Forgiveness. Pastor Tan shared with us this week as Pastor Kong is away in Taiwan.

I think Pastor Tan scored a homerun, teaching us about forgiveness. Many people have a misconception about forgiveness and based on the five questions Pastor Tan asked us, i think majority of us got it wrong.

Personally, i was blessed by the message. As Pastor preached, i could identify myself in several of the situations Pastor narrated. examples like holding onto the past, bitterness and "trying" to forget the hurt.

Not that i've been thru tremendious tribulations in the year 2007, but several incidents happened and things started to change. Perhaps i built a wall, instead of a gate. i became so closed up that i was unwilling to let anyone come into my life.

Many people had come and tried to break down the wall, but i would manage to 'fend' them off by saying something else. Most of the time, assuring that things are okie and i'm fine. Thus giving people the impression that i'm really okie.

Well, sometimes i AM okie, but sometimes i'm not.

And its not that the issues are giving me a problem. Its probably because i've to make the decision to commit or not. Probably i'm still not ready/unwilling to commit into something that i'm not sure of. Thus the attitude towards certain issue.

I think i really can't blame anyone else, except myself. If i wasn't so wishy washy or if i didn't had closed up from the beginning, things wouldn't end up this way. Now things have gone so bad, and i really don't know what can i do now to restore things.

Anyway, for this year, i really want to keep my focus right and not get distracted by other things..