Thursday, January 12, 2006

Often we see couples, seemingly loving, family members spending time together. we often feel that there's love between the parties, but recently, a certain thought struck me.

is it true love or "no-choice" love?

when you love someone, you naturally show care and concern to that person. you would be very tolerant and patient with that person. no matter how serious the arguments can get, you'll always be the first to forgive and the first to give in. not forgetting the one that always tries to please the other party.

but when you have "no-choice" but to love someone, you tend to get frustrated and irritated easily. you tend to pick on the person a lot and vent your frustrations all on that person even though its not their fault.

example -> a mom loves her child a lot, but the child has "no-choice" because she's his mom! so when the mom starts to ask a little more questions about school, the child gets irritated. why does this happen?

because the child does not understand! to the child, to love is just to receive.

in every relationship, we have to give and take. as we all mature, we start to form deeper relationships with our friends. we can never expect to keep taking from them because when troubles come, you're not "used" to giving your "love" / sacrificing for other people.

same goes for our relationship with God! His love is pure love, agape love! the selfless love that He has for us! yet some of us here has abused His love, just to receive His blessings! when the storms come, they blame God for all the bad things and turn their backs against Him.

don't people realize that the more you give, the more you would receive because the blessings would increase?

the more you show LOVE to somebody, the more you would receive! on the other hand, the less love you show to somebody, the lesser you would receive!

so do you still want to be a person who has "no-choice" to love others or someone who's willing to lay down your lives for your friends and family members?

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

life's fragile.

sometimes when you least expect things to happen, they happen. life's so fragile, please handle with care. do not think that there's always a tomorrow, because you'll never know if tomorrow would come.

hurt someone today, heal it today. you may never have the chance to do that again.

don't take friends for granted. what kind of friend do you call that?

if you love someone, show it through your actions. speech alone may not be strong enough, because action speaks louder then words. if you love someone, be tolerant, patient and understanding towards them.

you reap what you sow, you never know when you need them more than you need someone else. they maybe always there for you, they may even become an irritating factor to you, but don't take them for granted.

treasure everyone, cherish them and esteem each other...

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

updates!

been quite sometime since i last updated! i've been busy busy and busy=P

firstly, we've officially moved to Singapore Expo!! we've been there for 3 weeks already and we're starting to fill up the entire place!! praise the Lord! recently during the Christmas celebrations, we had 4 services and when the altar call was given, the amount of people that responded was innumerable!

even the taiwan ambassdor responded!! i had to open up a way for him as he proceeded down to respond. praise God!! he was very appreciative of my efforts as i followed him throughout, opening ways for him to walk through.

i feel that serving in expo is quite fun. everyone has to put in that extra effort, to stand in the gap. rising up in ministry was challenging, but now in expo, i feel that everyone is rising up, taking on the challenge because there are so many things for us to take ownership of.

secondly, its my birthday this saturday!! woohoo!! finally i'm officially 21!! if you don't know what to buy for me, its ok!! here's my wishlist -
  • iPod Video
  • DKNY Watch
  • Topman Jeans
  • CK Shirts (Charmaine, do you remember this?)
  • Nice Long Sleeve Shirts
  • Suits
  • More T-Shirts
  • CASH! (To buy things i like!)
  • Shoes
  • New Specs?

notice that its all in pural? i don't mind multiple gifts, as long as its different=P

and lastly, the root beer float at i-can't-remember-where is FANTASTIC!

Monday, December 05, 2005

Joel, I baptise you in the name of the Father, Son and The Holy Spirit!

4 December 2005 will remain as a very special day for my walk with God because its the day that i get baptised!

nothing dramatic happened, no voices from heaven or doves landing on me, but something spiritual happened! my old man has DIED and i'm a new man now!! with the power of the Holy Spirit and the devil will NEVER get to control me anymore! muahhAha!!

another special thing is that i'm the last person to get baptised in the Jurong West premises! haha!! so cool!! the VERYVERY last person~ =P even pastor aries and pastor audrey were saying that i'm very blessed~ loL=P

btw, my baptism name is Jerome. but pastor aries called me joel instead!! hahaZz~ i guess coz he knows my name, if not, he simply read the first name on my sticker~ =P

took a lot of pictures!! so fun!! for the first time i was so excited about taking pictures!! hahazz! i practically ran everywhere to look for friends, in wet shirt n shorts, to take pictures=P but i've only received a few pictures~ faster send me the pictures!! =P

thanks to charmaine, my official photographer, sijia, who took loads of pictures for me, taifong, who took a few snapshots for me and fajin, who took a few snapshots of me too=D

woohoo!!

Friday, December 02, 2005

complains from charmaine, saying that i never blog. heh~ lazy to blog and don't know what to blog mah=P

anyway, today is SOMEONE'S birthday, but i can't seem to remember who that person is. so lets just forget about it and move on with life=)

we're moving to EXPO in just one more week!! *excited* we had our security briefing / training on EXPO and i'm amazed by the capacity and size of expo. though we haven been there to see it for ourselves, looking at the map itself amazes me.

moving to expo also means that we have to increase our capacity. we can't do things the way we did in Jurong West because its so different! expo is about 3 times bigger and there are so many sectors that contains thousands of people. if we're unable to increase our capacity, we can never serve God with our best.

with so much changes, everyone would be forced to move out of their comfort zone, to make adjustments and to rise up and take ownership. those left behind would eventually fall away because God has moved on. do you want to move with God or fall away?

anyway, life's been great=) a few changes here and there, adapting to changes around my life and accepting things with a pinch of salt. sometimes its tough, but its all worth it at the end of the day.

times may get tough, but tough times don't last! it takes more than patience and understanding to get over tough times. it takes pure determination, mental strength and calmness of the mind to access the siuation and not make things worst.

sometimes its just so hard to understand, but forcing it down with a pinch of salt and keeping quiet does wonders. no wonder the bible says that the more you speak, the more you sin. so if you're facing a difficult situation next time, the best solution is to keep quiet, stand back and access the siuation!!

managing emotions and thoughts is always so important because they can torment you the entire day. learning to control them should be taught in primary school!! its so important to manage our emotions and thoughts because it makes the difference between a happy person or a depressed one.

the devil knows our weaknesses and he constantly uses them to torment us. we can't fend off the devil using our own strength or thoughts. but only thru the word of God, the devil will be binded! at times i wished that i had that rhema word from God, and knowing that His voice is always there, i have to be very sensitive to His voice.

it can be tough during that period of time, but when you hear His voice, it almost feels like the power of water breaking through a waterdam.

all it takes is just a special moment to take all all doubts, fears and worries. just that special 60 seconds can make a difference between a great day or a bad day. sometimes words just cannot express our feelings, thats when our actions play an important role.

oh well, these are some of the thoughts that are in my mind currently=)

Thursday, November 17, 2005

please allow me to complain and rant like a mad dog in this post.

what is the school thinking of!? giving students projects that we have NO IDEA how to start. the best part? all of them require programming and the programming language is a language that we never learnt in school!

they encourage it because it promotes learning and sourcing of solutions, but dont they realize that its tiring!? imagine sitting down infront of our PC for 8 hours, staring at codes that you totally don't understand and sourcing for solutions that can never be found in the Internet!?

i shall stop here. i'm lazy to type.

Saturday, November 12, 2005

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

expectations

we're all expectation-people. we expect a certain level of standard from people and a higher standard from close friends and spouses.

sometimes arguments occur because we expect too much and thus misunderstand each other. usually when you know that your friends are of that level, you would never expect him/her to fall below the target.

but there are several things that i've learnt about managing our expectation level.

the more we expect, the harder we fall. when we expect high hopes and dreams, we tend to feel that the reality is not up to standard. thus causing disappointments.

but that doesn't mean that we don't expect anything!!

Jesus must have knew that Simon Peter would be the rock that He builds His church upon. thus He could have set high standards for Simon Peter. but Simon Peter failed Him so often, even rejecting Him 3 times.

Jesus knew about the END RESULTS. He knew that He had to die, so that the Holy Spirit can be poured out on all flesh. He knew that He had to be gone, so that Someone else can come.

if the future seems hazy, do we still continue building sandcastles in the air? its time to plan and do something about it!!

sometimes we hope that things would turn out differently. well, doesn't it bring out the creativity of God and how flexible God is? since He's so creative and flexible, why can't we all be creative and flexible too? be quick to adjust to changes, to make decisions and to reorganise thoughts.

and when things are seriously bad, do we still make big plans? plan small and careful steps that ensure victory!!

expectations of something / someone can make differences.

Monday, October 24, 2005

updates!

just thought of sharing about moving on in this entry.

many of us are being hindered from reaching their maximum potential by life. why? because they are unable to let go and move on with their life.

they choose to hang onto the problem, never letting it go and thinking that times would change.

yes! just actions may result in changes, but would the person continue to make a difference in your life or would that person end up hindering your walk with God?

true friends are people that flow in thoughts with you, and understands what you are going through even when there is no verbal communication. how many true friends we have in a lifetime?

does that make me sound like i'm a heartless creep? no! i do not forsake my friends when they need help. but when the friendship is on the rocks, what matters the most is the effort put in to restore the friendship.

Jesus came to this earth and died on the cross for us. He made that effort to restore that relationship between man and God. the 12 disciples, being filled with the Holy Spirit, went about preaching the gospel and thats how the Church started.

do you notice that its a two way situation? Jesus came down, died and the 12 disciples preached. there were actions involved! the 12 disciples could have kept quiet and refused to preach the gospel, but because they experienced the power of God through Jesus Christ's ministry on earth, they went about sharing about the power of God.

likewise in friendship. if a friendship is being damaged, we do all kinds of things possible to restore the friendship. one person can do all he wants to restore the friendship and though the problem may seem solved, the actions of the other may not justify it.

it takes two hands to clap!

if you're serious about the friendship, do something to show that you treasure the friendship!!

friendship is basically built on trust. if the trust is not there, its always hard to digest things mentioned. why would the trust be broken? through many ways!

ways like being insensitive, sudden change of focus and the worst of all, mentioning of secrets to someone else.

i may not know what's happening behind my back, but i got the Holy Spirit to help me! sometimes i tend to over react and think too much, but that doesn't mean that i stop using the Holy Spirit! He's the greatest Helper i can ever find and He prompts me whenever something seem to be happening.

just that i need to fine tune the sensitivity of the voice of the Holy Spirit=P

anyway, in situations when you feel like its a dead end and there's no where else to go, thats when you have to decide to move on or to hang on.

a mature man / women of God makes decisions, not leave things lying around. sometimes its painful to let go, but lets not be like the little girl that refuses to let go of her plastic pearls when she could have gotten real pearls on her birthday.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

life's wonderful!

when you think that everything is going down hill, God intervenes and makes Himself felt.

God's really great! i've been SOOO blessed recently and even in ministry, i'm getting "promoted" from elite 3 to elite 2 and for service 6 last sunday, ELITE 1!! well, because bro james, kaikeong had stuffs to do in service 6, so they left us and bro mike assigned me as elite 1 =)

it was a great experience as elite 1, totally different from normal services. thank God nothing much happened and i didn't experience much difficulties.

i haven been updating much because everyday of my life has been quite the same. waking up at 7am, school, dinner then home. it has become a boring routine, but at least there's table tennis to play in class. heh=P

services 2, 3, 4, 5 and 6 were fantastic! received revelations, wisdom and understanding of several stuffs and i feel that i'm already starting to change! ahahz=P the messages from Pastor Carl and Pastor Robert changed my thinking and my faith in God went a notch higher.

how do i know that? the devil's attacking me everyday, playing mindgames with me, that causes me to think negative thoughts and fear. thank God for a great God! as i put my faith and trust in Him, He will take care of the rest, which means He ensure that everything else fine!! i'll just have to focus and trust in Him!

we serve a great God!! hallelujah!

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Lifehouse - Breathing

I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what i'm gonna do when i get there
I take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace

Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where i wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be

I'm looking past the shadows in my mind into the truth
And i'm trying to identify the voices in my head
God wish won't you
Let me feel one more time what if feels like to feel
And break these caluses off me one more time

Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside of your door
And listen to you breathing
Its where I wanna be, yeah

Oh i don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting for
The scraps to fall off of your table to the ground
La da da da...
Cause i just wanna be here now

Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where i wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be

Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where i wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

IHP.

its just the second day and i'm getting really sick of it. why must i wake up at 7am everyday and go to school, in a freezing room and stare at my laptop!?

argh!!

projects have been assigned, but not some areas are not confirmed. i still gotta go for C Programming crash course before i can even attempt programming the integrated software for my project.

so what do i do in the mean time?

listen to songs, play really crap games and chat online.

its so freaking bored and cold in this room that i can't even think!

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

been such a long time since i last blogged!!

nothing much to update~

life's great and God is still a good God =)

Monday, September 12, 2005

Sunday, September 04, 2005

seems that everything kinda pieced together after service.

pastor tan shared about staying on our course, finishing strong in God. he shared about our destiny, purpose thats linked to our desires, how we trust God in our walk with Him and not allowing disappointments in our lives to bring us down.

he shared an analogy about people boarding the plane to LA, not knowing who the pilot is, and not knowing how the flight plan to LA and obeying simple instructions from the stewardess when the plane hits a turbulance.

with something thats of the norm, pastor tan used it to describe our walk with God.

we KNOW our destination (desires that the Holy Spirit placed in us). but we do not know how we're going to reach that destination. so we trust God to bring us to the right places, best places, that leads us to our destination.

along the way, we may meet problems and rough times, but if we listen and obey the voice of God, we would be safe! God is a good God and He wouldn't harm us!

when the plane hits an turbulance, do you knock on the cabin and instruct the pilot, or do you scramble to your seat and pray hard?

trust God!

God works towards our destination! He already has wonderful plans for everyone of us, but do we want to obey and yield to Him?

like any commerical plane, there's always a risk of being hijacked. disappointments can hijack our "planes" and cause it to go to another destination.

disappointment -> resentment -> bitterness.

bitterness is like poison to the soul. it would never reveal itself until triggered. by then, it would be too late because the damage is already done. once we have the careless, couldn't be bothered, attitude, beware! because bitterness maybe manifesting in you already.

bitterness has the power to overshadow relationships, the value and importance! that is why unresolved problems often leads to arguments, thus bitterness builds up and when it rears its ugly head, people breakup and give up relationships.

forgiveness is the only antidote for bitterness. its not just giving the person a chance to prove that he's really sorry. but its a GIFT, grace! the grace to forgive someone because of the VALUE of the relationship.

God forgives everyone of us because we're all valuable to Him. there's only one of us on this earth! we're all precious to Him!!

when God forgives, He has the FAITH that we would change for the better. likewise when we forgive someone, we must have the faith that he/she will change for the better!!

the bible says that if someone sins against us 7 times in a day and if he asks for forgiveness, we forgive that person 7 times in that day too!! look like how merciful our God is!!

but if we continue with the bitterness of our hearts, we would end up in a place of no repentance, a place where we can't even find God's peace in our hearts because there's just too many hatred in our hearts.

its our duty to forgive.

Thursday, September 01, 2005

photos are great memory triggers.

a picture is worth a thousand words and a picture can trigger all sorts of memories kept in our mind.

received 200mb of pictures from sean just now and as i was browsing through the photos, all kinds of memories came flooding into my mind. those bittersweet moments, euphoria and times of celebrations seems like yesterday.

everyone have moved on with their lives, back to what they used to do, but for some, its a life changing event.

treasure moments like this because you'll never know what will tomorrow bring.

friends, for eternity=)

Monday, August 29, 2005

blessed

its been a very long weekend, but i really treasure, experienced and learnt many things.

Thursday, August 25, 2005

willy wonka~ willy wonka~

hAaz=P finally i watched Charlie And The Chocolate Factory!! defintely worth the money and not only the show was nice, i really felt captivated, like as though i'm the in the factory itself!! =D

i don't understand why so many critics derate the movie just because the chocolate river isn't realistic enough or about some other stuffs~ really. i sat throughout the movie as though a 5 year old staring at a huge display of wonka's chocolate, wondering which chocolate bar contains the golden ticket. i was totally absorbed in the movie, thoughts alike from karenty. heh~

the show teaches about several stuffs~ not being greedy, not being whiny, not being proud and not being rude. at the end of the day, the good and humble boy, charlie, became the only survivor and he inherited the chocolate factory.

he had several extra points too. a boy at his age, his thinking is very matured and growing up in a poor family, he has learnt to place his family first in his life. not only that, he respects his elders and parents~

he was ready to sell his golden ticket so that his family would have money. he was determined to stay with the family members even though willy wonka gave him the chance to join him in the factory.

basically, he's the good boy in everyone's heart~ lolz=)

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

sacrifice. giving what we have to God, not the surplus.

everyone sacrifices in the kingdom of God, its all an equal amount. doesn't mean that if i stay throughout prayer meeting, i sacrifice more than those that left halfway through.

we never know the situations they are going through and they maybe facing crisis, but they put God first in their lives and honor Him by sacrificing their time to focus on His face.

such unsung heros, God will honor them.