its been a humbling day for me. now i know what they mean when they say look at God for answer, seek God first in everything you do, give God your problems, fears and stress.

its really very challenging overcoming the mental breakdown i experienced. i almost wanted to give up and leave the main stunt team. but, as i tried to leave my distractions and problems behind, i realised that i still wasn't able to concentrate. then, it came upon me that i should seek God first in everything i do and i prayed with 2 of my team members.

this is really a team game.

well, you maybe wondering whats the fear that was gripping me - when we were on stage, we were supposed to do elevated pop cradle on samantha. i didn't fully extend my arms thus causing samantha to fly to my direction. i turned around, tried to catch her, but caught her legs instead. our backspot caught her, but she still landed on the floor. the impact looked pretty serious, and she was inches from the edge of the floor and keyboards. the entire auditorum went silent as samantha laid there. i felt like killing myself at the period of time, cause i didn't catch her and i didn't execute my move properly. worst of all, she was thrown up to around 2 levels high?

but, God's protection was on her, and she didn't injure herself! praise God!

we didn't have the time to practise as everything was very messed up and we had to teach the others the stunts too. even when i was teaching them, i was like shouting and scolding them because i didn't want them to commit the same mistake as i did. many times, i felt like scolding them, but i remembered that we should encourage each other, so i started to encourage them by saying nice try, we can do it! stuffs like that~ lolx=P

well, I WILL NOT BE DEFEATED YOU STUPID DEVIL! HAHAHA!

2 Timothy 1:7 For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of POWER, and of LOVE and of a SOUND MIND! AMEN!

training tomorrow! samantha cannot suffer any scares, stratch or fear when we practise. NOT even a single strand of hair would drop on her.