I've found a friend who died for me

One of the best joy someone can receive is knowing that he's restored and accepted back into the kingdom of God.

Though this process may take a long time, I'm determined to break through and meet Him in the Holy of Hollies.

Isn't God just so amazing? when I'm faithless, He remains faithful to me. Its like the parable of the lost son, I ran away from Him into the wilderness. Day and night, God waits for me to return. When I finally return, He restores me back into position. Though I may not feel worthy, but He says its worth it.

I can never hide from Him. He's omnipotent, omniscient. He KNOWS everything that I've done! Do you know what's everything? It's EVERY SINGLE THING! Tell me now, how do you hide from Him?

The first step towards God is always so difficult. But after taking that first step, you find strength, joy and fulfillment. You begin to realize how much you may have missed out. Though this is not the end of the testings, but I believe with a broken and contrite Spirit, He's able to lead me out of the valleys.

Today is the day of my salvation. Today is the day of my re-dedication to the Lord Jesus Christ. Today is the beginning of everlasting eternity reigning as King and Priest with my Father God!

HALLELUJAH!

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oh yah. i saw ASIA in my Spirit. ASIA! NORTHEAST ASIA! I saw in my mind, Asia, a continent, in front of me. I asked for more, I saw Northeast Asia. I asked for more, I heard the word teach. I heard myself say, Father, I'll teach Your word. I'll teach your word in Asia, in Northeast Asia!

I've made that prayer, its commited between me and God. It's written on His palm, that I'll teach His word. I'll minister to His people.

BY FAITH! I RECEIVE! WOOHOO!

They say things happen in SOT. I believe that's an understatement. Things don't just happen in SOT.

It takes loads of faith, then the things happen in SOT.

Felt God smiling at me again today. He has been smiling at me for two days.

It would start like this -

As we're all worshipping in His presence, I would enter into this place and there's only God and me in it. So I'll tell God everything thats in my mind. Things like full-time ministry, provision and santification.

Then I can feel Him smiling at me. It feels so........ comfortable, friendly and warm.

Yesterday, I felt Him say, all these that you've asked for, I've given. Receive it in your spirit.

Today, I saw myself in a vision. A picture of me preaching from a pulpit. Then thoughts of salvations, healing and anointing raced across my mind. Wasn't sure if that was my thoughts or God's thoughts, but I received it in my spirit.

When the Holy Spirit comes, some people feel electricity on their palms or heat running through them. I felt this warm heat on my upper back, something that I felt when I was much younger in Christ.

Definitely the Holy Spirit.

I think this is the problem with me. I'm too logical! I'm in need of serious work in my emotions. Pray with me, that I'll be touched in my emotions, that I'll be free to cry or laugh in His presence.

There are no formulas in seeking God. But a pure heart will see Him.

Heb 11:1,3

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. By faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that the things which are seen were not made of things which are visible.

God spoke, something happened in the realm of the spiritual and it became visible in the realm of the physical.

Believing that you have it in the spirit though not of the realm of the physical. Because you have spoke about it, it WILL come to existence when you believe. In the spiritual realm, angels are already preparing for the day for your spoken word to manifest.

Believing is not just knowing. It's the psychological state in which an individual holds a proposition or premise to be true.

So it's not just knowing and accepting it. Its getting it sink into our spirits, knowing that it will come to past.

Interesting things had happened recently. Things that showed the favor, blessings and grace of God.

I don't know what to expect in the months ahead of me, but I believe it's going to be good. Attitudes will be made right, impurities will be removed and fruits of the Spirit will be developed.

My mom managed to "catch" a baby parrot, with her bare hands. In fact, the parrot hopped onto her hands after she held out her hand in front of it. Quite interesting eh? Then the parrot stayed in her palm and she brought it home.

Now it's like some crazy lunatic bird, running left and right of the cage and randomly screeching. Heh.

Just want to thank God for something that happened yesterday. I was on duty in camp last night, so I rest in my office when Caleb came to my office. He wanted to pray for me, and vice versa. Of cause I was more than glad to do so, but we fellowshipped a little before we prayed for one another.

I think it's just amazing how God will even move in the office. His peace just came and filled the office. There was a change of atmosphere the moment we started praying and it really didn't feel like we were praying in the office.

Truly when two or three are gathered in His name, there He is.

I'm really encouraged by Caleb's hunger, desire and fire for God. He's praying and fasting for directions in his life after his National Service. Such a fine young man, but already thinking like a matured son of God.

Challenged! Haha!

Well. God has His ways of revealing His plans.

http://aboutjoel.blogspot.com/2005/01/im-so-bored-i-can-click-ie-million.html

Ignore the fact that i had pastors driving me to church and stuffs. Haha! But, WOW! 3 years ago, God has already desired for me to enroll into SOT, even when I'm still in the army.

Well, my application was technically rejected, by my parents. But i kept assuring her that I'll be fine, I'll take up part-time jobs just to pay off the school fees!

And I'm definitely hoping to get the model student, because that would mean that I've really made a difference in the lives of many people! Plus the all expenses paid for trip to Israel. Haha!

But YAH! WOW!

My laptop is officially dead! Why must it be damaged now!? Sigh. Gotta get it fixed before assignments and projects are given to us, else I've to write everything neatly on A4 paper.

So I am now somewhere blogging away...

SOT Orientation was a BLAST! I think I could have laughed till I developed 8 pacs, face cramps and burst blood vessels.

Barely slept for 6 hours and my alarm went off. Jumped out of bed, showered and headed straight to JW. HEAVY TRAFFIC!! Totally forgot about the morning traffic madness and I was hysterically checking my watch. Gotta go through much more Civilian Conversion Course. =D

Decided to take the train instead at Chinese Garden, towards Boon Lay. Finally reached church and there were so many excited people gathering at the lobby, waiting for registration to start.

Got hold of my lanyard, couldn't stop smiling.

We had about 1 hour to chill in the freezing auditorium. Read thru the students' manual excitingly. Even though 99% of the contents were rules and regulations, punishments we may face and other potentially depressing stuffs, it was surprising that I read it with much joy. HAHA!

Pastor Derek came and shared a word with us. Edifying word from a chapter. Just a simple chapter and it exludes so much strength, wisdom and challenge.

GAMES!

Gathered together in my team, TEAM 21, most of us were from the same zone. We've a Youth Pastor, Church Staff and CGL from another church. Anointed eh?

Anyway, I'm really challenged by my team mates. Their attitudes were amazing. SUPER sporting, fun loving and out going, I felt like a backdrop with them. Really challenged to step out and simply enjoy myself without much fears.

Thank God for His grace! Amazingly, after the first station, I found myself screaming and shouting like some 3 year old kid after being awarded with an ice cream. Haha!

Our team did extremely well for all the stations, completed on time, invested right and managed to get back returns. We got 3th overall for the games, which means $20 attributes voucher! $20!! Thats A LOT! You can like buy some materials, or lighten the burden of several super expensive materials.

Some of the stations were creative. Gotta dip our heads in a pail and fill up a plastic bottle within 10 minutes. Before dipping our heads, we gotta pass a rubberband with a toothpick held by our teeth.

Another station, eating CHILLI PADIS and GREEN ONES TOO! urgh. Thank God only 3 persons are required to do that. So the rest simply shouted directions to them, which I gladly did so. =X

Aiyah. If you want to know more, join SOT next year. ;)

I heard that those in classes now had holy laughter during worship. >.< But it's okie! 5 months of pure intensive discipleship from Him and definitely more of Him!!

Woah! Just came back from my zone's overnight cycling event!!

Really quite an experience. I was appointed to be last man, together with Alan. Basically we cycled from East Coast to Bedok, to Tampines, Paris Ris and finally Changi. Supposed to finish at Changi, but we reached a tad too early, thus we were challenged to cycle back to East Coast from Changi.

That LONGGGGG stretch of road beside the Changi Airport was extremely boring. I dozed off several times and even crashed once because i fell asleep while riding. But thank God I landed on the grass patch and I had no injuries whatsoever.

Anyway, I kinda woke up after that crash and continued cycling per normal till we reached this place and MJ came and pick us up. It was probably the best moment of my life, having to sit in the lorry, not having to cycle all the way back to ECP. Haha!

But, I still enjoyed myself, cycling casually and enjoying the breeze.

Limited time left for me to rest, gotta serve at Expo today!! 4pm!! >.<

Oh yah. Saw some transexuals in Changi. They really look pretty, just that its all manufactured. Heh.

Extraordinary results!

We took our IPPT test earlier and I'm really happy with the results of my company..!

We had about 16 GOLD, and 13 SILVER achieved. Only 3 didn't manage to get anything, but I believe that with constant training and hard work, they'll be able to achieve at least a silver as well.

Super encouraged by the effort put in by my soldiers. Some of them just missing a few seconds to achieve gold, but i believe they'll press on and achieve it in the coming year.

This IPPT also marked my swan song in the company. Most of them will be involved in training and I won't be able to join them. Bittersweet emotions, but I believe Andy and Dion will be able to bring them up another level of achievements.

SOT Orientation this monday! I really can't believe that I'm starting school so soon. Seems like a long time ago when I was hesitant if I should sign up for SOT. I'm glad I made this choice and even though it maybe tough for the coming months, I believe that GOD will provide for me and He'll see me thru this year!

Connect Group PM was so refreshing. Was reminded of several things when Desmond prayed for me. Remembered the fervency, my attitudes and mentality when I received Christ in the beginning. Guess certain issues corrupted my mindset and soul. BUT, I believe that all these will change because GOD's gonna do something AMAZING in my life!

He'll change me inside out, outside in. He'll anoint me to overcome difficulties, trials and tribulations. He'll smilingly give me loads of problems, so that I'll learn to rely on His strength and He'll show me the way to victory.

Now, I've to make that decision. To remain open to His discipleship, teachings and word. Most of all, to be sensitive to the Holy Spirit, to develop my relationship with GOD and maintain my spiritual disciplines.