one more entry before i book-in into camp.

God is just so amazing. sometimes when you feel that you're left on the shelf, God surprises you with the things He has been doing all the time.

i've been quite blessed as my parents allow me to go church, despite different beliefs. though they dont really ask me what church or God is about, they have never questioned, challenged or gave me an extremely difficult time.

recently, certain issues happened at home and it caused my mom to open up more to Christ. though they were not very pleasant issues, i was glad that my mom was willing to listen to my advise and my sister.

sometimes when others are really weak or helpless, that is when you're able to demostrate the power of God.

but of cos there are incidents that i wished didnt happen at all. but what i'm glad is that my family members are protected.

knowing that God is such a wonderful God, it makes me even much more burdened. it makes me feel like going around, sharing the good news of God, so that they can experience the same kind of love that i experience.

sometimes i don't even know why i feel so disturbed. felt that i should do something, rather than wasting my life away. but i've also learnt that thats one of the many ways the Holy Spirit communicates to us. He attracts our attention to seek His face, to pray and to "find" out whats bothering me.

many times, i feel that i not worthy. things that i've done probably have not just disappointed God, but my loved ones. but time and time again, i find myself surrounded by His presence, His peace, when i pray.

problems became easier to solve, angry emotions begin to calm down and understanding creeps into my heart. feels terrible when you begin to understand what had just happened and you've caused another person to feel hurt.

maybe sometimes its about loving somebody regardless of self. loving someone not because of what i can receive, but because of what i can give.

if i can give God my precious time, He's able to give me more than just His presence, love and peace. if i've to make a decison between God and something that i really like, would a short term pleasure be more satisfying or something thats not seen in the realm of the spirit satisfy me even more?

making a difference in the lives of others is not something nobel. but it demands sacrifice, patience and love. its not just an one day affair or an one incident thing. its a daily renewing of commitment to help that person, to watch them grow stronger in Christ.

sometimes its not just about bringing people to church and hoping that pastor would preach a message that would touch their hearts. but its about winning their hearts over, before bringing them to church. to do that, you'll have to be there for that person since day one, no matter rain or shine.

then when the time is ripe, naturally the person would want to go church.

the gospel is never forced down someone's throat. its the word, or our attitudes, that causes harden hearts to be soften, then His love that fills the void in the heart.

now lets stop forcing the gospel down throats, but let the love of God flow through us and into the world that needs Him!