Sunday, May 30, 2004

ONE WAY! JESUS! YOUR THE ONLY ONE THAT I COULD LIVE FOR!

attended sunday youth service today, and the atmosphere was GREAT. i guess i'm a youth afterall~ hee~

charmaine and i were pretty late, but thank God, we had seats. the best thing is that, i was sitting beside felix! hahaz! his group has 4 extra seats, and charmaine and i took 2 of them. looked around, and i saw samantha and bernard.

they seem quite shocked when they saw me~ hahaz=P

had "fellowship" with felix's cellgroup at KFC. well, not really fellowship, but we had lunch together. felix and i shared about our experience in parade of schools, and i was talking crap with the other brothers there~ hahaz~ instant bonding? =P

then, bernard and i headed to jurong point and met up with brother jierui, alvin, mervin and sisters whose names i dont really remember~ =X

MANZ! our attire is quite, weird? yellow bossini top with martial arts pants! >.< they kept insisting that its nice when i tried it on, but i felt really weird. lolx=P

anyway, that attire costs a bomb! the pants cost 21 bucks and the shirt costs 12 bucks=/ but, we reap what we sow! i believe God would bring revival to ngee ann poly!! =D

im already quite broke at the starting of the week, and i have yet to top up my farecard. argh=/

woohoo! training tomorrow!! i can't wait~! i'm so excited!! =D

Saturday, May 29, 2004

woke up pretty early for scouts in the morning. at first, i thought i was late, so i rushed a little. but i wasn't informed that meeting starts at 8.30am, instead of 8.00am! lolx=P but still, i gathered the boys and took attendance.

i took them morning PT again, and this time its the full blown PT. i had to shout till i almost lost my voice, and other rovers stepped in to tekan the boys=X

then, i taught the sec1s pioneering again, but this time the practical part. well, most of them were able to tie the lashing, but its full of mistakes. i went around checking, and spotting the mistakes infront of everyone. hopefully they learnt something today.

its a long long journey, to punggol.

had cellgroup meeting at leo's house. wow! his house is so beautiful~ its like classy, and simple. his "play" room contains a piano, guitar, computer and a DRUM SET!! hahaz! i managed to play a simple part after few unsuccessful tries. hahaz=P

den its another long long journey home.

went to buy dinner and i met charmaine along the way~ lolx=P she's with her classmates and they were about to go for dinner. saw her and i instantly stuck out my tongue, and when she saw me, she was in total shock. hahaz=P

bought my dinner and as i was crossing the road, i saw sister sharon's cellgroup! hahaz! sister sharon is charmaine's sister anyway... hAhaz! they were pretty shocked to see me crossing the road, and they even asked what am i doing here. hahaz~ didn't get the chance to answer them though.

going to church service tomorrow at 1~ woohoo~

Friday, May 28, 2004

F34~

this code was written boldly on my calves and arms. thats my registation number for extreme sports in sentosa held earlier.

well, it wasn't as intensed as i expected, but i didn't get the 1st place though. i had my moment of glory when i ran first after the loop from the beach run, but my momentum was spoilt when a group of elderlys were crossing the bridge. we had to stop and walk behind them slowly.

it really caused me to tire out.

did 30 situps real quick and walked up to the left tower for 30 pumpings. i did 22 straight pumpings, before resting for like, 3 seconds? then finished the 30 pumpings.

then, we had to go all the way down, and climb up another tower to be tested on bible verse memory.

irony.

the answer was given at the bottom of the tower. the staffs were flashing the answer, asking everyone to memorize it. its really stupid to walk up the stairs, den a round on the platform, reciting the verse and walk down the stairs again.

then, its continous running non stop till the end. well, i did stop cause i had sharp pains on the right side of my stomach. but i guess im in the top 10 of wave F.

my partner got knocked when he was swimming, and he wasn't able to continue the race=/ but thank God he was saved by the lifeguards, and nothing serious happened to him.

before i headed for sentosa, i was in church training for parade of schools. more planning, editing and trainings today. jierui and i managed to get our timings right, and we were successful when we had to lift samantha above our heads during the cheer.

we got new dance steps, and its really cool! thanks to brother kenny, who's Pastor Sun's dancer, he gave us some tips and changed the beginning of our dance. i think that its quite cool now~ =P

God is really opening doors of opportunity for us! more and more people are getting involved in the stunts, instead of just doing the dance. i think that its really cool and everyone gets to play a important part in the stunts. especially the final 1, which is one of our highlites=P

i can't wait!!

but, i can't help but feel that we need more training sessions. but, the main people from magnum force are having their camps. argh! anyway, training is fun!

i'm registering myself for parade of schools, NEXT YEAR!

Thursday, May 27, 2004

its been a humbling day for me. now i know what they mean when they say look at God for answer, seek God first in everything you do, give God your problems, fears and stress.

its really very challenging overcoming the mental breakdown i experienced. i almost wanted to give up and leave the main stunt team. but, as i tried to leave my distractions and problems behind, i realised that i still wasn't able to concentrate. then, it came upon me that i should seek God first in everything i do and i prayed with 2 of my team members.

this is really a team game.

well, you maybe wondering whats the fear that was gripping me - when we were on stage, we were supposed to do elevated pop cradle on samantha. i didn't fully extend my arms thus causing samantha to fly to my direction. i turned around, tried to catch her, but caught her legs instead. our backspot caught her, but she still landed on the floor. the impact looked pretty serious, and she was inches from the edge of the floor and keyboards. the entire auditorum went silent as samantha laid there. i felt like killing myself at the period of time, cause i didn't catch her and i didn't execute my move properly. worst of all, she was thrown up to around 2 levels high?

but, God's protection was on her, and she didn't injure herself! praise God!

we didn't have the time to practise as everything was very messed up and we had to teach the others the stunts too. even when i was teaching them, i was like shouting and scolding them because i didn't want them to commit the same mistake as i did. many times, i felt like scolding them, but i remembered that we should encourage each other, so i started to encourage them by saying nice try, we can do it! stuffs like that~ lolx=P

well, I WILL NOT BE DEFEATED YOU STUPID DEVIL! HAHAHA!

2 Timothy 1:7 For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of POWER, and of LOVE and of a SOUND MIND! AMEN!

training tomorrow! samantha cannot suffer any scares, stratch or fear when we practise. NOT even a single strand of hair would drop on her.
another day has come and gone.

the entire day was spent in church, training and memorizing dance steps too. our dance steps is pretty cool, but if my movements would be sharper, i guess it would look nicer.

learnt new stuffs, extended elevator, liberty and extended liberty. well, all were successful except the extended liberty. i guess i wasn't grabbing samantha's foot tight enough, as she said that she could not feel any support in the middle part=/

was very drained and i felt feverish when i reached church but thank God, his strength was upon me and i didn't allow my tireness to be a burden to everyone. i hope.

more training tomorrow... really hope that my shoulders are fine...

how i wish i can be like craig david...

Walking Away
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away


Sometimes some people get me wrong, when it's something I've said or done
Sometimes you feel there is no fun, that's why you turn and run
But now I truly realise, some people don't wanna compromise
Well, I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies, and
Well I don't wanna live my life, too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say lady


I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away


Well, I'm so tired baby
Things you say, you're driving me away
Whispers in the powder room baby, don't listen to the games they play
Girl I thought you'd realise, I'm not like them other guys
Cos I saw them with my own eyes, you should've been more wise and
Well I don't wanna live my life, too many sleepless nights
Not mentioning the fights, I'm sorry to say lady


I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day
I'm walking away

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

POP CRADLE!

the moment i heard that word, i felt scared immediately. pop cradle - lifting the person above your head, then tossing her into the air, and catching her.

when some friends from magnum force demostrated, everyone went silent and started to look around in disbelief. i started to wonder what would happen if its not done properly. well, my question got answered immediately.

the flyer came crashing down to one of the bases as she wasn't tossed properly.

i guess they decided that its too hard for us to do pop cradle today, but we would be attempting it tomorrow. so, we continued doing elevator and sweep, which we were pretty confident of.

but still, there were accidents and nearfalls which might have resulted in serious injuries.

a flyer from my group fell back-head first, but thank God, she didn't feel dizzy nor did she vomitted.

carrying today was very tiring. our backspot wasn't present and 2 new guys, felix and the other whom i can't remember, replaced him. at first, they didn't support the flyer properly, thus causing the entire weight to fall on the bases' palms. it's quite painful when we have to reach out the other hand and the angle of our palm holding the legs were more then 90 degrees. -ouch-

but, when the backspots started to build their confidence, everything was back to normal and flyers had faith in us, once again.

haha! we tossed samantha twice for practise, but during the first time, she fell on me=/ thank God i managed to grab her in time, and got her to safety. the second attempt went on smoothly, and we did a sweep to bring her back to the land=P

stunts are seriously fun! i'm really loving it~ its challenging, demanding, requires teamwork and most of all, concentration.

i almost dropped the flyer when me and my fellow base burst out laughing as the pressure on our hands was very heavy. i guess our faces turned seriously red, almost blue, and the instructor was still teaching our backspot what to do. we had to recompose ourselves and landed the flyer safely, but by then, our wrists were hurting.

wow, i just noticed that a girl from magnum force looks like Jasmine Trias from american idol! perhaps the skinner version, but when she smiled and looked in our direction, the likeness caught my attention. she's a great flyer too~ woAhhhHhhh...

more trainings tomorrow! from 12 to 4, 9 to 11? can't really remember the timings, but tomorrow's training is The Point of No Return! >.< trying to get someone to replace me regarding the scouts stuffs, but so far, no avail. hope that charmaine won't mind helping me collect some stuffs from my boys~ hEe~

oh. extreme sports! this friday is my prelims at sentosa, and we were given a briefing of what to expect. well, i'll be doing the running leg of the team, and i'm supposed to run to the towers, do 30 situps, then run up to 1 of the towers and do 30 pumpings.

run to another tower, and i'll be tested on bible verse. we are given 7 verses to remember, and they are seriously encouraging when used in sports. lolx=P

then, its a long run to the run about near shangi-la hotel and back to the beach near the towers.

total distance, MORE then 3.7km. well, at least i'm not swimming. its tougher=X

there's this bible verse that i would like to share with you guys.

1 Corinthians 9:24 - "Do you know that those who run in a race all run, but one receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may obtain it."

COOL HUH!? i shall RUN LIKE A CRAZY GUY!

Tuesday, May 25, 2004

okay, ready one two down up down up!

woah! i always thought that cheerleading is gayish, but my experience today in church changed my thinking, TOTALLY.

met up with samantha at jurong point around 4 plus, and we had KFC for lunch. then, headed to coperation road to boonlay police post. samantha needs to make a police report regarding her lost wallet.

well, we waited for about 30 minutes before giving up. the policeman told us to wait outside as he's busy with another case. apparently, the girl ran away from home, and her family found her at east coast park.

headed to church for parade of schools (POS), but realised that the timings were changed to 7pm.

suddenly remembered that there's a police post at the community centre opposite CHC, and we went searching for it. she made a report over there, and slacked at KFC afterwards.

samantha had a nightmare when she took a nap at KFC. lolx=P

POS rehearsals! we were all divided into groups, and each group has 2 bases, 1 backman, 3 flyers. well, bases are people who basically hold the foot of the flyers, backman is to support and flyers, obviously are those standing and being thrown.

though its my first time doing it, i didn't quite panic as i didn't want to scare the girls in my group. lolx=P

well, everyone had their jitters when the first person fell. but slowly, our confidence and coordination built up and things went smoothly. its quite taxing to support the weight of the flyer at the beginning, but as we were taught the right method, it become extremely easy=P

i guess i caused a flyer her injury. when she fell, i was too slow to grab her legs and she fell knee first. sigh. after that fall, she could not join us for stunts as her knee hurt. argh! >.<

another flyer wasn't caught properly and she dislocated her shoulder, i think. but after massaging, her shoulder got back in place. but, she could not continue training.

i guess this really shows that teamwork is extremely important, and everyone of us have to look out for each other. if either one of us makes a mistake, it could cause serious injuries to others=/

well, looking forward to tomorrow's training!! =D

Sunday, May 23, 2004

boring boring sunday~

woke up at 11.30 to catch huangzhu gege, that crappy, sloppy and dramatic taiwan romance show. i have no idea why do i always watch it, perhaps its to laugh at the stupidness, mushy-ness of the characters. lolx=P

then, its back to my bed until 4 plus - to play basketball at salvation army again.

met herman at the gates of salvation army as he doesn't know where is the courts. as usual, there were many people and the aircon is still powerful.

during devotion time, they organised a game called greedy pig. 2 guys and girls were asked to volunteer themselves to play the game.

when they were asked of their names, 1 of the guys called himself LeBron. i felt so disgusted and i told herman that im martin kenyon ( which is the wrong name anyway... ) anyway, that "LeBron" tried to hard to act cool in front of everyone, but he seriously stinks.

had a chance to play basketball with "LeBron" and he seriously stinks. all he does is just dribble to ball, faking left and right then passing the ball away. he doesn't even dare to attempt to do a simple layup. when i started to be aggressive on defense, he backed away from me.

there was an incident when the ball was flying out of bounds, and "LeBron" caught the ball and threw it towards my legs, causing the ball to fly out of bounds, as me being the last person who touched the ball. then, he looked at me and said sorry. i felt like throwing the ball at his !@#$ face, but i reminded myself that i'm in a church.

super sore loser, he IS.

whenever i got the ball afterwards, he would not even dare to guard me. when i looked at him eye to eye, he looked away. timid guy... i better pray that he would have the GUTS to challenge me next sunday.

well, other then that, there wasn't much happenings and we headed to upp bukit timah for dinner. i didn't eat cause i didn't bring money along=/ loLx=P but i had a cup of milo though.

when we were waiting for the bus home, eddie started becoming the Hulk Hogan and went around shouting and becoming crazy. i became a victim when i hit him with my towel - well, its like... twisting the towel, and smacking the towel at him. it hurts, seriously. then, herman became crazy, when his Evanescence CD-Cover got cracked because of eddie. i think i almost died laughing while waiting for the bus, and when we're on the bus, it seemed to get worst.

i'm so bored now!

woohoo! i'm going to get myself involved in Parade of Schools!!

Saturday, May 22, 2004

4 counts of 8, exercise begin! ECHO!

commonly used words when i'm giving morning PT to my boys. its been ECOS since i last gave morning PT to scouts, and i'm glad that i was given the chance to "torture" the boys once more=)

the morning PT wasn't tiring as we did mainly warming up and stretching. but, i made them do 3 pumpings and they had to hold their body at the "down" position for 5 seconds, when every single scout is at that position. well, of cause not every1 cooperated, and the 1st pumping was dragged to almost a minute. but, after the 2nd pumping, the sec1s endured after shouts of encouragement from their seniors.

before you think that i'm really torturing them, i did all the warm ups and pumpings with them.

next event! GAMES! hAaz! xianghao and i had a great time playing games with the sec1 cadets!

we had this super long and thick rope that's used for flying fox. we separted the sec1s into 4 different groups and made them stand inside the circle, formed by the rope. both ends of the rope were secured and we played 4-way tug of war!

i was helping a group that had a person short and we "fought" together. that game lasted for around 30 minutes, without a clear winner. there were MANY injuries, but the boys stood up gamely and continued tugging at the ropes.

there was a stampede whenever 2 teams started tugging in the same direction. thank God i wasn't involved in the pile up in the group i was helping, but i helped to dis-entangle the boys~ hahaz!

at first, i thought that the boys would start crying, and refuse to play. but, even when they were bleeding, they continued pulling regardless of the pain. i treated a scout who had a "friction" burn that caused his skin to be "burnt" off, leaving the flesh. seriously painful, and it was on his face.

the next game was even funnier. the boys, in their groups, lay on the floor and the fastest group to roll to the finishing line would win. but, the challenge is that only 1 person can roll at 1 time, so the last scout must roll to the 1st in line, and so on. it's really funny watching the boys roll over their friends and some even shouted in pain. lolx=P

a tad sacistic? but fun! the boys' liked the games=)

then, i gave them a lecture on Creative Pioneering. prepared a powerpoint slide and i used my sister's notebook to present~ well, the boys were attentive. i thought that their minds would wander and get distracted by the NPCC cadets running all over the corridor, but they were listening attentively, answering questions that i threw to them.

then, they were given mahjong paper to draw their pioneering projects.

the first group planned to build a castle, with walls and watch towers surrounding the castle. then, they added a drawbridge, at the gate of the castle. even their towers are quite amazing - a emergency slide when the enemies come and they even added a telescope, to keep watch.

the second group came up with a treehouse and a flying fox that's connected to another tree house.

the third group came up with a tower thats of multi purpose.'

lastly, the forth group came up with a playground and a slide that ends up in water.

personally, i felt that the castle is a good idea to work on, for recuitments and competitions.

when i was going around trying to push the boys to think harder, i suddenly thought of building the Changi Airport. well, not the entire place, but the tower. xianghao and i then drew the plans on the whiteboard, and we realised that it's quite possible to build the tower~ hAhAaz! perhaps we would do it on our own training times, just for the fun of it=P

scouts meeting ended and i headed home to bath first. i was super smelly.

fell asleep on the floor until 2.30 and bathed for cellgroup at charmaine's place.

cellgroup's super small today. 6 persons only, but nontheless, it proceeded. i had my exam after cellgroup ended, and they were playing cards!! >.< heart attack and bluff. bah~

reached home, and i was supposed to go to my relative's place, but i fell asleep and i deicded not to go afterall. hahaz=P

had a weird dream during my 3 hours of sleep. i dreamt of charmaine! LOL! dreamt that we were at the playground near her place, and we were chatting with each other. i think that we were couples in the dream, and when we were at the playground, she was quite sad. so i talked to her, and cheered her up. hahaz! then, i became veryvery nice to her, even to the extend of meeting her in GreenRidge Sec, and sent her home.

well, she was quite sweet in the dream too. suddenly, the dream scene changed to my place, and i was down with high fever. so, charmaine came to my place and took care of me. lolx!

the moment i woke up, i felt that the dream was quite funny and i messaged charmaine and told her about it. hahaz=P she kept saying that it's a very weird dream.

i guess it would never happen in real life huh? =P

its been quite a encouraging day, especially in scouts.
my skin is peeling!!

i guess that the room's atmosphere is TOO dry, and it caused my skin to start peeling when i was stretching. or perhaps, it peeled earlier cause most of the day, i was in a air-conditioned place. argh! i look quite terrible now, with peeling skin all over my body.

herman and i went to vene's workplace and helped her to insert bills and a memorandum into thousands of envelopes. we started work at 9.30 and when it was 11.30, we felt extremely shocked that time just flew by so fast.

we had our lunch, and i had spots of sweet sauce on my shirt=/

herman and i saw a dodge! FYI, a dodge is a sportscar that's quite limited in singapore. well, i don't know the version of the dodge car, but its extremely sporty and its beautiful!

back to work, but this time, we felt rather tired and my back was aching quite badly. though time still flew by quickly, the number of envelopes increased rapidly too~ it seemed that the envelopes would never stop coming!

but, in the process of filling the envelopes, we discovered weird company names and doctors with weird names too. hAaz=P made a joke out of their names so that we would not be that bored.

rushed home, bathed and headed to church.

met up with my extreme games partner, whose name i forgot, and we discuessed about our plans. well, basically we would be hitting the gyms and swimming to prepare ourself for the challenge.

the challenge would be held on 3 june at sentosa, but there's a prelim round this coming friday at sentosa. i wonder how would it be like...

aye, church service was quite impacting, encouraging and simply blessed, i felt.

well, got to do my scouts stuffs now=/

Thursday, May 20, 2004

woah! the gym was filled with hunks today!

worked out for an hour, which was quite intense cause i could not straighten my arms afterwards. i could feel the strain, and i think that it's good. haHaz=P

working tomorrow! a temp 1 day job! helping vene with some postal stuffs, and weilun, herman would be joining me too~ the pay is quite cool - 5 bucks an hour=)

very hot and sweaty now=/

Wednesday, May 19, 2004

im so tired and pooped.

played basketball earlier, and finally! i'm playing seriously, normally and up to standard.

sinked last 3 three-pointer shots at a game and we won by a close margin. been ages since i last felt so confident with my shots and my layups are finally getting some points=X

there were games of high tension that caused me and herman to lose our tempers. the game's were so tight that it was very very fast paced. causing elbows, legs and knees to fly to our opponents.

on many occasions, i just ran in regardless of my opponents and jumped in their faces. that kind of feeling is quite great, but if i can dunk in their face, i would have trash talked~ lolx=P

anyway, theres more room for improvement!

if everything goes right, i'll be able to participate in my church's extreme sports event. got to beef up on my stamina and swimming ability~~ lolz~

uh. i feel sick after 2 cups of ice blended chocolate=/

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

so sleepy~

woke up and went to the gym with weilun and herman.

the gym was packed in the morning! quite a lot of students were there, and sometimes we had to wait for the person to finish working out at the particular machine.

workout wasn't intense, but tiring.

went swimming with them including JJ, who joined us late. JJ tried teaching me butterfly stroke, but it's like quite tiring. i wasn't able to coordinate my waist and legs to propel myself forward. instead, i was going downwards~ haHaz=P

an accident happened, JJ chipped his tooth off, while teaching me the butterfly. =X

aye, i seem to be shrinking!!

Monday, May 17, 2004

a day of visions and aspirations.

rotted all the way till 5pm, when i had to meet xiaojia for makeup bible studies. well, was given a task to do, and it's about organising a event so that our friends would come and join us, and know about God at the same time. ( herman are you reading this? =P )

well, when i was in the bus, i was thinking of many things. i thought of a basketball league that would run for some period of time, and at the end of the day's competition, there would be a devotion time. it's extracted from the salvation army's plan, but i further enhanced it.

we would have to specify the purposes of the basketball league, so that the basketballers would not be there just to play basketball. at least they would know that there is a period of time called devotion after the competition.

why league? if your thinking of that, i have the answer. most basketball competitions are held for 2-3 days, and during that few days, it is hard to reach out to youths. i felt that a league would be nice as it would last more weeks and it would not be that messy. there would not be too many people moving in and out at the same time, thus crowd control is easy.

after devotion period, all the team members would be seperated from their groups, and they would form a smaller group with a church member. this is to make sure that they interact with other basketballers, and mixing them together so that they would not be with their team mates, and there would not be any peer pressure.

during this period of time, the church member would share on the topic regarding the devotion period, and they would discuss more about the topic within the group. it would be like a mini cellgroup minus the praise and worship.

well, that was a vision, and there were many "background" stuffs to consider. the cost of booking a basketball court, first-aid members, admin stuffs, logistics and security. perhaps theres more, but thats all i can think of. i wonder if it's possible if the church would cover those cost~ tEehEe~

anyway, my cellgroup would have to work extremely hard, if this plans really gets approved. i suddenly had a "sight" that told me that the members have to really pray extremely hard together, and my "sight" really seemed big scale. ( think prayer meetings and overnight ones. ) then, somehow the word sacrifice came into my mind, and i felt that God wants me/us to sacrifice our time, money, effort into this project.

after that vision, came another vision. i had thoughts of becoming a cellgroup leader! i "sighted" that i was giving sermons, talks and encouragement to groups and even in CHC's podium! lolx=P

really cool stuffs, i'm "dreaming" about. hope that it's not a dream, but God's plan for me=)

Sunday, May 16, 2004

woah~ holidays should be this relaxing and fun.

last night, i had a crazy idea. i met up with herman and we had supper together, then i had to craving to play mahjong as its been quite sometime since i last played. so, without hesitating, i asked herman if he's interested and we started to look for people to join us.

we managed to get only weilun, but we didn't care if we were short of 1. hAaz=P

we played mahjong till 6am? but we didn't count our total winnings as we played for fun=P had a great time playing and winning! wOohOo! herman ALWAYS throws tiles that i need to game=) hahaz!!

went to sleep, and woke up at 3 when weilun called me. this time, we're going to salvation army to play basketball.

there's a indoor sports hall that's air conditioned and there's basketball, badminton and table tennis. quite a cool place, with John 14:8 (i think) printed on the wall, in 4 different languages. they were playing praise and worship songs in the background too, so as to lift the presence of God.

i played like total crap. it's quite hard to sweat there as the aircon is quite powerful. i felt quite cool and i could not sweat much. i guess i need to sweat loads so that i would be warmed up, but i wasn't able to=/

we didn't play seriously too. mostly playing rubbish defense and attacks. hAhaz=P

at 6pm, we were called together for a time called devotion. a member of the salvation army would speak to us on a topic - What Is My Purpose On Earth? well, he shared his personal testimony but not much on God. he simply said that man's purpose is to serve God, yet he didn't go into details. perhaps if he did, it would have touched the hearts of many. i could feel the presence of God when we prayed together, and its a great way to reach out to youths, as long as they realise the purpose of the gathering.

but, i felt a little awkward when devotion finished. everyone continued playing their games, like nothing happened earlier. if they broke us up into smaller groups and discussed about the topic, it would benefit to those that have doubts in their mind.

i felt paisehz too. we seemed to be treating the place, food and services for granted. they prepared sandwiches, breads and buns for snacks, orange juice for drinks. everyone helped themselves with it and some of them even littered the place.

when the venue closed at 8.30, i helped to pick up the rubbish and threw them away. salvation army is really generous to open up their sports hall and even prepare food for us, i guess thats the least i could do to return the kindess.

salvation army is a very homely place too. saw many parents and kids running about, playing with each other on sundays. even their officals joined in to play soccer with the kids and kids were practically storming around the entire sports hall. hAhaz=P

aye, freezing in the room again=/

Saturday, May 15, 2004

cool day~

watched after school? with my sister. a local production, and boy, it blew me over. it's very very touching and nice. i feel that it would suit the current situation most teenagers are facing. gangsters and trying to act like 1. hAhaz=P

headed to AMK for CG.

wanted to go to the gym, but my friends are either working or playing basketball. so, i had thoughts of playing basketball too. but, when i was reaching home, it started to rain, and i forsaked my plans=P

today seems to be a sad day? i got friends calling and chatting with me in MSN, about their problems. hahaz! i'm really Mr. Look-For-Me-When-You-Are-Sad. cool manz!

would there be 1 day, when God's word would strike forth man's heart so strongly and immediately that it would bring sad souls to joy, defeated souls to victory and confused souls to calm-ness?

i await that day.
back from church, feeling sleepy and somehow, "shut off" from the world.

woke up at around 1130am and went online. there wasn't much people online except for shuhui. well, of cause i chatted with her. it was a conversion of ever-changing topics~ from working to astrology to horoscopes to why are man getting controlled by money. if i didn't notice the time, i think we would have continued chatting.

we didn't stop until 4 plus when she had to go. but, i had a great time chatting with her, especially about astrology. it's quite rare to find a person who's extremely interested in astrology - the myths and mysteries behind everything in the universe. the blackholes, the meaning of the planets, the billions and trillions of stars... wow! we're in a super small earth.

a typical idea about astrology is stars~ nothing but stars, and their knowledge of stars are just little white dots in the skies twinkling. to them, it's beautiful... but there's more then it meets the eye.

i was like that at 1130am. but at around 2pm, i was transformed~ shuhui showed me a site that was about the galaxy and i was transfixed to the informations. i realized that the galaxy is really beautiful and there are so many "areas" that are left unexplored.

i felt that everything is being planned out so beautifully. God planned all these events to happen - the bigbang, the blackholes, the planets, the stars, the galaxy, the milkyway... everything! everything we see on earth, is such a beauty. the skies are blue as the vapours reflects only blue colour, for some various reason. the night sky is enchanting with stars and planets that are visible to the naked eye.

imagine life in venus, where it's the hottest planet, or pluto, the coldest.

24 hours is all we need in a day. 12 hours of sun, another 12 of moon. (not sure about other parts of the world...) other planets experience 10 hours a day, some more, some less. their gravity pull ain't quite 9.81, but huge planets like jupiter got their gravity set so high, it's impossible for life. water is the source of life, and the earth is 70% (i think) water! not all drinkable of cause, but technology has breakthroughs that allows seawaters to be distilled to become drinking water.

the earth is all we have to live in, and people are polluting, destroying it. are people stopping in their tracks, and looking up to the skies admiring what God has done for us - the sun, moon, skies, stars, planets. perhaps everyone is too busy to do that.

what if 1 day, we establish contact with humans from other planets, would it be interesting or dangerous? think - survival of the fittest.

feel that the sun is a huge fireball? be amazed that some stars are way larger then the sun and it's impossible for the sun to become a blackhole because it's too small. amazing? God planned all these, so that the sun would not become a blackhole, sucking all the planets in the solar system into eternal darkness.

perhaps i'm over-reacting, but these thoughts have lingered in my mind for quite sometime actually. nothing happens accidently, it's all planned by God. there are hidden reasons behind every action, so does God. He has his own reasons for doing things, often unknown and doubtful.

his existance is even a doubt to unbelievers! but, who set the stars in their places, and made earth a place for humans. the bible calls him God.

i think i should stop here.

well, after chatting with shuhui, i played a bit of gunbound before heading to church.

had dinner with leo, xiaojia and ee yong, or rather, they watched me eat as they ate popcorn chicken only.

service... perhaps i had too much on my mind, and i felt weird. i didn't seem to focus and concentrate, but i know what was going on. wrote down notes and responded like usual, but it was after service that made me feel weird.

i felt that i drifted away from God~

had a nice chat with alvina and she encouraged me, sharing with me many stuffs of what should i do, and not do.

xiaojia got me a book about being strong as a man. both stuffs encouraged me loads, and i began to realise my mistakes, my flaws and my sins.

Christianity ain't quite a bed of roses~ vene told me that before. i guess i'll have to keep that firm in mind and overcome my current situation.

action speaks louder then words, working develops my potential and serving God is His command for us.

i think Pastor Kong is cool! saving souls all over the world, doing things that no one dared to dream of - 100,000 souls to be saved. i think he has exceeded the target, and going for more!

i wannabe like him!

Friday, May 14, 2004

long day i had on thurday~

met up with herman, weilun and junjiang then we travelled to CCK gym together, as usual. work out lasted about 2 hours which wasn't quite as intensed as tuesday, but still i was quite tired.

i seriously wonder how long would it take for me to grow huge in size. it seems that everytime after gym, we feel tired only, and our arms doesn't seem to grow. does it really take a long time? hAaz=) i don't want to resort to mass gain or proteins=/

then, we went to swim~ had a great time slacking, suntanning and trying to drown herman and weilun =D the suntanning thingy was a very last minute decision. but, i'm facing a very bad situation now - i'm burnt=/ my arms are totally reddish, so is my back. the worst thing is that my back is starting to hurt now=/

rushed down to bugis to meet up with josline, eugene, nick and charlotte. it's been quite sometime since i last met up with them, and they noticed that i'm extremely tanned now. hahaz~ then eugene spilled the beans that i've been hitting the gym and swimming.

then, once again, we headed to party world ( as usual ) and sung KTV. bad day for singing! went off key many times, and i seem to be john stevens today. haHaz~

after KTV, herman and i had a crazy idea - we wanted to walk home from orchard. at first, we guessed that we would reach home in 2 hours, but after walking 20 minutes, i suddenly asked him if he wanted to take a cab home. we both agreed and we flagged for a cab. loLx=P the cab fare cost around 14 bucks? but i gave herman 12 bucks only~ thank God the cab uncle didn't mind~

i can't believe that its friday already!

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

another of those days, where i slack the entire day at home either sleeping or online staring at the screen.

even CM4 gets pretty boring as tim howard is injured for 2 months, and my reserve keepers STINKS! almost started a new S-League game, but i was lazy... their teams are pure crap anyway=/

ARGH!!
woah. just came back from a great 7 hours marathon of singing at kbox~

it was a very last minute decision made by herman when we were swimming after our gym. i was extremely tempted as i haven been singing at kbox for a long period of time. herman also said that this is a great chance for us to play after the exams~ =P

7 hours of pure throat singing stinks! but, i still enjoy singing very much~ i wonder how do people use their ( stomach ) to sing? it sorts of projects their voice, and doesn't hurt their throats.

herman and i were running out of songs, then we started singing songs that we sung earlier. hahaZz~

tried wang li hong's ni bu zai without him singing in the background. serious hardstuff, but really nice to sing. i'm not sure about my singing, but i ain't quite satisfied~ loLx=P

i'm going to teach you guys how to survive for 7 hours of singing.

- bring water, if possible, honey water. it works miracles for your throat.

- bring honey sweet too~

- entertainment for yourself, if your singing in a large group.

- prepare a list of songs mentally, so that you won't run out of songs.

- bring food~ after much singing, you tend to get hungry.

uh. that's all i can think of right now~ lolx=)

Monday, May 10, 2004

cool. blogger revonated their site, and it looks sleek now. several new features like profiles and pictures, but i wonder where would readers view my profile. lolx=P

enjoying the aircon right now~ the installation of the aircon took around 7 hours! for the entire 7 hours, my dad and i slacked at the living room, falling asleep every now and then, watched super crap TV shows.

after the installation was done, my dad and i had to clean up the mess. the entire house was covered in dust and i had to vacuum and mop several times then it was clean=/

it was quite tiring, and my fingers are still numb from the cleaning.

well, i played basketball at BPCC after cleaning up. played like crap, i really need more practise if i want to play at my best level=/ sigh~

it's been quite a while since i last stepped into CCK gym. finally getting the change to workout tomorrow~ =D=D

enjoying the aircon...
updating my blog sitting on the floor. hehz=/ not as comfortable as the chair though, but i'm left with no choice. furnitures are being arranged for the aircon man thats coming tomorrow, and my room looks like a huge storeroom right now.

my room is the least affected of the other 2 rooms, but now, it's the crowdest room as all the junks are stored in my room. sigh~

had a super boring sunday, had nothing to do... playing gunbound is boring especially when you got super no-common-sense team mates=/

ate frog porridge at geylang. quite cool, the flesh is sweet and tender. but it aint quite filling though. hahazzz

i can't stand blogging on the floor, gotta go=)

Saturday, May 08, 2004

it's the first day of my holidays!!!!

woke up early, checked my computer, only 1 smallville episode is complete... but now, at least 3 episodes are completed.

played gunbound with 2 sleepy heads - wanling and jieqi. loLx! had a great time, but i had to leave cause i had to attend the group camp meeting=/

i've been appointed the sub camp chief!! and that means that i'm in-charge of a entire division in the camp, which consists of 3 schools. it's gonna be tough as i've been a "stranger" to the boys and to those that know me, they know that i'm a very relaxed person. i guess i'll really have to beef up and start being fierce to the GRSS boys first. =X

cellgroup meeting~ science and wonders~ it would be seriously cool, if i demostrate God's power during my scouts camp! there are about 150+ scouts, not including ventures, rovers and leaders. imagine this scene - a boy falls and hurts himself badly, i pray and heal him, he recovers! COOL! said easy, done hard huh? hAaz=P

finally got my chance to play basketball earlier. super rusty and stiff. heck, but i had a great time~ crazy bunch of people were there - xuanfeng, eddy... lolx=P

i stink now!! >.<
woah. and i'm sending 18 episodes of smallville to sijie now... via MSN and ICQ. time remaining - 44 hours. thats like almost 2 days=/
IM FREE!!! FREE FROM EXAMINATIONS!!

though the paper was tricky and hard, i guess i would manage to scrape through=) i don't even want to think about my results... heez=P no more examinations!!!

service! mothers' day sermon. lolx... i guess it sort of "woke" me up, and realised how "bad" i was at home. always raising my voice, going against and often, felt that she's naggy. sigh~ gotta start working on those bad points of mine... i guess i gotta endure more, control my tone more and learn to "communicate" more...

smallville~~~ can't stop watching it~ loLx=P clark has a GF that teleports! cooL! but, they broke up like within days? cause that girl is like so freaky! lolx=P but, she's a seriously hot babe=X lana is pretty, cute... but that girl is like sexy... woAhz~

it's getting pretty late now, but i don't feel like sleeping... lolx=P

Friday, May 07, 2004

in another 3 hours, i'll be sitting for my last paper. another 5 hours, i'll be free from the clutches of evil... wOopiEe!
back from studying in school with yanren, sijie, alvin and howie! lolx=P

sijie brought along a portable radio with CD player, and we blasted chen lei's songs! we were laughing our asses off when yanren starting dancing to the tune, with the kind of face chen lei would have on his MTVs. lolx!!

i ordered mcdonalds for my dinner. lolx=P $20.60!! fillet meal up-sized drink changed to icetea, 2 medium iceteas, 3 large fries~ loLx! stuffing ourselves with food while eating.

cockroaches invaded the place too. there were about 4-5 cockroaches spotted and around 3 were stomped by yanren. the usual cockroach killer=/

the stupid school security came over and scolded us too, for making a din. he said that the lecturers were complaining that we were too noisy. but the blocks nearby were pitch dark... so where's the lecturers?

then, alvin drove us to commonwealth where we continued studying and i taught them some questions in the past year paper.

hey! california membership is only 41 bucks per month!! it's freaking cheep for a great gym and location plus all the facilities, it's a must get. yanren and i are considering... herman! lets join!

signing up for work at job agencies tomorrow at jurong east too~ gotta work, else i can't afford stuffs=/

Thursday, May 06, 2004

argh~ woke up earlier and my mom nagged at me. she asked me if i'm interested in working at my auntie's factory. well, told her that i'm not interested and she exploded in my face.

i don't want to work at my auntie's place!! maybe because of the long hours? and the environment. basically, i don't really like the idea of working for a relative too. past experience has been haunting.

ES paper seriously stinks. paper's hard, and i forgot most of the formulas.

haiz, going back to school to study later=/

Wednesday, May 05, 2004

-stressed-

woke up at around 8.10am and realised that i'm going to be late for my PSP paper. rushed around and left at 8.40. didn't take a cab as i'm trying to save as much money as possible, so i took a bus. i was late for 5 minutes, not that bad.

i thought that i was well prepared for the paper, the first question was quite easy, but afterwards, each questions set me thinking really hard and many times, i almost "died" thinking. nontheless, i completed the paper, but i'm only confident of 30 marks. sigh~

then, i went to CCK to study my ES. sigh~ it's quite difficult to study in a noisy environment, but i managed to endure. then, when i attempted the questions, i realised that i forgot some formulas, took out my textbook and i referred to it. i wasn't able to get the final answer and i was really frustrated.

my eyes were hurting, my head was spilting, i never felt so tired before. started to message my friends, asking if they got the answers, but non of them did. feeling extremely frustrated, i packed up and left.

met nabisha at the interchange. sat down and chatted with her.

in the bus, i remembered that i have serene's number. i messaged her immediately and asked if she got the answers. thank God!! she have them and she don't mind typing it out for me!! wOopIeeEe!! can't stop thanking her~ tEehEe~

i'm really really tired now. fatigue?

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

im sososo sleepy~

went to study in school just now with yanren, howie, alvin and germaine. i arrived the latest and they started studying quite long ago. took out my PSP paper, and started too. but i felt quite tired and my eyes were heavy, wasn't really able to concentrate that well.

but, i continued to do the paper with much frustration as my answers are always different from the model answer. then, we ordered canadian pizza - hawaiian and pepperoni. 2nd time eating pizza in school~ lolx=P

when my friends went to the toilet, and i was sitting alone, i heard a girl scream - extremely high pitch. then, when they came back, they were laughing like crazy. then, i was told that yanren hit inside the girl's toilet and gave germaine a scare. LOL! it was really funny looking at howie act out germaine's reaction=X

we continued studying afterwards... then, suddenly, i looked towards my left side, i SAW A COCKROACH!! i shouted and backed away from the cockroach. well, little secert disclosed, BUT i also realised that ALL my friends are also afraid of the cockroach! hAhaz! yanren then used his slippers to kill the cockroach.

few minutes later, i saw another cockroach and all of us backed away again. lolx=P then, its yanren who used his slippers to kill the cockroach, again.

gross.

i sososo tired! my eyes are watery=/
back from gym! wOopiEe!

weilun and i practically tried all the machines in the gym today~ loLx=P

some ventures appeared in the gym and the swimming complex too, joanne, kokyeow, eugene, dennis, alvin etc etc... loLz~

then, i went swimming and joanne and gang saw me. loLx! they said that they were talking about me, when i suddenly appeared. hAhaz! but they were not talking bad stuffs about me =P

i don't feel the ache anymore!! wOohOo!! but, i think i strained my left arms. loLx=P

gonna study soon=/

Monday, May 03, 2004

1 paper down and 3 to go~

was around 5 minutes late for the paper today, but it wasn't much of a problem. the questions were quite similar to those that i studied, but there were minor questions that i had to "guess" my way through. kekez~

made sure that i wrote loads of stuffs this time, and there were around 2-3 questions were i answered like 2 full pages of crap~ =P

came home and watched SMALLVILLE on my notebook!! LENA!! KRISTIN KREUK!! she's such a sweet girl in smallville! oh manz!! she's like the perfect girl in every guy's eyes! and she's extremely sweet in her words too!! i MELTED whenever she speaks, or when she's on the screen~ -meLts-

i'm gonna download more smallville episodes.... lena~~~~
-yAwnz-

went to cut my hair earlier at my usual saloon - brillant cut at rail mall. the place was overflowing, and i had to wait for my turn. was given a wash as i had gel on my head. woah~ i almost fell asleep when my head was being massaged. felt really comfortable and "light" headed. loLx=P

another stylist took me today, my usual stylists ( 2 in fact ) were attending to other customers. well, i think it won't really make a difference as the style i cut is really short and "standard" lolx=P

i noticed that 1 of my stylist looks like raine yang chen ling... WOAH!!

headed for school to study with yanren and i downloaded the revision slides. sigh... 164 pages of notes for us to read through. i could not get all into my brain, and all i did was just to read through everything.

went down to popular at bukit timah and bought stuffs for charmaine. a 0.38 fine pen, clear file and foolscape paper ( ozone brand. ) hAaz~ wondering why i'm so nice to her? cause she treated me pizza for our supper once=) and, she deserves it lah=)

sigh. i was watching smallville at home too~ lolx=P i wonder why clark is SO STUPID to reject lena!! MANZ! lena MUST be the PRETTIEST girl alive!! her eyes are so beautiful, so are her features! sigh~ clark got to kiss her too >.<

sigh, i've to WORK!! i got to study!! for the glory of God! i'll STUDY!!

Sunday, May 02, 2004

a beautiful song to share=)

hold me now - wayne wonder..

I have a picture,
Pinned to my wall.
An image of you and of me and we're laughing and loving it all.
Look at our life now, tattered and torn.
We fuss and we fight and delight in the tears that we cry until dawn

Hold me now, warm my heart
Stay with me, let loving start (let loving start)

You say I'm a dreamer, we're two of a kind
Both of us searching for some perfect world we know we'll never find
So perhaps I should leave here, yeah yeah go far away
But you know that theres no where that I'd rather be than with you here
Today

[Chorus]

You ask if I love you, well what can I say?
You know that I do and if this is just one of those games that we play
So I'll sing you a new song, please don't cry anymore
And then I'll ask your forgiveness, though I don't know just what I'm
Asking it for

[Chorus]
hectic day~ lolx.

i woke up pretty late and was told to clean the ceiling fans=/

channel 5 was showing a movie that's really cool too. it's about a dog called Einstein who's freaking talented and smart. lolx=P the dog even speaks! cool huh? =D i lurve shows like this? it's simple, but really touching and it shows what animals can do...

S.H.E magical tour next~ hmm. it's really weird watching them on TV? somehow, their facial expression gave them away. hebe really looked like the world owes her money, selina is trying too hard to be cute. BUT, ELLA really rawks! lolx~! herman~ i think i'm beginning to like ella~ =X

cellgroup! i was late for prayer meeting~ =x dum dee dee dum dum

went down to my relative's place afterwards, and i played games on his PC and PS2. his PC is cramped with games! LOADS of games!! manxz!! the amazing part is that, it's mostly the latest games! loLz=P had a great time trying out all the new games, but i got tired of them after a period of time.

going to school to study tomorrow, or rather, later. lolx=P sighhh

Saturday, May 01, 2004

as usual, i went to gym with xianghao and kwokxin today.

i did heavy weights, but low repetitions. but, i don't feel the strain in my arms or body. i don't know if that's a good or bad sign cause if i strain my body, i would know that i worked to my limit. maybe the next time i go to the gym, i shall try heavy weights, higher repetitions and more sets. relive the days in dragonboat...

played gunbound with wanling and jieqi afterwards. lolx~ we were quite on-form and i think we lost only 2 games? out of like 10+ games~ but, i lost track of time and left house a little late for church.

last lesson of getting started~!! though i was late, i was glad i didn't miss out on the lesson? passing the quiz would entitle me the ordinary membership card~ would i? it's a really beautiful card and i can't wait to have my hands on it=D perhaps next time it would be exclusive member? teehee~

service! pastor kong! woopie! need i say more? =D thru hardwork, i would unleash my potential~