pastor in India, but when he's in SOT, he says that he's a student, not a Pastor. it really takes A LOT for one to humble himself and i really admire that Pastor~

he shared with me how blessed we are in City Harvest Church to have Pastor Kong as our senior Pastor. he was explaining to me the difference between Pastors in India and in Singapore~ basically, when he was trained in other Schools of Theology, the topics they covered were not even half of Year 1 SOT students!!

he even shared with me that he can't wait to go back to India, back to his church and build his church to be like City Harvest Church!! he even suggested that he might even name his church City Harvest Church!!

afterwards, Brother Lennard introduced me to Brother Suraj and i asked Brother Suraj why doesnt the cross rotate when its called the rotating cross~ hehhEh~ i think most of you didn't notice that righTz? i got the answer!! =P

simply, if you want the cross to rotate, we need another building fund to sponser it~ loLz=) its extremely costly to make the cross rotate and there would be loads of changes and additions~ so Brother Suraj decided that its not wise to take up that offer.

more patrolling and "following" a "tourist"

then when service ended, there was a strong burning smell lingering in the air. security personnal were dispatched but were unable to find the source of the smell. then, when most of the church members left, a team of us combed the entire church again~

i was assigned to stairs 3 and as i walked down, the smell grew stronger. but, the smell stayed only at B2, where Pastor Kong, Pastor Sun is!! i did a search around the area, but was unable to spot anything.

so Brother Suraj called the firemans~~

well, after trying to "detect" the source of the smell, Moses and i did logistics. its a really complicating thingy to do and every single object has to be accounted for. was told by Brother Michael that in the army, its worst~ loLx~ got to pray extremely hard that i don't get to do logistics in the army=P

got a lift home by Brother Samuel and it was another sharing session~

really thank God for this day~ so many leaders of mine sharing with me their experiences and experiences i been through today~ even though i've served for 3 straight days, i didn't feel tired at all, and doors have been really opened for me~

got to know so much more people in church, especially the ushers when they noticed that everyday, they seem to see me serving~ another thing is that when you avail yourself to God, God blesses you back with plenty too~

God has certainly blessed me back with experiences, stretching me to grow as much as possible~ but i know that God would definitely bless me back more and He would stretch me even more!!

what a great start to my day! and i'm totally not excited about it.

well, i don't have to work today because there's no work. praise the Lord! so, i went to my laptop, switched it on and started to read all my friend's blog. its been a LONG time since i last did that and i was really happy that i did that.

then, my mom stormed home and started screaming her head off.

she scolded me for doing absolutely nothing at home. she started saying that i'm always at home, but never help in housework and i'm too involved in church and why am i serving others when i can't even help to do housework at home.

naturally, i was very angry. i wanted to shout back, reason back, because i DID housework when THEY were in malaysia, happily gambling away at genting.

but before i could shout my head off, the Holy Spirit's voice came suddenly and He instructed me not to shout at my mom, but head to my room and simply sit there.

well, of course i listened to the Holy Spirit. learnt last night that true Faith is obedience.

so i sat there, and thoughts came into my mind.

how i waited for the stupid washing machine to finish washing at 3am, then hanging them up to dry afterwards on monday.

how i woke up a little earlier to bring down the clothes on tuesday before heading to work.

how i washed the dishes after work, fearing that my parents would come back anytime soon.

washed the clothes at midnite again, but i fell asleep while waiting for the stupid washing machine. so i hang up the clothes the next morning.

well, basically i did some part of housework. but in my mom's point of view, that isn't enough!!

because - i washed the dishes, but i didn't keep them. i kept the clothes, but didn't fold them.

basically, that was all that i left out! not forgetting, vacuuming and mopping the floor everyday. well, if i had the time, definitely i would. but i was late everyday for work and i took a cab down directly from my place.

the pay that i get may seem much. (total of 500 bucks so far) but it covers my transport and food, perfectly. i ain't paying student rate anymore! its the stupid adult rate and its freaking expensive!! food outside is freaking expensive too!! ( yea. i had KFC, but isn't it the same as foodcourts? )

back to the topic.

so as i sat there, listening to my mother's ranting and raving. i cried. i was really wondering how to get salvation at home if its not by works! salvation at home through faith? perhaps that would bring more scoldings and maybe being grounded at home.

then the Holy Spirit's voice came back, and told me to vacuum the floor.

the Holy Spirit really does give weird instructions sometimes.

went to wash up and started vacuuming the floor. well, it almost seems that a miracle that happened.

my mom was on the phone and she was laughing and joking with the other party. even though i was still tearing a little, and going to the toilet too often, i was pretty relieved that the storm's over.

went back to my room after vacuuming the floor and stoned there.

reason why i didn't use the computer is because my mom threatened to cancel the subscription. well, just because she says that she don't know why she's paying it every month. (shouldn't have opened the stupid letterbox that was filled with bills)

apparently, when i thought everything would be fine, another ground breaking news came. sigh~ i wouldn't blog on that matter because its not confirmed and its personal. but, the news kinda affected me badly and there's nothing i can do now.

all i can do is to wait for God to move His hand...

i still thinking about what should i blog about, so i'll just "anyhow" blog about whatever comes into my mind=)

great day~

woke up, realized that i don't have to work today as there's no work. so i did LOADS of housework because my parents are coming back from malaysia. packed my room, washed the clothes and dishes. had a little sense of achievement when i packed my room as everything became neater.

fell asleep after lunch and woke up in a hurry to iron my shirt.

went to westmall to shop at g2000~ needed to buy another shirt, but there were limited designs and selections~ so it was a pretty wasted trip down, but i had my early dinner over there at KFC and their iced tea definately tastes better then the jurong point's outlet.

church!! woohoo!! second day of bible seminar and finally i got to listen to the message preached by Pastor Kong!

woah~ i've always thought that the "narrow" road in the bible means that the Christian walk is tough. i never thought of it being the way Pastor Kong narrated!! and with all the bible scriptures supporting him, i realized that its really a "narrow" road in the way!

even though the message is "chim", the entire concept was brought out nicely and it was easiler to understand~

thank God that i'm in City Harvest Church and i'm serving in Security~ well, basically that means that i don't have to squeeze at the stairway just to get a seat in the auditorium and i get to listen to a POWERFUL message preached by a man of God.

basically, the main topic is about cheap grace.

using grace as a "way" to sin against God and knowing that forgiveness is available.

well, this "thingy" has been in my head for quite sometime and i realized that i've been "mis-using" God's grace in my life.

its really something bad and you may feel that its "right" to do so, but let me tell you now, that its TOTALLY WRONG!!

i don't care what excuses you may throw at me, but if you continue mis-using God's grace, i can only tell you one truth and thats your leading to destruction.

well, i don't want to go on like a preacher now~ hehEe=P

on the way home earlier, suddenly i felt a "urge" to start a Spiritual Diary.

in the beginning, i wanted a private and handwritten diary, but i know that it won't last as i prefer typing then writing, so i decided to use this blog as my Spiritual Diary too. it wouldn't hurt reading about my spiritual life right? =P

i guess i'll be very frank about my situations and its gonna be shocking~ well, only thru this way, we would be able to grow stronger=)

for the past WEEKS, or should i say, MONTHS, my prayer life is amazingly bad. personal devotion time with God was spent on the bed, feeling extremely comfortable and simply repeating through what i usually say.

most of the time, i'll just pray for the same stuffs over and over again. in a sense, i'm asking God for the same stuffs over and over again, but now i feel that it lacks the conviction, and perhaps thats the reason why there are so many needs that i've yet received.

in comparision, my prayer life used to be extremely exciting. praying for friends that the Holy Spirit led me to and when things do really happen the way i prayed, it increases my faith level.

thinking back now, i wished that i didn't stop praying. prayer is definately one of the most inportant lifestyles as a Christian. it definately unlocks doors, dreams and visions from God and in our Spirit, receive it.

the fire in me, isn't raging hot, but its tamed. it seems that there's a valve that i can control, and there would be days when i'm on fire, but some other days, i'm totally tired. with this kind of valve-controlled fire, its almost like being double minded for Christ.

when i was on fire, i had dreams and visions. but now, all i can do is to hold on TIGHTLY to those dreams and visions and keep working hard to achieve them. this could get extremely tiring for a period of time, but unless you have the anointing of God, you would never get refreshed in the Spirit.

after saying so much, i do really want to grow stronger in Christ and desire to be a leader=)

WOW!

didnt manage to share my testimony during cellgroup meeting cause xiaojia didn't spot my half raisen hand, but its all over now~

now, i've another to share!!

after cellgroup ended, it was about 10.30pm. suddenly, i began to recall how charmaine and i rushed to tampaines to meet sister Sharon as she was waiting for us. so i began to think how great would it be if charmaine went for cellgroup and i would have a ride home.

walked to the bus stop, the bus came. but no one boarded the bus as it takes a loop back to tampines. so we waited for the other bus. then, i saw a car turning and stopping at the bus stop.

at first, i didn't realise its sister Sharon, but when i saw the licence plate number, i realised that its their family car!! so i called charmaine and asked who's driving the car, at the same time, i walked over and saw sister Sharon at the drivers' seat~

i was SUPER excited, but i didn't call her as there were other people in the car too~ so i sent sister Sharon a message~

bus came and i boarded it.

phone rang!! its sister Sharon!! loLx~ she offered to send me home, and i gladly accepted it~ hee=P

really thank God for providing me rest and answering my prayers like, immediately! =D

day 2 of indoor stadium service!!

day started at 5.30, when chewlin gave me morning call. apparently, i told her that i woke up at 4 plus and was waiting for her call~ i guess i was sleep talking because i woke up at 6.45am=P mad scramble to shower and prepare. even had to walk to charmaine's house first to pass her the new friends' gifts~

took a cab down to indoor and its super expensive=/

thank God i was still early and we had our breakfast there~

today, i was assigned to East and its one of the two entrances~ so that means that there would be thousands of people ending at the same time and it would almost be an stampede. in the beginning, i had to move 1 pregnant and eldery lady to the front as they were pretty squashed by the crowd~ but when the doors were open, youths like clarice rushed forward, leaving me no choice but to protect the 2 ladies as much as possible.

there wasn't much problem during service today, cept the fact that i SO blur that i walked to the west collection point for offering when i had to be at the east collection point~ heh=P

well, i was scolded for nothing too~ a gentleman and his son went to the bathroom and they managed to walk out of the curtains. so, i have to escort them back to their seats and after doing so, an usher came over and scolded me for sending them back.

after listening to her, i reasoned back and told her that i wasn't given any instructions. i was merely doing my duty as a security!! perhaps she thinks that im an usher=/

i wouldn't get pissed off if she didnt asked me this question in a aggresive tone - "why you send them back to their seats? do you know that they are NOT allowed to return?"

manz~ even security personals ain't so fierce.

well, stuffs aside~ sermon today was a little "deep" but its really interesting~ learnt a lot more about the anionting of God and the Holy Trinity=)

its the Fast Track Graduation today and there was laying of hands too~ it was like last night, things went really smoothly and the flow was kinda slow~ so, catching was really very relaxed and we could afford to lay the Pastors down slowly.

went for my lunch break and headed back to indoor for my duty at the carnival~

it was pretty boring until some of my friends spotted me and kept me entertained~ reid, chewlin, samantha and bimei~ been quite sometime i last since these friends and it was really refreshing to see them in action=)

had a great chat with Brother Tai Fong as he told me about security and being in the Elites~ really cool experience and advices he shared with me and with these in hand, i want to rise up and become an Elite!! -winKz-

waited for Pastor Zhuang before i could head home~ super tired and fell asleep on the bus, almost immediately. thank God, He woke me up when the bus turned into orchard, else i would miss my stop and end up somewhere else.

so super tired~ finally i get some rest=)

A New Beginning.
A New Life.
A New Chapter.
A New Mind.
A New Spirit.
A New Anointing.
A New Strength.

even though we were at the indoor stadium since 2pm, i was feeling extremely excited about the service, besides the fact that its my first time serving in indoor. the hours before service started, we were practising "catching" and it was really tiring.

running from left to right, listenin to orders and watching "Pastor Ulf's" movements~ there were lots of practises so that when the real "catching" comes, most of us would be prepared.

finally, the real stuff started. the congregation started filling indoor stadium and it was TOTALLY packed!! there were SO MANY people that many people had to sit BEHIND the stage and watch the LED screen~

PRAISE THE LORD!!

altar call was given and THOUSANDS of people responded~ the entire passage was jammed with people and there was completely no space to move about~

after they were ushered away, Pastor Ulk called for all the CGLS. the battle began.

it was a mad scramble for bodies, to break their fall and lay them down properly~ heh~ thank God Pastor Ulf decided to be a little more organised and laid hands only on those in the first row~ so basically, it was rather smooth~

manz~ i was the security catching Sister Sharon and i did a pretty bad job~ caught her nicely at first, but got knocked over by the security beside me, causing me to fall and Sister Sharon crashed down=/ but thank God i still managed to hold her and cushioned her fall, else she might have injured herself~

i got slain too! praise the Lord!

i really believe its a new chapter for me, a new life and a new beginning for me.

A New Beginning - these words flashed into my mind during praise and worship, like as though God was telling me these words. then, i quicky wrote it down in my new notebook (i've a feeling that there's a link. i just bought a notebook even though i don't need one) and took down the date too.

its been a great day in the presence of God and tomorrow's gonna be GREATER!!

hmm. i realised that i've left out loads of friends who have always by my side whenever i needed them.

starting off, nix!! hAaz=P this sweetie pie chutsie sister of mine never fails to light me up when i'm in gloom~ her crazy antics and excitment really cheers me up and i'm really grateful that we managed to keep in contact for 3 years!!

then, its yuxuan!! this, also sweetie pie, sister of mine encourages me and makes sure that i'm really fine before logging off or sleeping. she's pretty matured for her age and her thoughts always inspire me~ she would always be listening to me and whenever i need her, all i've to do is just to message her=P

next, its yuxin!! this girl who skipped school 3 years ago, maybe extremely busy with her studies (well, she's frm nygh.. no blames=P) but whenever we're online, her craziness and pure crap would cheer me up when im down. though we've never met before, and no plans either, there isnt much friction between the both of us~ in a sense, we're comfortable the way our friendship is, and that's really cool!

soon after, its charmaine!! she's able to make the WORST seem so normal, and thats something really incredible about it. so, with more of her influence, i guess nothing would be able to pull me down in the future~ loLz=P

up next, adelia!! the silent killer~ though quiet, but her advices are kinda sharp at times~ really cool friend of mine who's also quite matured for her age.

-drumroll- fencui's next!! heh. she's also another silent killer, but always encourages at the right time~ still remember that when i was struggling with my studies, she messaged me and reminded me to focus on my studies~

last but not least, shuhui!! the pretty pig! HAhaz=P nothing much to say about her, but she's always with an encouraging word when you need one=)

i've noticed that most of the names are females... so i guess there's a certain pattern we all can see huh? =P

well, thank God for all of my friends, even though your name is not listed up there, it doesnt mean that i've forgotten about you=)

a special friendship.

based on the title of today's bloggie, you guys must be thinking in your head about a friendship thats formed based on a everyday encounter with someone in school or workplace.

well, stop all those thoughts in your mind cause what i experienced is totally different from yours!

most of you know that im currently playing Shattered Galaxy, an massive online war game. well massive suggests that there's many people playing and majority of the players are from Singapore.

even though majority of the players are males, there's still geniune females playing this wonderful game.

as this is an online game, you have the comfort of your house while linked to everyone else in the game. in a sense, your identity is in the avatar your using, but thats not the point i want to bring up.

there's this particular female friend i got to know while playing the game.

day after day, our friendship grew and even though we're totally clueless about each other looks, there's this special bonding between the both of us. we're always battling together and went around together.

as we spent more time together in "virtual", the more we know about each other.

days came and we shared our deepest secerts with one another.

what she said is so true, "coz we're hidden behind our screens, its easiler for us to share secerts"

but, i felt that there's more then that - there's an strong trust between the both of us and i think that's the beauty behind this relationship.

we may not have met each other, but we're able to share with one another, trusting each other with our secerts that no one, cept God, knows.

how easy is it for you to open up to someone whom you never met and knew for only 2 months? its never easy!! but, somehow, God used the both of us and made this all possible.

she's an extremely sweet girl, nice and helpful. super caring too.

during these few weeks when i have cough and work, she often reminded me to rest early and drink water. when we're playing, she would take notice of the time and "force" me to goto bed.

when i needed help, she wouldn't mind helping me out, even if she has to log into my account at 2am.

she means what she says and it often melts my heart.

there's so much more i want to talk about the girl, but i can't.

but i just want to use this space to thank God for that particular girl.

so many things she had done really touched and blessed my life. we may not have a chance to meet each other, but she has certainly got herself a chapter of her own in my life.

this site has been neglected a little.

if you guys are wondering what has been going on recently, i'll tell you.

it's easy. nothing but work.

well, working in a factory has its pros and cons.

i'll start with the goods.

obviously, the pay is a little higher den other part time jobs you can find. not only that, you would be provided with free lunch and dinner, thats if your doing OT.

another point to add is that i get to tone up by entire body~ as i had to carry stuffs to and fro and mind you, it aint light stuffs.

now, the bads

its SUPER tiring. your body aches from head to toe and you would stink to the core. the environment is dusty, and if ure co-workers smoke, thats it~ you become an instant-can't-run-away, passive smoker.

you would be doing the same stuff over and over again, hundreds of times. the goods never seem to be ending and it just gets refilled every now and then.

you would be surprised that you still commit stupid mistakes even after doing the same stuff 185729372492 times over.

theres really nothing much i can say now... so.. =)