was doing my quiet time earlier, and it suddenly became a binding session. heh=)

love praying.

sometimes prayers can be really exciting, but there would be times when its really dry. when that happens, its usually because of a particular problem bugging inside our hearts that isn't submitted to God.

burdens and problems hold us back from seeing God's face and most of the time, God knows the problem, but when He shows it to us, we refuse to admit defeat. thats pride. yet we know that we need God more than we need anything.

so what do we do? we try to beat around the bush, hoping that God will still work after listening. but most of the time, He doesnt! He expects us to be straight forward and to confess that we made a mistake and thus sinned against Him.

only then He would be pleased and just to forgive and forget us of our sins.

you must be wondering why God is so troublesome and if He's really loving, why can't he just forgive everyone? well, the bible says that we are to be to honest and i'm sure that it also includes being honest with God.

we're all called to an intimate relationship with God. an intimate relationship is not treating God as a hourly friend, telling Him your requests and saying an Amen.

we have close friends and most of the time, we spend loads of time sharing and talking to our close friends. we do not talk about general topics with each other, but we talk about personal issues with each other; things that matter to us and each other.

intimacy with God is the same! though the word of God, His heart's desires are found. His word says that He desires for all to fellowship with Him and may all be saved. His powers are also shown in the bible - miracles of healings and deliverance from the enemies.

when God trusts you, God is able to use you and do wonderful miracles!! definitely the glory goes to Him and He's looking for a pure heart who's willing to seek His will.

how can all these happen without an intimate relationship with God?

i want to guard my heart, mind and to have a pure heart that seeks His face only. a heart thats after Jesus and a servant who God uses for His kingdom.