i think i think too much. its time to move on and i shouldn't bother about such stuffs. people come and go, but true friends stay.

no matter what happens, i know that if i need someone, He's there for me and i should be contended. for He's the only one who i can depend on and He's able.

as much as i expect, i fall. why should i cause myself to fall and feel hurt?

at the same time, i want to be there for you. when you're down and out, i want to be the person listening, or just being with you. i don't mind the distance, time or location. just as long as you're fine, i'm fine.

but i guess that wouldn't happen much...

should i fade away or should i hang on?

wouldn't it be too stupid?

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food for though. i guess this is something everyone goes through and most of the time, the situation seems negative. but i guess both parties have to do their part and make things happen.

well, this thingy just struck my mind...

to everyone : the same old saying that i always say - i'm always just a phonecall away. 24 hours standby, pleasePLEASE call me.

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sometimes i wonder who's the real me.

is the joel you know a quiet person or a crappy person?

personally, i'm the quiet guy. but i would joke around just to break the ice. but slowly, my jokes would cease and the amount of words i speak would decrease.

its not because you're a boring person, but because thats just me.

even ben asked if i'm usually a quiet person and i realized that i've been really quiet recently. i guess its more of not knowing what to say than keep quiet because of misunderstandings.

when you see me talk a lot to someone, it shows that i want to know that person more. but if you realize, at the end of the session, i would know something more about you, but you don't.

it kind of freaks me out now, even as i think.

not a lot of people really know me. charmaine thinks that i'm the crazy and whacky person, natalie thinks that i'm the quiet but full of shit person, yuxuan thinks that i'm caring towards everyone.

huge differences from 3 friends.

i guess i'm more of the listener most of the times and the "leader" only when the spotlights on me.

i'm never the smartest or the coolest dude around, and i do not act like them. i'm never the babe magnet with loads of girl-friends and i'm not always surrounded by girls.

i would rather spend time with a loved one and feel extremely contented. even if its just 5 minutes, i would be glad. its the quality that counts, not the quantity.

i dream of the sweetest possible moments and wish that its happening to me. if my eyes can speak, i hope it speaks sincerity.

i do really care... i may not show it, but did you feel it?