haven been blogging for the past few days~ decided to stay home and stare at my computer for the entire day~

other then playing shattered galaxy, i would be bored to the core and even sometimes, playing shattered galaxy gets boring~ so, i would lie on my comfortable bed and snuggle under my blankie~

in other words, i would sleep=P

went for bible studies class and we were taught the art of reaching out to the lost~ well, there is a way that Jesus Himself used and its pretty good. well, of cause He's Christ, but when i gave it a really good thought about it, i realised that i've been unknowingly doing what was suggested in our bible study material.

stepping into others' lives.

i wouldn't say that i know a lot of people, even though my MSN contact list is maxed out. but, i do not chat with every single person in MSN. there are contacts whom i've no idea who they are and i'm usually chatting with the same bunch of people. which totals to less then 15?

i guess some people would know what i mean. but, whenever i chat with a person online and if that person is troubled, i'll try my very best to help and encourage that person. that's the first step - meeting their needs.

well, of course i do not have the ability to provide for their food and clothings, but what i always do is that i assure them that i'll always be there for them, no matter rain or shine and i always thank God that he placed so many experiences in me, be it my experiences or my friend's, but they have been such a great factor in encouraging my friends~

some friends would "leave" after they have "recovered". but there are friends that would continue building the relationship and i really thank God for them because they are the ones that i turn to when i'm in need. though not very often, i would speak my feelings, but when i can't contain it anymore, i'm very sure that they would be there for me.

well, back to the topic. i've shared the gospel with my friends and its definately not an easy task. the usual excuses would be - i'm not interested, i'm a freethinker, city harvest again!?, thanks for sharing but i think i don't have time to commit and there's always the anti-Christ.

is the word of God that hard to disgest?

for this year alone, i've bought more then 10 friends to church. 5 responded to the altar call, but i seldom see them in church now. the rest of them are neutral, i guess.

i do not see that as an achievement and something to be boasted about, but, really, there are many more people out there wanting to go to church and to accept Christ into their lives.

i was scrolling through my phonebook, thinking of who should i invite this time and whenever i stop at a particular name, i would think if that person is within my circle of influence. if that person is, i would message that particular person.

but that circle of influence seemed to have shrunk and when i scroll through the phonebook now, i seem to be skipping everyone's name. i would come up with crazy excuses why shouldn't i message that person and that really isn't healthy.

sometimes, i wonder who i am. i've been called as a soulmate by my friends. a soulmate, not someone who they want to marry, but someone who understands them well. i seem to be becoming everyone's soulmate recently. that, of course is something really exciting, but it can get pretty tiring.

i'm not saying that i'm tired of listening to everyone's problem, but i'm tired because there isn't anyone who i can physically run and talk to. i'm not a person who would open up to someone else if he/she approaches me.

i would open up to a person whom i really feel comfortable with, and most probably that would be my future wife? i guess i'm still a very traditional person, ain't quite a SNAG.

but, nonetheless, my life has just started and there's still a long journey ahead of me, till i meet Christ in Heaven. there's really nothing much to do now, cept to keep moving on and shining for Christ.