sianed, i guess i got the worst possible score for my 2nd sortie. my instuctor was scolding me from land to air, back to land. my checks were bad, and the more he pressured me, the more stuffs i forgot to check. i guess that's the system=/
up in the air, i tried to do my best, but there was a part when he flew into a rage. i was supposed to keep the aircraft straight and keep reference point. but the plane kept flying towards the right, so he shouted at me to keep it straight. i told him that the plane moved on it's own, and when i shift it to the left, it goes too much, thus resulting in bad airmanship. then, he said that i'm arguing with him, and he threatened to land the aircraft. kept repeating sorry, and he gave me another chance. this time, i managed to keep the aircraft straight and did my stuffs well. but he said that my performance was still bad.
my debrief stinked.
the way home was rather depressing. held back my tears and tried not to think of the incident. had thoughts of quitting the club and just focus on my studies, since i'm not some straight As student.
Saturday, February 28, 2004
fast paced day today~
lolx=P first, i was a little late meeting yanren to study in school, and when we were in school, i was quite shocked that there wans't much people in school. it's the JAE period and i was expecting many students~ loLx=P saw some of my former secondary school boys in the canteen eating, and i had a small chat with him regarding courses. i feel like a spokesman...
anyway, we headed for the library to study. photocopied loads of papers to do too. i attempted my engineering science mock paper, and i was daunted! hahaz! kept referring to my textbook for the formulas and examples cause i was totally lost! =P samantha's going to be in deep trouble when she would be teaching me... heh, there was this babe sitting quite near us!! she's cute and she wore a extremely pretty dress, that looks really sexy~!! hahaz!! yanren and i kept glancing at her~ =X
went directly for cell group meeting at jurong west, and i met charmaine along the way~ hahaz~ i was only 1 bus behind her, and we met in the interchange. cell group meeting today was rather different, prayed for each other. the message was almost the same as my bible studies lesson~ hahax~ regarding the Holy Spirit and speaking in tongues. that reminded me of a dream - i dreamt that i was being "haunted" and i was extremely scared. suddenly, i felt something in me say "speak in tongues!" so, i started speaking in tongues, and i felt extremely calm and secure. i DID feel calm and secure when i spoke in tongue, even when i was dreaming. i guess it was a half dream half reality thingy? lolx=P
headed for dinner at jurong west and i ate salmon set~ hahaz! then, i joined charmaine to meet her sister and cell group at another member's house. met up with some familar faces and chatted around. headed for dinner again and i ate meepok. i wonder how did i manage to stuff everything into my mouth! lolx=P took a cab back home with charmaine and sharon~ =D hee~
urgh! flying lessons starts at 8.30am tomorrow! and im scheduled to fly tomorrow after lessons at 11.05am. sigh, i haven really prepared for it. i guess i'll be extremely last revision later and tomorrow morning=/ unless i continue to cough badly, i have to fly >.< the long distance travelling and time taken is really wearing me out. sometimes, i don't feel like going there anymore!! even though it's my dream and stuffs, it's really tiring.
i wonder why do i keep coughing ONLY when i'm at home!! is it because i drink cold water? >.< i can't sing if i keep coughing!!!
lolx=P first, i was a little late meeting yanren to study in school, and when we were in school, i was quite shocked that there wans't much people in school. it's the JAE period and i was expecting many students~ loLx=P saw some of my former secondary school boys in the canteen eating, and i had a small chat with him regarding courses. i feel like a spokesman...
anyway, we headed for the library to study. photocopied loads of papers to do too. i attempted my engineering science mock paper, and i was daunted! hahaz! kept referring to my textbook for the formulas and examples cause i was totally lost! =P samantha's going to be in deep trouble when she would be teaching me... heh, there was this babe sitting quite near us!! she's cute and she wore a extremely pretty dress, that looks really sexy~!! hahaz!! yanren and i kept glancing at her~ =X
went directly for cell group meeting at jurong west, and i met charmaine along the way~ hahaz~ i was only 1 bus behind her, and we met in the interchange. cell group meeting today was rather different, prayed for each other. the message was almost the same as my bible studies lesson~ hahax~ regarding the Holy Spirit and speaking in tongues. that reminded me of a dream - i dreamt that i was being "haunted" and i was extremely scared. suddenly, i felt something in me say "speak in tongues!" so, i started speaking in tongues, and i felt extremely calm and secure. i DID feel calm and secure when i spoke in tongue, even when i was dreaming. i guess it was a half dream half reality thingy? lolx=P
headed for dinner at jurong west and i ate salmon set~ hahaz! then, i joined charmaine to meet her sister and cell group at another member's house. met up with some familar faces and chatted around. headed for dinner again and i ate meepok. i wonder how did i manage to stuff everything into my mouth! lolx=P took a cab back home with charmaine and sharon~ =D hee~
urgh! flying lessons starts at 8.30am tomorrow! and im scheduled to fly tomorrow after lessons at 11.05am. sigh, i haven really prepared for it. i guess i'll be extremely last revision later and tomorrow morning=/ unless i continue to cough badly, i have to fly >.< the long distance travelling and time taken is really wearing me out. sometimes, i don't feel like going there anymore!! even though it's my dream and stuffs, it's really tiring.
i wonder why do i keep coughing ONLY when i'm at home!! is it because i drink cold water? >.< i can't sing if i keep coughing!!!
woah, i just "played" a cool game. it's about knee operations, and you get to operate on a knee!! questions would be asked, and knowledge would be gained=) http://www.livingchildren.com/knee/knee/surgery.htm
anyway, i went to church earlier, and today's message - unleashing the potential in us! okok, the title is not so flashy, but it was about the unlocking the potential in us=) sounds the same huh? lolx=P anyway, it was a great message, made us feel great about ourselves~ hahaz~ as we all have a purpose here on earth, and with our potential, we are able to create things! or rather, do things like never before.
bible studies were fine too. it was about the Holy Spirit and our "teacher" shared with us his testimony. i felt encouraged and i told myself that i must desire for the Holy Spirit! haHaz=D
oh, i went back to my secondary school too, to watch my friends receive their results. well, most of them did rather well. they were able to enter polytechnic, and 1 of the top student is my friend - binghui. he scored 12 points for L1R5! was rather happy for him=) though i beat him up because he scored b3 for his english=/ though not everyone was happy with their results, i guess they were content that they are able to fight for a place in poly. anyway, xuexin! i guess you would be reading this right. hmm, don't be too sad k, i'll still love you, as a friend. heex=) i shall be your encourager, who would pick you up and dust off the dust on you, then move on together. kae? =) i'm always a phone call away.
anyway, i went to church earlier, and today's message - unleashing the potential in us! okok, the title is not so flashy, but it was about the unlocking the potential in us=) sounds the same huh? lolx=P anyway, it was a great message, made us feel great about ourselves~ hahaz~ as we all have a purpose here on earth, and with our potential, we are able to create things! or rather, do things like never before.
bible studies were fine too. it was about the Holy Spirit and our "teacher" shared with us his testimony. i felt encouraged and i told myself that i must desire for the Holy Spirit! haHaz=D
oh, i went back to my secondary school too, to watch my friends receive their results. well, most of them did rather well. they were able to enter polytechnic, and 1 of the top student is my friend - binghui. he scored 12 points for L1R5! was rather happy for him=) though i beat him up because he scored b3 for his english=/ though not everyone was happy with their results, i guess they were content that they are able to fight for a place in poly. anyway, xuexin! i guess you would be reading this right. hmm, don't be too sad k, i'll still love you, as a friend. heex=) i shall be your encourager, who would pick you up and dust off the dust on you, then move on together. kae? =) i'm always a phone call away.
Thursday, February 26, 2004
went to school and studied with yanren and howie. lolx~ the starting 2 hours was good? i spent time highliting my book, but i guess that i didn't really manage to remember most of them. lolx=P we got chased out of the ICT blocks because they were closing the classrooms=/ so, we decided to head for the library to look for past year common test papers. we managed to find past year papers, but they were our final year papers. then, we asked the librarians for help, but they told us that our course didn't keep any past year common test papers=/ stupid lazy tutors.
then, we went to the atrium to study. but as we walked pass the tables, we noticed someone playing gunbound!! howie and i tried numerious times trying to hack past our stupid school's firewall, but failed. lolx=P so, we asked that student how did he manage to play gunbound in school. he told us the programs to download and we tried=P spent quite sometime trying to fix the programs, but we were still unable to connect into gunbound. managed to get the guy to help us, but he was unsure too~ lolx. anyway, we didn't study when we were in the atrium~ they sort of fooled around and started to become muai thai boxers. lolx~
anyway, met up with natalie for dinner before heading home. didn't manage to get samantha to teach me engineering science tomorrow=/ oh. tomorrow's O level results=) all the best~!! remember to SMS me, and tell me your results!!=)
then, we went to the atrium to study. but as we walked pass the tables, we noticed someone playing gunbound!! howie and i tried numerious times trying to hack past our stupid school's firewall, but failed. lolx=P so, we asked that student how did he manage to play gunbound in school. he told us the programs to download and we tried=P spent quite sometime trying to fix the programs, but we were still unable to connect into gunbound. managed to get the guy to help us, but he was unsure too~ lolx. anyway, we didn't study when we were in the atrium~ they sort of fooled around and started to become muai thai boxers. lolx~
anyway, met up with natalie for dinner before heading home. didn't manage to get samantha to teach me engineering science tomorrow=/ oh. tomorrow's O level results=) all the best~!! remember to SMS me, and tell me your results!!=)
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
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i'm still coughing like nobody's business! >.< urgh!! there would be "peaceful" periods where i won't even cough. then once my cough starts, it won't stop! the feeling of my throat is pretty weird - itchy? and when i take in air from my mouth, i would start coughing, sometimes. it's so darn irratating and it feels terrible. argh!
anyway, went to school to study today. though we didn't study much, but i copied notes for OS and got tutorial answers for MPP~ lolx=P i guess i'll just read through those notes to prepare for my papers=/ i got freaking 5 papers next week!! starting from monday all the way until friday! urgh!
i guess i may have to cancel my sortie tomorrow again. i'm still coughing and it doesn't seem to be stopping. though my throat is not sore anymore=/
anyway, went to school to study today. though we didn't study much, but i copied notes for OS and got tutorial answers for MPP~ lolx=P i guess i'll just read through those notes to prepare for my papers=/ i got freaking 5 papers next week!! starting from monday all the way until friday! urgh!
i guess i may have to cancel my sortie tomorrow again. i'm still coughing and it doesn't seem to be stopping. though my throat is not sore anymore=/
just came back from town~ lolx=P eugene's birthday and we celebrated with him~ it was supposed to be a dinner, and thats it. but the singing queens - josline and joyce wanted to sing. so we went to party world, orchard, and got ourselves a room. dinner was skipped ( as usual ) as we sung familar songs that we always sing=P there's always huge pressure singing with my friends as they are really good singers. but i guess i shocked everyone when i sung Zhou Chuan Xiong - Wo De Xin Tai Luan ~ loLx=P they said that it's really nice... hehee~ maybe i'll start learning to sing all of his songs, rather then Zhou Jie Lun =P
anyway, that's about all that happened today=)
anyway, that's about all that happened today=)
Tuesday, February 24, 2004
can you believe that i'm updating my blog at 7.15am~!? lolx=P just hang up the phone after chatting with xuexin. lolx=P we chatted for around 6 hours? and she insisted that she accompany me, cause i was helping my sister to do something. managed to get her to sleep first cause she sounded really tired. lolx=P
anyway, here's the blog that i promised you~~
XueXin -
got to know her when she was in secondary 1. she and her friends called me because 1 of her friends had a small little crush on me~ lolx=P i met her friend during the combined training camp and i was her leader. hehx~ anyway, skip~ they got my number from the training manual and they called me to disturb me~ lolx=P
after that, xuexin didn't stop calling me. she called me everyday just to bug me or chat with me. heex~ but, our friendship got close as we began to share problems. there were incidents that really freaked me out when she called me - attempt suicide. but, thank God she didn't succeed in suiciding, and she's great now~ lolx=P
she once invited me to her church too. heheex~ just found out that she was praying that i would respond to the altar call. actually, i did respond. but, i responded in my heart~ lolx=P i guess i made her quite disappointed huh? but it's okie, as i received the Lord in my life=D heex~
there was a period of "coldwar" between us, due to some misunderstandings. we didn't chat for a long period of time, until her computer broke down~ hee. i guessed that she realised that i'm a computer genius, and she called me for help=P as i helped her, we chatted and catched up about each other. told her that i received the Lord in my life, and we shared our testimonys. i really felt blessed as the misunderstandings were cleared and there wasn't any "blemishes" between us. it's quite amazing that we were able to "hit" off smoothly, usually God as our chatting topic. lolx=P sounds boring? but, it's freakish and scary sometimes...
well, the xuexin that i always thought is sweet, nice, funny, loves to argue and eat! hahax! but after chatting with her just now, i found out SO MANY things about her. manxzz!!! she ate her mucus, and she claimed that it's tasty!! salty, salty...that's not all! ear shit, nose shit, eye shit, you name it, she tasted it!! but, anyway, we had a great time laughing about it... ( psst, she loves making guys aroused lorh~ but, thank God, she don't do that to me~ =D )
we did a comparision of ourselves with the past, and we realised how much we changed in terms of character and attitude, but not looks! lolx=P ( maybe me, my darn acnes ) xuexin used to be a extremely playful, childish, stubborn little girl. but now, at least she listens, and tends to understands more. in the past, she used to be extremely hardworking, and she would always NAG at me, cause i wasn't even bothered by my studies~ lolx=P but, i tend to nag at her more, asking her to study~ instead of playing. lolx=P the trend has changed=P
hmm. what else can i say about her. she often says that my singing is nice~ =D hahaz~ hard to find someone who would praise me after i finally finish singing songs on the phone=P
i can't really think of much stuffs liao~ lolx=P i'm still finding out new stuffs about her, everyday. hEe~
anyway, here's the blog that i promised you~~
XueXin -
got to know her when she was in secondary 1. she and her friends called me because 1 of her friends had a small little crush on me~ lolx=P i met her friend during the combined training camp and i was her leader. hehx~ anyway, skip~ they got my number from the training manual and they called me to disturb me~ lolx=P
after that, xuexin didn't stop calling me. she called me everyday just to bug me or chat with me. heex~ but, our friendship got close as we began to share problems. there were incidents that really freaked me out when she called me - attempt suicide. but, thank God she didn't succeed in suiciding, and she's great now~ lolx=P
she once invited me to her church too. heheex~ just found out that she was praying that i would respond to the altar call. actually, i did respond. but, i responded in my heart~ lolx=P i guess i made her quite disappointed huh? but it's okie, as i received the Lord in my life=D heex~
there was a period of "coldwar" between us, due to some misunderstandings. we didn't chat for a long period of time, until her computer broke down~ hee. i guessed that she realised that i'm a computer genius, and she called me for help=P as i helped her, we chatted and catched up about each other. told her that i received the Lord in my life, and we shared our testimonys. i really felt blessed as the misunderstandings were cleared and there wasn't any "blemishes" between us. it's quite amazing that we were able to "hit" off smoothly, usually God as our chatting topic. lolx=P sounds boring? but, it's freakish and scary sometimes...
well, the xuexin that i always thought is sweet, nice, funny, loves to argue and eat! hahax! but after chatting with her just now, i found out SO MANY things about her. manxzz!!! she ate her mucus, and she claimed that it's tasty!! salty, salty...that's not all! ear shit, nose shit, eye shit, you name it, she tasted it!! but, anyway, we had a great time laughing about it... ( psst, she loves making guys aroused lorh~ but, thank God, she don't do that to me~ =D )
we did a comparision of ourselves with the past, and we realised how much we changed in terms of character and attitude, but not looks! lolx=P ( maybe me, my darn acnes ) xuexin used to be a extremely playful, childish, stubborn little girl. but now, at least she listens, and tends to understands more. in the past, she used to be extremely hardworking, and she would always NAG at me, cause i wasn't even bothered by my studies~ lolx=P but, i tend to nag at her more, asking her to study~ instead of playing. lolx=P the trend has changed=P
hmm. what else can i say about her. she often says that my singing is nice~ =D hahaz~ hard to find someone who would praise me after i finally finish singing songs on the phone=P
i can't really think of much stuffs liao~ lolx=P i'm still finding out new stuffs about her, everyday. hEe~
Monday, February 23, 2004
just received news from my friend that my request to bring cadet scouts on a outing has been disapproved. the reason - the leaders are concerned about the boys' safety. i wonder what kind of lame excuse is that. how dangerous can sugai buloh get? crocodile? snakes? sheesh. i wonder if they still remember their scout promises and laws.
Scout Promise
On my honour
I promise that I will do my best
To do my duty to God and to the
Republic of Singapore
To help other people and
To keep the Scout Law
Scout Law
A Scout is to be trusted
A Scout is loyal
A Scout makes friends, establishes and maintains harmonious relations
A Scout is disciplined and considerate
A Scout is courageous in all difficulties
i guess that NON of these mentioned above can be found in them!! all they freaking care is about the strength, and their achievements. anyway, not all the scouts in my unit are that bad, i was talking about the leaders in my unit. not all too, a specific few that just "walked" into our unit, poked their noses into affairs and took control. may God bless them in whatever they do manz...
and i used to be proud of FoxScouts?
Scout Promise
On my honour
I promise that I will do my best
To do my duty to God and to the
Republic of Singapore
To help other people and
To keep the Scout Law
Scout Law
A Scout is to be trusted
A Scout is loyal
A Scout makes friends, establishes and maintains harmonious relations
A Scout is disciplined and considerate
A Scout is courageous in all difficulties
i guess that NON of these mentioned above can be found in them!! all they freaking care is about the strength, and their achievements. anyway, not all the scouts in my unit are that bad, i was talking about the leaders in my unit. not all too, a specific few that just "walked" into our unit, poked their noses into affairs and took control. may God bless them in whatever they do manz...
and i used to be proud of FoxScouts?
hehx. rotted the entire day at home today, didn't even touch my textbooks to study~ lolx=P i guess i'll be joining my friends tomorrow in school to study. better start, or else i'm gonna do badly.
went out to play basketball, but there wasn't much people playing. sat around and shot a few shots, after a while, i felt a sharp pain above my right ankle. stopped playing and limbed home~ lolx=P
mom just told me that our relative's daughter just passed away, due to bees attack and suspected snakes too=/ sheesh. she's only 10 years old~!! children are so fragile... i guess God loves children so much that He takes special ones home, so that they can accompany Him for eternal...=)
went out to play basketball, but there wasn't much people playing. sat around and shot a few shots, after a while, i felt a sharp pain above my right ankle. stopped playing and limbed home~ lolx=P
mom just told me that our relative's daughter just passed away, due to bees attack and suspected snakes too=/ sheesh. she's only 10 years old~!! children are so fragile... i guess God loves children so much that He takes special ones home, so that they can accompany Him for eternal...=)
monday blues~~ lolx=P
im repeating this song, over and over again. it's so sweet...
Colin Raye - Love Me
I read a note my Grandma wrote... back in 1923....
Grandpa kept it in his coat... and he showed it once to me...
He said, Boy, you might not understand... but a long long time ago...
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none... but I loved your Grandma so....
We had this crazy plan to meet... and run away together...
Get married in the first town we came to... and live forever...
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet... instead...
I found this letter ...and this is what it said....
If you get there before I do... don't give up on me...
I'll meet you when my chores are through... I don't know how long I'll
be...
But I'm not gonna let you down... Darlin' wait and see....
And between now and then... till I see you again...
I'll be loving you... Love, Me
I read those words just hours before... my Grandma passed away...
In the doorway of a church... where me and Grandpa stopped to pray...
I know I'd never seen him cry... in all my fifteen years...
But as he said these words to her... his eyes filled up with tears...
If you get there before I do... don't give up on me...
I'll meet you when my chores are through... I don't know how long I'll
be...
But I'm not gonna let you down... Darlin' wait and see...
And between now and then... till I see you again...
I'll be loving you..... Love, Me
And between now and then ...till I see you again...
I'll be loving you... Love, Me
im repeating this song, over and over again. it's so sweet...
Colin Raye - Love Me
I read a note my Grandma wrote... back in 1923....
Grandpa kept it in his coat... and he showed it once to me...
He said, Boy, you might not understand... but a long long time ago...
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none... but I loved your Grandma so....
We had this crazy plan to meet... and run away together...
Get married in the first town we came to... and live forever...
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet... instead...
I found this letter ...and this is what it said....
If you get there before I do... don't give up on me...
I'll meet you when my chores are through... I don't know how long I'll
be...
But I'm not gonna let you down... Darlin' wait and see....
And between now and then... till I see you again...
I'll be loving you... Love, Me
I read those words just hours before... my Grandma passed away...
In the doorway of a church... where me and Grandpa stopped to pray...
I know I'd never seen him cry... in all my fifteen years...
But as he said these words to her... his eyes filled up with tears...
If you get there before I do... don't give up on me...
I'll meet you when my chores are through... I don't know how long I'll
be...
But I'm not gonna let you down... Darlin' wait and see...
And between now and then... till I see you again...
I'll be loving you..... Love, Me
And between now and then ...till I see you again...
I'll be loving you... Love, Me
Sunday, February 22, 2004
played basketball again this afternoon~! lolx=P had a great time playing, though i had the fedup face stuck with me throughout. i guess i wanted to concentrate and play seriously=P getting a hang of my shots and layups ( finally!! ) and i want to be a threat in attacking and defensive=P
cancelled my flight this morning as i wasn't feeling well. had a pretty bad throat, and i remembered my instructor telling me that the throat, ears are connected. so if there is blockage in my ears and i clear it, it might affect my eardrums, causing it to "explode" and i would become deaf=/ booked extra flights too, from tuesday to friday~ lolx=P it's the holidays, got to make use of it to catch up with my classmates=P
legs kinda ache now=/
cancelled my flight this morning as i wasn't feeling well. had a pretty bad throat, and i remembered my instructor telling me that the throat, ears are connected. so if there is blockage in my ears and i clear it, it might affect my eardrums, causing it to "explode" and i would become deaf=/ booked extra flights too, from tuesday to friday~ lolx=P it's the holidays, got to make use of it to catch up with my classmates=P
legs kinda ache now=/
Saturday, February 21, 2004
so tired. went to play basketball after my flying lessons~ the lecture ended early today - 3pm. our instructor is extremely friendly, i think he's the only friendly instructor around. fell asleep during the video clip too, but he didn't scold us. instead, he gave us a break to wash up! cool huh? other instructors would just bombard those that were sleeping with questions=/
was extremely lazy to run around during basketball too, felt pain in both my knees too. i got involved in a little accident - i wanted to jump pass 2 players, and accidently my elbow struck my opponent's face. lolx=P he wasn't pissed at me, but instead, he came over and told me my mistake=) hehex~
woohoo! i can grab the rim with both my hands~ and i touched the rim with my wrist =D
was extremely lazy to run around during basketball too, felt pain in both my knees too. i got involved in a little accident - i wanted to jump pass 2 players, and accidently my elbow struck my opponent's face. lolx=P he wasn't pissed at me, but instead, he came over and told me my mistake=) hehex~
woohoo! i can grab the rim with both my hands~ and i touched the rim with my wrist =D
woke up with a slight trobbling in my head. not feeling well now and i feel a weird sensation in my throat. i guess i'm falling sick soon=/
heading down to west camp soon, and i'm not scheduled to fly again! argh! the others are already at 3th sortie, and i'm still at first. i guess i might get kicked out real soon=/
heading down to west camp soon, and i'm not scheduled to fly again! argh! the others are already at 3th sortie, and i'm still at first. i guess i might get kicked out real soon=/
words could not describe what i went through during service...
school today was a TOTAL drag. during the first 2 hours of school, i felt like going home. lolx=P i had totally no mood to study and 1 minute seem to be an hour. felt extremely restless, and my tutor kept picking on me to answer questions=/
had our break for an hour and classes for 3 hours straight.
headed home to shower and prepare myself to go to church.
had bible studies an hour earlier, and the lesson was enriching=)
headed down to b4 for Pastor Ulf Ekman's service, and the hall was packed! i experienced something that i really do not know what is it myself. i felt that i needed Him badly and i was extremely focused not bothering about my surroundings. his sermon was great~ spoke about loads of stuffs about the end of time. there would be a group of youths, filled with energy, holiness and with simplity, they would spread the Gospel like wildfire, and the harvest would be plentiful~! er, correct me if i'm wrong=)
hahaz~ i didn't get into choir ministry=P but, charmaine got into! not feeling sad~ hehx~ gonna say something that's make waves all over the world - you know, i don't have any professional training. but, i have no regrets as i tried my best. YEAH~!! no regrets! =)
school today was a TOTAL drag. during the first 2 hours of school, i felt like going home. lolx=P i had totally no mood to study and 1 minute seem to be an hour. felt extremely restless, and my tutor kept picking on me to answer questions=/
had our break for an hour and classes for 3 hours straight.
headed home to shower and prepare myself to go to church.
had bible studies an hour earlier, and the lesson was enriching=)
headed down to b4 for Pastor Ulf Ekman's service, and the hall was packed! i experienced something that i really do not know what is it myself. i felt that i needed Him badly and i was extremely focused not bothering about my surroundings. his sermon was great~ spoke about loads of stuffs about the end of time. there would be a group of youths, filled with energy, holiness and with simplity, they would spread the Gospel like wildfire, and the harvest would be plentiful~! er, correct me if i'm wrong=)
hahaz~ i didn't get into choir ministry=P but, charmaine got into! not feeling sad~ hehx~ gonna say something that's make waves all over the world - you know, i don't have any professional training. but, i have no regrets as i tried my best. YEAH~!! no regrets! =)
Friday, February 20, 2004
well, it was a beautiful day today, and i enjoyed myself.
bumped into samantha at the bus stop, was quite shocked to see her again~ walked to classes and my favourite teacher, Mr. Desmond Wee was already in class. he knew that i'm taking part in the rock and roll thingy with him, and he comfirmed with me my attendance afterwards. asked him about my IAC project too, and he gave me the green light to approach my cadet scouts to bring them out to a outing. he suggested that we bring the boys to sugai buloh, a place where even we never been before, so that we would learn something new too=) sounds really cool and fun.
went for KAP for lunch with darren, then i met samantha. she brought me to veneque, a place where there's nice icecream and stuffs? a little like starbucks? and we ate ice cream there. very nice atmosphere and we chatted about whatever that came into our mind. sent her home afterwards, then went back to school for WAA lessons.
during the lesson, there was a student who kept going against everyone. i felt frustrated that he was doing that, and i waited for his turn to give a speech. i didn't really attack much, but i just asked him a simple question. but i got singled out by my tutor, as that wasn't approprate.
met herman and Mr. D for the dance thingy. yonglin joined us too~ and we were taught the basic steps of the dance. it's a 6 count step and i got the hang of it pretty fast. danced with a partner, got into a little trouble cause my timing was a little too slow~ need more practise=P
took a cab down to church cause i was getting a little late. it was overflowing, and i had to go to the overflow room at level 4. didn't get to meet samantha because she's at b4~ she bought bread for me, and that was my dinner=/
service today was rather impacting for me. i felt rather guilty when pastor Ulf talked about caring for others, and stuffs like that. it was a sermon that preaches us to think like Jesus, who cared, blessed and touched so many people.
met samantha after service, and i happily gobbled down the bread that she bought for me. sent her home afterwards and took a bus home.
reached home, as usual, i felt the "coldness" in the air. showered, came out and my sister lectured me for coming home late. it's not like i want to be home late but i was in church. i have been coming back late for the past 3 nights, make it 1 more on friday night. sigh, at that moment of time, i really felt extremely discouraged. i wanted to invite you guys for service tomorrow, so that you all would know what i go through in church, just to let you guys know. but, after what happened, i just lost the guts to even talk about church. i know that everyone's worried and stuffs like that, but why can't you all think of it this way - at least i DO NOT go clubbing or DRINKING with my friends.
i tried to reach home earlier, sometimes i take cab directly from church. but i still get scolded. there would be days when i join charmaine and her sister for supper. thats why sometimes i return home extremely late.
but, do you guys know? no? cause i'm quiet at home. that doesn't mean that i don't like you guys or i just don't wanna chat with you all. it's simply i got really nothing to chat about with you all! chat about school? it would end like this - you better study hard in school and don't fall asleep in class. blahblahblah. it becomes a lecturing lesson and i would listen to stuffs that i used to hear everyday. yah, i know that it's for my good, so i keep quiet and listen. the ideal time to chat with the family is during dinner time, that i agree. for these few days, i was in church, and i missed dinner with the family. what can i do? thousands of people cramp into CHC just to listen to him preach, and how can i miss out on this chance? he doesn't come everyday, every year, during a specific time only. i guess i'm a person who never does things half heartedly. i'm not a half hearted Christian who goes to church, when i feel like it, or when i'm free.
i'll give a little detail about my normal service. we queue up in church at around 7 plus? the actual service starts at 8pm and ends at 10pm. we would have a small fellowship that may last for 15 minutes? before we head for the buses. the buses would leave at 10.45, and reach the LRT station at around 11.15pm. unless i drive, i can reach home by 10.45. but i don't drive and the only way home, is the public transport.
i'm not trying to rebel here or whatsoever. just that i feel that i should let you know, and this is the ONLY medium that i can get my message across. i can't imagine chatting with you face to face about sensitive topics like these, cause my tone would prolly just get harsh, and we would start shouting at each other faces. i guess by the time you finish reading this, you would be extremely frustrated at me cause of my selfish thoughts? and point of views. hope that you would bear with me, and understand. being a Christian, there's commitment and we serve Him. that's something that we all believe in, and it would be hard if i try to answer all your whys. but, if you do have whys in your mind, ask me the whys, and i'll answer them.
bumped into samantha at the bus stop, was quite shocked to see her again~ walked to classes and my favourite teacher, Mr. Desmond Wee was already in class. he knew that i'm taking part in the rock and roll thingy with him, and he comfirmed with me my attendance afterwards. asked him about my IAC project too, and he gave me the green light to approach my cadet scouts to bring them out to a outing. he suggested that we bring the boys to sugai buloh, a place where even we never been before, so that we would learn something new too=) sounds really cool and fun.
went for KAP for lunch with darren, then i met samantha. she brought me to veneque, a place where there's nice icecream and stuffs? a little like starbucks? and we ate ice cream there. very nice atmosphere and we chatted about whatever that came into our mind. sent her home afterwards, then went back to school for WAA lessons.
during the lesson, there was a student who kept going against everyone. i felt frustrated that he was doing that, and i waited for his turn to give a speech. i didn't really attack much, but i just asked him a simple question. but i got singled out by my tutor, as that wasn't approprate.
met herman and Mr. D for the dance thingy. yonglin joined us too~ and we were taught the basic steps of the dance. it's a 6 count step and i got the hang of it pretty fast. danced with a partner, got into a little trouble cause my timing was a little too slow~ need more practise=P
took a cab down to church cause i was getting a little late. it was overflowing, and i had to go to the overflow room at level 4. didn't get to meet samantha because she's at b4~ she bought bread for me, and that was my dinner=/
service today was rather impacting for me. i felt rather guilty when pastor Ulf talked about caring for others, and stuffs like that. it was a sermon that preaches us to think like Jesus, who cared, blessed and touched so many people.
met samantha after service, and i happily gobbled down the bread that she bought for me. sent her home afterwards and took a bus home.
reached home, as usual, i felt the "coldness" in the air. showered, came out and my sister lectured me for coming home late. it's not like i want to be home late but i was in church. i have been coming back late for the past 3 nights, make it 1 more on friday night. sigh, at that moment of time, i really felt extremely discouraged. i wanted to invite you guys for service tomorrow, so that you all would know what i go through in church, just to let you guys know. but, after what happened, i just lost the guts to even talk about church. i know that everyone's worried and stuffs like that, but why can't you all think of it this way - at least i DO NOT go clubbing or DRINKING with my friends.
i tried to reach home earlier, sometimes i take cab directly from church. but i still get scolded. there would be days when i join charmaine and her sister for supper. thats why sometimes i return home extremely late.
but, do you guys know? no? cause i'm quiet at home. that doesn't mean that i don't like you guys or i just don't wanna chat with you all. it's simply i got really nothing to chat about with you all! chat about school? it would end like this - you better study hard in school and don't fall asleep in class. blahblahblah. it becomes a lecturing lesson and i would listen to stuffs that i used to hear everyday. yah, i know that it's for my good, so i keep quiet and listen. the ideal time to chat with the family is during dinner time, that i agree. for these few days, i was in church, and i missed dinner with the family. what can i do? thousands of people cramp into CHC just to listen to him preach, and how can i miss out on this chance? he doesn't come everyday, every year, during a specific time only. i guess i'm a person who never does things half heartedly. i'm not a half hearted Christian who goes to church, when i feel like it, or when i'm free.
i'll give a little detail about my normal service. we queue up in church at around 7 plus? the actual service starts at 8pm and ends at 10pm. we would have a small fellowship that may last for 15 minutes? before we head for the buses. the buses would leave at 10.45, and reach the LRT station at around 11.15pm. unless i drive, i can reach home by 10.45. but i don't drive and the only way home, is the public transport.
i'm not trying to rebel here or whatsoever. just that i feel that i should let you know, and this is the ONLY medium that i can get my message across. i can't imagine chatting with you face to face about sensitive topics like these, cause my tone would prolly just get harsh, and we would start shouting at each other faces. i guess by the time you finish reading this, you would be extremely frustrated at me cause of my selfish thoughts? and point of views. hope that you would bear with me, and understand. being a Christian, there's commitment and we serve Him. that's something that we all believe in, and it would be hard if i try to answer all your whys. but, if you do have whys in your mind, ask me the whys, and i'll answer them.
Thursday, February 19, 2004
oh well, i guess there's something wrong with my tagboard - it can't seem to show my entire MSN address. anyway, Fiona? my address is shit_the_lame_flooders@hotmail.com =)
what a great day in school~!! i really had fun laughing around, making fun of people~ lolx=P got back my ES2 results=/ wasn't up to my expections~ ( 40 marks and above ) i got 39 over 50. urgh!! made a few careless mistakes that i should not make~
the 3 hours break was spent in the library, doing my WAA tutorial. it really took us 2 hours plus cause it's extremely difficult, and troublesome. we created quite a din in the library too, but we were not thrown out~ lolx=P
met manyee outside the library, before meeting jiayi in the co-op. lolx=P a day when i meet 2 beauties...WOW! =X
4 hours of MPP was sheer torture. i kept tickling yanren to keep myself awake and occupied. we didn't do any hands-on and the tutor went on and on, till i almost fell asleep while standing! we had to watch the video before the quiz, and all the guys in my class fell asleep~ including me!! hahaz!! was SO tempted to sleep cause sijie was snoring!! >.< during the quiz, my whole class copied from one another~ united? we were like discussing with one another, but the tutor didn't stop us~ lolx=P
headed straight for church to meet weichao~ had KFC for dinner. then met up with dawn. she asked me a very interesting question - did you grow taller? hahaz! i really don't know, but she said that i look skinner too. i guess i lost weight, cause i haven been eating much recently=/ when in the queue, saw manyee again~ and we chatted, asked each other why do we always meet each other. lolx=P i told her that it's fate, and even at the furthest of places, we would meet each other - national stadium... exchanged numbers, after we met again in b4. messaged each other before the service started=)
great message today~ it hit me like some tidal wave, set me thinking and did some self reflection. it's about being a TRUE convert, and one who does things for God. people who would give up everything, just to be with Him. when pastor Ulf Ekman preached about this message, i kept asking myself if i'm a TRUE convert. sometimes, i really wonder why i am going to church, cellgroups and why i am doing somestuffs that i'm doing. i consider them "distractions" from the Devil, but they seem to hit a chord in my mind~ lolx=P our daily actions, speech shows how much we are willing to serve the Lord. that set me thinking again. but, i guess this answer is only obtainable through close friends and family, cause they are the ones that notice the changes in me. to receive a revelation is a WONDERFUL thing! whatever the Lord calls me to do, i'll. i MUST think this way! hahaz=) pastor Ulf Ekman also shared with us about China but i thought of it in a different way. he wants us to reach out to chinese in China, but i felt that it's the same as reaching out to my friends and family members~ =) i don't have the abilty to join the mission team to China, but i still can do my part in Singapore! =D hehee~ i can't wait for The Passion Of Christ. watched the trailers, it's a WONDERFUL show, and i almost teared in that 3 minutes?
hehz~ met manyee at clementi afterwards~ i don't know what made me send her home. lolx. it's been quite sometime since i last sent a girl home too. she stays quite near my old block, and her number is a invert of my old block - 705~ lolx~ found out that she's a nice, sweet and polite girl~ lolx~ not quite the same as i heard from my classmate, who happens to dislike her a lot. lolx=P i guess that it's plainly bias against her. maybe i'll send her home again tomorrow, if we meet each other again~ lolx=P
what a great day in school~!! i really had fun laughing around, making fun of people~ lolx=P got back my ES2 results=/ wasn't up to my expections~ ( 40 marks and above ) i got 39 over 50. urgh!! made a few careless mistakes that i should not make~
the 3 hours break was spent in the library, doing my WAA tutorial. it really took us 2 hours plus cause it's extremely difficult, and troublesome. we created quite a din in the library too, but we were not thrown out~ lolx=P
met manyee outside the library, before meeting jiayi in the co-op. lolx=P a day when i meet 2 beauties...WOW! =X
4 hours of MPP was sheer torture. i kept tickling yanren to keep myself awake and occupied. we didn't do any hands-on and the tutor went on and on, till i almost fell asleep while standing! we had to watch the video before the quiz, and all the guys in my class fell asleep~ including me!! hahaz!! was SO tempted to sleep cause sijie was snoring!! >.< during the quiz, my whole class copied from one another~ united? we were like discussing with one another, but the tutor didn't stop us~ lolx=P
headed straight for church to meet weichao~ had KFC for dinner. then met up with dawn. she asked me a very interesting question - did you grow taller? hahaz! i really don't know, but she said that i look skinner too. i guess i lost weight, cause i haven been eating much recently=/ when in the queue, saw manyee again~ and we chatted, asked each other why do we always meet each other. lolx=P i told her that it's fate, and even at the furthest of places, we would meet each other - national stadium... exchanged numbers, after we met again in b4. messaged each other before the service started=)
great message today~ it hit me like some tidal wave, set me thinking and did some self reflection. it's about being a TRUE convert, and one who does things for God. people who would give up everything, just to be with Him. when pastor Ulf Ekman preached about this message, i kept asking myself if i'm a TRUE convert. sometimes, i really wonder why i am going to church, cellgroups and why i am doing somestuffs that i'm doing. i consider them "distractions" from the Devil, but they seem to hit a chord in my mind~ lolx=P our daily actions, speech shows how much we are willing to serve the Lord. that set me thinking again. but, i guess this answer is only obtainable through close friends and family, cause they are the ones that notice the changes in me. to receive a revelation is a WONDERFUL thing! whatever the Lord calls me to do, i'll. i MUST think this way! hahaz=) pastor Ulf Ekman also shared with us about China but i thought of it in a different way. he wants us to reach out to chinese in China, but i felt that it's the same as reaching out to my friends and family members~ =) i don't have the abilty to join the mission team to China, but i still can do my part in Singapore! =D hehee~ i can't wait for The Passion Of Christ. watched the trailers, it's a WONDERFUL show, and i almost teared in that 3 minutes?
hehz~ met manyee at clementi afterwards~ i don't know what made me send her home. lolx. it's been quite sometime since i last sent a girl home too. she stays quite near my old block, and her number is a invert of my old block - 705~ lolx~ found out that she's a nice, sweet and polite girl~ lolx~ not quite the same as i heard from my classmate, who happens to dislike her a lot. lolx=P i guess that it's plainly bias against her. maybe i'll send her home again tomorrow, if we meet each other again~ lolx=P
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
just came back from church! it was really a great conference with Rev Dr. Ulf Ekman. he shared with us about the glory of God,how would we be able to see God face to face and what should we be, if we want to bask in the glory of God=P
sounds kinda "wow" huh? hehz~ we may face much more attacks when we want to seek God, to be more like him, but we are led by the Holy Spirit, and nothing can stop us=D
lolx~ a weird beginning for my entry today, bear with me! =P
as usual, i went to school today, on time, and sleepy~ hahazz! my left eye is still giving me a little problem this morning - i had double eyelids on my left eye for 2 days=/ first lesson was BIS, and i practically rotted during class. the tutor didn't prepare anything to teach i guess, he just came in, wrote down some address on the whiteboard, and told us to access the site. accessed the site, and 79 MCQ questions appeared in our screens. i didn't attempt any because it's just for reference, besides, he's not telling us the answers anyway=/
had 1 hour break afterwards~ saw jiayi when i was walking towards the canteen. hehex~ my friend kept urging me to say hi to her~ as i walked towards her, she saw me and i said hello to her~~ lolx~ SHE SMILED AT ME!! and i think she said hi too~ hAha! so happy~~ first time i say hi to her, face to face.
school afterwards were a little draggy though~
headed home straight to get a quick shower before heading for church.
reached church at around 6.30. at first, i thought i would be rather early, but, words fail me. the church was already overflowing, and when proceeded to level 3 to queue up, i was extremely shocked~ the queue was extremely long!! but, we managed to get seats in the auditorium~ hehee~
great seminar~ can't wait for tomorrow~
something terrible happened~ eelynn called and asked me a very "idiotic" question. i was extremely frustrated when she told me about the incident. urgh! i'm still a little irratated, but that's over, i shall put it behind me~ =D
i need man yee's number!!! argh!!!
sounds kinda "wow" huh? hehz~ we may face much more attacks when we want to seek God, to be more like him, but we are led by the Holy Spirit, and nothing can stop us=D
lolx~ a weird beginning for my entry today, bear with me! =P
as usual, i went to school today, on time, and sleepy~ hahazz! my left eye is still giving me a little problem this morning - i had double eyelids on my left eye for 2 days=/ first lesson was BIS, and i practically rotted during class. the tutor didn't prepare anything to teach i guess, he just came in, wrote down some address on the whiteboard, and told us to access the site. accessed the site, and 79 MCQ questions appeared in our screens. i didn't attempt any because it's just for reference, besides, he's not telling us the answers anyway=/
had 1 hour break afterwards~ saw jiayi when i was walking towards the canteen. hehex~ my friend kept urging me to say hi to her~ as i walked towards her, she saw me and i said hello to her~~ lolx~ SHE SMILED AT ME!! and i think she said hi too~ hAha! so happy~~ first time i say hi to her, face to face.
school afterwards were a little draggy though~
headed home straight to get a quick shower before heading for church.
reached church at around 6.30. at first, i thought i would be rather early, but, words fail me. the church was already overflowing, and when proceeded to level 3 to queue up, i was extremely shocked~ the queue was extremely long!! but, we managed to get seats in the auditorium~ hehee~
great seminar~ can't wait for tomorrow~
something terrible happened~ eelynn called and asked me a very "idiotic" question. i was extremely frustrated when she told me about the incident. urgh! i'm still a little irratated, but that's over, i shall put it behind me~ =D
i need man yee's number!!! argh!!!
Monday, February 16, 2004
went to meet herman and yonglin to study at bukit panjang mcdonalds. studied engineering science and MPP there. didn't study much of engineering science cause there wasn't anyone who could teach me. highlighted the entire MPP textbook while singing~ lolx~ i didn't look like studying, more like playing?
downloading some michael jackson songs~ hehez=P
downloading some michael jackson songs~ hehez=P
woohoo~ back from school, and it's still so early~ lolx=P didn't go to the gym today cause zongxian wanted to watch some basketball tournament at clementi=/ i guess that his crushie is playing today~ lolx=P
school stinks! during my BIS lesson, our tutor gave us 80 MCQ questions to do. sounds easy? narh. he wants us to note down the pages that we found the answer. it was really tough cause the textbook is extremely thick, and there are SO MANY lines!! super small fonts too=/ he kept threatening us too. said that if we don't put in effort, he won't tell us the answers. =/ really had no mood doing those questions, copied from classmates that were sitting beside me=P
afterwards, classes were not that bad=P
i feel like playing basketball, but i'm not sure if there would be anyone playing today=/
school stinks! during my BIS lesson, our tutor gave us 80 MCQ questions to do. sounds easy? narh. he wants us to note down the pages that we found the answer. it was really tough cause the textbook is extremely thick, and there are SO MANY lines!! super small fonts too=/ he kept threatening us too. said that if we don't put in effort, he won't tell us the answers. =/ really had no mood doing those questions, copied from classmates that were sitting beside me=P
afterwards, classes were not that bad=P
i feel like playing basketball, but i'm not sure if there would be anyone playing today=/
Sunday, February 15, 2004
i guess on every sunday, i would be rotting at home doing nothing at all.
at around 4, i changed and had the thoughts of playing basketball. i got into the lift when binghui called me, and asked where was i. met up with him, and realised that he's selling ice creams. so, i called charmaine and asked her if she wanted ice cream~ lolx. pulled the cart over to charmaine's place, and her parents bought quite a number of them.
followed him around charmaine's estate afterwards selling ice creams to people. by the time we completed the estate, it was around 8.30pm. told him that i'm going home first and left him.
went to the pasar malam to get some food. didn't buy much stuffs cause i got limited cash with me~ lolx=P i'm still feeling a little hungry, but there's nothing to eat at home=/
at around 4, i changed and had the thoughts of playing basketball. i got into the lift when binghui called me, and asked where was i. met up with him, and realised that he's selling ice creams. so, i called charmaine and asked her if she wanted ice cream~ lolx. pulled the cart over to charmaine's place, and her parents bought quite a number of them.
followed him around charmaine's estate afterwards selling ice creams to people. by the time we completed the estate, it was around 8.30pm. told him that i'm going home first and left him.
went to the pasar malam to get some food. didn't buy much stuffs cause i got limited cash with me~ lolx=P i'm still feeling a little hungry, but there's nothing to eat at home=/
Saturday, February 14, 2004
new skin! heh. was extremely bored at home, and i decided to change the skin of my blog.
i didn't meet jiayi afterall. she's with her friends, but i won't condemn her because she didn't promise me that she would meet me. there are still many chances after valentine's day=) did feel disappointed, but it's alrite. i won't want to make her feel uncomfortable if we were to meet up because we don't really know each other, yet.
i'll leave things into God's hands, not rush things and let nature take its course. someday, somehow, i'll get married with a lady who i'm destined to be with, until the day i breath my last.
btw, you guys have to scroll all the way down at the sidebar for the tagboard. sorry for the inconvenience caused=P
i didn't meet jiayi afterall. she's with her friends, but i won't condemn her because she didn't promise me that she would meet me. there are still many chances after valentine's day=) did feel disappointed, but it's alrite. i won't want to make her feel uncomfortable if we were to meet up because we don't really know each other, yet.
i'll leave things into God's hands, not rush things and let nature take its course. someday, somehow, i'll get married with a lady who i'm destined to be with, until the day i breath my last.
btw, you guys have to scroll all the way down at the sidebar for the tagboard. sorry for the inconvenience caused=P
not all stories end with a magical ending, i guess. last night, before jiayi logged off, she told me that she will comfirm me with again, today. felt a little disappointed, but she said that she would be going out with her friends first, then if possible, meet me afterwards.
woke up extremely early today and started to idle around.
ironed my shirt, showered and headed for west camp. the journey today was kinda fast. in the train, i tried to explain to my mom how to run the program to watch DVDs on the computer. i don't know if it's my explaination stinks or she's looking at the wrong icons, but she didn't manage to find the program=/ she hung up afterwards sounding a little cross=/
bumped into some of my coursemates. didn't really chat with them cause i don't know them. lingered around the campus before entering the mass briefing room. the instructor today was the one who flew with me on thursday. lolx=P greeted him and slumped into my chair.
the lesson today was about the effects of controls. hmm, reading is easy, but when up in the air, it's another different story. got to get really used to the settings of the cockpit.
school ended early, and i messaged jiayi about meeting up later.
reached home, tired from the long bus journey and waited for her reply. it didn't come until 2 hours later=/ but, nothing's concrete, yet.
woke up extremely early today and started to idle around.
ironed my shirt, showered and headed for west camp. the journey today was kinda fast. in the train, i tried to explain to my mom how to run the program to watch DVDs on the computer. i don't know if it's my explaination stinks or she's looking at the wrong icons, but she didn't manage to find the program=/ she hung up afterwards sounding a little cross=/
bumped into some of my coursemates. didn't really chat with them cause i don't know them. lingered around the campus before entering the mass briefing room. the instructor today was the one who flew with me on thursday. lolx=P greeted him and slumped into my chair.
the lesson today was about the effects of controls. hmm, reading is easy, but when up in the air, it's another different story. got to get really used to the settings of the cockpit.
school ended early, and i messaged jiayi about meeting up later.
reached home, tired from the long bus journey and waited for her reply. it didn't come until 2 hours later=/ but, nothing's concrete, yet.
hmm. just came back from church, and i felt really drained over there. had a slight trobbling headache, but i feel a little better now.
school today was really boring. our PSP teacher didn't come to class today, and we played games during the class=P though there was a teacher who came in to take the lesson, we didn't really pay much attention and continued playing games=P operating systems was next and i fell asleep during the class. i think i pissed my lecturer off cause he caught me sleeping in his class for quite a few times.
met soonyong in school, got a lift home. but he had to go to his dad's car factory first.
rushed home, bathed and left within minutes. i was getting a little late for church as i had bible studies at 6.30pm. was in the bus when i started to message jiayi. tried to ask her if she wants to meet up tomorrow. somehow, we kept changing topics and when i asked, she told me that she got presentation in the morning=/
during service, my phone rang, at first i thought it was jiayi who's calling me. didn't answer the phone, and i messaged jiayi afterwards that i would call her back later. she replied and said that she didn't call. felt kinda weird afterwards~ like the sense of expectancy that got destroyed=/ emptiness?
missed the church bus back too, took a cab home and i was thinking if i should message her again and ask. witnessed a car accident along the way too, it was a v minor one. then, the cab driver started chatting with me~ lolx. that sort of distracted me a little. afterwards, the cab drive said, God bless you! hahaz! i was extremely shocked~ he asked if i am from City Harvest Church and told me that CHC is kinda famous~ lolx=P
came back home, got nagged by my mom again. told me to concentrate more on my flying. i sort of argued back because she wanted me to stop going for church stuffs. i told her that i won't stop going and i would rather go church then flying lessons. i told her that i can cope, so far, but she didn't seem to trust me. just wanting me to concentrate on my flying. somehow, i feel that she wants me to concentrate because if i were to get my wings, i can become a pilot with the SAF. yes, that's my dream and everything. but, now she makes it sound like i MUST get my wings because i'm in the flying club. somehow, yes, pushing someone it healthy and stuffs like that. but, ain't it supposed to come in the form of encouragment? rather then - joel, you better concentrate on your flying, then going to church ok? urgh!!!
anyway, i asked jiayi just now about tomorrow. hehx. i was in a state of shock, when she said anything~ lolx. i told her that i end 4.30 tomorrow at westcamp, and i jokingly asked her to look for me. she said that it's very far away, so i said it's okie~ then i suggested to go for dinner together. then, she said anything~ hahaz~ at first, i thought she was joking, because i didn't sound serious at all. so, to play safe, i asked her if she was serious, she said that dinner is fine with her~ lolx=P
i don't know where to go for dinner and what to do afterwards. lolx=P thought of a few places - east coast, town or somewhere near her place. but, the events after dinner would be harder~ lolx. i thought of stargazing after walking around, but where to eat~!? hahaz!
school today was really boring. our PSP teacher didn't come to class today, and we played games during the class=P though there was a teacher who came in to take the lesson, we didn't really pay much attention and continued playing games=P operating systems was next and i fell asleep during the class. i think i pissed my lecturer off cause he caught me sleeping in his class for quite a few times.
met soonyong in school, got a lift home. but he had to go to his dad's car factory first.
rushed home, bathed and left within minutes. i was getting a little late for church as i had bible studies at 6.30pm. was in the bus when i started to message jiayi. tried to ask her if she wants to meet up tomorrow. somehow, we kept changing topics and when i asked, she told me that she got presentation in the morning=/
during service, my phone rang, at first i thought it was jiayi who's calling me. didn't answer the phone, and i messaged jiayi afterwards that i would call her back later. she replied and said that she didn't call. felt kinda weird afterwards~ like the sense of expectancy that got destroyed=/ emptiness?
missed the church bus back too, took a cab home and i was thinking if i should message her again and ask. witnessed a car accident along the way too, it was a v minor one. then, the cab driver started chatting with me~ lolx. that sort of distracted me a little. afterwards, the cab drive said, God bless you! hahaz! i was extremely shocked~ he asked if i am from City Harvest Church and told me that CHC is kinda famous~ lolx=P
came back home, got nagged by my mom again. told me to concentrate more on my flying. i sort of argued back because she wanted me to stop going for church stuffs. i told her that i won't stop going and i would rather go church then flying lessons. i told her that i can cope, so far, but she didn't seem to trust me. just wanting me to concentrate on my flying. somehow, i feel that she wants me to concentrate because if i were to get my wings, i can become a pilot with the SAF. yes, that's my dream and everything. but, now she makes it sound like i MUST get my wings because i'm in the flying club. somehow, yes, pushing someone it healthy and stuffs like that. but, ain't it supposed to come in the form of encouragment? rather then - joel, you better concentrate on your flying, then going to church ok? urgh!!!
anyway, i asked jiayi just now about tomorrow. hehx. i was in a state of shock, when she said anything~ lolx. i told her that i end 4.30 tomorrow at westcamp, and i jokingly asked her to look for me. she said that it's very far away, so i said it's okie~ then i suggested to go for dinner together. then, she said anything~ hahaz~ at first, i thought she was joking, because i didn't sound serious at all. so, to play safe, i asked her if she was serious, she said that dinner is fine with her~ lolx=P
i don't know where to go for dinner and what to do afterwards. lolx=P thought of a few places - east coast, town or somewhere near her place. but, the events after dinner would be harder~ lolx. i thought of stargazing after walking around, but where to eat~!? hahaz!
Thursday, February 12, 2004
sigh. just came back from school, after the basketball competition. we won 1 match, but lost the other 2~
1st match - played against my friend's friend. i guarded their centre, who was around half head taller then me, had not much problem guarding him. scored some pretty good baskets against them, but the game was very tight. the last point was decided by freethrows by my friend, when he was fouled.
2nd match - played against my friend and i guarded him. he's around the same height as me, but 2 times larger. i got into foul trouble, and i guarded other players. blocked most of his shots and scored baskets too, but we lost by 3 points~ too much foul trouble in the beginning. i almost got fouled out, but thank God the referee is my team mate's friend, he helped us=)
3th match - it started almost immediately after my 2nd match. i was still extremely tired and bloated when i heard that it's our turn to play again. this is my worst match. i didn't score any baskets, and i didn't touch much of the ball. i was guarded so violently that i got pulled, pushed and dragged?
aye, but overall, i was rather pleased with the performance of the entire team. everyone contributed and played their best. need not have to shout at my own team mates to spur them on. i was pleased with my own performance, but it could have been better, if i was much more aggressive.
at least, there's something to look forward to now - EI games. the team would be the same, minus away 1 member because he's not from our course. i guess i'll be extremely aggressive when playing for that competition, and i hope that the gym training every monday would really help.
i think i rolled my ankle, there's a sharp pain when i'm walking.
1st match - played against my friend's friend. i guarded their centre, who was around half head taller then me, had not much problem guarding him. scored some pretty good baskets against them, but the game was very tight. the last point was decided by freethrows by my friend, when he was fouled.
2nd match - played against my friend and i guarded him. he's around the same height as me, but 2 times larger. i got into foul trouble, and i guarded other players. blocked most of his shots and scored baskets too, but we lost by 3 points~ too much foul trouble in the beginning. i almost got fouled out, but thank God the referee is my team mate's friend, he helped us=)
3th match - it started almost immediately after my 2nd match. i was still extremely tired and bloated when i heard that it's our turn to play again. this is my worst match. i didn't score any baskets, and i didn't touch much of the ball. i was guarded so violently that i got pulled, pushed and dragged?
aye, but overall, i was rather pleased with the performance of the entire team. everyone contributed and played their best. need not have to shout at my own team mates to spur them on. i was pleased with my own performance, but it could have been better, if i was much more aggressive.
at least, there's something to look forward to now - EI games. the team would be the same, minus away 1 member because he's not from our course. i guess i'll be extremely aggressive when playing for that competition, and i hope that the gym training every monday would really help.
i think i rolled my ankle, there's a sharp pain when i'm walking.
hahaz!! just came back from west camp~~ i reached camp pretty early, roamed around the camp before looking for my instructor. he said that i was late. O_o but, he was later then me!! hahaz! i checked and asked for him, and they all said that he's not present=P
was given a little briefing in his office about area Alpha and Bravo. the boundaries and landmarks that we are supposed to keep in mind. on land, it seems extremely easy to spot them~ lolx=P but up in the air, it's another story.
had aircraft checks too~ there are so many things to remember! hahaz! and, we have to remember exactly what the instructors say, so it's like repeating what he said last week~ lolx=P should have brought along a voice recorder~ =P
the cockpit is pretty small, my head was touching the roof of the plane and that's the lowest the seat could go. i wonder how my other classmates, who's taller den me, cramp in the seat. lolx=P engine started and propeller rotated~ hahaz~ felt the excitment rush and i tried to calm down, and watch what my instructor was doing.
take off!!
we flew at about 4000 feet? and my instructor told me to spot the boundaries that he told me earlier. it was really difficult trying to spot them as it's trees and more trees all over! hahax! and had to guess and rely on my instint - more like anyhow pointing=X i reached bukit panjang estate within 1 minute after take off~ Singapore's really freaking small, now. the estate really looks extremely small compaired to the other estates. flew towards the causeway before making a steep turn towards senoko powerstation. over there, we flew even higher, 5000 feet? didn't feel airsick at all, cause i was busy admiring the view~ hahaz!!
i guess i was in the air for 30 minutes? but it felt like 5 minutes~ after turning around, we landed and taxi'ed into the shelter.
had my debrief. the comments were okay~ though i had can be improved for preparation, the others were fine~ lolx=P
the horizon is extremely beautiful. i was awestruck when i saw it.
was given a little briefing in his office about area Alpha and Bravo. the boundaries and landmarks that we are supposed to keep in mind. on land, it seems extremely easy to spot them~ lolx=P but up in the air, it's another story.
had aircraft checks too~ there are so many things to remember! hahaz! and, we have to remember exactly what the instructors say, so it's like repeating what he said last week~ lolx=P should have brought along a voice recorder~ =P
the cockpit is pretty small, my head was touching the roof of the plane and that's the lowest the seat could go. i wonder how my other classmates, who's taller den me, cramp in the seat. lolx=P engine started and propeller rotated~ hahaz~ felt the excitment rush and i tried to calm down, and watch what my instructor was doing.
take off!!
we flew at about 4000 feet? and my instructor told me to spot the boundaries that he told me earlier. it was really difficult trying to spot them as it's trees and more trees all over! hahax! and had to guess and rely on my instint - more like anyhow pointing=X i reached bukit panjang estate within 1 minute after take off~ Singapore's really freaking small, now. the estate really looks extremely small compaired to the other estates. flew towards the causeway before making a steep turn towards senoko powerstation. over there, we flew even higher, 5000 feet? didn't feel airsick at all, cause i was busy admiring the view~ hahaz!!
i guess i was in the air for 30 minutes? but it felt like 5 minutes~ after turning around, we landed and taxi'ed into the shelter.
had my debrief. the comments were okay~ though i had can be improved for preparation, the others were fine~ lolx=P
the horizon is extremely beautiful. i was awestruck when i saw it.
Wednesday, February 11, 2004
woohoo~ what a tiring day~ lolx=P but it's all worth it?
school started at 8am today, woke up pretty early for school. though i reached school late, my tutor didn't mark me late. lolx=P saw jiayi at the bus stop too~
had engineering science test~ lolx. was given a HUGE hint before the paper started - another class's test paper. =P the questions were almost the same, and i felt that i was given a lifeline! hahaz~
classes afterwards were normal, boring and slow~ lolx=P school ended pretty early and i waited for herman. we went for the basketball briefing together, which was quite a waste of time. lolx=P draw lots too, and i drew against a team of china students. they are pretty tall, but i heard that they are not that strong~ heh~~
met charmaine afterwards to get a lift to church for choir audition. lolx=P i was rather panicky before the audition started. but, when we were practising, i felt my confidence come back to me, and i started to sing a little louder, and better? =P during the practise before the actual thing, i really felt motivated, calm and confident=P but, when pitching came, i lost them all~!! hahaz!! i sort of screwed up a little with my pitching cause i had totally no idea what to do=P anyways, i think i was given quite a few chances to prove my worth=) should be able to make it through? hehee~
woohoo! i'm getting my first sortie tomorrow! but, it's at 8.30am, which means that i have to reach by 7.30am!? sigh~ that's really early. but after flying, maybe i'll head down to NYP for lunch? and maybe meet up with natalie.
i'm still aching all over!! >.< i think it's worst today, cause even my abs hurt whenever i stand up~ sigh~
school started at 8am today, woke up pretty early for school. though i reached school late, my tutor didn't mark me late. lolx=P saw jiayi at the bus stop too~
had engineering science test~ lolx. was given a HUGE hint before the paper started - another class's test paper. =P the questions were almost the same, and i felt that i was given a lifeline! hahaz~
classes afterwards were normal, boring and slow~ lolx=P school ended pretty early and i waited for herman. we went for the basketball briefing together, which was quite a waste of time. lolx=P draw lots too, and i drew against a team of china students. they are pretty tall, but i heard that they are not that strong~ heh~~
met charmaine afterwards to get a lift to church for choir audition. lolx=P i was rather panicky before the audition started. but, when we were practising, i felt my confidence come back to me, and i started to sing a little louder, and better? =P during the practise before the actual thing, i really felt motivated, calm and confident=P but, when pitching came, i lost them all~!! hahaz!! i sort of screwed up a little with my pitching cause i had totally no idea what to do=P anyways, i think i was given quite a few chances to prove my worth=) should be able to make it through? hehee~
woohoo! i'm getting my first sortie tomorrow! but, it's at 8.30am, which means that i have to reach by 7.30am!? sigh~ that's really early. but after flying, maybe i'll head down to NYP for lunch? and maybe meet up with natalie.
i'm still aching all over!! >.< i think it's worst today, cause even my abs hurt whenever i stand up~ sigh~
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
school ended 2 hours earlier today as our teacher didn't come to school - his mom passed away. when we were told of the sad news, i felt extremely guilty. we tried to remember if our teacher showed signs of breaking down during his lessons for the past few days, but we were unable to recall. i told my friend that on his next lesson, we MUST listen and do his work. i wonder what would the atmosphere be like on his lesson.
met herman at mambo billards after school, played only 3 games~ lolx=P
my arms and shoulders are aching badly! >.<
my complexion is getting worst. been playing basketball for the past few days, and i could see that it's really getting bad=/ sigh~ why can't i just change my skin, and i would have baby smooth skin again~ lolx=P
i guess i've to read up on my engineering science. there's a little class test tomorrow=/ i don't even know what's going on in the class. always heard that engineering science 2 is easlier then engineering science 1, but i feel that ES 1 is SO MUCH easiler!! =.-'' there are so many things to remember in ES 2~!!
heh~ saw jiayi in school too~ =P didn't call or message her, felt that i would be too irratating~ hahAz~=P she's so attractive!! >.<
still aching...
met herman at mambo billards after school, played only 3 games~ lolx=P
my arms and shoulders are aching badly! >.<
my complexion is getting worst. been playing basketball for the past few days, and i could see that it's really getting bad=/ sigh~ why can't i just change my skin, and i would have baby smooth skin again~ lolx=P
i guess i've to read up on my engineering science. there's a little class test tomorrow=/ i don't even know what's going on in the class. always heard that engineering science 2 is easlier then engineering science 1, but i feel that ES 1 is SO MUCH easiler!! =.-'' there are so many things to remember in ES 2~!!
heh~ saw jiayi in school too~ =P didn't call or message her, felt that i would be too irratating~ hahAz~=P she's so attractive!! >.<
still aching...
Monday, February 09, 2004
hahax. just came reached home, played basketball just now, and i felt that i totally sucked=/ can't even shoot a decent shot, can't even drive into the paint and end with a decent layup=/
if i continue to play like this on thursday and friday, i would bring trouble for my team~ >.<
arms a little strained, but it's not as bad as the feeling after training in dragonboat=P i guess i strained my legs too, they kind of hurt now=/ got to start taking care of myself, or else i'm gonna injure myself sooner or later.
if i continue to play like this on thursday and friday, i would bring trouble for my team~ >.<
arms a little strained, but it's not as bad as the feeling after training in dragonboat=P i guess i strained my legs too, they kind of hurt now=/ got to start taking care of myself, or else i'm gonna injure myself sooner or later.
school today was a breeze! hahaz~ 8am till 1pm straight. was rather hungry but i bought snacks into the class when we were tranferring classes=P
hit the gym with zongxian afterwards~ lolx=P it's been a long time since i worked out. kinda tired now especially my arms. our workout mainly focused fitness that's related to basketball. i'm also considering working out on thursdays as i got 3 hours break on odd weeks, and the whole morning on even weeks. lolx=P
hit the gym with zongxian afterwards~ lolx=P it's been a long time since i worked out. kinda tired now especially my arms. our workout mainly focused fitness that's related to basketball. i'm also considering working out on thursdays as i got 3 hours break on odd weeks, and the whole morning on even weeks. lolx=P
hahaz. i don't know how i manage to ask her out on vday. we were just chatting, and suddenly i asked where she stayed. she stays near the beach, so i told her that we could go stargazing next time. then, i suggested that we go on vday. lolx=P but she said she would comfirm with me later this week.
hahaz. my friend told me that usually if a girl says that she would comfirm with me later, most likey it's a reject. lolx. shall not think it this way. got to have super positive thoughts=D
woohoo!!
hahaz. my friend told me that usually if a girl says that she would comfirm with me later, most likey it's a reject. lolx. shall not think it this way. got to have super positive thoughts=D
woohoo!!
Sunday, February 08, 2004
hmm. wanted to do my tutorials, but i realised that i ran out of foolscape paper. hahaz=P i guess i'll have to rush my tutorials tomorrow during lecture.
read the bible according to the chart that was given to us. hmm, wrote down a prayer that Jesus told his people to pray about. realised that some of the "rules" i written down can be found in the bible. lolx=P sounds exactly the same too=P
school's starting at 8 am tomorrow. argh!
she's still dateless wor, should i ask? hahaz
read the bible according to the chart that was given to us. hmm, wrote down a prayer that Jesus told his people to pray about. realised that some of the "rules" i written down can be found in the bible. lolx=P sounds exactly the same too=P
school's starting at 8 am tomorrow. argh!
she's still dateless wor, should i ask? hahaz
Saturday, February 07, 2004
hmm. went for cell group meeting this afternoon. reached rather early and we had prayer meeting. somehow, during the prayer meeting, i suddenly felt like, praying aloud. but i held back. hehz~ the temptation just "appeared" out of no where, but i resisted cause i was afraid that i would panic=P
went to play basketball after cell group at BPCC. wasn't a good game again. could not score at the beginning and my shooting was simply terrible. slowly, after few matches, i started to play a little better, scored a few baskets, but fatigue took control of me~ hahaz~ it's been quite sometime i have been playing basketball. got to beef up, tournament is starting on thursday.
i am still not sheduled for tomorrow's sortie!! the person infront of me will be flying tomorrow=/
oh, i'm going for choir audition for my church! hahaz~ cool huh? =P i'm gonna prove to everyone that i can sing=D
went to play basketball after cell group at BPCC. wasn't a good game again. could not score at the beginning and my shooting was simply terrible. slowly, after few matches, i started to play a little better, scored a few baskets, but fatigue took control of me~ hahaz~ it's been quite sometime i have been playing basketball. got to beef up, tournament is starting on thursday.
i am still not sheduled for tomorrow's sortie!! the person infront of me will be flying tomorrow=/
oh, i'm going for choir audition for my church! hahaz~ cool huh? =P i'm gonna prove to everyone that i can sing=D
Friday, February 06, 2004
just came back from church! it's been quite sometime since i reached home this early~ lolx=P
message today is simply wonderful~! i have been praying to God to remove negative thoughts, blahblahblah. prayers answered! woohoo! ahhaz~ today's message was about changing the way we think. said easy, done hard? hahaz~ i'm gonna brainstorm on some quotes and stick them all over my room. they would reflect on my "negative" sides and the quotes would be "positive" jie, help me with some arh? =P
had test during operating systems today. ahhaz~ it's either i get full marks, or extremely bad. lolx=P the paper was rather easy, but after hearing what my friends say ( as there are different versions of the paper ) i sort of freaked out a little=P
i'm in-charge of my class's basketball team. i organise the teams, and place my classmates in 2 different teams. i think i have to shrink it to 1 team as some of my friends don't want to participate. but, if i were to shrink to 1 team, some of my friends would not get a chance to play at all=/ okie, after watching the lineup, i decided to form only 1 team, and it would consist of the strongest players i have=D i smell VICTORY! =P
oh, i saw jiayi! hahaz~~ i guess she was doing her project? she seemed a little busy. my friends waved to her, but i think she didn't notice them, though her friends did=/ anyway, when my friends were waving, i was hiding behind the wall =P hahaz~~
i am not scheduled for tomorrow's sortie=/ urgh!!
okie, i got a special request. can everyone reading this blog, PLEASE leave a tag at my tagboard? i want to know who's reading my blog. EVERYBODY must tag, no excuses, no nothing=P i don't care=P hahazz. remember to tag!!
message today is simply wonderful~! i have been praying to God to remove negative thoughts, blahblahblah. prayers answered! woohoo! ahhaz~ today's message was about changing the way we think. said easy, done hard? hahaz~ i'm gonna brainstorm on some quotes and stick them all over my room. they would reflect on my "negative" sides and the quotes would be "positive" jie, help me with some arh? =P
had test during operating systems today. ahhaz~ it's either i get full marks, or extremely bad. lolx=P the paper was rather easy, but after hearing what my friends say ( as there are different versions of the paper ) i sort of freaked out a little=P
i'm in-charge of my class's basketball team. i organise the teams, and place my classmates in 2 different teams. i think i have to shrink it to 1 team as some of my friends don't want to participate. but, if i were to shrink to 1 team, some of my friends would not get a chance to play at all=/ okie, after watching the lineup, i decided to form only 1 team, and it would consist of the strongest players i have=D i smell VICTORY! =P
oh, i saw jiayi! hahaz~~ i guess she was doing her project? she seemed a little busy. my friends waved to her, but i think she didn't notice them, though her friends did=/ anyway, when my friends were waving, i was hiding behind the wall =P hahaz~~
i am not scheduled for tomorrow's sortie=/ urgh!!
okie, i got a special request. can everyone reading this blog, PLEASE leave a tag at my tagboard? i want to know who's reading my blog. EVERYBODY must tag, no excuses, no nothing=P i don't care=P hahazz. remember to tag!!
Thursday, February 05, 2004
there are so many things on my mind now, i don't know where to start=/
went to school extremely early, wore leather shoes today cause my sneakers are still wet. took a loop around clementi before alighting beside the school gate. school's having open house, could see many students in their uniforms flocking to the atrium. walked to my classroom with a thought in mind - will i see her today?
saw someone else instead, my classmate. was informed that we needed some worksheets for lessons, but i totally forgot about them. so i rushed down to block 73 to get a copy. back in class, i had a great time. my tutor said that me and my friend are creative people because of our personality test results. could not believe my ears when he said that, but time will tell=)
we had 3 hours of break afterwards. went to the chemistry lab with my friend. it was a great experience. i learnt more about liquid nitrogen, and how ice cream is formed using liquid nitrogen. lingered around and helped a little with the making of the ice cream before heading for lunch.
met up with herman my lunch. had a feeling to walk down the steps to another part of the open house. as we were walking pass, i just glanced behind me to take a final look, i saw jiayi. was rather excited cause somehow, i had a feeling that she was there, thats why i walked down to that particular block. didn't dare to approach her and say hi, but i messaged her. she asked me why didn't i buy cookies from her~ hahaz~ somehow, i felt relax after reading that message. told her that i'll buy later after my class.
during class, it started to rain very heavily. there goes the cookies, i thought. just when class ended, the rain stopped too. met herman again, and we were at the crossroads when i kept asking him if i should buy the cookies. finally, when i told herman that i told jiayi that i would be buying the cookies from her, he walked straight into that direction. felt extremely scared, but after scanning, we didn't spot her. messaged her, and she said that she was away=/ besides that, they have stopped selling the cookies. told her that i would buy the cookies from her tomorrow, if she bakes them for me=P ahhaz~ she didn't reply after that=P
went down to BPCC to play basketball. really a bad day to play basketball. first, i was wearing leather shoes. secondly, i could not get my shooting touch. suddenly, when i turned around, i saw a girl who looks like jiayi from the side. she wore the same clothes as her, if i didn't remember wrongly. i got rather excited, and i told herman that the girl may be jiayi. my friends started calling her, shouting her name. i felt extremely embaressed cause i felt that she would get a bad impression of me. i messaged her afterwards, asked her if she was in bukit panjang, she said no. somehow, i just felt too strongly that the person was her, cause of the way she walked, her hair and her dressing. it's totally her. but since she said that she wasn't in bukit panjang, i'm gonna forget about it, and thank God that the lady wasn't her.
joined them for dinner afterwards, and we sat there to chat. i shivered quite badly. but, while they were chatting, i was thinking of many things - what if that lady was her, what if she doesn't like me, loads of what ifs came into my mind. the fear of rejection came into my mind too - she's so attractive, there must be many guys going after her. i'm neither tall nor good looking, i'm just a plain looking person who's around her height. had thoughts of giving up, even without trying! somehow, i managed to shrug them off, and told myself to try, at least.
i guess i would be asking her if she's available on vday. lolx. i know it sounds really crazy, but i think thats the only 1 good chance to get to know her better. but, the problem may lie at where should we go. at first, i thought of star gazing with her, cause she likes stars too. but time poses a problem and i don't drive a car=/ i really have no idea where should i go, if i manage to date her=P any suggestions?
went to school extremely early, wore leather shoes today cause my sneakers are still wet. took a loop around clementi before alighting beside the school gate. school's having open house, could see many students in their uniforms flocking to the atrium. walked to my classroom with a thought in mind - will i see her today?
saw someone else instead, my classmate. was informed that we needed some worksheets for lessons, but i totally forgot about them. so i rushed down to block 73 to get a copy. back in class, i had a great time. my tutor said that me and my friend are creative people because of our personality test results. could not believe my ears when he said that, but time will tell=)
we had 3 hours of break afterwards. went to the chemistry lab with my friend. it was a great experience. i learnt more about liquid nitrogen, and how ice cream is formed using liquid nitrogen. lingered around and helped a little with the making of the ice cream before heading for lunch.
met up with herman my lunch. had a feeling to walk down the steps to another part of the open house. as we were walking pass, i just glanced behind me to take a final look, i saw jiayi. was rather excited cause somehow, i had a feeling that she was there, thats why i walked down to that particular block. didn't dare to approach her and say hi, but i messaged her. she asked me why didn't i buy cookies from her~ hahaz~ somehow, i felt relax after reading that message. told her that i'll buy later after my class.
during class, it started to rain very heavily. there goes the cookies, i thought. just when class ended, the rain stopped too. met herman again, and we were at the crossroads when i kept asking him if i should buy the cookies. finally, when i told herman that i told jiayi that i would be buying the cookies from her, he walked straight into that direction. felt extremely scared, but after scanning, we didn't spot her. messaged her, and she said that she was away=/ besides that, they have stopped selling the cookies. told her that i would buy the cookies from her tomorrow, if she bakes them for me=P ahhaz~ she didn't reply after that=P
went down to BPCC to play basketball. really a bad day to play basketball. first, i was wearing leather shoes. secondly, i could not get my shooting touch. suddenly, when i turned around, i saw a girl who looks like jiayi from the side. she wore the same clothes as her, if i didn't remember wrongly. i got rather excited, and i told herman that the girl may be jiayi. my friends started calling her, shouting her name. i felt extremely embaressed cause i felt that she would get a bad impression of me. i messaged her afterwards, asked her if she was in bukit panjang, she said no. somehow, i just felt too strongly that the person was her, cause of the way she walked, her hair and her dressing. it's totally her. but since she said that she wasn't in bukit panjang, i'm gonna forget about it, and thank God that the lady wasn't her.
joined them for dinner afterwards, and we sat there to chat. i shivered quite badly. but, while they were chatting, i was thinking of many things - what if that lady was her, what if she doesn't like me, loads of what ifs came into my mind. the fear of rejection came into my mind too - she's so attractive, there must be many guys going after her. i'm neither tall nor good looking, i'm just a plain looking person who's around her height. had thoughts of giving up, even without trying! somehow, i managed to shrug them off, and told myself to try, at least.
i guess i would be asking her if she's available on vday. lolx. i know it sounds really crazy, but i think thats the only 1 good chance to get to know her better. but, the problem may lie at where should we go. at first, i thought of star gazing with her, cause she likes stars too. but time poses a problem and i don't drive a car=/ i really have no idea where should i go, if i manage to date her=P any suggestions?
Wednesday, February 04, 2004
i feel so tired.
knocked out in school during the 4 hours practical. slept infront of the lecturer when he was giving tips for the quiz, woke up before the quiz started and i didn't what was going on. thank God, i was able to do the quiz as it's a open book quiz, and i got a smart person sitting beside me=P
we had 4 hours of break today. 1 hour of "unoffical" break=P played pool with my classmates at bukit timah. was rather on form today, or rather lucky. won 3 games in a row, lost 2, won another match afterwards.
my classmates bought toto and 4d too~ lolx. 10 million bucks for toto~ almost bought tickets myself, but resisted=P i don't want to become a gambling freak, picking 6 numbers every week and pray that i hit jackpot.
met herman after school at mambo billards. played a few games with them. they are really very good in pool=/ i felt extremely lousy playing with them. wanted to study with herman and yonglin after school, but i had steamboat at home. i still got loads of tutorials that are uncomplete, but not due tomorrow. i guess i'll try to make use of the 3 hours break tomorrow to complete some of them=/
somehow, i lost my mood at home. totally moodless and i seem to be lost in thoughts. i don't know whats going through my mind now.
heh, things aside. jiayi's online. ciaoz~
knocked out in school during the 4 hours practical. slept infront of the lecturer when he was giving tips for the quiz, woke up before the quiz started and i didn't what was going on. thank God, i was able to do the quiz as it's a open book quiz, and i got a smart person sitting beside me=P
we had 4 hours of break today. 1 hour of "unoffical" break=P played pool with my classmates at bukit timah. was rather on form today, or rather lucky. won 3 games in a row, lost 2, won another match afterwards.
my classmates bought toto and 4d too~ lolx. 10 million bucks for toto~ almost bought tickets myself, but resisted=P i don't want to become a gambling freak, picking 6 numbers every week and pray that i hit jackpot.
met herman after school at mambo billards. played a few games with them. they are really very good in pool=/ i felt extremely lousy playing with them. wanted to study with herman and yonglin after school, but i had steamboat at home. i still got loads of tutorials that are uncomplete, but not due tomorrow. i guess i'll try to make use of the 3 hours break tomorrow to complete some of them=/
somehow, i lost my mood at home. totally moodless and i seem to be lost in thoughts. i don't know whats going through my mind now.
heh, things aside. jiayi's online. ciaoz~
Tuesday, February 03, 2004
just came back from natalie's place~ lolx=P went to lot1 to buy the levi bag. 139.50 bucks. heart pain, but it fits my notebook perfectly.
chatted with jiayi at natalie's place too. hehz~~ she's available on valentine's day! aHh!! almost asked her out, when she said she got to go=/ lolx=P natalie befriended her too, got jiayi's contacts and chatted with her=/ i wonder if she would sabotage or help me. lolx=P
natalie's dog urined on my shoes=/
chatted with jiayi at natalie's place too. hehz~~ she's available on valentine's day! aHh!! almost asked her out, when she said she got to go=/ lolx=P natalie befriended her too, got jiayi's contacts and chatted with her=/ i wonder if she would sabotage or help me. lolx=P
natalie's dog urined on my shoes=/
should i buy the levis sling bag~? it costs 130 bucks, but it's extremely nice=P but, i wonder if the bag is able to contain my notebook - 17 inch screen. arghx! stupid notebook, so huge and bulky. jie, wanna trade laptops? =D more about the bag - it's jeans material, bigger then my present bag and of course, nicer=P the only problem holding me back now is the cost and do i want it, or need it. lolx=P
Monday, February 02, 2004
there is something special about this boy, and his songs. it's extremely nice, and most of all, uplifting. the lyrics are meaningful, and if you read it in a different view, it's like a christian song~ extremely talented little boy - 12 years old.
Billy Gilman - One Voice
Some kids have and some kids don't
And some of us are wondering why.
And mom won't watch the news at night
There's too much stuff that's making her cry.
We need some help
Down here on earth
A thousand prayers, a million words
But one voice was heard.
A house, a yard, a neighbourhood
Where you could ride your new bike to school.
A kinda world where mom and dad
Still believe the golden rule
Life's not that simple
Down here on earth.
A thousand prayers, a million words
But one voice was heard.
One voice, one simple word, hearts know what to say
One dream can change the world
Keep believing till you find your way
Yesterday while walking home
I saw some kid on newbury road
He pulled a pistol from his bag
And tossed it in the river below.
Thanks for the help
Down here on earth
A thousand prayers, a million words
But one voice was heard.
One voice was heard
One voice was heard
Billy Gilman - Theres A Hero
There's a flower in the smallest garden
Reaching for the light
There's a candle in the darkest corner
Conquering the night
There is amazing strength In a willing hand
There are victories
That you've never planned
There's a hero
In everybody's heart
There's a fire inside of everybody
Burning clear & bright
There's a power in the faintest heartbeat
That cannot be denied
Go on and trust yourself
Cause you can ride the wind
You're gonna take your dreams
Where's they've never been
There's a hero In everybody's heart
Go on and trust yourself
Cause you can ride the wind
You're gonna take your dreams
Where they've never been
There's a hero In everybody's heart
Billy Gilman - One Voice
Some kids have and some kids don't
And some of us are wondering why.
And mom won't watch the news at night
There's too much stuff that's making her cry.
We need some help
Down here on earth
A thousand prayers, a million words
But one voice was heard.
A house, a yard, a neighbourhood
Where you could ride your new bike to school.
A kinda world where mom and dad
Still believe the golden rule
Life's not that simple
Down here on earth.
A thousand prayers, a million words
But one voice was heard.
One voice, one simple word, hearts know what to say
One dream can change the world
Keep believing till you find your way
Yesterday while walking home
I saw some kid on newbury road
He pulled a pistol from his bag
And tossed it in the river below.
Thanks for the help
Down here on earth
A thousand prayers, a million words
But one voice was heard.
One voice was heard
One voice was heard
Billy Gilman - Theres A Hero
There's a flower in the smallest garden
Reaching for the light
There's a candle in the darkest corner
Conquering the night
There is amazing strength In a willing hand
There are victories
That you've never planned
There's a hero
In everybody's heart
There's a fire inside of everybody
Burning clear & bright
There's a power in the faintest heartbeat
That cannot be denied
Go on and trust yourself
Cause you can ride the wind
You're gonna take your dreams
Where's they've never been
There's a hero In everybody's heart
Go on and trust yourself
Cause you can ride the wind
You're gonna take your dreams
Where they've never been
There's a hero In everybody's heart
woke up extremely late today. actually, i just felt lying on my bed and closed my eyes=P
the whole house was in a total mess, relatives came over the previous day and played. i didn't pack the house, cause by the time i woke up, everything was neat and in order=P
downloaded kazza lite, and started downloading songs~ plenty of them~ hahaz!! at one time, i was downloading around 10+ songs=P and, i'm still thinking of songs to download~ hahaz~
went to play basketball afterwards. lets just say that i had a terrible day. first, i started to pant after 1 game? and i was breaking into cold sweat. afterwards, my shooting and everything went haywire. felt no strength in my legs and arms, mind wasn't really working when i was playing? bleah=P
came home, watched armageddom. it's one of the best rated shows, by me, as it's extremely nice and touching. i almost cried again, towards the end of the show. the way he honoured everyone execpt himself was truely great.
chatting with jiayi~ SO HAPPY!!! hahaz!! no one can steal the computer from me NOW!! =X
the whole house was in a total mess, relatives came over the previous day and played. i didn't pack the house, cause by the time i woke up, everything was neat and in order=P
downloaded kazza lite, and started downloading songs~ plenty of them~ hahaz!! at one time, i was downloading around 10+ songs=P and, i'm still thinking of songs to download~ hahaz~
went to play basketball afterwards. lets just say that i had a terrible day. first, i started to pant after 1 game? and i was breaking into cold sweat. afterwards, my shooting and everything went haywire. felt no strength in my legs and arms, mind wasn't really working when i was playing? bleah=P
came home, watched armageddom. it's one of the best rated shows, by me, as it's extremely nice and touching. i almost cried again, towards the end of the show. the way he honoured everyone execpt himself was truely great.
chatting with jiayi~ SO HAPPY!!! hahaz!! no one can steal the computer from me NOW!! =X
Sunday, February 01, 2004
haven been blogging for two days? =P
friday -
school was the same - boring. went for service afterwards, felt that the message was strong~ pastor kong told us that thinking and picturing success would lead us in a better way. yeah, it's quite true. as it builds our confidence and we would not be depressed easily as everyday, you are telling yourself encouraging stuffs=) went for supper with charmaine, her sister and their friends - ate at the same place as few weeks back. i was extremely clumsy over there. i topped the cup filled with ice, spilled my drink quite a few times and knocked into other people's table~ hahaz~ i wonder what was wrong with me that day=P
saturday -
woke up extremely late for flying lessons. rushed around to get prepared and ran out of house at 7.30am. decided to take a cab down to west camp, but there was completely no cabs! called a cab afterwards, but it arrived at 8am ( i called pretty late too ) the journey was around 15 minutes - uncle sped=P reached the school, rushed to the CAI room, thank God the paper haven started! went down to the lecture room to get a breather and to calm myself down. the paper wasn't really very difficult, i should be able to pass it=P had 2 hours of safety lecture after our paper. somehow, i didn't fall asleep~ lolx=P
given breaks as we waited for our parents to arrive. my parents lost their way and when i called them, they asked me for directions. told them, but in the end, they got frustrated at me. i wonder why.
fell asleep in class while waiting, and when i woke up, there was a bunch of people standing infront of me. they were the former students of YFC and they were there to give us mentoring. i don't know if i slept through half of their speech, but when i woke up, the speaker gave me a very surprised hello~ O_o
did my bookings of flights too. saturdays and sundays only=/ sigh. i hate my timetable for this semister. i'm going to lose out a lot of sorties compaired to my friends.
went prawning with dad, sister and her friend. amazingly, i caught quite a decent amount of prawns~ heh~ had my dinner there too - BBQ.
i just completed need for speed : underground. lolx=P 3 days? been playing that game everyday, every single minute~ hahaz~ completed it, but i wasn't really happy about the game cause there wasn't fire coming out of my car=/
extremely weary~
friday -
school was the same - boring. went for service afterwards, felt that the message was strong~ pastor kong told us that thinking and picturing success would lead us in a better way. yeah, it's quite true. as it builds our confidence and we would not be depressed easily as everyday, you are telling yourself encouraging stuffs=) went for supper with charmaine, her sister and their friends - ate at the same place as few weeks back. i was extremely clumsy over there. i topped the cup filled with ice, spilled my drink quite a few times and knocked into other people's table~ hahaz~ i wonder what was wrong with me that day=P
saturday -
woke up extremely late for flying lessons. rushed around to get prepared and ran out of house at 7.30am. decided to take a cab down to west camp, but there was completely no cabs! called a cab afterwards, but it arrived at 8am ( i called pretty late too ) the journey was around 15 minutes - uncle sped=P reached the school, rushed to the CAI room, thank God the paper haven started! went down to the lecture room to get a breather and to calm myself down. the paper wasn't really very difficult, i should be able to pass it=P had 2 hours of safety lecture after our paper. somehow, i didn't fall asleep~ lolx=P
given breaks as we waited for our parents to arrive. my parents lost their way and when i called them, they asked me for directions. told them, but in the end, they got frustrated at me. i wonder why.
fell asleep in class while waiting, and when i woke up, there was a bunch of people standing infront of me. they were the former students of YFC and they were there to give us mentoring. i don't know if i slept through half of their speech, but when i woke up, the speaker gave me a very surprised hello~ O_o
did my bookings of flights too. saturdays and sundays only=/ sigh. i hate my timetable for this semister. i'm going to lose out a lot of sorties compaired to my friends.
went prawning with dad, sister and her friend. amazingly, i caught quite a decent amount of prawns~ heh~ had my dinner there too - BBQ.
i just completed need for speed : underground. lolx=P 3 days? been playing that game everyday, every single minute~ hahaz~ completed it, but i wasn't really happy about the game cause there wasn't fire coming out of my car=/
extremely weary~
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