expectations
we're all expectation-people. we expect a certain level of standard from people and a higher standard from close friends and spouses.
sometimes arguments occur because we expect too much and thus misunderstand each other. usually when you know that your friends are of that level, you would never expect him/her to fall below the target.
but there are several things that i've learnt about managing our expectation level.
the more we expect, the harder we fall. when we expect high hopes and dreams, we tend to feel that the reality is not up to standard. thus causing disappointments.
but that doesn't mean that we don't expect anything!!
Jesus must have knew that Simon Peter would be the rock that He builds His church upon. thus He could have set high standards for Simon Peter. but Simon Peter failed Him so often, even rejecting Him 3 times.
Jesus knew about the END RESULTS. He knew that He had to die, so that the Holy Spirit can be poured out on all flesh. He knew that He had to be gone, so that Someone else can come.
if the future seems hazy, do we still continue building sandcastles in the air? its time to plan and do something about it!!
sometimes we hope that things would turn out differently. well, doesn't it bring out the creativity of God and how flexible God is? since He's so creative and flexible, why can't we all be creative and flexible too? be quick to adjust to changes, to make decisions and to reorganise thoughts.
and when things are seriously bad, do we still make big plans? plan small and careful steps that ensure victory!!
expectations of something / someone can make differences.
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
Monday, October 24, 2005
updates!
just thought of sharing about moving on in this entry.
many of us are being hindered from reaching their maximum potential by life. why? because they are unable to let go and move on with their life.
they choose to hang onto the problem, never letting it go and thinking that times would change.
yes! just actions may result in changes, but would the person continue to make a difference in your life or would that person end up hindering your walk with God?
true friends are people that flow in thoughts with you, and understands what you are going through even when there is no verbal communication. how many true friends we have in a lifetime?
does that make me sound like i'm a heartless creep? no! i do not forsake my friends when they need help. but when the friendship is on the rocks, what matters the most is the effort put in to restore the friendship.
Jesus came to this earth and died on the cross for us. He made that effort to restore that relationship between man and God. the 12 disciples, being filled with the Holy Spirit, went about preaching the gospel and thats how the Church started.
do you notice that its a two way situation? Jesus came down, died and the 12 disciples preached. there were actions involved! the 12 disciples could have kept quiet and refused to preach the gospel, but because they experienced the power of God through Jesus Christ's ministry on earth, they went about sharing about the power of God.
likewise in friendship. if a friendship is being damaged, we do all kinds of things possible to restore the friendship. one person can do all he wants to restore the friendship and though the problem may seem solved, the actions of the other may not justify it.
it takes two hands to clap!
if you're serious about the friendship, do something to show that you treasure the friendship!!
friendship is basically built on trust. if the trust is not there, its always hard to digest things mentioned. why would the trust be broken? through many ways!
ways like being insensitive, sudden change of focus and the worst of all, mentioning of secrets to someone else.
i may not know what's happening behind my back, but i got the Holy Spirit to help me! sometimes i tend to over react and think too much, but that doesn't mean that i stop using the Holy Spirit! He's the greatest Helper i can ever find and He prompts me whenever something seem to be happening.
just that i need to fine tune the sensitivity of the voice of the Holy Spirit=P
anyway, in situations when you feel like its a dead end and there's no where else to go, thats when you have to decide to move on or to hang on.
a mature man / women of God makes decisions, not leave things lying around. sometimes its painful to let go, but lets not be like the little girl that refuses to let go of her plastic pearls when she could have gotten real pearls on her birthday.
just thought of sharing about moving on in this entry.
many of us are being hindered from reaching their maximum potential by life. why? because they are unable to let go and move on with their life.
they choose to hang onto the problem, never letting it go and thinking that times would change.
yes! just actions may result in changes, but would the person continue to make a difference in your life or would that person end up hindering your walk with God?
true friends are people that flow in thoughts with you, and understands what you are going through even when there is no verbal communication. how many true friends we have in a lifetime?
does that make me sound like i'm a heartless creep? no! i do not forsake my friends when they need help. but when the friendship is on the rocks, what matters the most is the effort put in to restore the friendship.
Jesus came to this earth and died on the cross for us. He made that effort to restore that relationship between man and God. the 12 disciples, being filled with the Holy Spirit, went about preaching the gospel and thats how the Church started.
do you notice that its a two way situation? Jesus came down, died and the 12 disciples preached. there were actions involved! the 12 disciples could have kept quiet and refused to preach the gospel, but because they experienced the power of God through Jesus Christ's ministry on earth, they went about sharing about the power of God.
likewise in friendship. if a friendship is being damaged, we do all kinds of things possible to restore the friendship. one person can do all he wants to restore the friendship and though the problem may seem solved, the actions of the other may not justify it.
it takes two hands to clap!
if you're serious about the friendship, do something to show that you treasure the friendship!!
friendship is basically built on trust. if the trust is not there, its always hard to digest things mentioned. why would the trust be broken? through many ways!
ways like being insensitive, sudden change of focus and the worst of all, mentioning of secrets to someone else.
i may not know what's happening behind my back, but i got the Holy Spirit to help me! sometimes i tend to over react and think too much, but that doesn't mean that i stop using the Holy Spirit! He's the greatest Helper i can ever find and He prompts me whenever something seem to be happening.
just that i need to fine tune the sensitivity of the voice of the Holy Spirit=P
anyway, in situations when you feel like its a dead end and there's no where else to go, thats when you have to decide to move on or to hang on.
a mature man / women of God makes decisions, not leave things lying around. sometimes its painful to let go, but lets not be like the little girl that refuses to let go of her plastic pearls when she could have gotten real pearls on her birthday.
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
life's wonderful!
when you think that everything is going down hill, God intervenes and makes Himself felt.
God's really great! i've been SOOO blessed recently and even in ministry, i'm getting "promoted" from elite 3 to elite 2 and for service 6 last sunday, ELITE 1!! well, because bro james, kaikeong had stuffs to do in service 6, so they left us and bro mike assigned me as elite 1 =)
it was a great experience as elite 1, totally different from normal services. thank God nothing much happened and i didn't experience much difficulties.
i haven been updating much because everyday of my life has been quite the same. waking up at 7am, school, dinner then home. it has become a boring routine, but at least there's table tennis to play in class. heh=P
services 2, 3, 4, 5 and 6 were fantastic! received revelations, wisdom and understanding of several stuffs and i feel that i'm already starting to change! ahahz=P the messages from Pastor Carl and Pastor Robert changed my thinking and my faith in God went a notch higher.
how do i know that? the devil's attacking me everyday, playing mindgames with me, that causes me to think negative thoughts and fear. thank God for a great God! as i put my faith and trust in Him, He will take care of the rest, which means He ensure that everything else fine!! i'll just have to focus and trust in Him!
we serve a great God!! hallelujah!
when you think that everything is going down hill, God intervenes and makes Himself felt.
God's really great! i've been SOOO blessed recently and even in ministry, i'm getting "promoted" from elite 3 to elite 2 and for service 6 last sunday, ELITE 1!! well, because bro james, kaikeong had stuffs to do in service 6, so they left us and bro mike assigned me as elite 1 =)
it was a great experience as elite 1, totally different from normal services. thank God nothing much happened and i didn't experience much difficulties.
i haven been updating much because everyday of my life has been quite the same. waking up at 7am, school, dinner then home. it has become a boring routine, but at least there's table tennis to play in class. heh=P
services 2, 3, 4, 5 and 6 were fantastic! received revelations, wisdom and understanding of several stuffs and i feel that i'm already starting to change! ahahz=P the messages from Pastor Carl and Pastor Robert changed my thinking and my faith in God went a notch higher.
how do i know that? the devil's attacking me everyday, playing mindgames with me, that causes me to think negative thoughts and fear. thank God for a great God! as i put my faith and trust in Him, He will take care of the rest, which means He ensure that everything else fine!! i'll just have to focus and trust in Him!
we serve a great God!! hallelujah!
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Lifehouse - Breathing
I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what i'm gonna do when i get there
I take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where i wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
I'm looking past the shadows in my mind into the truth
And i'm trying to identify the voices in my head
God wish won't you
Let me feel one more time what if feels like to feel
And break these caluses off me one more time
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside of your door
And listen to you breathing
Its where I wanna be, yeah
Oh i don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting for
The scraps to fall off of your table to the ground
La da da da...
Cause i just wanna be here now
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where i wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where i wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what i'm gonna do when i get there
I take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of grace
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where i wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
I'm looking past the shadows in my mind into the truth
And i'm trying to identify the voices in my head
God wish won't you
Let me feel one more time what if feels like to feel
And break these caluses off me one more time
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside of your door
And listen to you breathing
Its where I wanna be, yeah
Oh i don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting for
The scraps to fall off of your table to the ground
La da da da...
Cause i just wanna be here now
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where i wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
Cause I am hanging on every word you're saying
Even if you don't wanna speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
Cause I want nothing more than to sit outside heaven's door
And listen to you breathing
Its where i wanna be, yeah
Where I wanna be
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
IHP.
its just the second day and i'm getting really sick of it. why must i wake up at 7am everyday and go to school, in a freezing room and stare at my laptop!?
argh!!
projects have been assigned, but not some areas are not confirmed. i still gotta go for C Programming crash course before i can even attempt programming the integrated software for my project.
so what do i do in the mean time?
listen to songs, play really crap games and chat online.
its so freaking bored and cold in this room that i can't even think!
its just the second day and i'm getting really sick of it. why must i wake up at 7am everyday and go to school, in a freezing room and stare at my laptop!?
argh!!
projects have been assigned, but not some areas are not confirmed. i still gotta go for C Programming crash course before i can even attempt programming the integrated software for my project.
so what do i do in the mean time?
listen to songs, play really crap games and chat online.
its so freaking bored and cold in this room that i can't even think!
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Sunday, September 04, 2005
seems that everything kinda pieced together after service.
pastor tan shared about staying on our course, finishing strong in God. he shared about our destiny, purpose thats linked to our desires, how we trust God in our walk with Him and not allowing disappointments in our lives to bring us down.
he shared an analogy about people boarding the plane to LA, not knowing who the pilot is, and not knowing how the flight plan to LA and obeying simple instructions from the stewardess when the plane hits a turbulance.
with something thats of the norm, pastor tan used it to describe our walk with God.
we KNOW our destination (desires that the Holy Spirit placed in us). but we do not know how we're going to reach that destination. so we trust God to bring us to the right places, best places, that leads us to our destination.
along the way, we may meet problems and rough times, but if we listen and obey the voice of God, we would be safe! God is a good God and He wouldn't harm us!
when the plane hits an turbulance, do you knock on the cabin and instruct the pilot, or do you scramble to your seat and pray hard?
trust God!
God works towards our destination! He already has wonderful plans for everyone of us, but do we want to obey and yield to Him?
like any commerical plane, there's always a risk of being hijacked. disappointments can hijack our "planes" and cause it to go to another destination.
disappointment -> resentment -> bitterness.
bitterness is like poison to the soul. it would never reveal itself until triggered. by then, it would be too late because the damage is already done. once we have the careless, couldn't be bothered, attitude, beware! because bitterness maybe manifesting in you already.
bitterness has the power to overshadow relationships, the value and importance! that is why unresolved problems often leads to arguments, thus bitterness builds up and when it rears its ugly head, people breakup and give up relationships.
forgiveness is the only antidote for bitterness. its not just giving the person a chance to prove that he's really sorry. but its a GIFT, grace! the grace to forgive someone because of the VALUE of the relationship.
God forgives everyone of us because we're all valuable to Him. there's only one of us on this earth! we're all precious to Him!!
when God forgives, He has the FAITH that we would change for the better. likewise when we forgive someone, we must have the faith that he/she will change for the better!!
the bible says that if someone sins against us 7 times in a day and if he asks for forgiveness, we forgive that person 7 times in that day too!! look like how merciful our God is!!
but if we continue with the bitterness of our hearts, we would end up in a place of no repentance, a place where we can't even find God's peace in our hearts because there's just too many hatred in our hearts.
its our duty to forgive.
pastor tan shared about staying on our course, finishing strong in God. he shared about our destiny, purpose thats linked to our desires, how we trust God in our walk with Him and not allowing disappointments in our lives to bring us down.
he shared an analogy about people boarding the plane to LA, not knowing who the pilot is, and not knowing how the flight plan to LA and obeying simple instructions from the stewardess when the plane hits a turbulance.
with something thats of the norm, pastor tan used it to describe our walk with God.
we KNOW our destination (desires that the Holy Spirit placed in us). but we do not know how we're going to reach that destination. so we trust God to bring us to the right places, best places, that leads us to our destination.
along the way, we may meet problems and rough times, but if we listen and obey the voice of God, we would be safe! God is a good God and He wouldn't harm us!
when the plane hits an turbulance, do you knock on the cabin and instruct the pilot, or do you scramble to your seat and pray hard?
trust God!
God works towards our destination! He already has wonderful plans for everyone of us, but do we want to obey and yield to Him?
like any commerical plane, there's always a risk of being hijacked. disappointments can hijack our "planes" and cause it to go to another destination.
disappointment -> resentment -> bitterness.
bitterness is like poison to the soul. it would never reveal itself until triggered. by then, it would be too late because the damage is already done. once we have the careless, couldn't be bothered, attitude, beware! because bitterness maybe manifesting in you already.
bitterness has the power to overshadow relationships, the value and importance! that is why unresolved problems often leads to arguments, thus bitterness builds up and when it rears its ugly head, people breakup and give up relationships.
forgiveness is the only antidote for bitterness. its not just giving the person a chance to prove that he's really sorry. but its a GIFT, grace! the grace to forgive someone because of the VALUE of the relationship.
God forgives everyone of us because we're all valuable to Him. there's only one of us on this earth! we're all precious to Him!!
when God forgives, He has the FAITH that we would change for the better. likewise when we forgive someone, we must have the faith that he/she will change for the better!!
the bible says that if someone sins against us 7 times in a day and if he asks for forgiveness, we forgive that person 7 times in that day too!! look like how merciful our God is!!
but if we continue with the bitterness of our hearts, we would end up in a place of no repentance, a place where we can't even find God's peace in our hearts because there's just too many hatred in our hearts.
its our duty to forgive.
Thursday, September 01, 2005
photos are great memory triggers.
a picture is worth a thousand words and a picture can trigger all sorts of memories kept in our mind.
received 200mb of pictures from sean just now and as i was browsing through the photos, all kinds of memories came flooding into my mind. those bittersweet moments, euphoria and times of celebrations seems like yesterday.
everyone have moved on with their lives, back to what they used to do, but for some, its a life changing event.
treasure moments like this because you'll never know what will tomorrow bring.
friends, for eternity=)
a picture is worth a thousand words and a picture can trigger all sorts of memories kept in our mind.
received 200mb of pictures from sean just now and as i was browsing through the photos, all kinds of memories came flooding into my mind. those bittersweet moments, euphoria and times of celebrations seems like yesterday.
everyone have moved on with their lives, back to what they used to do, but for some, its a life changing event.
treasure moments like this because you'll never know what will tomorrow bring.
friends, for eternity=)
Monday, August 29, 2005
Thursday, August 25, 2005
willy wonka~ willy wonka~
hAaz=P finally i watched Charlie And The Chocolate Factory!! defintely worth the money and not only the show was nice, i really felt captivated, like as though i'm the in the factory itself!! =D
i don't understand why so many critics derate the movie just because the chocolate river isn't realistic enough or about some other stuffs~ really. i sat throughout the movie as though a 5 year old staring at a huge display of wonka's chocolate, wondering which chocolate bar contains the golden ticket. i was totally absorbed in the movie, thoughts alike from karenty. heh~
the show teaches about several stuffs~ not being greedy, not being whiny, not being proud and not being rude. at the end of the day, the good and humble boy, charlie, became the only survivor and he inherited the chocolate factory.
he had several extra points too. a boy at his age, his thinking is very matured and growing up in a poor family, he has learnt to place his family first in his life. not only that, he respects his elders and parents~
he was ready to sell his golden ticket so that his family would have money. he was determined to stay with the family members even though willy wonka gave him the chance to join him in the factory.
basically, he's the good boy in everyone's heart~ lolz=)
hAaz=P finally i watched Charlie And The Chocolate Factory!! defintely worth the money and not only the show was nice, i really felt captivated, like as though i'm the in the factory itself!! =D
i don't understand why so many critics derate the movie just because the chocolate river isn't realistic enough or about some other stuffs~ really. i sat throughout the movie as though a 5 year old staring at a huge display of wonka's chocolate, wondering which chocolate bar contains the golden ticket. i was totally absorbed in the movie, thoughts alike from karenty. heh~
the show teaches about several stuffs~ not being greedy, not being whiny, not being proud and not being rude. at the end of the day, the good and humble boy, charlie, became the only survivor and he inherited the chocolate factory.
he had several extra points too. a boy at his age, his thinking is very matured and growing up in a poor family, he has learnt to place his family first in his life. not only that, he respects his elders and parents~
he was ready to sell his golden ticket so that his family would have money. he was determined to stay with the family members even though willy wonka gave him the chance to join him in the factory.
basically, he's the good boy in everyone's heart~ lolz=)
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
sacrifice. giving what we have to God, not the surplus.
everyone sacrifices in the kingdom of God, its all an equal amount. doesn't mean that if i stay throughout prayer meeting, i sacrifice more than those that left halfway through.
we never know the situations they are going through and they maybe facing crisis, but they put God first in their lives and honor Him by sacrificing their time to focus on His face.
such unsung heros, God will honor them.
everyone sacrifices in the kingdom of God, its all an equal amount. doesn't mean that if i stay throughout prayer meeting, i sacrifice more than those that left halfway through.
we never know the situations they are going through and they maybe facing crisis, but they put God first in their lives and honor Him by sacrificing their time to focus on His face.
such unsung heros, God will honor them.
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
let me take you all on a journey.
on our church's 16 anniversary, we filled up indoor stadium. we had to reject close to 300 members. i was told that indoor stadium maximum capacity is 12,000. Pastor Kong shared that some zones had their service on saturday~ something that not everyone knows.
lets switch our faith mode on.
if SIS is still small for our church, won't our future 7,000 seater stadium be TOO small within 2-3 years?
18,500 divide by 6 = 2,642 <- currently this is our average attendance for 6 services.
so if we have a 7,000 seater stadium, we would have 2.6 services, which rounds off to 3 services. in 2-3 years time, by the grace of God, if we have 6 services again, the attendance would run off to 42,000!!
old trafford sits 55,000 people. if we have 6 services, it would total up to 330,000!!
can you just imagine the day when 55,000 people come together and worship as one body of Christ? AMAZING.
our God IS amazing.
on our church's 16 anniversary, we filled up indoor stadium. we had to reject close to 300 members. i was told that indoor stadium maximum capacity is 12,000. Pastor Kong shared that some zones had their service on saturday~ something that not everyone knows.
lets switch our faith mode on.
if SIS is still small for our church, won't our future 7,000 seater stadium be TOO small within 2-3 years?
18,500 divide by 6 = 2,642 <- currently this is our average attendance for 6 services.
so if we have a 7,000 seater stadium, we would have 2.6 services, which rounds off to 3 services. in 2-3 years time, by the grace of God, if we have 6 services again, the attendance would run off to 42,000!!
old trafford sits 55,000 people. if we have 6 services, it would total up to 330,000!!
can you just imagine the day when 55,000 people come together and worship as one body of Christ? AMAZING.
our God IS amazing.
Sunday, August 14, 2005
sunday=)
praise God!! my mom signed up for maxonline 6500 and they gave away a HP pocketPC as part of the promotion!!! though its not the latest model, but quite a number of church members are using that model and it seems rather well liked=D
pastor kong shared about worship today and even though it was a repeated sermon, and my third time listening to it, i learnt so much more and understood things better. pastor phil shared that worship is when God is the ONLY one in our life.
joshua clearly showed that God is His only one in his life. though he wasn't the outstanding leader, God used him to bring the israelites to the promised land. joshua oftened lingered in the presence of God, without any agenda!! he simply loved the presence of God and he often stayed behind to pray, to dwell in the presence of God.
when we have an intimate relationship with God, He reveals secrets to us!! isn't that amazing?
God is looking for someone who's after His heart. not someone who's after His heart and with conditions attached to it. someone who's willing to lay down his life in exchange of all of Him. not knowing what the future may bring; just wanting to serve God.
often people ask me whats my plan after the army, and i'll rattle off - i'll enroll into the SOT and hopefully by then, i'll get into full time ministry.
i realized that such plans is not serving God, but its ministry. its like telling God what i want to do for Him, instead of what He wants me to do. furthermore, the bible says that we can never be assured of what tomorrow comes. everything happens by the grace of God, by His divine timing.
its great to have visions, as they're from the Lord. but to have plans is another thing altogether. bible says if we don't plan, we plan to fail. but we have to plan with the fear of the Lord. when God gave a vision, His people planned. why? because God never fails to make the vision come to past.
back to worship =)
worshipping God is definitely amazing. pastor ming once said that he doesn't understand why some people worship God and their facial expression doesn't change. its always a -_- look, even when its fast beat songs.
kinda understood that today as i found myself FULL of expressions, singing till my throat hurt, giving my best to my Lord and i looked around and saw people just standing there clapping their hands with that i-can't-be-bothered look.
really sad seeing that happening. is our God such a boring God that you can't stir yourself up and praise Him? please don't say that you worship Him in your heart, because whatever your heart expresses, your physical being expresses it too.
oh well. i'm not in the position to judge people too. heh~
well. KEEPING MY FOCUS ON GOD!!!
praise God!! my mom signed up for maxonline 6500 and they gave away a HP pocketPC as part of the promotion!!! though its not the latest model, but quite a number of church members are using that model and it seems rather well liked=D
pastor kong shared about worship today and even though it was a repeated sermon, and my third time listening to it, i learnt so much more and understood things better. pastor phil shared that worship is when God is the ONLY one in our life.
joshua clearly showed that God is His only one in his life. though he wasn't the outstanding leader, God used him to bring the israelites to the promised land. joshua oftened lingered in the presence of God, without any agenda!! he simply loved the presence of God and he often stayed behind to pray, to dwell in the presence of God.
when we have an intimate relationship with God, He reveals secrets to us!! isn't that amazing?
God is looking for someone who's after His heart. not someone who's after His heart and with conditions attached to it. someone who's willing to lay down his life in exchange of all of Him. not knowing what the future may bring; just wanting to serve God.
often people ask me whats my plan after the army, and i'll rattle off - i'll enroll into the SOT and hopefully by then, i'll get into full time ministry.
i realized that such plans is not serving God, but its ministry. its like telling God what i want to do for Him, instead of what He wants me to do. furthermore, the bible says that we can never be assured of what tomorrow comes. everything happens by the grace of God, by His divine timing.
its great to have visions, as they're from the Lord. but to have plans is another thing altogether. bible says if we don't plan, we plan to fail. but we have to plan with the fear of the Lord. when God gave a vision, His people planned. why? because God never fails to make the vision come to past.
back to worship =)
worshipping God is definitely amazing. pastor ming once said that he doesn't understand why some people worship God and their facial expression doesn't change. its always a -_- look, even when its fast beat songs.
kinda understood that today as i found myself FULL of expressions, singing till my throat hurt, giving my best to my Lord and i looked around and saw people just standing there clapping their hands with that i-can't-be-bothered look.
really sad seeing that happening. is our God such a boring God that you can't stir yourself up and praise Him? please don't say that you worship Him in your heart, because whatever your heart expresses, your physical being expresses it too.
oh well. i'm not in the position to judge people too. heh~
well. KEEPING MY FOCUS ON GOD!!!
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
spent the entire day thinking about the current affairs of my life.
sometimes sacrifices have to be made, lines have to be drawn and determination have to be increased.
you just wish to shut everyone out and meet God face to face. i've nothing to say, but i just want to linger in His presence, to soak in His love. He has been so true to me and there's so much more for me to know about Him.
so much more i've yet to experience and see.
i don't want to lose out on God's blessing because of a wrong decision i make.
sometimes sacrifices have to be made, lines have to be drawn and determination have to be increased.
you just wish to shut everyone out and meet God face to face. i've nothing to say, but i just want to linger in His presence, to soak in His love. He has been so true to me and there's so much more for me to know about Him.
so much more i've yet to experience and see.
i don't want to lose out on God's blessing because of a wrong decision i make.
what a long day!
woke up at 7am and blurly messaged the wrong person, telling her that i've woken up. traveled down to eunos to meet up with the security guys to play soccer!
was rather excited because its my first time playing soccer with them and its been a long time since i last exercised too~ game started and i was quite on form. the first match lasted really long and it drained most of my energy.
we reformed groups when everyone was there and i was in kuowei's team, compromising of Bro ChongKeng, Bro Michael's brother, Bro KuoWei and another bro whose name i can't remember. all of them were great players and we won all our matches and some of them were won at record time! hahazz! praise God=P
had lunch and went to east coast park to join my cellgroup of the meeting. had a really bad headache by then, but i i just went ahead and met them. the other cellgroup came and they started playing games~ didn't join them as my headache got worst and all i wanted was just to sit there and rest.
my headache finally got slightly better after hours and we played captain's ball. bad move. headache came back on. eugene came back and offered to bring his radio down, so i followed him and we started jogging. bad move again. headache came back, worst.
finally we got back and the bbq was starting.
didn't eat much because of my throbbling headache.
chinpor, eugene, eyoung and myself then made our way to the stone walls and watched the fireworks from the padang; it was quite an amazing slight.
we started singing worship songs and eugene started to share with chinpor about his friend and about things he went through before. could feel that something special was happening and could also feel the conviction in their speech~ thank God for that=)
i didn't talk much, but continued worshippin God.
finally we packed up and left.
received a call from zhaowei, asking if i'm able to head down to suntec and get Sister Cynthia a cup of coffee from starbucks or coffeebean. agreed to help since its on the way.
coffeebean was closed by then and i walked all the way back to buy the coffee from starbucks. then its a long walk back to tower 3. but Sister Cynthia didn't answer my call when i was standing outside church office, so i left the drink at the security post.
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as you can tell, today's entry is very dry. i'm still suffering from throbbling headache and STOMACHACHE now. =/
woke up at 7am and blurly messaged the wrong person, telling her that i've woken up. traveled down to eunos to meet up with the security guys to play soccer!
was rather excited because its my first time playing soccer with them and its been a long time since i last exercised too~ game started and i was quite on form. the first match lasted really long and it drained most of my energy.
we reformed groups when everyone was there and i was in kuowei's team, compromising of Bro ChongKeng, Bro Michael's brother, Bro KuoWei and another bro whose name i can't remember. all of them were great players and we won all our matches and some of them were won at record time! hahazz! praise God=P
had lunch and went to east coast park to join my cellgroup of the meeting. had a really bad headache by then, but i i just went ahead and met them. the other cellgroup came and they started playing games~ didn't join them as my headache got worst and all i wanted was just to sit there and rest.
my headache finally got slightly better after hours and we played captain's ball. bad move. headache came back on. eugene came back and offered to bring his radio down, so i followed him and we started jogging. bad move again. headache came back, worst.
finally we got back and the bbq was starting.
didn't eat much because of my throbbling headache.
chinpor, eugene, eyoung and myself then made our way to the stone walls and watched the fireworks from the padang; it was quite an amazing slight.
we started singing worship songs and eugene started to share with chinpor about his friend and about things he went through before. could feel that something special was happening and could also feel the conviction in their speech~ thank God for that=)
i didn't talk much, but continued worshippin God.
finally we packed up and left.
received a call from zhaowei, asking if i'm able to head down to suntec and get Sister Cynthia a cup of coffee from starbucks or coffeebean. agreed to help since its on the way.
coffeebean was closed by then and i walked all the way back to buy the coffee from starbucks. then its a long walk back to tower 3. but Sister Cynthia didn't answer my call when i was standing outside church office, so i left the drink at the security post.
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as you can tell, today's entry is very dry. i'm still suffering from throbbling headache and STOMACHACHE now. =/
Monday, August 08, 2005
okie. i decided to give glory to God by sharing some of the amazing things He done for the past few days.
Day 1 - the first day was more of the moulding and sharpening process. i was assigned to be with the south african ambassador and escorting her is fairly easy because Pastor Yong Kiang is with her too~ didn't do much that day, but learnt more about approaching people.
Day 2 - Bro Michael said that i'll be assisting Bro Robin in escorting Rev Colin Dye. was SUPER excited because its like a huge responsibility. i opened the door for Rev Colin and he stepped out with a smile, shook my hand and asked for my real name.
i had no idea why he asked for my real name, until he started preaching. loLz=P
throughout the day, i learnt several things that an elite must take notice, moving at the right timing and bring pro-active.
Day 3 - the best saved for the last day!!
Church Anniversary - i was assigned to escort Pastor Sun's parents~ they're really nice people and Pastor Sun's mom kept thanking me throughout the day~ hahaZz=P Bro Joseph was with them too, so i was assisting him in some stuffs too. firstly, he needed guest passes for some other guests. thank God i took hold of some passes and handed them over.
then, he told me he needs one more. so i went to the ushers' logistic room and got it. felt the Holy Spirit prompting me to get one more and i obeyed. went out to meet Bro Joseph and informed him that i've an extra pass. immediately, he smiled and said he needs that extra pass too~
thank God! like what Bro David says - being an Elite, we're to assist church leaders in any ways and to provide security.
church anniversary was great! Pastor Kong preached about having a vision for the future. before the salvation altar call was given, suddenly the Holy Spirit showed me this person, gary, who's karen's friend, and i felt led to pray for him.
felt a breakthrough in him when Pastor Kong gave the altarcall. felt extremely excited in my Spirit even though i was rushing about.
messaged karen - TELL ME GOOD NEWS!!! and moments later, i didnt receive good news. i received GREAT news from her!! hahazz!! praise the Lord!!
gary received Christ and he was touched by the love of God. praise God!! upon hearing gary's "past" from karen, it was already amazing that he agreed to go for church service. now he gave his life to Christ and wants to continue going to church services!! hallelujah!!
prayers work MIRACLES!!
well, karen did most of the job~ hAhaz=) but i can't help but feel excited for her too~ she has been really making a difference in the lives of other people.
FOP - i was assigned to MARTIN SMITH!! ok. girls please stop screaming. its quite normal for TWO good looking guys to be together=) hahazz!! martin smith is the lead singer of Delirious? and he has an AMAZING voice.
he's seriously cool, funny and very friendly. chatted with him at backstage and he even put his arms around me~ lolz=P
then Bro Michael called me over and informed me that i'll be following him. not knowing what was going on, i followed. he gave me instructions and i did so. then Bro Michael came over and thanked me, even said that i'm very sharp~ praise God for that! =D
i realized on my way home, the amount of responsibilty that has been given to me. i really thank God for that and ALL the experiences i went through. definitely there's so much more to share, but its mainly in the Spiritual Realm that "exploded" with excitment.
Bro Robin shared that when we serve, there's no right or wrong. but we must serve to our best because we want to serve God with the best of our abilities. when we try our best, no one can blame us =)
REALLY feel blessed to be in the elites team~ Bro David isn't as scary as what i think and he has been teaching me a lot of things, sharing with me some stuffs that i need to know. Bro Robin has been encouraging me, boosting my confidence. Bro Michael has been really happy with my performance and he got promoted to 45!! an offical team leader!! praise the LORD!!
last but not the least. thank God for the wonderful 3 days. great moulding, stretching process.
how great is our God.
Day 1 - the first day was more of the moulding and sharpening process. i was assigned to be with the south african ambassador and escorting her is fairly easy because Pastor Yong Kiang is with her too~ didn't do much that day, but learnt more about approaching people.
Day 2 - Bro Michael said that i'll be assisting Bro Robin in escorting Rev Colin Dye. was SUPER excited because its like a huge responsibility. i opened the door for Rev Colin and he stepped out with a smile, shook my hand and asked for my real name.
i had no idea why he asked for my real name, until he started preaching. loLz=P
throughout the day, i learnt several things that an elite must take notice, moving at the right timing and bring pro-active.
Day 3 - the best saved for the last day!!
Church Anniversary - i was assigned to escort Pastor Sun's parents~ they're really nice people and Pastor Sun's mom kept thanking me throughout the day~ hahaZz=P Bro Joseph was with them too, so i was assisting him in some stuffs too. firstly, he needed guest passes for some other guests. thank God i took hold of some passes and handed them over.
then, he told me he needs one more. so i went to the ushers' logistic room and got it. felt the Holy Spirit prompting me to get one more and i obeyed. went out to meet Bro Joseph and informed him that i've an extra pass. immediately, he smiled and said he needs that extra pass too~
thank God! like what Bro David says - being an Elite, we're to assist church leaders in any ways and to provide security.
church anniversary was great! Pastor Kong preached about having a vision for the future. before the salvation altar call was given, suddenly the Holy Spirit showed me this person, gary, who's karen's friend, and i felt led to pray for him.
felt a breakthrough in him when Pastor Kong gave the altarcall. felt extremely excited in my Spirit even though i was rushing about.
messaged karen - TELL ME GOOD NEWS!!! and moments later, i didnt receive good news. i received GREAT news from her!! hahazz!! praise the Lord!!
gary received Christ and he was touched by the love of God. praise God!! upon hearing gary's "past" from karen, it was already amazing that he agreed to go for church service. now he gave his life to Christ and wants to continue going to church services!! hallelujah!!
prayers work MIRACLES!!
well, karen did most of the job~ hAhaz=) but i can't help but feel excited for her too~ she has been really making a difference in the lives of other people.
FOP - i was assigned to MARTIN SMITH!! ok. girls please stop screaming. its quite normal for TWO good looking guys to be together=) hahazz!! martin smith is the lead singer of Delirious? and he has an AMAZING voice.
he's seriously cool, funny and very friendly. chatted with him at backstage and he even put his arms around me~ lolz=P
then Bro Michael called me over and informed me that i'll be following him. not knowing what was going on, i followed. he gave me instructions and i did so. then Bro Michael came over and thanked me, even said that i'm very sharp~ praise God for that! =D
i realized on my way home, the amount of responsibilty that has been given to me. i really thank God for that and ALL the experiences i went through. definitely there's so much more to share, but its mainly in the Spiritual Realm that "exploded" with excitment.
Bro Robin shared that when we serve, there's no right or wrong. but we must serve to our best because we want to serve God with the best of our abilities. when we try our best, no one can blame us =)
REALLY feel blessed to be in the elites team~ Bro David isn't as scary as what i think and he has been teaching me a lot of things, sharing with me some stuffs that i need to know. Bro Robin has been encouraging me, boosting my confidence. Bro Michael has been really happy with my performance and he got promoted to 45!! an offical team leader!! praise the LORD!!
last but not the least. thank God for the wonderful 3 days. great moulding, stretching process.
how great is our God.
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
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