hmm. played basketball yesterday, was completely moodless, tired and sian. played only a few games, then i decided to watch them play. as i was sitting by the side, i was wondering what is the feeling of dying in your sleep. to me, it would be like sleeping forever and ever and the feeling seems great. seriously. didn't join them for dinner afterwards, went home instead.
i didn't take my dinner, so my mom cooked mushroom soup for me. i drank only 2 spoons and i told her that i don't want to drink anymore. hugged my blankie and dragged myself to the computer room.
went online, not much people. then, yuxin came online in ICQ. thank God! messaged her immediately, told her that i'm feeling extremely down. she started to entertain me, telling me stupid stuffs to cheer me up. nelly came online too, and we chatted. hi nelly! hahaxz=P
woke up, still feeling a little down. received a number of birthday messages, from long lost friends.
can't get anyone to accompany me to east coast to cycle, play, swim. sighx. then i'll just rot at home until night time until it's time to meet my relatives.
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
wow!!
i had a such a great day, i don't know where to start!! hahaxz!!
i woke up this morning, felt SO MUCH better then last night. had lunch at home with my mom and i told her that i'm going for cell group, thanksgiving. she didn't sound crossed, instead, she was asking questions about the cell group! about vene, the group. heex~ she seems to be really accepting it afterall. thank God!
bathed and i went to town to look for zhengyi. she's working at fila, wisma. i wanted to buy myself a black long sleeve fila shirt. but, she insisted that she buy that for me. she said that she would buy a shirt for me. hahaxz! and she don't want to waste the time thinking if i would like the shirt. thankz zhengyi!
went up to precious thots, walked around the shop for around 5 minutes until i spotted a cute doggie. hahaxz! bought that immediately with a box that's sold seperately. stuffed doggie...
too early to meet up with my CGM, decided to go home, take a shower. along the way home, weilun called back and i asked him if he wants to join us for CGM. thank God that i didn't travel straight to AMK, or else he would not have joined us.
met up with my CGM in AMK. went to a member's house, watched tv while waiting for the rest to arrive. finally CG started, and we played games. hahaxz! my team lost! >.<
during CGM, i shared my testimony. hmm, not really a testimony i felt. but, it's all about having faith in Him. when they shared their testimony, i was speechless again. the power of God really shined through them - Revelations, blessings. wow! that would make you remember for life!
steamboat! hahaxz. somehow, many of my "darkest" secerts were revealed during steamboat. lolx=P - peel prawns -
during steamboat, we had gifts exchange! hehee~ i got myself a christmas cushion! green in colour and comfy=P had a problem stuffing it into my bag though. hahax~ my gift is still with me, weilun returned the gift to me. still deciding what to do with the gift. hehx=P
cleared up, and i was "instructed" to remain in the kitchen. at first, i didn't smell a rat. then when i wanted to walk to the living room, they forced me back into the kitchen. immediately i felt that something is wrong! hahaxz~ then sharmaine appeared with a cupcake with a candle! hahaz~ sis vene said that the present would be Pastor Sun's concert ticket on jan 10! yeah! that's 1 of the many items in my wishlist! hahaxz! woohoo!! thanks for everything guys!
wow. it's going to be 2004. time really flies! school's starting this friday and i'm not prepared! i'm still sleeping late, waking up even later. lolx~ need to readjust my bio-clock=P
thinking back, this year wasn't really a good one for me? the first half of the year was a total disaster! second half, wasnt that bad. at least, i had a breakthrough! i accepted Christ in my life! offically! hahaxz~!! and for the past 3 months, i have been blessed by God. my exams, my family. though there would be depressing times, i would know that God loves me! and he's always listening to us. God's great!!
2003 draws to a near, 2004 approaches. got to make resolutions this time. hehee~
i had a such a great day, i don't know where to start!! hahaxz!!
i woke up this morning, felt SO MUCH better then last night. had lunch at home with my mom and i told her that i'm going for cell group, thanksgiving. she didn't sound crossed, instead, she was asking questions about the cell group! about vene, the group. heex~ she seems to be really accepting it afterall. thank God!
bathed and i went to town to look for zhengyi. she's working at fila, wisma. i wanted to buy myself a black long sleeve fila shirt. but, she insisted that she buy that for me. she said that she would buy a shirt for me. hahaxz! and she don't want to waste the time thinking if i would like the shirt. thankz zhengyi!
went up to precious thots, walked around the shop for around 5 minutes until i spotted a cute doggie. hahaxz! bought that immediately with a box that's sold seperately. stuffed doggie...
too early to meet up with my CGM, decided to go home, take a shower. along the way home, weilun called back and i asked him if he wants to join us for CGM. thank God that i didn't travel straight to AMK, or else he would not have joined us.
met up with my CGM in AMK. went to a member's house, watched tv while waiting for the rest to arrive. finally CG started, and we played games. hahaxz! my team lost! >.<
during CGM, i shared my testimony. hmm, not really a testimony i felt. but, it's all about having faith in Him. when they shared their testimony, i was speechless again. the power of God really shined through them - Revelations, blessings. wow! that would make you remember for life!
steamboat! hahaxz. somehow, many of my "darkest" secerts were revealed during steamboat. lolx=P - peel prawns -
during steamboat, we had gifts exchange! hehee~ i got myself a christmas cushion! green in colour and comfy=P had a problem stuffing it into my bag though. hahax~ my gift is still with me, weilun returned the gift to me. still deciding what to do with the gift. hehx=P
cleared up, and i was "instructed" to remain in the kitchen. at first, i didn't smell a rat. then when i wanted to walk to the living room, they forced me back into the kitchen. immediately i felt that something is wrong! hahaxz~ then sharmaine appeared with a cupcake with a candle! hahaz~ sis vene said that the present would be Pastor Sun's concert ticket on jan 10! yeah! that's 1 of the many items in my wishlist! hahaxz! woohoo!! thanks for everything guys!
wow. it's going to be 2004. time really flies! school's starting this friday and i'm not prepared! i'm still sleeping late, waking up even later. lolx~ need to readjust my bio-clock=P
thinking back, this year wasn't really a good one for me? the first half of the year was a total disaster! second half, wasnt that bad. at least, i had a breakthrough! i accepted Christ in my life! offically! hahaxz~!! and for the past 3 months, i have been blessed by God. my exams, my family. though there would be depressing times, i would know that God loves me! and he's always listening to us. God's great!!
2003 draws to a near, 2004 approaches. got to make resolutions this time. hehee~
Monday, December 29, 2003
as you shared your joys,
i listened with pleasure drowned in pain.
but you were unaware of whats going on,
cause i refused to show signs of breaking down.
so you speak about your love,
and i felt my heart shatter into fragments.
would there be anyone picking up the fragments,
and stick them back together.
i dont know,
but,
all i know is that,
i'll never be the same again.
if i had a chance,
i would make u mine again.
but it would be the same?
will we flow as one?
thoughts keep lingering in my mind,
memories as fresh as the morning air.
it's hard to forget the things we have done,
like what music is to us.
even as i pray tonight,
your face,
your smile,
will just keep appearing.
you said goodbye and logged off,
when will i chat with you again.
if i do,
then i'll pray that,
i'll be strong, like never before.
i listened with pleasure drowned in pain.
but you were unaware of whats going on,
cause i refused to show signs of breaking down.
so you speak about your love,
and i felt my heart shatter into fragments.
would there be anyone picking up the fragments,
and stick them back together.
i dont know,
but,
all i know is that,
i'll never be the same again.
if i had a chance,
i would make u mine again.
but it would be the same?
will we flow as one?
thoughts keep lingering in my mind,
memories as fresh as the morning air.
it's hard to forget the things we have done,
like what music is to us.
even as i pray tonight,
your face,
your smile,
will just keep appearing.
you said goodbye and logged off,
when will i chat with you again.
if i do,
then i'll pray that,
i'll be strong, like never before.
You received a Greeting Card.
Theme : Card
Subject :
Title : A Rainbow Birthday
i think at around 1+ am? my first girlfriend sent me a E greeting card.
well, the story wasn't so simple. it all started like this.
i noticed that my system notice in ICQ was blinking. clicked it, had thoughts that it was some spam message again. saw her nick! got extremely excited. i didn't know what did i click, then the message box closed! arghx! felt so stupid! tried to view the message again, but i could not.
suddenly, i decided to search for her nick in ICQ. managed to find her, then sent her a message, adding her in my list at the same time. i prayed that she was online. hahaxz!
-uh oh- she replied! hahaxz! felt SO excited and happy! started chatting, and i viewed the Ecard she sent me. suddenly remembered that her birthday was yesterday! hahaxz! sent her a Ecard too, wishing her a belated birthday.
we're still chatting now. but, feelings changed from excited to sad? i was chatting with wanling too, and i told her everything - from day 1 of how we met, to the day we broke up. memories, thoughts and stuffs came back again. sigh.
it all started with a simple hi from her, and we started hi'ing and bye'ing to each other for months. come sports day, my friends told her friends that i liked her. her friends told my friends that she liked me. after sports day, her friends arranged me to meet her at the nearby coffee shop to have lunch together. hahaz. i must have blushed like mad on that day. her friends were laughing like crazy, but i noticed that she's blushing too. extremely cute. was forced to send her home afterwards and i found out that she stayed beside my block! hahaxz!
since then, we chatted everyday on the phone. everynight, without fail, i would call her at 10pm, and she would already be by the phone, waiting for the phone to ring. we chatted everynight, until this special night, 15 march 1999 (i think, it's a faint memory) 10.45 or 10.50 pm, i asked her to be my girl-friend. hehx. my heart was thumping madly, like it would explode anytime. she said, "give me 5 minutes" i took count, 1 min seemed an hr. both of us were extremely quiet. i tried to make some noise, but i could not. 2 minutes, 3, finally 5. told her that her time is up, but she kept quiet. i thought that she would reject me. fear flowed all over my heart. i even said that if she's going to reject me, just say. finally, she said okie. at first, i didn't hear what she said, cause i was really freaked out. i asked her to repeat, and this time, she said, okie, i'm your girl-friend. hahaxz! smiling from ear to ear, i was speechless. i'm so in love.
fast forward.
then, came the worst day of my life - the day we broke up.
she heard some rumour in school that i want to break up with her. she called me, and asked me if it's true. i asked her who was the one who told her about it, but she refused to tell me. then, she started crying, and asked me. that day, i was in a rather bad mood, so i just said ya larh! and hang up the phone. at that time, my sister was beside me. she asked me what happened, and i told her. she scolded me, and forced me to call her back. but, when i called back, her brother told me that she didn't want to talk to me. sighx.
after that incident, whenever we met in school, she would either walk away, or just run off. tried to talk to her, but she just ran and ran. sighx.
we didn't chat for almost 4 years! till the day, when i retook my O levels, and she was in school, cause it was teachers' day. chatted with her for 1-2 minutes and i didn't know what else to talk about. hahaxz. at that same year, my secondary school had a CCA campfire. she attended it too! the scouts were sitting beside the guides, and she was there. hahaxz. took the chance to talk to her, to catch up. didn't dare to get her contact number, even up till today. lolx.
the breakup is 1 of my biggest regret in life. how i wish i could turn back time, so that all these would not have happened. how i wish, i could say these to her again.
i miss you...
Theme : Card
Subject :
Title : A Rainbow Birthday
i think at around 1+ am? my first girlfriend sent me a E greeting card.
well, the story wasn't so simple. it all started like this.
i noticed that my system notice in ICQ was blinking. clicked it, had thoughts that it was some spam message again. saw her nick! got extremely excited. i didn't know what did i click, then the message box closed! arghx! felt so stupid! tried to view the message again, but i could not.
suddenly, i decided to search for her nick in ICQ. managed to find her, then sent her a message, adding her in my list at the same time. i prayed that she was online. hahaxz!
-uh oh- she replied! hahaxz! felt SO excited and happy! started chatting, and i viewed the Ecard she sent me. suddenly remembered that her birthday was yesterday! hahaxz! sent her a Ecard too, wishing her a belated birthday.
we're still chatting now. but, feelings changed from excited to sad? i was chatting with wanling too, and i told her everything - from day 1 of how we met, to the day we broke up. memories, thoughts and stuffs came back again. sigh.
it all started with a simple hi from her, and we started hi'ing and bye'ing to each other for months. come sports day, my friends told her friends that i liked her. her friends told my friends that she liked me. after sports day, her friends arranged me to meet her at the nearby coffee shop to have lunch together. hahaz. i must have blushed like mad on that day. her friends were laughing like crazy, but i noticed that she's blushing too. extremely cute. was forced to send her home afterwards and i found out that she stayed beside my block! hahaxz!
since then, we chatted everyday on the phone. everynight, without fail, i would call her at 10pm, and she would already be by the phone, waiting for the phone to ring. we chatted everynight, until this special night, 15 march 1999 (i think, it's a faint memory) 10.45 or 10.50 pm, i asked her to be my girl-friend. hehx. my heart was thumping madly, like it would explode anytime. she said, "give me 5 minutes" i took count, 1 min seemed an hr. both of us were extremely quiet. i tried to make some noise, but i could not. 2 minutes, 3, finally 5. told her that her time is up, but she kept quiet. i thought that she would reject me. fear flowed all over my heart. i even said that if she's going to reject me, just say. finally, she said okie. at first, i didn't hear what she said, cause i was really freaked out. i asked her to repeat, and this time, she said, okie, i'm your girl-friend. hahaxz! smiling from ear to ear, i was speechless. i'm so in love.
fast forward.
then, came the worst day of my life - the day we broke up.
she heard some rumour in school that i want to break up with her. she called me, and asked me if it's true. i asked her who was the one who told her about it, but she refused to tell me. then, she started crying, and asked me. that day, i was in a rather bad mood, so i just said ya larh! and hang up the phone. at that time, my sister was beside me. she asked me what happened, and i told her. she scolded me, and forced me to call her back. but, when i called back, her brother told me that she didn't want to talk to me. sighx.
after that incident, whenever we met in school, she would either walk away, or just run off. tried to talk to her, but she just ran and ran. sighx.
we didn't chat for almost 4 years! till the day, when i retook my O levels, and she was in school, cause it was teachers' day. chatted with her for 1-2 minutes and i didn't know what else to talk about. hahaxz. at that same year, my secondary school had a CCA campfire. she attended it too! the scouts were sitting beside the guides, and she was there. hahaxz. took the chance to talk to her, to catch up. didn't dare to get her contact number, even up till today. lolx.
the breakup is 1 of my biggest regret in life. how i wish i could turn back time, so that all these would not have happened. how i wish, i could say these to her again.
i miss you...
Sunday, December 28, 2003
wow! i went to my uncle's house yesterday again, played PS2 again! hahaxz! played WWE until 6 am this morning. lolx. i played the season mode, and i completed it within 1 night. hahaxz! it's rather easy to play, once you find out the weak points of the computer=P
woke up at 12pm, my phone could not stop vibrating! arghx! tons of messages came in, my friend asked me a weird question - will God forgive me? i sinned! told her that God would, she insisted that God won't. sighx.
hehx. im faced with a problem! tomorrow my cell group will have a thanksgiving dinner? and each 1 of us are required to get a gift - unisex , 5 bucks and above. i have totally no idea what to buy. hahaxz! before i meet them, got to take a long walk down in town, drag my friend along and ask her to pick for me. hahaxz! if she's free=P
okiee, updates over for now=P
woke up at 12pm, my phone could not stop vibrating! arghx! tons of messages came in, my friend asked me a weird question - will God forgive me? i sinned! told her that God would, she insisted that God won't. sighx.
hehx. im faced with a problem! tomorrow my cell group will have a thanksgiving dinner? and each 1 of us are required to get a gift - unisex , 5 bucks and above. i have totally no idea what to buy. hahaxz! before i meet them, got to take a long walk down in town, drag my friend along and ask her to pick for me. hahaxz! if she's free=P
okiee, updates over for now=P
Friday, December 26, 2003
hahaxz! went to my uncle's house today and i played PS2 with his son.
we played many games, tony hawk, WWE, FIFA 2004. hahaxz. it's been quite a long time since i last visited them, and they were treating me like a prince! hahaxz! his children would get drinks for me and they would let me choose any game that i want to play. if they want to watch a movie, they would ask me if i want to watch, if not, they won't watch it too. hahax! i felt so bad=/
overall, i had a great day today, compaired to yesterday. oh, my mom offically allows me to attend church! hahax! but, she said this advice to me, don't get baptised until you are very sure. maybe around 21 years old? hahax! woohoo! yeah! no need to fear if she finds out. hahax!
we played many games, tony hawk, WWE, FIFA 2004. hahaxz. it's been quite a long time since i last visited them, and they were treating me like a prince! hahaxz! his children would get drinks for me and they would let me choose any game that i want to play. if they want to watch a movie, they would ask me if i want to watch, if not, they won't watch it too. hahax! i felt so bad=/
overall, i had a great day today, compaired to yesterday. oh, my mom offically allows me to attend church! hahax! but, she said this advice to me, don't get baptised until you are very sure. maybe around 21 years old? hahax! woohoo! yeah! no need to fear if she finds out. hahax!
Thursday, December 25, 2003
hehx. must have felt so crazy just now.
at around 10.30, i suddenly felt like jogging. i just felt so depressed, seems that there were millions and millions of problems in my mind. on many occasions, i just felt like crying. i felt so lonely, so alone on christmas eve.
as i was jogging, i just felt all the "problems" leave me. i forced myself to focus on the road, where am i running to and challenging myself to push to the limits. i think i made many people think that i'm crazy. hahax!
hehx. when i was walking home, i prayed, with a girl in mind. reached home, waterboys was showing, sat down and watched the show. after that, i went to shower. when i was bathing, i thought about the girl. i said to myself, it's so late, it's impossible that she's online. switched on my computer, logged into MSN, and she's online! O_O chatted with her, but i didn't admit my feelings? hahax! i don't dare=X don't think that she likes me=P
well, my legs are aching. hehx. but, the jog was worth it.
at around 10.30, i suddenly felt like jogging. i just felt so depressed, seems that there were millions and millions of problems in my mind. on many occasions, i just felt like crying. i felt so lonely, so alone on christmas eve.
as i was jogging, i just felt all the "problems" leave me. i forced myself to focus on the road, where am i running to and challenging myself to push to the limits. i think i made many people think that i'm crazy. hahax!
hehx. when i was walking home, i prayed, with a girl in mind. reached home, waterboys was showing, sat down and watched the show. after that, i went to shower. when i was bathing, i thought about the girl. i said to myself, it's so late, it's impossible that she's online. switched on my computer, logged into MSN, and she's online! O_O chatted with her, but i didn't admit my feelings? hahax! i don't dare=X don't think that she likes me=P
well, my legs are aching. hehx. but, the jog was worth it.
Wednesday, December 24, 2003
oh christmas eve, a boy sits at home, facing his computer, playing games.
hehx. somehow, my mom didn't bring me to my uncle's place to celebrate christmas. my sister said that we would be leaving by 7. so i went to play basketball and went home at 6.30. sadly, the house was empty, mom went to my uncle's house. called her, she asked me to go down myself, if i want to. hehx. i think i would just stay home.
had a chat with junjiang just now, shared many things. but, he said something that freaked me out a little - end of the world. hmmx, 12 signs, 10 are already revealed, 2 more in the process. the way he talked about it was seriously creepy too and it seems that the end is really near. hahax. got to keep that off my mind, else i'm going to get crazy=/
yeah. not really in the mood to blog.
hehx. somehow, my mom didn't bring me to my uncle's place to celebrate christmas. my sister said that we would be leaving by 7. so i went to play basketball and went home at 6.30. sadly, the house was empty, mom went to my uncle's house. called her, she asked me to go down myself, if i want to. hehx. i think i would just stay home.
had a chat with junjiang just now, shared many things. but, he said something that freaked me out a little - end of the world. hmmx, 12 signs, 10 are already revealed, 2 more in the process. the way he talked about it was seriously creepy too and it seems that the end is really near. hahax. got to keep that off my mind, else i'm going to get crazy=/
yeah. not really in the mood to blog.
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logged into IRC, saw my friend using God as his nickname. told him nicely to change his nick, he asked me to help him think of a new nick, and even said that there is nothing wrong in using God as his nick. to me, i feel that my friend is being rude? i don't know, but i feel offended.
went to church today for prayer meeting.
have you guys thought of this question before? - why do you accept Christ in your life?
personally, i find it very hard to answer this question. to me, i guess that it's something that i feel. for me, months back, when Pastor Phil Pringle called for the altar call, i experienced something that i don't even know how to express out in words. it's a feeling that touches your heart, you feel that Pastor was just talking to you one on one.
well, things aside. after prayer meeting, i went to the scouts BBQ. hehx. there were loads of "attacks" from my friends. about Christ, God, whatever about Christians. they even told me this, "Joel, come join us in hell. all your friends are in hell, but you are in heaven. how can!?" hahax! wanted to tell them that they can go to heaven too, if they accept Christ. but i just kept my mouth shut, and smiled back. even one of my favourite leaders gave me a disappointed look. lolx.
hey. time flies! it's christmas eve already. sadly, i didn't buy any presents for anyone, nor cards! hehx. i don't usually practise buying presents and cards. maybe that's why i don't receive cards and presents too. lolx=) seems that everyone has got plans already, but, i got non! hahax! i think i would be joining my family to my relative's place again to celebrate christmas.
birthday next! woohoo!
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logged into IRC, saw my friend using God as his nickname. told him nicely to change his nick, he asked me to help him think of a new nick, and even said that there is nothing wrong in using God as his nick. to me, i feel that my friend is being rude? i don't know, but i feel offended.
went to church today for prayer meeting.
have you guys thought of this question before? - why do you accept Christ in your life?
personally, i find it very hard to answer this question. to me, i guess that it's something that i feel. for me, months back, when Pastor Phil Pringle called for the altar call, i experienced something that i don't even know how to express out in words. it's a feeling that touches your heart, you feel that Pastor was just talking to you one on one.
well, things aside. after prayer meeting, i went to the scouts BBQ. hehx. there were loads of "attacks" from my friends. about Christ, God, whatever about Christians. they even told me this, "Joel, come join us in hell. all your friends are in hell, but you are in heaven. how can!?" hahax! wanted to tell them that they can go to heaven too, if they accept Christ. but i just kept my mouth shut, and smiled back. even one of my favourite leaders gave me a disappointed look. lolx.
hey. time flies! it's christmas eve already. sadly, i didn't buy any presents for anyone, nor cards! hehx. i don't usually practise buying presents and cards. maybe that's why i don't receive cards and presents too. lolx=) seems that everyone has got plans already, but, i got non! hahax! i think i would be joining my family to my relative's place again to celebrate christmas.
birthday next! woohoo!
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
today is the only day that didn't rain! lolx. took this chance, and played basketball. there wasn't much people at the community centre until late. played 5 on 5 with them, then we were told to leave the court, cause there is an activity going on.
went to another place to continue playing basketball. was challenged by the opponent. he stared at me whenever he took a shot, or dribble in. hehx. of cause i challenged back, and thankfully, he wasn't able to catch me when i dribbled past him =P
had a great day playing basketball, been quite sometime since i last played too.
well, basically that's all that happened today=/
went to another place to continue playing basketball. was challenged by the opponent. he stared at me whenever he took a shot, or dribble in. hehx. of cause i challenged back, and thankfully, he wasn't able to catch me when i dribbled past him =P
had a great day playing basketball, been quite sometime since i last played too.
well, basically that's all that happened today=/
Sunday, December 21, 2003
it's one of those days again. those quiet, boring days.
it's a chilly day today. practially rained the whole day and the temperature was low. i carried my blankie all over my house, so that i can cover myself. hehx. i feel a little sick though.
getting a little annoyed now. a girl messaged me, and asked me stupid questions. arghx. it's reallie very very irratating, and the questions she ask sometimes, are really very childish.
wellx. nothing much i can do too.
oh, my friend will be leaving for NS soon, and he has a BBQ. hmm, i was invited by his girl-friend. but, i'm still in doubt if i should go. most of the people there are scouts, rovers and leaders. well, people who i have disappinted time and time again. hehx. but, my friend, who's leaving for NS, is quite a close friend of mine. always there for me, whenever i needed help. i think that i should just attend the BBQ, and whatever the leaders, rovers question me, i would just answer to it.
it's a chilly day today. practially rained the whole day and the temperature was low. i carried my blankie all over my house, so that i can cover myself. hehx. i feel a little sick though.
getting a little annoyed now. a girl messaged me, and asked me stupid questions. arghx. it's reallie very very irratating, and the questions she ask sometimes, are really very childish.
wellx. nothing much i can do too.
oh, my friend will be leaving for NS soon, and he has a BBQ. hmm, i was invited by his girl-friend. but, i'm still in doubt if i should go. most of the people there are scouts, rovers and leaders. well, people who i have disappinted time and time again. hehx. but, my friend, who's leaving for NS, is quite a close friend of mine. always there for me, whenever i needed help. i think that i should just attend the BBQ, and whatever the leaders, rovers question me, i would just answer to it.
Saturday, December 20, 2003
hahax! another thing happened 10 minutes ago. i went to the toilet, and when i stepped out, i saw my mom in the room. so i thought suddenly, why don't i take this chance, and invite her for the christmas party. walked back to my room, and stared at the invitation card for a period of time. then, i decided to approach my mom, regardless the end would be.
as i approached my mom, my heart was thumping madly. "ma, you want to attend this christmas concert at City Harvest Church? He Yeow Sun is performing ley, i was there on thursday and friday, had a great time. want to go tomorrow?" amazing, i thought that she would turn me down flatly, instead, she was rather interested in it! she asked me what did we do on thursday and friday, and, i felt that she was interested. but, she has a wedding dinner to attend tomorrow afternoon at 1.30. arghx!
i wonder if she gets the hint that i have been attending church too. cause i said that i have been attending church for quite sometime. don't know if she heard me. lolx. alritez, i'm going to tell her that i am attending church, the next time she asks where am i going. heex
once she knows that i am attending church, i believe it would be my greatest testimony to date, and more to come! praise the Lord, for my prayers have been answered, my greatest fear overcomed.
God is wonderful.
as i approached my mom, my heart was thumping madly. "ma, you want to attend this christmas concert at City Harvest Church? He Yeow Sun is performing ley, i was there on thursday and friday, had a great time. want to go tomorrow?" amazing, i thought that she would turn me down flatly, instead, she was rather interested in it! she asked me what did we do on thursday and friday, and, i felt that she was interested. but, she has a wedding dinner to attend tomorrow afternoon at 1.30. arghx!
i wonder if she gets the hint that i have been attending church too. cause i said that i have been attending church for quite sometime. don't know if she heard me. lolx. alritez, i'm going to tell her that i am attending church, the next time she asks where am i going. heex
once she knows that i am attending church, i believe it would be my greatest testimony to date, and more to come! praise the Lord, for my prayers have been answered, my greatest fear overcomed.
God is wonderful.
something happened. roughy around 15 minutes ago, i suddenly remembered that there is live webcast of today's 3pm service at City Harvest Church. then, i felt like watching it. the moment i logged in, Pastor Sun started to share her testimony. it seemed all too "qiao" the moment i logged in, she started sharing. is God trying to tell me something? even though i was at home,i could feel the love of God when Pastor Sun was sharing her testimony. even though it's the third time i'm listening to it, i still feel touched.
God really works in everyway, everywhere, everytime.
God really works in everyway, everywhere, everytime.
back from church again! hahaxz! i had a great time during service today, and this time, we were seated in the auditorium! was extremely excited! lolx. the atmosphere was indeed very different compaired to yesterday. i was screaming, shouting, singing, even though i don't know the lyrics. hahax!
my friends responded to the altar call too. when i felt my friend's arm brush through my body, i took a little peek, and i saw that his hand was up! i was so touched that i almost cried, and i said prayers to God, thanking Him. heex!
im so full! just finished 1 huge bowl of curry chicken. heex. it's extremely delicious! can't wait to eat it for tomorrow's breakfast. lolx! curry chicken everyday.
alritez, i got to buzz off. take care=)
my friends responded to the altar call too. when i felt my friend's arm brush through my body, i took a little peek, and i saw that his hand was up! i was so touched that i almost cried, and i said prayers to God, thanking Him. heex!
im so full! just finished 1 huge bowl of curry chicken. heex. it's extremely delicious! can't wait to eat it for tomorrow's breakfast. lolx! curry chicken everyday.
alritez, i got to buzz off. take care=)
Friday, December 19, 2003
CoMe oN EvErYBoDy! lAlalaZz~~ hAhaz! just came back from church! i had such a smashing day, i can't stop smiling to myself when i was walking home.
met up with weihao earlier in the day, we volunteered ourselves to help out the children christmas party! heex. me and weihao vacuumed the auditorium, carried the huge "story book" up to the stage, arranged chairs, carried chairs and helped ushered the kids around. it was a GREAT experience, i would say. the MOST touching part would be, when you see the kids raising their hands, saying that they want to be with God, and they believe in Him. manx! i was so overwhelmed, that i almost teared. hehx. a little secert that most people don't know=/ then, this bible phrase suddenly pop into my mind, "Let the children come to me. Don't stop them! For the Kingdom of Heaven belongs to such as these. Matthew 19 : 14. it's so true=)
stayed on, for christmas concert afterwards. met up with natalie, debra, eugene and zijun. been quite sometime since i last saw them. hehz=) the auditorium was overflowing! we had no choice, but to proceed to the 4th floor, to view the concert. nonetheless, it was a smashing service! Pastor Sun shared with us her testimony, and i almost teared, again. lolx=) it was really very touching, and i felt the love of God. almost immediately, i felt that God was telling me to ask my family members to City Harvest Church. i was determined to overcome my fear, and share with them the great news! but, my mom had fallen asleep. my only hope would be my sister, but she's not home yet. i think i will wait for her=)
God's great.
met up with weihao earlier in the day, we volunteered ourselves to help out the children christmas party! heex. me and weihao vacuumed the auditorium, carried the huge "story book" up to the stage, arranged chairs, carried chairs and helped ushered the kids around. it was a GREAT experience, i would say. the MOST touching part would be, when you see the kids raising their hands, saying that they want to be with God, and they believe in Him. manx! i was so overwhelmed, that i almost teared. hehx. a little secert that most people don't know=/ then, this bible phrase suddenly pop into my mind, "Let the children come to me. Don't stop them! For the Kingdom of Heaven belongs to such as these. Matthew 19 : 14. it's so true=)
stayed on, for christmas concert afterwards. met up with natalie, debra, eugene and zijun. been quite sometime since i last saw them. hehz=) the auditorium was overflowing! we had no choice, but to proceed to the 4th floor, to view the concert. nonetheless, it was a smashing service! Pastor Sun shared with us her testimony, and i almost teared, again. lolx=) it was really very touching, and i felt the love of God. almost immediately, i felt that God was telling me to ask my family members to City Harvest Church. i was determined to overcome my fear, and share with them the great news! but, my mom had fallen asleep. my only hope would be my sister, but she's not home yet. i think i will wait for her=)
God's great.
Wednesday, December 17, 2003
so tired. went out early, to meet them at jurong east. ice skated, had a great time gliding over many people. lolx. the rim is packed with people today! some girl celebrated her 15th birthday there too. cool.
went to Sharmaine's friend's house afterwards, to catch a show - possessed. manxz! that show simply blew me off. it's so powerful, that i can't explain what was going through my mind just now. just felt so, weird. seems that i was filled with confusions. but at the same time, i realised that God is really great, as even the demons have to obey him. the show, possessed, is based on a true story. it's about a catholic priest casting out demons ( way too simplified ) highly encourage my friends to rent this show and watch it too. it's worth it.
i'm so darn tired now. i still have to meet my uncle's maid and bring her to my place=/ my uncle went to korea, not bringing the maid along. i think my mom wants to "borrow" his maid for a few days. lolx.
alritex. got to go meet her already. so sleepy=/
went to Sharmaine's friend's house afterwards, to catch a show - possessed. manxz! that show simply blew me off. it's so powerful, that i can't explain what was going through my mind just now. just felt so, weird. seems that i was filled with confusions. but at the same time, i realised that God is really great, as even the demons have to obey him. the show, possessed, is based on a true story. it's about a catholic priest casting out demons ( way too simplified ) highly encourage my friends to rent this show and watch it too. it's worth it.
i'm so darn tired now. i still have to meet my uncle's maid and bring her to my place=/ my uncle went to korea, not bringing the maid along. i think my mom wants to "borrow" his maid for a few days. lolx.
alritex. got to go meet her already. so sleepy=/
hahax! just shutdown my notebook. was playing NBA 2004 for hours! manx! it's a wonderful game! hahax! fast paced, great graphics, fast loading, and it's realistic. at least you won't see shaq shooting 3 pointers! lolx.
played CM4 just now too. formed my dream team in 1 season! lolx. alritez, not completely, but almost there. most the top rated youth players are on the way to my team. heheex. CM4 is also a great game. it's always exciting when your team of youthsters defeat teams with superstars. lolx=)
i think i got to sleep soon. lolx. going to ice skate later with my CG sisters~ lolx. im surrounded by 3 girls tomorrow >.<
played CM4 just now too. formed my dream team in 1 season! lolx. alritez, not completely, but almost there. most the top rated youth players are on the way to my team. heheex. CM4 is also a great game. it's always exciting when your team of youthsters defeat teams with superstars. lolx=)
i think i got to sleep soon. lolx. going to ice skate later with my CG sisters~ lolx. im surrounded by 3 girls tomorrow >.<
Monday, December 15, 2003
sheesh. finally finish changing the outlook of my blog. hehx. bart simpson! one of my all time favourite cartoon characters=D
okie. just had a small little scolding from my mom. she woke up suddenly just now, and gave me 10 sheets of paper to copy. i heard her say, copy 10 pages each. so i started copying 10 pages of each page. when she came back to check, she started screaming at me, telling me that, she said copy 1 page, and there's a total of 10 pages. sighx. was extremely frustrated too, cause i was trying to get my stuffs done, and she was scolding me. arghx.
alritez, quick update on the past few days.
Friday - woke up extremely late for the basketball competition. lucky, i managed to reach the basketball court in time. lolx. we played the first match, against a team that we prayed that we won't meet. heh. played my heart out during the first half, and we were tired. but on the second half, we panicked and lost the game. sighx. it's in the knockout stages, and that was our first and final match for the day. me and my team stayed on and watched my friends play. halfway through my friend's match, my friend sprained his ankles, and i had to play for their team. lolx. that game was a tight game, lost by a close margin.
but, we were extremely blessed in the end. before the finals started, Pastor Yong Kiang asked us to play for the 3th - 4th position with them. lolx! that was not expected, and we played, though not seriously, but we had fun.
oh, during the basketball competition, there was this RGS student, wearing her jersey, number 6, watching the games. i think she's one of the cell group members of the Pastor. manz! she's amazing! played basketball with her, could not help but keep looking at her. lolx. she's extremely pretty, and she seems to be those gentle type of girls. hahax! but, i didn't talk to her, cause i was pretty scared. lolx=P perhaps next time when i see her in church again. lolx
went for church service afterwards and i was blessed with a great message, it's about being committed to God. that seriously questioned me, as i was facing a scouts - God committment challenge. when Pastor Derek was preaching, many things were in my mind. i knew that i had to give up either 1 of the 2. thinking about the brothers i have in scouts, and the family i have in Christ, it was really hard. but, in the end, i decided to stick with Christ, as He's the saviour.
went to herman's house to stay over afterwards. herman's birthday falls on the 13 december. me and weilun decided to go over to his place, and play games with him for 1 whole night. but halfway, weilun had to go home, as he was feeling unwell. sighx. i stayed on, and continued playing games with him. hehx. had a great time! played many games like winning eleven, NBA 2004. then, we finally slept at around 7 am. =P
Saturday - woke up at around 11.30, called parry and told him that i'm not going for scouts meeting as i got cell group BBQ afterwards. hehx. somehow, he allowed that, but i got a feeling that i will get scolded the next time they see me. lolx. they are rather unhappy with me already =P
went home to wash up, and went to charmaine's house for CG BBQ. hahax. helped to do little stuffs before CG started. CG meeting was about Jesus, and why is there Christmas.
then, the BBQ started. had fun eating, talking to new friends and BBQ'ing! heex. had a chat with Sis Vene too, regarding my questions and i was glad that i asked, cause that really cleared many of my doubts and uncertainties. thank God for such a wonderful cell group!
Sunday - went to herman's house again, and me and weilun stayed till pretty late. we ordered KFC for our dinner. hehx. the delivery man was our friend! lolx! we were pretty shocked as we were suggesting that the delivery man maybe our friend, as he's working for KFC delivery. lolx.
Monday - played basketball with the adults today. lolx. managed to curb my fear and managed a few shots. hehx. great improvement! they were giving me the ball kinda often too, maybe they realised that i was playing. hahax! had a great time playing basketball with them, and i can't wait to play with them again.
well, for the past few days, Sis Vene asked me to consider about my ministry. she suggested Security. i went to City Harvest Church HomePage and looked up on Security. it sounds really cool as my impression of Securitys are like those body guards in smart looking attire with cool devices plugged all over them. lolx! checked out the other ministries, but, at the present time, Security remain the top choice.
hey. i think that's all for today, for now. tk care guys=)
okie. just had a small little scolding from my mom. she woke up suddenly just now, and gave me 10 sheets of paper to copy. i heard her say, copy 10 pages each. so i started copying 10 pages of each page. when she came back to check, she started screaming at me, telling me that, she said copy 1 page, and there's a total of 10 pages. sighx. was extremely frustrated too, cause i was trying to get my stuffs done, and she was scolding me. arghx.
alritez, quick update on the past few days.
Friday - woke up extremely late for the basketball competition. lucky, i managed to reach the basketball court in time. lolx. we played the first match, against a team that we prayed that we won't meet. heh. played my heart out during the first half, and we were tired. but on the second half, we panicked and lost the game. sighx. it's in the knockout stages, and that was our first and final match for the day. me and my team stayed on and watched my friends play. halfway through my friend's match, my friend sprained his ankles, and i had to play for their team. lolx. that game was a tight game, lost by a close margin.
but, we were extremely blessed in the end. before the finals started, Pastor Yong Kiang asked us to play for the 3th - 4th position with them. lolx! that was not expected, and we played, though not seriously, but we had fun.
oh, during the basketball competition, there was this RGS student, wearing her jersey, number 6, watching the games. i think she's one of the cell group members of the Pastor. manz! she's amazing! played basketball with her, could not help but keep looking at her. lolx. she's extremely pretty, and she seems to be those gentle type of girls. hahax! but, i didn't talk to her, cause i was pretty scared. lolx=P perhaps next time when i see her in church again. lolx
went for church service afterwards and i was blessed with a great message, it's about being committed to God. that seriously questioned me, as i was facing a scouts - God committment challenge. when Pastor Derek was preaching, many things were in my mind. i knew that i had to give up either 1 of the 2. thinking about the brothers i have in scouts, and the family i have in Christ, it was really hard. but, in the end, i decided to stick with Christ, as He's the saviour.
went to herman's house to stay over afterwards. herman's birthday falls on the 13 december. me and weilun decided to go over to his place, and play games with him for 1 whole night. but halfway, weilun had to go home, as he was feeling unwell. sighx. i stayed on, and continued playing games with him. hehx. had a great time! played many games like winning eleven, NBA 2004. then, we finally slept at around 7 am. =P
Saturday - woke up at around 11.30, called parry and told him that i'm not going for scouts meeting as i got cell group BBQ afterwards. hehx. somehow, he allowed that, but i got a feeling that i will get scolded the next time they see me. lolx. they are rather unhappy with me already =P
went home to wash up, and went to charmaine's house for CG BBQ. hahax. helped to do little stuffs before CG started. CG meeting was about Jesus, and why is there Christmas.
then, the BBQ started. had fun eating, talking to new friends and BBQ'ing! heex. had a chat with Sis Vene too, regarding my questions and i was glad that i asked, cause that really cleared many of my doubts and uncertainties. thank God for such a wonderful cell group!
Sunday - went to herman's house again, and me and weilun stayed till pretty late. we ordered KFC for our dinner. hehx. the delivery man was our friend! lolx! we were pretty shocked as we were suggesting that the delivery man maybe our friend, as he's working for KFC delivery. lolx.
Monday - played basketball with the adults today. lolx. managed to curb my fear and managed a few shots. hehx. great improvement! they were giving me the ball kinda often too, maybe they realised that i was playing. hahax! had a great time playing basketball with them, and i can't wait to play with them again.
well, for the past few days, Sis Vene asked me to consider about my ministry. she suggested Security. i went to City Harvest Church HomePage and looked up on Security. it sounds really cool as my impression of Securitys are like those body guards in smart looking attire with cool devices plugged all over them. lolx! checked out the other ministries, but, at the present time, Security remain the top choice.
hey. i think that's all for today, for now. tk care guys=)
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