It's been a million years since I last blogged. Feeling rusty.

Still deciding if I should write about that person. But I think it's rather redundant now. She's not gonna read it and she's happier than before.

Perhaps I just got myself to blame. My actions propelled her away and being 50,000 miles apart, it is really quite difficult to hold on to me; something that hurt you so much all the time.

Recent revelation shook me up a little. I guess I never wanted to know, even though the possibly is great. I haven't really dealt with it and I guess because I'm ready for it, God revealed it.

Was like a floodgate of emotions, but this time, I was able to control my emotions pretty well. I felt stronger and in control.

Thank God for a really understanding friend at that ungodly time.

To you, and you, I am really happy for you both.

Joel