haven been blogging for the past few days~ decided to stay home and stare at my computer for the entire day~
other then playing shattered galaxy, i would be bored to the core and even sometimes, playing shattered galaxy gets boring~ so, i would lie on my comfortable bed and snuggle under my blankie~
in other words, i would sleep=P
went for bible studies class and we were taught the art of reaching out to the lost~ well, there is a way that Jesus Himself used and its pretty good. well, of cause He's Christ, but when i gave it a really good thought about it, i realised that i've been unknowingly doing what was suggested in our bible study material.
stepping into others' lives.
i wouldn't say that i know a lot of people, even though my MSN contact list is maxed out. but, i do not chat with every single person in MSN. there are contacts whom i've no idea who they are and i'm usually chatting with the same bunch of people. which totals to less then 15?
i guess some people would know what i mean. but, whenever i chat with a person online and if that person is troubled, i'll try my very best to help and encourage that person. that's the first step - meeting their needs.
well, of course i do not have the ability to provide for their food and clothings, but what i always do is that i assure them that i'll always be there for them, no matter rain or shine and i always thank God that he placed so many experiences in me, be it my experiences or my friend's, but they have been such a great factor in encouraging my friends~
some friends would "leave" after they have "recovered". but there are friends that would continue building the relationship and i really thank God for them because they are the ones that i turn to when i'm in need. though not very often, i would speak my feelings, but when i can't contain it anymore, i'm very sure that they would be there for me.
well, back to the topic. i've shared the gospel with my friends and its definately not an easy task. the usual excuses would be - i'm not interested, i'm a freethinker, city harvest again!?, thanks for sharing but i think i don't have time to commit and there's always the anti-Christ.
is the word of God that hard to disgest?
for this year alone, i've bought more then 10 friends to church. 5 responded to the altar call, but i seldom see them in church now. the rest of them are neutral, i guess.
i do not see that as an achievement and something to be boasted about, but, really, there are many more people out there wanting to go to church and to accept Christ into their lives.
i was scrolling through my phonebook, thinking of who should i invite this time and whenever i stop at a particular name, i would think if that person is within my circle of influence. if that person is, i would message that particular person.
but that circle of influence seemed to have shrunk and when i scroll through the phonebook now, i seem to be skipping everyone's name. i would come up with crazy excuses why shouldn't i message that person and that really isn't healthy.
sometimes, i wonder who i am. i've been called as a soulmate by my friends. a soulmate, not someone who they want to marry, but someone who understands them well. i seem to be becoming everyone's soulmate recently. that, of course is something really exciting, but it can get pretty tiring.
i'm not saying that i'm tired of listening to everyone's problem, but i'm tired because there isn't anyone who i can physically run and talk to. i'm not a person who would open up to someone else if he/she approaches me.
i would open up to a person whom i really feel comfortable with, and most probably that would be my future wife? i guess i'm still a very traditional person, ain't quite a SNAG.
but, nonetheless, my life has just started and there's still a long journey ahead of me, till i meet Christ in Heaven. there's really nothing much to do now, cept to keep moving on and shining for Christ.
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
just woke up from my slumber~
i had werid dreams last night, but i remembered clearly 1 dream.
i dreamt that i was a pilot, and we were dog-fighting. me and my team had to fly vertically up for quite a distance and in the first part of my dream, i wasn't flying a f-16. in fact, it was a lousy airplane that didn't have covers at all!
but, we managed to get to the top and shot down enemies.
then the dream changed, and this time, i was flying a f-16. with more speed and power, i flew up without problems and i had no problems dodging enemies. i was doing high risk moves while trying to shoot them down~
in the dream, i also dreamt of several other people and things. there was a lady whom i didn't know, but in the dream, we seem rather attracted to each other.
there were even alien planes dog fighting with us~
the weird thingy about the dream was that it seemed to have taken place in outer space or a place of a very high altitude.
then, my dreams kept changing and changing till i've no impression now~
pretty interesting dream i have~ but i guess it doesn't mean anything because its so mixed up and weird~ haHaz~
i had werid dreams last night, but i remembered clearly 1 dream.
i dreamt that i was a pilot, and we were dog-fighting. me and my team had to fly vertically up for quite a distance and in the first part of my dream, i wasn't flying a f-16. in fact, it was a lousy airplane that didn't have covers at all!
but, we managed to get to the top and shot down enemies.
then the dream changed, and this time, i was flying a f-16. with more speed and power, i flew up without problems and i had no problems dodging enemies. i was doing high risk moves while trying to shoot them down~
in the dream, i also dreamt of several other people and things. there was a lady whom i didn't know, but in the dream, we seem rather attracted to each other.
there were even alien planes dog fighting with us~
the weird thingy about the dream was that it seemed to have taken place in outer space or a place of a very high altitude.
then, my dreams kept changing and changing till i've no impression now~
pretty interesting dream i have~ but i guess it doesn't mean anything because its so mixed up and weird~ haHaz~
Sunday, September 26, 2004
sunday!! =P
woke up a little late and i rushed a little and left home, for church. thank God that the LRT, train came pretty quick~ it was bus 179 that caused me and another security guy to be late~ loLz=P
thank God we were not scolded~ and we quickly settled down, listened to the briefing and collected our stuffs~
on the sheet of paper, my name wasn't found on the service 4 slot, so i thought that there was an error~ told my IC about it and he told me that i'll be under bro chong keng, doing attachment, understudy~ my jaws dropped and i was pretty freaked out~ but, bro chong keng assigned me to airborne1 to serve~
for the rest of the services, i was in the auditorium~ so, i was standing the entire day without taking much rest, but i didn't really feel tired~ our strength comes from God and even though it was a long hard day, no one slacked~
we had to do catching today for all 3 services~ its pretty slow paced and it gave us loads of time to stand back, look around and move to the next person~ much more confident of my catching now~ like what brother chong keng said, we have to discern if the person would be falling down or falling backwards, so i was preparing myself, praying and focusing on the person.
thank God i made almost all catches~ cept for a sister. after pastor laid hands on her, she didn't move. so i moved on after standing there for a moment. when i turned around and started to look around, she fell suddenly!! i was so shocked and another security guy tried to reach for her, but failed~
after all 3 services, i was told that i got training session. so, thinking that the entire security team would be at the roof garden, i was wrong! there were only 5 of us there, including brother chong keng~ i was the youngest security personnal there, with just 3 weeks in hand. the others had 2 months of experience~
so, we listened to brother chong keng about rising up as a leader and the passion of serving in security~ the training session wasn't anything physical, but mental~ its to prepare us for the next level in security, to lead and to teach~
learnt many stuffs from the brothers who shared~ being responsible and flowing with the spirit~
after 1 long day, physically im tired, but mentally i'm still very much alive~ the important points of pastor tan's sermons are still in my mind, the word of God is still repeating itself. i feel that its a great blessing to be in security, serving the entire day and a even greater blessing when we are positioned inside the auditorium for all services~
when pastor lay hands on the congregation, it gives us the chance to pray for others and to rely on the Spirit. much "communication" is done using the eyes and hands~ to be able to flow with pastor and everyone else can be quite a challenge~ but, nothing's impossible with Christ!!
woke up a little late and i rushed a little and left home, for church. thank God that the LRT, train came pretty quick~ it was bus 179 that caused me and another security guy to be late~ loLz=P
thank God we were not scolded~ and we quickly settled down, listened to the briefing and collected our stuffs~
on the sheet of paper, my name wasn't found on the service 4 slot, so i thought that there was an error~ told my IC about it and he told me that i'll be under bro chong keng, doing attachment, understudy~ my jaws dropped and i was pretty freaked out~ but, bro chong keng assigned me to airborne1 to serve~
for the rest of the services, i was in the auditorium~ so, i was standing the entire day without taking much rest, but i didn't really feel tired~ our strength comes from God and even though it was a long hard day, no one slacked~
we had to do catching today for all 3 services~ its pretty slow paced and it gave us loads of time to stand back, look around and move to the next person~ much more confident of my catching now~ like what brother chong keng said, we have to discern if the person would be falling down or falling backwards, so i was preparing myself, praying and focusing on the person.
thank God i made almost all catches~ cept for a sister. after pastor laid hands on her, she didn't move. so i moved on after standing there for a moment. when i turned around and started to look around, she fell suddenly!! i was so shocked and another security guy tried to reach for her, but failed~
after all 3 services, i was told that i got training session. so, thinking that the entire security team would be at the roof garden, i was wrong! there were only 5 of us there, including brother chong keng~ i was the youngest security personnal there, with just 3 weeks in hand. the others had 2 months of experience~
so, we listened to brother chong keng about rising up as a leader and the passion of serving in security~ the training session wasn't anything physical, but mental~ its to prepare us for the next level in security, to lead and to teach~
learnt many stuffs from the brothers who shared~ being responsible and flowing with the spirit~
after 1 long day, physically im tired, but mentally i'm still very much alive~ the important points of pastor tan's sermons are still in my mind, the word of God is still repeating itself. i feel that its a great blessing to be in security, serving the entire day and a even greater blessing when we are positioned inside the auditorium for all services~
when pastor lay hands on the congregation, it gives us the chance to pray for others and to rely on the Spirit. much "communication" is done using the eyes and hands~ to be able to flow with pastor and everyone else can be quite a challenge~ but, nothing's impossible with Christ!!
Saturday, September 25, 2004
saturday~ cellgroup meeting at punggol.
well, its the last cellgroup meeting together and after today's meeting, there would be a shuffle between my cell and another cellgroup. members would be mixed and placed into another cell so that there would be growth in our personal walk with God.
i felt extremely encouraged when xj told us to pray for someone whom God has placed in their minds. 3 persons approached me and prayed for me, each of them prayed almost identical prayers about seeking strength from God and going from glory to glory.
3 is a extremely powerful number in Christ and if God says something 3 times, it means that its really something God wants to say. really felt encouraged by the verse dawn shared with me - its something about seeking strength from God, then soaring like an eagle.
well, was supposed to go to the gym, but was reminded that its saturday and there would be many people working out in the gym too~ so, messaged hermy and headed to BPCC to play basketball.
played good matches though there's a person whom i don't like really is playing too. sheesh. 10 years ago, he cheats, 10 years later, he still cheats!! can't stand playing with him!! many times i wanted to elbow him whenever he illegally guarded me, but i merely used my body to knock him away.
there were games when i was partial blind. couldn't see the ball as the court is dimly lit and my response time was super laggy~ hAHaz=P but, had a great time playing basketball though~ its been a long time since i last played a game and i do need some tuning up before the MDE games next wednesday~
well, must rest early tonight~ serving whole day tomorrow!! wOohOo!!
well, its the last cellgroup meeting together and after today's meeting, there would be a shuffle between my cell and another cellgroup. members would be mixed and placed into another cell so that there would be growth in our personal walk with God.
i felt extremely encouraged when xj told us to pray for someone whom God has placed in their minds. 3 persons approached me and prayed for me, each of them prayed almost identical prayers about seeking strength from God and going from glory to glory.
3 is a extremely powerful number in Christ and if God says something 3 times, it means that its really something God wants to say. really felt encouraged by the verse dawn shared with me - its something about seeking strength from God, then soaring like an eagle.
well, was supposed to go to the gym, but was reminded that its saturday and there would be many people working out in the gym too~ so, messaged hermy and headed to BPCC to play basketball.
played good matches though there's a person whom i don't like really is playing too. sheesh. 10 years ago, he cheats, 10 years later, he still cheats!! can't stand playing with him!! many times i wanted to elbow him whenever he illegally guarded me, but i merely used my body to knock him away.
there were games when i was partial blind. couldn't see the ball as the court is dimly lit and my response time was super laggy~ hAHaz=P but, had a great time playing basketball though~ its been a long time since i last played a game and i do need some tuning up before the MDE games next wednesday~
well, must rest early tonight~ serving whole day tomorrow!! wOohOo!!
Thursday, September 23, 2004
3 tests in a day is never healthy.
from 8 to 10am, we had NF test. well, its pretty easy as its an open book test, so after much figuring and asking, i managed to complete the paper. but, i'm not quite sure if they are the correct answers~ lolz=)
10 to 12pm - the stressful paper. DM paper. well, the paper looks really easy, but i wonder what got into my mind!! i made SO MUCH careless mistakes that when my friends were talking about the answers, i was completely lost in my own world. ARGH!! when i saw my friend's solution sheet, i knew that i am in deep shit=/
3 to 5. AT paper was quite easy, but extremely tricky. well, thank God that i didn't get confused by the long sentences~
hmm, something special happened after the AT paper. after everyone submitted their paper, pingwei submitted his around 10 minutes late. our lecturer then said that his paper would be void and he has to retake the test. when our lecturer said that, the entire class kept quiet and the atmosphere was extremely tensed.
deep in me, i wanted to help pingwei, but i didn't know how to voice it out. so, i decided to speak to our lecturer after class. but before i could speak to our lecturer, she took pingwei's paper and scanned through. during this period of time, i felt a ray of hope.
but, she had other thoughts in mind.
i guess she wanted to give pingwei another chance. she gave pingwei the test paper back and told him to study for the test next week~ when i heard that, i was rather relieved because that means that pingwei would have more time to study and score for his AT test.
we can't afford to fail any more modules=/
waited for pingwei after class and walked to the bus stop with him, teaching him about AT as we walked~ hope that it helped him as he's pretty confused about most stuffs. sigh~ i wonder what had happened in his life.
he wasn't like this last year - he used to be sharper and a fast learner too.
well, when we're walking down the steps, we witnessed an extremely funny incident. sebastian knocked his head on the arrow thats pointing into the carpark! there was an extremely loud bang and we all saw sebastian bending down, hands on his head~ lolz=P
our classmates burst our laughing after witnessing the sight, including me=P
hmm... i guess i'll be heading to the gym after my dinner~
from 8 to 10am, we had NF test. well, its pretty easy as its an open book test, so after much figuring and asking, i managed to complete the paper. but, i'm not quite sure if they are the correct answers~ lolz=)
10 to 12pm - the stressful paper. DM paper. well, the paper looks really easy, but i wonder what got into my mind!! i made SO MUCH careless mistakes that when my friends were talking about the answers, i was completely lost in my own world. ARGH!! when i saw my friend's solution sheet, i knew that i am in deep shit=/
3 to 5. AT paper was quite easy, but extremely tricky. well, thank God that i didn't get confused by the long sentences~
hmm, something special happened after the AT paper. after everyone submitted their paper, pingwei submitted his around 10 minutes late. our lecturer then said that his paper would be void and he has to retake the test. when our lecturer said that, the entire class kept quiet and the atmosphere was extremely tensed.
deep in me, i wanted to help pingwei, but i didn't know how to voice it out. so, i decided to speak to our lecturer after class. but before i could speak to our lecturer, she took pingwei's paper and scanned through. during this period of time, i felt a ray of hope.
but, she had other thoughts in mind.
i guess she wanted to give pingwei another chance. she gave pingwei the test paper back and told him to study for the test next week~ when i heard that, i was rather relieved because that means that pingwei would have more time to study and score for his AT test.
we can't afford to fail any more modules=/
waited for pingwei after class and walked to the bus stop with him, teaching him about AT as we walked~ hope that it helped him as he's pretty confused about most stuffs. sigh~ i wonder what had happened in his life.
he wasn't like this last year - he used to be sharper and a fast learner too.
well, when we're walking down the steps, we witnessed an extremely funny incident. sebastian knocked his head on the arrow thats pointing into the carpark! there was an extremely loud bang and we all saw sebastian bending down, hands on his head~ lolz=P
our classmates burst our laughing after witnessing the sight, including me=P
hmm... i guess i'll be heading to the gym after my dinner~
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
woke up late, again, for the lecture that starts at 8am. when i stepped into class, our lecturer was about to leave the class. but, i don't think she saw me walking into the class before she left~ hEhz=/
database lecture was next and as usual, it was quite a bore. time went by pretty slow and finally an exhaustive hour reached.
its time now for chicken chop at canteen 4!!
wOoHOo!! ordered my usual plate of chicken chop, minus baked beans and added fries! hAaz~ absolute satifisfation manz~ =P
school finally ended after 1 hour of class~ lolz=P and i went to the library to meet nurul to discuss about our TVE project. well, was rather shocked to see nurul, only. was told that our teammates would not be joining us.
well, almost blew up in rage cause that means that i'll have to cover for them, else they would not know whats going on and make a mess out of their assigned parts. realised that there's still many work left to do and i was still furious by the fact that they didn't seem anxious about the project.
but well, nurul talked a little and calmed me down. well, thank God that she was rather sensitive as she kept asking me if i'm able to cope with so much in hand. well, told her that i could, but i guess my looks gave me away~ lolz=P
well, so in the end, i'll be doing the summary of the show. at least its easiler then doing the storyboard~ lolz=)
headed upstairs to join yanren and gang to study for our tests tomorrow~ we studied mainly Dm, which is the hardest among the 3 tests tomorrow~ well, though we were studying, nothing seemed to be able to get into our heads~ loLz=)
from our seats, we could see a couple downstairs being intimate with each other~ loLz=) they were totally lost in their own world that they failed to notice 6 guys staring at them upstairs, and several other people who walked past them~ lolz=P
i wonder whats their problem. of all places, being touchy, in the library. couldn't they like do that at home or at some deserted park? loLz=P
anyway, yanren, yanyi and i walked down just to check out the girl~ walked past the couple 3 times just to get a clearer look of the girl and we concluded that she's quite cute~ lolz=P she's quite small sized and looks quite innocent~ kinda sweet looking~ loLz=P
well, studied till i almost forgot that i had bible studies at YMCA. rushed home, unpacked my bag and rushed out again~ was a little late for bible studies, but thank God i was still accepted into the class.
great lesson again. its about how do we reach out to our friends~ well, felt that thats extremely useful for every single person in church because that's God's primary purpose for us!
since the beginning of the bible studies class weeks back, i've noticed a lady who's in the same class as me.
she's extremely attractive, knows how to dress up and she's sweet looking. she may not be extremely pretty, but she possesses a X-factor that was really attractive and she looks extremely classy in her smart wear which makes her extremely outstanding.
for the past few weeks, i've noticed her and i've never seen her smile before~ even when she doesn't smile, she certainly has the charm.
i can't imagine if she smiles at me... i think i would melt~ lolz=)
on the way home, i was thinking about my future GF, whom i didn't know yet. i heard myself telling God that she must be like the lady in my bible studies class~ loLz=)
a mature, classy, elegant, confident, sweet looking and charming lady as my GF, wife to be~ hEhz=)
woah~ the thought of it right now excites me~ loLz!
database lecture was next and as usual, it was quite a bore. time went by pretty slow and finally an exhaustive hour reached.
its time now for chicken chop at canteen 4!!
wOoHOo!! ordered my usual plate of chicken chop, minus baked beans and added fries! hAaz~ absolute satifisfation manz~ =P
school finally ended after 1 hour of class~ lolz=P and i went to the library to meet nurul to discuss about our TVE project. well, was rather shocked to see nurul, only. was told that our teammates would not be joining us.
well, almost blew up in rage cause that means that i'll have to cover for them, else they would not know whats going on and make a mess out of their assigned parts. realised that there's still many work left to do and i was still furious by the fact that they didn't seem anxious about the project.
but well, nurul talked a little and calmed me down. well, thank God that she was rather sensitive as she kept asking me if i'm able to cope with so much in hand. well, told her that i could, but i guess my looks gave me away~ lolz=P
well, so in the end, i'll be doing the summary of the show. at least its easiler then doing the storyboard~ lolz=)
headed upstairs to join yanren and gang to study for our tests tomorrow~ we studied mainly Dm, which is the hardest among the 3 tests tomorrow~ well, though we were studying, nothing seemed to be able to get into our heads~ loLz=)
from our seats, we could see a couple downstairs being intimate with each other~ loLz=) they were totally lost in their own world that they failed to notice 6 guys staring at them upstairs, and several other people who walked past them~ lolz=P
i wonder whats their problem. of all places, being touchy, in the library. couldn't they like do that at home or at some deserted park? loLz=P
anyway, yanren, yanyi and i walked down just to check out the girl~ walked past the couple 3 times just to get a clearer look of the girl and we concluded that she's quite cute~ lolz=P she's quite small sized and looks quite innocent~ kinda sweet looking~ loLz=P
well, studied till i almost forgot that i had bible studies at YMCA. rushed home, unpacked my bag and rushed out again~ was a little late for bible studies, but thank God i was still accepted into the class.
great lesson again. its about how do we reach out to our friends~ well, felt that thats extremely useful for every single person in church because that's God's primary purpose for us!
since the beginning of the bible studies class weeks back, i've noticed a lady who's in the same class as me.
she's extremely attractive, knows how to dress up and she's sweet looking. she may not be extremely pretty, but she possesses a X-factor that was really attractive and she looks extremely classy in her smart wear which makes her extremely outstanding.
for the past few weeks, i've noticed her and i've never seen her smile before~ even when she doesn't smile, she certainly has the charm.
i can't imagine if she smiles at me... i think i would melt~ lolz=)
on the way home, i was thinking about my future GF, whom i didn't know yet. i heard myself telling God that she must be like the lady in my bible studies class~ loLz=)
a mature, classy, elegant, confident, sweet looking and charming lady as my GF, wife to be~ hEhz=)
woah~ the thought of it right now excites me~ loLz!
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
tueday, and there won't be anymore classes for me every tuesday!!
headed down to the gym in the afternoon and it was pretty well spent. when i was about to leave, it started to rain heavily. so i decided to continue working out, doing more sets and lifts. well, though i didn't do much stuffs as most of the time was spent resting or stetching~
worked out till i could not stand anymore, and decided to walk to the bus stop even though it was raining heavily. stepped out, and the rain started to cease a little. it was still raining, but it wasn't as heavy when i last noticed it. thank God=)
thank God i serve a creative God too. i just completed my part of the TVE assignment and thank God that His creativeness rubbed into me and i managed to complete the writeup on the segments of the show. had to spilt the TV program into different segments and describe the events that would be going on.
i was reading an email sent by crosswalk. weekly bible verses, and most of the verses set me thinking really hard. but i want to highlite these verses.
Do not boast about tomorrow, for you do not know what a day may bring forth.
--Proverbs 27:1
Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. Because of these, the wrath of God is coming.
--Colossians 3:5-6
"Come now, let us reason together," says the LORD. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool."
--Isaiah 1:18
of cause, there are so much more verses i want to share, but i'm unable to paste the entire Bible into this blog entry. it would take hours to finish reading it~ lolz=)
something about God to share here. He loves us so much that He's willing to accept us into His family even though we're not perfect and have sinned against Him. no one is perfect on this earth, everyone commits mistakes and sinned against God and humankind.
all God wants is a pure heart that's seeking Him, obeying Him and doing the things He said. yet, some people decided to turn their backs on God and rely on their own strength. they may achieve great things, but they never realise whats the purpose of their life.
they maybe extremely wealthy or popular, but once they achieve their self proclaimed greatness, they start to slide down the charts. why? because fame and money isn't our purpose in our life!
yes, money and fame is important to a certain extend. but its just there to help get tide through this period of time we have on earth. do you need millions of dollars everyday to eat? or do you need millions of fans screaming and chanting your name like as if your God?
God blesses those who places Him first in their hearts and when God blesses them, He knows that they would not turn their backs on God because they know that its God who blessed them, and not because of their own strength.
many people would feel that God is fake and its all a make up thingy to satisfy the hearts' of man. if this is true, Christianity would have died out! the promises of God is still going on in life, the rainbow God promised AFTER the flooding during Noah's days are still present.
the promises He made to Abraham! the promises He made to us in the new covenant!
God has given everything to us, but do we have the faith to receive it in our hearts?
the POWER of God still runs in His presence. people are getting healed, risen from the dead even as i speak now.
we serve a living Lord, who rose from the dead into the right hand of the Father. He, the Lord of all Lords, King of all Kings, died on the cross for sins that He didn't commit and restored the relationship between mankind and our Heavenly Father.
IN THE BEGINNING, God created the heaven and earth. from dust, He created man out of His image. we're all God's image! we all possess gifts and talents God possess, but in order to maximize our potential, we go to our creator, our source, and that's God!
everything here on earth is created by God!
how did He do it? He SPOKE and it was done. thats how mighty our Heavenly Father is!
no one knows better then the Maker.
man wasn't monkeys or apes in the beginning! if thats the case, why ain't monkeys or apes talking right now? HOW did the evolution shit started in the first place? just because the bone structure is almost the same, that doesn't conclude that man are from apes. anyway, their prove was based on a computer analysis, and anyone with the brains is ABLE to come up with the program.
the Bible, the word of God, is 100% perfect and correct. millions of people died to protect the Bible. the Bible maybe written by man who sinned, but they were guided by the Spirit of God. so, it wasn't written based on their knowledge, but on God's wisdom!!
the Bible teaches us about salvation, Jesus Christ and many more things. the Bible shows your sins and it also says that Jesus is the ONLY way, the TRUTH and the LIFE to a relationship with our Heavenly Father.
so, why are people rejecting the Gospel? fear?
praise the Lord, as right now, the angels are cheering. souls are found and born again. a Christian has found his/her calling from God and a backslider has slided BACK to God!
these are GREAT news to God, but when the devil hears this, he gets pissed off and he tries even harder to confuse the minds of many people. that is why there is so much confusion and disbelief in Christ. one of the main reasons why so many people hate Christians because the devil has placed a veil in their lives, thus they are unable to accept the Gospel.
but, the POWER OF GOD is here RIGHT NOW, to BREAK the curse of the devil, to BREAK the chains of sins and to BREAK the power of the stupid devil.
if YOU believe and trust in me, believe and trust God more, because God's working in my life!
headed down to the gym in the afternoon and it was pretty well spent. when i was about to leave, it started to rain heavily. so i decided to continue working out, doing more sets and lifts. well, though i didn't do much stuffs as most of the time was spent resting or stetching~
worked out till i could not stand anymore, and decided to walk to the bus stop even though it was raining heavily. stepped out, and the rain started to cease a little. it was still raining, but it wasn't as heavy when i last noticed it. thank God=)
thank God i serve a creative God too. i just completed my part of the TVE assignment and thank God that His creativeness rubbed into me and i managed to complete the writeup on the segments of the show. had to spilt the TV program into different segments and describe the events that would be going on.
i was reading an email sent by crosswalk. weekly bible verses, and most of the verses set me thinking really hard. but i want to highlite these verses.
Do not boast about tomorrow, for you do not know what a day may bring forth.
--Proverbs 27:1
Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. Because of these, the wrath of God is coming.
--Colossians 3:5-6
"Come now, let us reason together," says the LORD. "Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool."
--Isaiah 1:18
of cause, there are so much more verses i want to share, but i'm unable to paste the entire Bible into this blog entry. it would take hours to finish reading it~ lolz=)
something about God to share here. He loves us so much that He's willing to accept us into His family even though we're not perfect and have sinned against Him. no one is perfect on this earth, everyone commits mistakes and sinned against God and humankind.
all God wants is a pure heart that's seeking Him, obeying Him and doing the things He said. yet, some people decided to turn their backs on God and rely on their own strength. they may achieve great things, but they never realise whats the purpose of their life.
they maybe extremely wealthy or popular, but once they achieve their self proclaimed greatness, they start to slide down the charts. why? because fame and money isn't our purpose in our life!
yes, money and fame is important to a certain extend. but its just there to help get tide through this period of time we have on earth. do you need millions of dollars everyday to eat? or do you need millions of fans screaming and chanting your name like as if your God?
God blesses those who places Him first in their hearts and when God blesses them, He knows that they would not turn their backs on God because they know that its God who blessed them, and not because of their own strength.
many people would feel that God is fake and its all a make up thingy to satisfy the hearts' of man. if this is true, Christianity would have died out! the promises of God is still going on in life, the rainbow God promised AFTER the flooding during Noah's days are still present.
the promises He made to Abraham! the promises He made to us in the new covenant!
God has given everything to us, but do we have the faith to receive it in our hearts?
the POWER of God still runs in His presence. people are getting healed, risen from the dead even as i speak now.
we serve a living Lord, who rose from the dead into the right hand of the Father. He, the Lord of all Lords, King of all Kings, died on the cross for sins that He didn't commit and restored the relationship between mankind and our Heavenly Father.
IN THE BEGINNING, God created the heaven and earth. from dust, He created man out of His image. we're all God's image! we all possess gifts and talents God possess, but in order to maximize our potential, we go to our creator, our source, and that's God!
everything here on earth is created by God!
how did He do it? He SPOKE and it was done. thats how mighty our Heavenly Father is!
no one knows better then the Maker.
man wasn't monkeys or apes in the beginning! if thats the case, why ain't monkeys or apes talking right now? HOW did the evolution shit started in the first place? just because the bone structure is almost the same, that doesn't conclude that man are from apes. anyway, their prove was based on a computer analysis, and anyone with the brains is ABLE to come up with the program.
the Bible, the word of God, is 100% perfect and correct. millions of people died to protect the Bible. the Bible maybe written by man who sinned, but they were guided by the Spirit of God. so, it wasn't written based on their knowledge, but on God's wisdom!!
the Bible teaches us about salvation, Jesus Christ and many more things. the Bible shows your sins and it also says that Jesus is the ONLY way, the TRUTH and the LIFE to a relationship with our Heavenly Father.
so, why are people rejecting the Gospel? fear?
praise the Lord, as right now, the angels are cheering. souls are found and born again. a Christian has found his/her calling from God and a backslider has slided BACK to God!
these are GREAT news to God, but when the devil hears this, he gets pissed off and he tries even harder to confuse the minds of many people. that is why there is so much confusion and disbelief in Christ. one of the main reasons why so many people hate Christians because the devil has placed a veil in their lives, thus they are unable to accept the Gospel.
but, the POWER OF GOD is here RIGHT NOW, to BREAK the curse of the devil, to BREAK the chains of sins and to BREAK the power of the stupid devil.
if YOU believe and trust in me, believe and trust God more, because God's working in my life!
sleepy day~
woke up at 7,30 and rushed down to school as i had classes at 8am. surprisingly, our lecturer didn't mark students that were late, late. i guess she marked everyone in the class present. AT practical was quite a challenge today~ most of the stuffs were done by sijie, and together, we had to brainstorms on the programming codes and possible problems and other methods~
DM class was next. as i was still rather sleepy, i fell asleep in her class. but my lecturer woke me up and i managed to stay awake afterwards. well, i did so by listening to her lecture. heh~ a new topic was taught and it was rather easy to understand~hope that this is the beginning of something greater to come=) thank God~~
lessons after the break were super boring~
decided to head down to ginza plaza to buy folk guitar strings and the bridge, as mine was spoilt. was informed that there is no possible way that i could fix it back myself and i'll have to bring it down to the shop, and they would fix it back for me.
the shop assistant gave me a rough idea how they would be fixing the guitar and its super complex manz~ they gonna clamp the guitar and the bridge for 3 weeks, with wood screws and some toxic glue that's used for guitars only~ then, 1 week to sand and polish the guitar.
all these would cost about 60 bucks~ should i send the guitar for repairs or get a second hand guitar? O_o
so in the end, i left the shop empty handed~ loLz=P
no school tomorrow!! wOopiEe dEe dOo!! but, i'll still have to finish up on the TVE project, else i'm gonna delay the entire team=/ sigh~
woke up at 7,30 and rushed down to school as i had classes at 8am. surprisingly, our lecturer didn't mark students that were late, late. i guess she marked everyone in the class present. AT practical was quite a challenge today~ most of the stuffs were done by sijie, and together, we had to brainstorms on the programming codes and possible problems and other methods~
DM class was next. as i was still rather sleepy, i fell asleep in her class. but my lecturer woke me up and i managed to stay awake afterwards. well, i did so by listening to her lecture. heh~ a new topic was taught and it was rather easy to understand~hope that this is the beginning of something greater to come=) thank God~~
lessons after the break were super boring~
decided to head down to ginza plaza to buy folk guitar strings and the bridge, as mine was spoilt. was informed that there is no possible way that i could fix it back myself and i'll have to bring it down to the shop, and they would fix it back for me.
the shop assistant gave me a rough idea how they would be fixing the guitar and its super complex manz~ they gonna clamp the guitar and the bridge for 3 weeks, with wood screws and some toxic glue that's used for guitars only~ then, 1 week to sand and polish the guitar.
all these would cost about 60 bucks~ should i send the guitar for repairs or get a second hand guitar? O_o
so in the end, i left the shop empty handed~ loLz=P
no school tomorrow!! wOopiEe dEe dOo!! but, i'll still have to finish up on the TVE project, else i'm gonna delay the entire team=/ sigh~
Sunday, September 19, 2004
its sunday~ but, i wasn't serving today as its my team's off day. still, saw many familar faces when i stepped into church as their teams are serving today=P
pastor tan preached a very powerful message today regarding the presence of God. without the presence of God, which is a terrible feeling, you would be feeling empty and lonesome. everything you do would be emotionless and systematic. in your mind, you would be thinking what are you thinking of, or your mind would be a complete blank.
its something really bad and naturally, doubts come into your mind. which isn't very good because you start to disregard stuffs and do things the way you want. thus, leading to many problems, troubles and eventually, bringing sadness to yourself when you could have prevented it.
sometimes i wish that i was like Jesus Christ, who convinced great numbers of people through his stories and scriptures. He's so anointed that people worshipped Him after He said a word of wisdom into their lives.
of cause, i do not want people to worship at my feet because we all should only worship 1 God, 1 Lord, Jesus Christ. but, i do want his anointing, to soften hearts, move mountains into the sea, do miracles and wonders, to heal the broken hearted and sick.
but then again, its not me who does all these science and wonders. its God! i'm just his tool whom He uses and all i have to do is obey His voice. so often, He speaks to us, but we choose to ignore it and blame God when everything goes wrong in life.
its really sad to see a talented person fading away from God. you know all the promises of God, yet it isn't working in your life. why is that so? have you been ignoring the voice of God? why do you fear someone else more then you fear God?
over the years, God has blessed you with so much stuffs. did you even realize it? your gifts and talents surpass many people, yet its still left untouched...
pastor tan preached a very powerful message today regarding the presence of God. without the presence of God, which is a terrible feeling, you would be feeling empty and lonesome. everything you do would be emotionless and systematic. in your mind, you would be thinking what are you thinking of, or your mind would be a complete blank.
its something really bad and naturally, doubts come into your mind. which isn't very good because you start to disregard stuffs and do things the way you want. thus, leading to many problems, troubles and eventually, bringing sadness to yourself when you could have prevented it.
sometimes i wish that i was like Jesus Christ, who convinced great numbers of people through his stories and scriptures. He's so anointed that people worshipped Him after He said a word of wisdom into their lives.
of cause, i do not want people to worship at my feet because we all should only worship 1 God, 1 Lord, Jesus Christ. but, i do want his anointing, to soften hearts, move mountains into the sea, do miracles and wonders, to heal the broken hearted and sick.
but then again, its not me who does all these science and wonders. its God! i'm just his tool whom He uses and all i have to do is obey His voice. so often, He speaks to us, but we choose to ignore it and blame God when everything goes wrong in life.
its really sad to see a talented person fading away from God. you know all the promises of God, yet it isn't working in your life. why is that so? have you been ignoring the voice of God? why do you fear someone else more then you fear God?
over the years, God has blessed you with so much stuffs. did you even realize it? your gifts and talents surpass many people, yet its still left untouched...
Saturday, September 18, 2004
haven been blogging for quite somedays~ stuffs had happened, good, bad and stressful.
i'll start with the good - chatted with charmaine on the phone, suddenly. as she called me, suddenly, and asked if i want to get my OM card from her, but i was too lazy to leave my house. so, we ended up chatting on the phone. well, i have no intention of typing out what were we talking about, but i hope it knocked some sense into her. (char, you better be reading this manz... if you have no idea what i was talking about, feel free to call me again=P)
other then that, i bought golf gloves! costing at a mere 18 bucks? quite happy with the material of the glove although its leather and my sister says that it would be dirty=/ sheesh~ but its soft and it fits just nice~ something that i was looking for when i walked around the shop. too bad though, they don't sell Nike gloves=/
last piece of good news, my stupid OOP assignment and walkthrough is over!! but that leads to my bad news. i'm not sure if i can do well in it, and there's a high risk of me failing that module and retaking it next year=/ sigh~ unless of cause, by the grace of God, the lecturer decided to pass us due to the high percentage of failures~ lolz=)
and, i haven been sleeping early for the past few days as i had to stare at my computer screen, figuring out programming codes and editing them here and there. i was so tired till i had dizzy spells~ well, but its all over!! for now=/
well, had cellgroup after walkthrough today and it was pretty cool. the presence of God touched our hearts as we worshipped Him and it bought the cellgroup to the next level of Spiritual Hunger.
but, as soon as next month, i'll be transferred to vene's cellgroup as she wants to train me personally~ there would be changes in my current cellgroup and we're very sure that its for our own good=)
personally, i had mixed emotions~ i was starting to get comfortable with the cellgroup members and now, i would be placed in another cellgroup whose ages are much older then me. well, i certainly think that this arrangement would expose me to differnet environments and differernt kind of breakthroughs in my life~
as a cellgroup, i think we've grown~ from a passive group to hungry members for the presence of God=) though i wasn't with the cellgroup for a long period of time, there were great experiences with them and it would always remain in my mind=)
i'll start with the good - chatted with charmaine on the phone, suddenly. as she called me, suddenly, and asked if i want to get my OM card from her, but i was too lazy to leave my house. so, we ended up chatting on the phone. well, i have no intention of typing out what were we talking about, but i hope it knocked some sense into her. (char, you better be reading this manz... if you have no idea what i was talking about, feel free to call me again=P)
other then that, i bought golf gloves! costing at a mere 18 bucks? quite happy with the material of the glove although its leather and my sister says that it would be dirty=/ sheesh~ but its soft and it fits just nice~ something that i was looking for when i walked around the shop. too bad though, they don't sell Nike gloves=/
last piece of good news, my stupid OOP assignment and walkthrough is over!! but that leads to my bad news. i'm not sure if i can do well in it, and there's a high risk of me failing that module and retaking it next year=/ sigh~ unless of cause, by the grace of God, the lecturer decided to pass us due to the high percentage of failures~ lolz=)
and, i haven been sleeping early for the past few days as i had to stare at my computer screen, figuring out programming codes and editing them here and there. i was so tired till i had dizzy spells~ well, but its all over!! for now=/
well, had cellgroup after walkthrough today and it was pretty cool. the presence of God touched our hearts as we worshipped Him and it bought the cellgroup to the next level of Spiritual Hunger.
but, as soon as next month, i'll be transferred to vene's cellgroup as she wants to train me personally~ there would be changes in my current cellgroup and we're very sure that its for our own good=)
personally, i had mixed emotions~ i was starting to get comfortable with the cellgroup members and now, i would be placed in another cellgroup whose ages are much older then me. well, i certainly think that this arrangement would expose me to differnet environments and differernt kind of breakthroughs in my life~
as a cellgroup, i think we've grown~ from a passive group to hungry members for the presence of God=) though i wasn't with the cellgroup for a long period of time, there were great experiences with them and it would always remain in my mind=)
Thursday, September 16, 2004
almost didn't go school today~
woke up and felt rather uncomfortable. took a peek at the mirror just to find out that my right eye was reddish and a little swollen. decided to ignore it and bathed. but, my mom noticed it and advised me to see a doctor as it looked pretty bad~
so, i was forced to finish a bottle of liang cha and if my eye gets better, i would be allowed to go school. well, thank God that my eye got better, but i was rather sluggish about the fact that i still had to go school, and i was very late.
reached class, and my classmates asked me if i went on a holiday~ loLz=P
school today was rather bad~ i had endless of hipcups and sijie poking me, trying to keep me awake~ loLz=P i was falling asleep unknowingly and every few minutes, sijie would poke me to wake me up=/ sometimes i was so sleepy that i fell back to sleep almost immediately and he had to use more force=/
it rained so heavily again!!! such a great weather to sleep in!! wish i had my blankie in school too~ hAhaz!! =X
i seem to be on a eating rampage today. at 10am, i ate chicken chop. then at 3pm, i ate fish burger with fries~ lolz=P suddenly, i'm eating loads again~ there goes my marnee!! >.<
i used to be able to survive the entire day with just lasi lemak or just plain rice with a little stuff here and there. but now, i guess i can't~ =P
i think i hear the gym calling to me~ but, i'm so lazy~
woke up and felt rather uncomfortable. took a peek at the mirror just to find out that my right eye was reddish and a little swollen. decided to ignore it and bathed. but, my mom noticed it and advised me to see a doctor as it looked pretty bad~
so, i was forced to finish a bottle of liang cha and if my eye gets better, i would be allowed to go school. well, thank God that my eye got better, but i was rather sluggish about the fact that i still had to go school, and i was very late.
reached class, and my classmates asked me if i went on a holiday~ loLz=P
school today was rather bad~ i had endless of hipcups and sijie poking me, trying to keep me awake~ loLz=P i was falling asleep unknowingly and every few minutes, sijie would poke me to wake me up=/ sometimes i was so sleepy that i fell back to sleep almost immediately and he had to use more force=/
it rained so heavily again!!! such a great weather to sleep in!! wish i had my blankie in school too~ hAhaz!! =X
i seem to be on a eating rampage today. at 10am, i ate chicken chop. then at 3pm, i ate fish burger with fries~ lolz=P suddenly, i'm eating loads again~ there goes my marnee!! >.<
i used to be able to survive the entire day with just lasi lemak or just plain rice with a little stuff here and there. but now, i guess i can't~ =P
i think i hear the gym calling to me~ but, i'm so lazy~
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
went for bible studies earlier, and it caused me to think about the future.
brother kim hock asked us to visualize going for cellgroup and service for 50 years, without any zest for God or not doing God's primary purpose for us. the thought of it alone freaked me out as the things we would be doing would become so mudane and we won't be able to enjoy life at all~!
one of the greatest joy is when our friends, family members receive Christ!
sharing the Gospel is exciting too~ sharing causes us to grow spiritually and our confidence too! but, many people fear doing that due to fear of rejection and being mocked at. but, there are people waiting for us to minister to them, to share with them the Good News!
everyone in Christ is called to make disciples and produce fruits. in actual fact, there is no reason why we're unable to bring in more friends. reasons are given just to cover up for ourselves so as to not feel bad. but, that shouldn't be the kind of attiude!
if you feel that your spiritual life is dry, that means that you haven been sharing the Gospel with someone! means that you haven been evanglisaling! because sharing the Gospel would cause you to grow Spiritually stronger!
thats like so easy to do and once you step out of your comfort zone, things would happen. life would become MUCH more exciting. you won't feel EMPTY because you're beginning to fill up your heart with lost souls and seeing them saved by Christ=)
you see, the first step always the step of Faith and its one of the hardest step to take. but after that step of Faith, its Jesus who finishes the work and we do not have to do anything except to follow up with the person!!
you may face many problems and stuffs, but the Bible said in Mt 5:11-12 - "Blessed are you when they revile and presecute you, and say all kinds of evil against you falsely for My sake. Rejoice and be exceedingly glad, for great is your reward in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you."
so, why fear? faith pleases God and we MUST have faith in Him.
Jn 4:35 - "Do you not say, "There are still four months and then comes the harvest?" Behold, I say to you, lift up your eyes and look at the fields, for they are already white for harvest!"
a very familar verse right? but, harvest is plenty, workers are few.
Mt 9:37 - "Then (Jesus) said to His disciples, "The harvest truly is plentiful, but the laborers are few. Therefore pray for Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into His harvest."
the Bible is accurate and pin pointed so many things that will happen. since we know what would befall us if we do not obey, why disobey!?
STUPID RIGHT!?
brother kim hock asked us to visualize going for cellgroup and service for 50 years, without any zest for God or not doing God's primary purpose for us. the thought of it alone freaked me out as the things we would be doing would become so mudane and we won't be able to enjoy life at all~!
one of the greatest joy is when our friends, family members receive Christ!
sharing the Gospel is exciting too~ sharing causes us to grow spiritually and our confidence too! but, many people fear doing that due to fear of rejection and being mocked at. but, there are people waiting for us to minister to them, to share with them the Good News!
everyone in Christ is called to make disciples and produce fruits. in actual fact, there is no reason why we're unable to bring in more friends. reasons are given just to cover up for ourselves so as to not feel bad. but, that shouldn't be the kind of attiude!
if you feel that your spiritual life is dry, that means that you haven been sharing the Gospel with someone! means that you haven been evanglisaling! because sharing the Gospel would cause you to grow Spiritually stronger!
thats like so easy to do and once you step out of your comfort zone, things would happen. life would become MUCH more exciting. you won't feel EMPTY because you're beginning to fill up your heart with lost souls and seeing them saved by Christ=)
you see, the first step always the step of Faith and its one of the hardest step to take. but after that step of Faith, its Jesus who finishes the work and we do not have to do anything except to follow up with the person!!
you may face many problems and stuffs, but the Bible said in Mt 5:11-12 - "Blessed are you when they revile and presecute you, and say all kinds of evil against you falsely for My sake. Rejoice and be exceedingly glad, for great is your reward in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you."
so, why fear? faith pleases God and we MUST have faith in Him.
Jn 4:35 - "Do you not say, "There are still four months and then comes the harvest?" Behold, I say to you, lift up your eyes and look at the fields, for they are already white for harvest!"
a very familar verse right? but, harvest is plenty, workers are few.
Mt 9:37 - "Then (Jesus) said to His disciples, "The harvest truly is plentiful, but the laborers are few. Therefore pray for Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into His harvest."
the Bible is accurate and pin pointed so many things that will happen. since we know what would befall us if we do not obey, why disobey!?
STUPID RIGHT!?
Monday, September 13, 2004
sianish day.
didn't go school as my back was hurting pretty badly. but somehow i went to play basketball earlier and its something that i didn't really regret.
it could have been one of the best days to play basketball, but my mood was rather strange. i felt extremely moody and didn't want to talk much. there were times when i just felt like punching the person in the face whenever he cried foul, for something i didn't do.
he tripped over me and shouted. what did i do wrong? expect me to chop off my leg so that he wouldn't fall? stupid showoff who thinks that he's really good, when he's actually crap and he expects me to let him run pass, without any physical contact?!
stupid game of basketball it became. if this happens everytime, i rather not play basketball.
didn't go school as my back was hurting pretty badly. but somehow i went to play basketball earlier and its something that i didn't really regret.
it could have been one of the best days to play basketball, but my mood was rather strange. i felt extremely moody and didn't want to talk much. there were times when i just felt like punching the person in the face whenever he cried foul, for something i didn't do.
he tripped over me and shouted. what did i do wrong? expect me to chop off my leg so that he wouldn't fall? stupid showoff who thinks that he's really good, when he's actually crap and he expects me to let him run pass, without any physical contact?!
stupid game of basketball it became. if this happens everytime, i rather not play basketball.
Sunday, September 12, 2004
what a great day!!
physically i'm drained, aching and i've got a headache. but spiritually, i'm able and stronger then yesterday!!
i reached church at 7.30am and managed to meet some other security guys along the way and they bought me to the store, where our stuffs would be kept. in there, i met quite a number of our team members and got introduced to one another~ sadly, i don't remember all their names, except the important ones~ hAhaz=X
we had a breifing and we were informed that Pastor Kong would be laying hands on the congregation!! i was pretty excited and scared when i was told that everyone is to catch the people.
i've seen security guys in action during laying of hands and they were running all over the place, catching one after another in a very fast pace. teamwork and coordination is very important. so, many things were rushing in and out of my mind. i was afraid that i couldn't keep up with the pace, but thank God. the other security guys assured me that during the laying of hands, things would be extremely messy and all we can do is to pray in tongues and flow with the Spirit.
that, really saved me.
service 4, i was assigned to AirBorne. met up with my IC and he placed me at the right side of the auditorium. simple task. i was just told to keep a lookout of my sector, make sure that no one trys to do something funny, wears cap, or carries unauthorized objects like babies, cameras, food and drinks=)
then towards the end, before Pastor Kong started laying hands on people, the security guys were already lined up by the side, waiting for the que to move in. well, as a newbie, i was pretty blur~ so i got mixed up with the ushers and when Pastor Kong was starting to lay hands, i was still standing happily with the ushers.
so, i sensed that something is wrong and i started to squeeze to the center. viola! the Holy Spirit guided me and i was back on track! ahazz=) started to line up with the other security guys and the first person for me to catch is an indian guy.
well, i was standing pretty close to him, praying in tongues, and when Pastor Kong laid hands on him, his arms started to "fly" and it hit me on my face! my specs went crooked, almost slid off my face and i had to endure the weight when i caught him.
cool experience from the first guy.
so, i was a little discouraged, but when i continued to pray in tongues, i felt a sense of confidence back in me. i told myself that its okie, as long as i tried my very best. so, off i went to the next person, after jumping over many bodies~ =P
the next few people i caught were pretty fine. there were good catches and some really bad ones, like when they just drop straight to the ground, leaving us with a fraction of a second to catch them~
so, after rushing around and jumping, trying not to step onto other people, it has ended. but, we didn't leave immediately. we continued singing songs and manz, the presence of God was so tangible. i didn't feel empty, but i feel filled of the Holy Spirit!
then, we laid our hands on the shoulder of our neighbours and started to pray. if i wasn't wrong, it was in service 4 that sister Charmaine held my hand! lolz~ a pretty girl, holding my hand~ woah~
okie, back to the topic. the presence of God! thats what made everything so worthwhile, made all the running, catching and tireness worthwhile. it was so satifiying and comforting. that everytime we stopped, the presence of God falls and we get charged up again. even sharper, even stronger and even alert.
service 5. i was standing in front of the nursery, with a bird's eye view of the entire auditorium. well, pretty cool huh? but i was alone up there. so it got pretty cold and standing there alone feels weird. you feel like as though Pastor is staring at you whenever he looks in my direction~ loLz=P
when Pastor Kong laid hands, this time, i was much more alert and i simply flowed with the Spirit. kept praying and praying and looking out for Pastor Kong, filling up gaps, rushing from person to person and often jumping over bodies, again.
service 6. this time i was assigned to be a ranger, which simply means patrolling around the church, making sure that there isn't any suspicious materials or characters in the church building.
our first mission - we got radioed and instructed to proceed to b1, immediately. there's a person using a laptop in the carpark and he has been there for around 15 minutes. so, daniel and i ran down to B1 and found the person seated on the floor, using the laptop. daniel approached him nicely, took down his particulars and asked him nicely to leave the premises~ lolz=)
i wonder why would someone sit in a stuffy carpark and surf internet? o_O
next task - we had to collect the offering bags in the business center and proceed to B4. we overlooked the collection of the offerings and made sure that every single envelope was kept in the bag and sealed up.
i felt like santa claus when i carried the offering bag=)
afterwards, we did some patrolling around the church and nothing much exciting happened. except the fact that we had to be on our guard, as anytime soon, we had to rush down to B4 to do catching, again.
went down and did the same stuffs that we did earlier. the same presence of God was present, the same power and anointing touched the hearts of many people~ many people were crying, it almost seemed like an deliverance service.
but, it is this presence of God that makes things possible. its this presence of God that gives power, strength and anointing. i'm really blessed to experience it 3 times.
i thought its the end of the day. but when our section IC asked if we want to continue serving in the chinese church, as Pastor Kong would be preaching there too, i volunteered as i had nothing on later in the day~ i wanted to experience more of God's presence~ i just simply wanted to dwell in His presence all day, all night.
we were briefed that when we're doing catching for the people in chinese church, we have to be very careful. there are many elderys and if they suffer a bad fall, thats it. we're gonna be responsible. so, when i was catching the people in chinese church, i made sure that there was space, and i used my body to hold them and bring them down to the floor slowly~
there are so many things i've learnt today. i've learnt to be sharp, sensitive and alert at all times. i've learnt that if i were to just depend on my own strength, i would be "lost". i needed the Holy Spirit in my life, to guide me through the crowd or in my journey.
i've learnt that God never forces His will on us. but, when we ask for it, He gives it to us. the power, anointing of God, is the beginning of anything great to come=)
physically i'm drained, aching and i've got a headache. but spiritually, i'm able and stronger then yesterday!!
i reached church at 7.30am and managed to meet some other security guys along the way and they bought me to the store, where our stuffs would be kept. in there, i met quite a number of our team members and got introduced to one another~ sadly, i don't remember all their names, except the important ones~ hAhaz=X
we had a breifing and we were informed that Pastor Kong would be laying hands on the congregation!! i was pretty excited and scared when i was told that everyone is to catch the people.
i've seen security guys in action during laying of hands and they were running all over the place, catching one after another in a very fast pace. teamwork and coordination is very important. so, many things were rushing in and out of my mind. i was afraid that i couldn't keep up with the pace, but thank God. the other security guys assured me that during the laying of hands, things would be extremely messy and all we can do is to pray in tongues and flow with the Spirit.
that, really saved me.
service 4, i was assigned to AirBorne. met up with my IC and he placed me at the right side of the auditorium. simple task. i was just told to keep a lookout of my sector, make sure that no one trys to do something funny, wears cap, or carries unauthorized objects like babies, cameras, food and drinks=)
then towards the end, before Pastor Kong started laying hands on people, the security guys were already lined up by the side, waiting for the que to move in. well, as a newbie, i was pretty blur~ so i got mixed up with the ushers and when Pastor Kong was starting to lay hands, i was still standing happily with the ushers.
so, i sensed that something is wrong and i started to squeeze to the center. viola! the Holy Spirit guided me and i was back on track! ahazz=) started to line up with the other security guys and the first person for me to catch is an indian guy.
well, i was standing pretty close to him, praying in tongues, and when Pastor Kong laid hands on him, his arms started to "fly" and it hit me on my face! my specs went crooked, almost slid off my face and i had to endure the weight when i caught him.
cool experience from the first guy.
so, i was a little discouraged, but when i continued to pray in tongues, i felt a sense of confidence back in me. i told myself that its okie, as long as i tried my very best. so, off i went to the next person, after jumping over many bodies~ =P
the next few people i caught were pretty fine. there were good catches and some really bad ones, like when they just drop straight to the ground, leaving us with a fraction of a second to catch them~
so, after rushing around and jumping, trying not to step onto other people, it has ended. but, we didn't leave immediately. we continued singing songs and manz, the presence of God was so tangible. i didn't feel empty, but i feel filled of the Holy Spirit!
then, we laid our hands on the shoulder of our neighbours and started to pray. if i wasn't wrong, it was in service 4 that sister Charmaine held my hand! lolz~ a pretty girl, holding my hand~ woah~
okie, back to the topic. the presence of God! thats what made everything so worthwhile, made all the running, catching and tireness worthwhile. it was so satifiying and comforting. that everytime we stopped, the presence of God falls and we get charged up again. even sharper, even stronger and even alert.
service 5. i was standing in front of the nursery, with a bird's eye view of the entire auditorium. well, pretty cool huh? but i was alone up there. so it got pretty cold and standing there alone feels weird. you feel like as though Pastor is staring at you whenever he looks in my direction~ loLz=P
when Pastor Kong laid hands, this time, i was much more alert and i simply flowed with the Spirit. kept praying and praying and looking out for Pastor Kong, filling up gaps, rushing from person to person and often jumping over bodies, again.
service 6. this time i was assigned to be a ranger, which simply means patrolling around the church, making sure that there isn't any suspicious materials or characters in the church building.
our first mission - we got radioed and instructed to proceed to b1, immediately. there's a person using a laptop in the carpark and he has been there for around 15 minutes. so, daniel and i ran down to B1 and found the person seated on the floor, using the laptop. daniel approached him nicely, took down his particulars and asked him nicely to leave the premises~ lolz=)
i wonder why would someone sit in a stuffy carpark and surf internet? o_O
next task - we had to collect the offering bags in the business center and proceed to B4. we overlooked the collection of the offerings and made sure that every single envelope was kept in the bag and sealed up.
i felt like santa claus when i carried the offering bag=)
afterwards, we did some patrolling around the church and nothing much exciting happened. except the fact that we had to be on our guard, as anytime soon, we had to rush down to B4 to do catching, again.
went down and did the same stuffs that we did earlier. the same presence of God was present, the same power and anointing touched the hearts of many people~ many people were crying, it almost seemed like an deliverance service.
but, it is this presence of God that makes things possible. its this presence of God that gives power, strength and anointing. i'm really blessed to experience it 3 times.
i thought its the end of the day. but when our section IC asked if we want to continue serving in the chinese church, as Pastor Kong would be preaching there too, i volunteered as i had nothing on later in the day~ i wanted to experience more of God's presence~ i just simply wanted to dwell in His presence all day, all night.
we were briefed that when we're doing catching for the people in chinese church, we have to be very careful. there are many elderys and if they suffer a bad fall, thats it. we're gonna be responsible. so, when i was catching the people in chinese church, i made sure that there was space, and i used my body to hold them and bring them down to the floor slowly~
there are so many things i've learnt today. i've learnt to be sharp, sensitive and alert at all times. i've learnt that if i were to just depend on my own strength, i would be "lost". i needed the Holy Spirit in my life, to guide me through the crowd or in my journey.
i've learnt that God never forces His will on us. but, when we ask for it, He gives it to us. the power, anointing of God, is the beginning of anything great to come=)
Saturday, September 11, 2004
i shall skip the school for today.
i went to my relative's place as its my nephew or is it cousin's birthday. went there and i was greeted by the sight of food and more food~ there were unknown people at the table, but that didn't stop me from eating BBQ food~ heHee~
loads of kids were there~ when i was eating, janeen, joy and justin was playing near me. they switched their slippers and showed them off to me~ joy, the youngest among the trio, started hopping all over the place, feeling extremely excited about the slippers and repeating whatever jamie said~ lolz=) seriously cute manz~
there's this other girl who looks like a kid actress on kids central~ i wonder if its her, but they really do look alike.
after eating, i went to watch the boys play halo on their xbox and i got pretty bored~ so, i managed to locate where joy, jamie and justin were at~ they were all watching TV in a room, so i decided to watch TV with them, since joanne peh is on TV too~ hEehEe=P
then, jamie carried joy onto my lap and i was so amazed by her weight. she weighs less then 10 kg and with her sitting on my lap, it feels as if a puppy is lying on my lap too~ could tell that joy was extremely comfortable~ didn't want to get off until she was carried away~ lolz=P
soon, jett and jamie sat on my lap too~ hahAz=) jet made himself so comfortable that he rested on me in a lying position~
after being free for a while, joy came back for more~ this time, she followed her brother, jett, and made herself extremely comfortable too~ sat, leaned on me and held my fingers (her hands are super small) then, she started playing with my arm~ lifting it up and letting it go~
if only i had a camera phone, i would have taken the pictures of them all and post it here~ super cute and handsome nieces, nephews, cousins~ whatever you call them~ lolz=P
then, the kiddos started playing sparkles~ went out to join them, just to find out that they were burning a pile of dried leaves and it was causing loads of smoke~ it was so bad that i had to grab a pail of water and put out the fire completely.
but, jameson, jett and jamie wont give up. they came back with newspaper and started to burn them. this time, i stood behind them and made sure that the fire didn't get too near them. so, happily burning newspaper while i was happily trying my best to make the place smoke-free~ loLz=P
then, joseph, my cousin?, called me~ the suits are here!! loLz=) went into the room and tried out the black suit and it fits just nice~ everyone was quite amazed as my cousin looks quite big sized and i'm extremely small sized. then, he gave me the pants to try and even to my own surprise, it fits just nice too~ thank God! i don't have to get another pair of black pants or suit, till the day i save enough money to get my own set! =D
everyone was pretty shocked to realise that i need a suit for church and asked questions about what would i be doing and stuffs~ hehe~ and they really encouraged me loads~ thank God=D
on the way back to home, i was thinking about how God has blessed me all these months and i felt so extremely blessed by Him. there are SO MANY small little things He have done to make my day, and there are days when we take it for granted. but still, God's faithful even though we maybe faithless sometimes=)
only faith pleases God.
of course, there are stormy days, but they are the best days to learn from experience and not commit them again=)
i feel so good.
i went to my relative's place as its my nephew or is it cousin's birthday. went there and i was greeted by the sight of food and more food~ there were unknown people at the table, but that didn't stop me from eating BBQ food~ heHee~
loads of kids were there~ when i was eating, janeen, joy and justin was playing near me. they switched their slippers and showed them off to me~ joy, the youngest among the trio, started hopping all over the place, feeling extremely excited about the slippers and repeating whatever jamie said~ lolz=) seriously cute manz~
there's this other girl who looks like a kid actress on kids central~ i wonder if its her, but they really do look alike.
after eating, i went to watch the boys play halo on their xbox and i got pretty bored~ so, i managed to locate where joy, jamie and justin were at~ they were all watching TV in a room, so i decided to watch TV with them, since joanne peh is on TV too~ hEehEe=P
then, jamie carried joy onto my lap and i was so amazed by her weight. she weighs less then 10 kg and with her sitting on my lap, it feels as if a puppy is lying on my lap too~ could tell that joy was extremely comfortable~ didn't want to get off until she was carried away~ lolz=P
soon, jett and jamie sat on my lap too~ hahAz=) jet made himself so comfortable that he rested on me in a lying position~
after being free for a while, joy came back for more~ this time, she followed her brother, jett, and made herself extremely comfortable too~ sat, leaned on me and held my fingers (her hands are super small) then, she started playing with my arm~ lifting it up and letting it go~
if only i had a camera phone, i would have taken the pictures of them all and post it here~ super cute and handsome nieces, nephews, cousins~ whatever you call them~ lolz=P
then, the kiddos started playing sparkles~ went out to join them, just to find out that they were burning a pile of dried leaves and it was causing loads of smoke~ it was so bad that i had to grab a pail of water and put out the fire completely.
but, jameson, jett and jamie wont give up. they came back with newspaper and started to burn them. this time, i stood behind them and made sure that the fire didn't get too near them. so, happily burning newspaper while i was happily trying my best to make the place smoke-free~ loLz=P
then, joseph, my cousin?, called me~ the suits are here!! loLz=) went into the room and tried out the black suit and it fits just nice~ everyone was quite amazed as my cousin looks quite big sized and i'm extremely small sized. then, he gave me the pants to try and even to my own surprise, it fits just nice too~ thank God! i don't have to get another pair of black pants or suit, till the day i save enough money to get my own set! =D
everyone was pretty shocked to realise that i need a suit for church and asked questions about what would i be doing and stuffs~ hehe~ and they really encouraged me loads~ thank God=D
on the way back to home, i was thinking about how God has blessed me all these months and i felt so extremely blessed by Him. there are SO MANY small little things He have done to make my day, and there are days when we take it for granted. but still, God's faithful even though we maybe faithless sometimes=)
only faith pleases God.
of course, there are stormy days, but they are the best days to learn from experience and not commit them again=)
i feel so good.
Thursday, September 09, 2004
it is thursday!! and that means tomorrow is friday!!
okay, i need a crash course. i'm in security ministry and i'm still so freaking small sized!! ah!!
perhaps i'll hit the gym tomorrow, then head to school sweaty and smelly. but then again, we're required to bring our notebooks to school and it can be quite a hassle to bring them along. or should i bring a huge bag and stuff everything in the bag?
then, it would be crazy as i would be going to my relative's place after school to celebrate my nephew's birthday, and borrow the suit from another cousin~ then, everything would be so heavy and i hate it!!
so, what should i do?
well, place that aside. watched singapore idol earlier and i think most of the performers were pretty cool~ maia showed a feminine side of her, but i was expecting a crazy performance though~ loLz=) don't really have an impression of the other singers though~
i can't wait for sunday~ looking foward to it~
okay, i need a crash course. i'm in security ministry and i'm still so freaking small sized!! ah!!
perhaps i'll hit the gym tomorrow, then head to school sweaty and smelly. but then again, we're required to bring our notebooks to school and it can be quite a hassle to bring them along. or should i bring a huge bag and stuff everything in the bag?
then, it would be crazy as i would be going to my relative's place after school to celebrate my nephew's birthday, and borrow the suit from another cousin~ then, everything would be so heavy and i hate it!!
so, what should i do?
well, place that aside. watched singapore idol earlier and i think most of the performers were pretty cool~ maia showed a feminine side of her, but i was expecting a crazy performance though~ loLz=) don't really have an impression of the other singers though~
i can't wait for sunday~ looking foward to it~
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
boring day~
went to school for an hour as sijie needed the diskdrive and the OOP lesson cannot be missed~ we're currently doing our OOP assignment and going to OOP classes means that i can copy the assignment! =X
okay, put it in nicer terms, discuss with my friends =)
i'm so into shattered galaxy~ its only my 5th day playing it and i'm still not-so-bored over it~ not bad for a guy who plays 1-3 hours of SG whose rank is now level 16, 16, 15, 16~
well, those that plays the game would understand what i'm talking about~ loLz=)
anyway, the game isn't that bad~ it trains my mind to think of tactics and loopholes to defeat the enemy. but of course, this game ain't a 1 man show game~ its a war game between 3 fractions in a planet. the main aim is to conquer the land and defeat each other~
just think never ending war~
the fun part is that, the game is so unpredicable. your allies maybe extremely strong in the beginning, but things may change towards the end of the battle~ there were battles where its almost a certain win, became a lost.
the best part is no other then when we're losing, at the last second, we win~ lolz=)
its not like any other war games like CnC, where you get an extremely large amount of tanks and bulldoze your way into the enemy base~ hAhaz=) you have to take control of POCs, which stands of point of control, and we got to guard, protect and defend it~
sounds easy? NO!
one of the most basic mobilation i'm using is pegasus, and it has certainly surprised quite a number of people in the game. high damage, high speed but low life. but if used properly, it can be quite a threat to quite a number of people~ heHee=P
so guys, whats ya waiting for? goto http://www.sgalaxy.com and download the game, NOW!!
went to school for an hour as sijie needed the diskdrive and the OOP lesson cannot be missed~ we're currently doing our OOP assignment and going to OOP classes means that i can copy the assignment! =X
okay, put it in nicer terms, discuss with my friends =)
i'm so into shattered galaxy~ its only my 5th day playing it and i'm still not-so-bored over it~ not bad for a guy who plays 1-3 hours of SG whose rank is now level 16, 16, 15, 16~
well, those that plays the game would understand what i'm talking about~ loLz=)
anyway, the game isn't that bad~ it trains my mind to think of tactics and loopholes to defeat the enemy. but of course, this game ain't a 1 man show game~ its a war game between 3 fractions in a planet. the main aim is to conquer the land and defeat each other~
just think never ending war~
the fun part is that, the game is so unpredicable. your allies maybe extremely strong in the beginning, but things may change towards the end of the battle~ there were battles where its almost a certain win, became a lost.
the best part is no other then when we're losing, at the last second, we win~ lolz=)
its not like any other war games like CnC, where you get an extremely large amount of tanks and bulldoze your way into the enemy base~ hAhaz=) you have to take control of POCs, which stands of point of control, and we got to guard, protect and defend it~
sounds easy? NO!
one of the most basic mobilation i'm using is pegasus, and it has certainly surprised quite a number of people in the game. high damage, high speed but low life. but if used properly, it can be quite a threat to quite a number of people~ heHee=P
so guys, whats ya waiting for? goto http://www.sgalaxy.com and download the game, NOW!!
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
finally!
i'm offically in a ministry! and that's security!! wOohOo!!
and, most of all, i'm starting this sunday!! 7.45am till 5.30pm? loLz=P
so, what do i need now?
i need to polish my leather boots, or get a new and comfortable pair, i need to look for a black long pant that suits me and i need a coat!
=D
i can't wait for sunday!
i'm offically in a ministry! and that's security!! wOohOo!!
and, most of all, i'm starting this sunday!! 7.45am till 5.30pm? loLz=P
so, what do i need now?
i need to polish my leather boots, or get a new and comfortable pair, i need to look for a black long pant that suits me and i need a coat!
=D
i can't wait for sunday!
boring tuesday~
PQS quiz was rather common sensical. but i certainly hope that i can pass it, else it would be terrible failing an IS module=P
stayed behind and did TVE project with felix and timothy. well, everything was settled in 30 minutes and we got most of the things covered already, but our lecturer wants us to go step by step, in case we mess up everything~ loLz=)
stopped over at bpcc and decided to return home and change to basketball gear.
regretted that decision i made, as it wasn't fun playing with a bunch of people who cries foul or gives you a black face whenever there's contact. sheesh~ if they don't like contact sports, why play basketball in the first place!?
anyway, i played like crap. my timing was totally off, so was my shooting. arGhz! we ended up seated there and watched the dragon dance train at the badminton court.
woah~ they're impressive man~ loads of patterns, styles and ideas. i guess that's one of the most creative performance i ever watched for dragon dance.
heh, guess whats on my face!?
SK-II WHITENING SOURCE CLEARSPOTS!!
wOohOo!!
PQS quiz was rather common sensical. but i certainly hope that i can pass it, else it would be terrible failing an IS module=P
stayed behind and did TVE project with felix and timothy. well, everything was settled in 30 minutes and we got most of the things covered already, but our lecturer wants us to go step by step, in case we mess up everything~ loLz=)
stopped over at bpcc and decided to return home and change to basketball gear.
regretted that decision i made, as it wasn't fun playing with a bunch of people who cries foul or gives you a black face whenever there's contact. sheesh~ if they don't like contact sports, why play basketball in the first place!?
anyway, i played like crap. my timing was totally off, so was my shooting. arGhz! we ended up seated there and watched the dragon dance train at the badminton court.
woah~ they're impressive man~ loads of patterns, styles and ideas. i guess that's one of the most creative performance i ever watched for dragon dance.
heh, guess whats on my face!?
SK-II WHITENING SOURCE CLEARSPOTS!!
wOohOo!!
Monday, September 06, 2004
monday blues~
boring monday~ the only interesting lesson was AT and for the first time in months, i attempted to complete the entire question myself. well, thank God it wasn't that difficult and sijie was helping me whenever i got stuck~ before you guys think that i've been copying homework, your wrong manz!
its practical! loLx=P
time flies before our eyes. on the way home, junwen and i were talking about the final exams approaching in 4 weeks time. then our 2nd sem would start in december, ending at january the next year. everything is so cramped and we just found out that our division games are 3 weeks from now!!
shouldn't they do it earlier so that we can enjoy without much stress? lolz
soon, i'll be in year 3, and serving the country after graduating. NSman get higher pays and better equipments. its also rumoured that training and stuffs would be reduced~ life's getting easiler or what? hahaZz=) but, the best news would be still - 84 batch DO NOT need to serve NS anymore!!
well, that reminds me of something.
charmaine gave me 21 missed calls just to wake me up, but i forgot that the phone was on silent mode. so, how did i wake up? i had a nightmare.
i dreamt that i was in greenridge sec, buying drinks and talking to some of my friends. then, as i walked to the study block, there was a loud explosion. the explosion came from the opposite block and when i heard the explosion, i could feel myself reacting even though i was asleep.
then, a second and third explosion occured.
on the third explosion, bits of glasses flew towards me and my leg was cut. i could FEEL the pain on my thighs and i woke up in shock. turned to look at the time, but noticed that my handphone's flashing.
with my usual morning voice, i answered and heard charmaine laughing at the other end~
somehow, i felt that the dream feels so real~ i could feel the pain and even though i was asleep, i knew that i jerked when i was shocked by the first explosion.
its kinda creepy eh.
i kept getting dreams today in class. whenever i dozed off, i would wake up in shock as though i was falling off or slipping off. it has never happened so frequently~
dreamy day eh? =P
boring monday~ the only interesting lesson was AT and for the first time in months, i attempted to complete the entire question myself. well, thank God it wasn't that difficult and sijie was helping me whenever i got stuck~ before you guys think that i've been copying homework, your wrong manz!
its practical! loLx=P
time flies before our eyes. on the way home, junwen and i were talking about the final exams approaching in 4 weeks time. then our 2nd sem would start in december, ending at january the next year. everything is so cramped and we just found out that our division games are 3 weeks from now!!
shouldn't they do it earlier so that we can enjoy without much stress? lolz
soon, i'll be in year 3, and serving the country after graduating. NSman get higher pays and better equipments. its also rumoured that training and stuffs would be reduced~ life's getting easiler or what? hahaZz=) but, the best news would be still - 84 batch DO NOT need to serve NS anymore!!
well, that reminds me of something.
charmaine gave me 21 missed calls just to wake me up, but i forgot that the phone was on silent mode. so, how did i wake up? i had a nightmare.
i dreamt that i was in greenridge sec, buying drinks and talking to some of my friends. then, as i walked to the study block, there was a loud explosion. the explosion came from the opposite block and when i heard the explosion, i could feel myself reacting even though i was asleep.
then, a second and third explosion occured.
on the third explosion, bits of glasses flew towards me and my leg was cut. i could FEEL the pain on my thighs and i woke up in shock. turned to look at the time, but noticed that my handphone's flashing.
with my usual morning voice, i answered and heard charmaine laughing at the other end~
somehow, i felt that the dream feels so real~ i could feel the pain and even though i was asleep, i knew that i jerked when i was shocked by the first explosion.
its kinda creepy eh.
i kept getting dreams today in class. whenever i dozed off, i would wake up in shock as though i was falling off or slipping off. it has never happened so frequently~
dreamy day eh? =P
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